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I’ve been getting a few emails about ‘Monkey Pox’.

Even the lamest fiction writer couldn’t write a script as bad as this, and anyone would believe it.

I’m really hoping it’s so ridiculous, that even hardcore ‘Covid 19 believers’ will start to question what’s going on here, and finally wake up.

Because hope springs eternal!

In the meantime, for those still wavering between starting to believe that most of the ‘conspiracy theories’, ahem, on this site are actually rooted in cold, hard facts, and wanting to believe that our media, government and health ministries are good guys and only tell the truth and care about people – take a look at this:

https://www.nti.org/wp-content/uploads/2021/11/NTI_Paper_BIO-TTX_Final.pdf

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It’s from March 2021, and it runs through a ‘Monkey Pox Pandemic’ scenario.

Here’s a few screenshots:

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Note the dates, for when all this ‘Monkey Pox madness’ was meant to begin: May 15, 2022.

They are bang on cue!

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Are these people prophets, or what!

We know that prophecy has gone, except for remnants remaining in children and the mentally infirm, and here we see it with our own eyes.

You can find the NTI website, HERE.

It’s got a whole bunch of international people sitting on its board, including, of course, someone from the State of Israel, named Gideon Frank.

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I started looking at the Van Leer Group two weeks ago, when I was trying to track down more of the funding behind the so-called ‘Modern Orthodox’ movement that is really just a front for Frum-Reform agendas in the observant community.

Bernard Van Leer traces back to a bunch of Sabbatian-Frankists – fancy that!

HERE‘s their website – and take a particular look at Fay Twersky, HERE.

Screenshot:

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Bill Gates, Yad Hanadiv of the Rothschilds, all mixed up together with an institution that’s putting out reports like this:

The Precision Medicine Data Environment in Israel

What a CO-IN-CID-ENCE.

And isn’t it another enormous CO-INC-IDE-NCE, that the Israeli who sits on the board of NTI, who just happened to run an exercise for a ‘Monkey Pox Plandemic’ back in March 2021 – slated to start in May 2022 – also sits on the board of the Van Leer Group?

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Why should you care about all this?

If you take the time to read through the PDF on Precision Medicine Data, you’ll find lots of very interesting things, including the fact that Israel has decided to a) collect your genetic material ‘anonymously’, without your consent, and b) to even drop that ‘anonymous’ bit of the requirement, when it suits them to use your specific bio-information, explicitly connected to your name and identity:

From page 22:

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See that highlighted area at the top?

In plain English, it says that if the State of Israel decided that your personally-identifiable genetic information is ‘essential’ for the provision of a medical treatment or service, or for the ‘ongoing operation of a health organisation’ – they can use it WITHOUT YOUR INFORMED CONSENT.

Now, are you starting to understand why they’ve been pushing their weird swabs up everyone’s nose, the last two years? 

It’s to create a genome ‘database’ for their precision medicine venture, where they can pretty much use your identifiable DNA for ANY REASON THEY COME UP, without your informed consent.

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BTW, NTI was founded 20 years ago by Ted Turner and Sam Nunn.

This snippet from Wikipedia:

NTI was founded in 2001 by former U.S. Senator Sam Nunn and philanthropist Ted Turner. It serves as the Secretariat for the “Nuclear Security Project”, in cooperation with theHoover Institution at Stanford. Former Secretary of State George P. Shultz, former Secretary of Defense William J. Perry, former Secretary of State Henry A. Kissinger and Nunn (the “four horsemen of the nuclear apocalypse“) guide the project—an effort to encourage global action to reduce urgent nuclear dangers and build support for reducing reliance on nuclear weapons, ultimately ending them as a threat to the world.

Hey, Henry Kissinger is involved.

Phew. I am now totally reassured that everything these NTI guys are up to can only be for the broader good of humanity.

(Sarcasm = off.)

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So, what is this ‘Monkey Pox’ really all about?

(I mean, apart from giving them another excuse to try to push more lockdowns, social distancing, fear porn and nanotech GO injections mislabelled as ‘vaccines’?)

Here’s what the people at LaQuintaColumna think:

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I am currently reading an amazing book called ‘The Invisible Rainbow’ by Arthur Firstenberg.

Spend ten minutes listening to this, and you’ll start to really understand way more why ‘5…G’ and wifi, and electricity grids and telecommunications broadly, have been negatively impacting human health for the last 250 years.

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As always, TBC.

I am now going back to my break for another week, as I really need it.

But don’t get sucked into ‘Monkey Pox Madness’ this time around.

It’s exactly the same formula used to create ‘Covid 19 fear’, to launch their fake pandemic two years ago.

But this time, hopefully many more of us are wise to their game, and are starting to see that the real ‘pox on humanity’ are the evil people who rule us.

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Let’s learn more about these ‘Jewish-Christians’, and see how they’ve been shaping history behind the scenes.

(You can read Part 1 HERE.)

First, a note on the sources for this information.

Much of it has been gathered together in a book called ‘The Secret Legacy of Jesus: The Judaic Teachings That Passed From James the Just to the Founding Fathers’, written by Lutheran Minister and adjunct Professor of world religions at Penn State, Jeffrey Butz.

In turn, one of the main places where Butz got his info was from a work written by ‘Hebrew Christian’ Hugh Schonfield, called The History of Jewish Christianity, (1937).

You can read that HERE.

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Before we continue, I went to check out ‘Hugh Schonfield’ on geni, to see who he’s related to.

I hit the motherlode.

HERE is where you can see his profile on geni.

If you keep clicking back on his mother’s side, you get to a whole bunch of ‘Cohens’, ‘Boas’s’ and ‘Goldschmidts’.

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Because I’ve been eating and sleeping these family trees for two years, I can tell you that the ‘Boas’ family were very wealthy parnessim in Amsterdam; they were known Sabbateans – and they were also the supporters of the Goldschmidt bankers in London, and the ‘bad Baal Shem’ of London, Dr Samuel Chaim Falk.

Here’s the relevant snippet from THIS post:

Falk’s main financial backers in Amsterdam were the wealthy Sabbatean ‘Boas’ family – now conveniently scrubbed out of Jewish history (possibly because Frank’s second wife may have been a ‘Boas’.)

Falk’s main financial backers in London were the Goldschmidt banker-brothers, and he also hangs out with the ‘Chief Rabbi’ David Tebele Schiff.

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Falk is the guy who began the ‘Order of the Golden Dawn’, and who also encouraged the creation of a bunch more secret societies like the Asiatic Brotherhood – all practising black magic, and preaching a creed of ‘universalism’.

Here’s another pertinent snippet:

Falk spent the last 5 years of his life on developing a ‘Judeo-Christian Freemasonry’, where Jews wouldn’t be pressured to convert to Christianity.

It looks like this was the ‘Egyptian Rites Freemasonry’ that was later ‘marketed’, if you can call it that, by Falk’s protege Cagliostro (aka Joseph Balsamo from Italy, who may well have been another Sabian-Sabbatean, even before he met Falk.)….

Remember, Frank was the son-in-law of ‘Dr Falk’, and the putative father of Falk’s six grand-daughters – all of whom married back into the ‘orthodox’ Jewish community of secret Sabbateans….

Defacto, Falk created a ‘new mystical religion, which would…transcend all sectarian divisions.”

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OK, let’s get back to ‘Hebrew Christian’ Hugh Schonfield’s family tree.

If you trace it back, you see that he descends from the ‘who’s who’ of court Jews and Sabbatean-Frankists from the last 400 years, who I ‘ve been writing about here for months.

Gluckel of Hameln is in there; there are ‘Schwabs’ in there; there are tons of ‘Goldschmidts‘ and ‘Bacharachs’ in there, there are ‘Spiras’ and ‘Hildesheimers‘ in there.

And there are also ‘Rothschilds’ in there – the real family tree, not all the fakes ones I’ve been ploughing through the last few months.

If you go HERE, and click ‘direct descendants’ mode on geni, it will show you how the original surname of the Rothschild family was BACHARACH.

It will also show you that the Rothschild bankers ‘descend’ from the famous court Jew, Josel of Rosheim (Loanz).

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We came across ‘Josel of Rosheim’ recently on the blog, here:

Akiva of Salonica, Ephraim Fishel, and ‘Christian Jews’

Snippet from there:

We know ‘Hayyim Samuel Jacob Falk’ well.

He’s the demon-commanding, black-magic practising, Order of the Golden Dawn-founding father-in-law of false messiah Jacob Frank….

And ‘Eliyahu the Baal Shem of Worms’ – aka Eliyahu Loanz – is also related to another famous tax-collecting Court Jew, namely Josel of Rosheim.

(Josel of Rosheim’s family were also accused of performing satanic ritual murders.… All this is starting to hit very close to home, isn’t it?)

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This is the same family that ‘the Rothschilds’ descend from.

This is the same family that ‘Hebrew Christian’ Hugh Schonfield descends from.

And Hugh Schonfield is the guy who wrote a book explaining the true history of ‘Jewish Christians’, over the last 2,000 years.

You see how all this hangs together more and more, the more facts we uncover?

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So now, let’s quote a little from Hugh Schonfield’s book, before I go back into ‘summing up Jewish-Christian history’ mode.

Gentile Christianity has been intelligibly enough preoccupied with its own rise to power and influence, and in the first flush of that power it sought by anathema, suppression and wholesale destruction of documents to overthrow the witness of Jewish Christianity…. Far from becoming a futile anachronism, its spirit and human activity has persisted until the present day, and is even now undergoing a revival on a scale unknown since apostolic times.

Jewish Christianity has always existed to supply that of which the Church has stood in need — the Messianic vision…. if the true preaching of the Kingdom of God had been carried out according to the Gospel injunction, the horrors of warfare would have long since ceased between so-called Christian countries. The only diplomatic corps that Europe would require would be “ambassadors for Christ.”

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Plain English: ‘Jewish Christianity’ has always existed, despite the persecution of the Catholic Church, and it’s follower consider it to be the ‘authentic’ version of xtianity.

And the guy who is writing its history is descended from all those ‘court Jews’ with strange xtian links, and ties to other false messiahs like Shabtai Tzvi / SHACH and Jacob Frank, who in turn have been clearly linked to the Freemasons and other secret societies on this blog.

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Now, it’s time to fill in a bit more ‘Jewish-Christian’ history.

The following outline follows that set out in Butz’s book.

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In 313 CE, Constantine’s ‘Edict of Milan’ sets the scene to start treating ‘mainstream’ – i.e. gentile / pagan – xtianity more kindly.

At the same time, that means that the Jewish-Christian groups like the Ebionites, and the ‘breakaway’, more gnostic Elkecaites, start to be persecuted very seriously, to stamp out their ‘heresy’.

One Elkecaite who has a Jewish father and Persian mother, Mani, moves up to the more religiously tolerant Sassanid empire of the Persians, and creates another version of so-called ‘Jewish-xtianity’ but with a way more pronounced, devil-worshipping Gnostic creed.

This becomes known as ‘Manicheanism’ – and before Islam shows up, is a serious rival to the Catholic and Byzantine churches, in terms of how many adherents it has.

Butz writes on page 256 that it was:

‘likely that the Desposyni [i.e. Jesus’ blood relatives] were leaders of the Elkesaites in Mesopotamia’, and in contact with Mani.

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Conventional history says all these Jewish-xtian groups including the Ebionites and Elkecaites ‘disappear’.

But, there are traces of the Ebionites in Saudi Arabia still, even in the 11th and 12th centuries.

And the xtian-gnostic groups who don’t believe that Yoshki was fully divine are said to have ‘Arian tendencies’.

Take note of that term: Arian.

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In the meantime, these evolving Jewish-xtian groups start to organise themselves more like a ‘secret society’, thanks in part to all the persecution.

The Manicheans, for example, now divide into the elite ‘Elect’ – who know all the secrets – and the ‘Listeners’.

The ‘Elect’ are:

‘[E]ntrusted with the furthering of Mani’s mission, and they were bound to a strict ascetism including vegetarianism and celibacy’.

(Just to confuse us all more, sometimes these Manicheans are also known as ‘Mandeans’, and also as ‘Sabians’.)

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In the meantime, many of these underground Jewish-xtians seem to migrate further North, particularly settling in the South of France.

Butz writes that there is a Jewish state in that area at that time, called ‘Septimania’.

Personally, this whole idea needs a lot of double-checking, going forward, because this is exactly the same period of time that ‘Khazaria’ had a lot of renegade (Sadducee / Karaite) Jews from Babylonia move up, as we covered in previous posts HERE and HERE and HERE.

So either the same sort of thing happened twice, in both ‘Septimania’ and ‘Khazar’, or Septimania is being used as a historical decoy.

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Point is, the ‘Jewish-xtians’ were still going strong.

And over the next few centuries, Manicheanism (the more gnostic version of ‘Jewish-Christianity) starts to ‘morph’ again, into three specific movements, called:

The PAULICIANS – based out of Armenia, around the 6th century CE.

The MESSALIANS (also known as Euchites) – based in and around Mesopotamia, from the 4th century on

The BOGOMILS – began around the 10th century, and quickly spread throughout much of Europe.

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This snippet is from HERE:

Bogomilism was a Christian neo-Gnostic or dualist sect founded in the First Bulgarian Empire by the priest Bogomil during the reign of Tsar Peter I in the 10th century….

The Bogomils called for a return to what they considered to be early spiritual teaching, rejecting the ecclesiastical hierarchy.

Their primary political tendencies were resistance to the state and church authorities. This helped the movement spread quickly in the Balkans, gradually expanding throughout the Byzantine Empire and later reaching Kievan Rus’, Bosnia, Dalmatia, Serbia, Italy, and France (Cathars).

They did not use the Christian cross, nor build churches, as they revered their [own bodies] and considered their body to be the temple. This gave rise to many forms of practice to cleanse oneself through purging, fasting, celebrating and dancing.

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Meanwhile, this snippet from HERE shows how more of the evil practices that came to be the hallmarks of these devil-worshipping ‘Jewish-Christian’ sects were being rumoured, even a thousand years ago:

 Michael Psellos, a Byzantine monk, accused Bogomils and Euchites of orgiastic practices such as incest and homosexuality.

Furthermore, he argued that children born from these promiscuous activities were brought before a Satanic assembly after eight days, offered up to Satan and then cannibalistically eaten…. Euthymios Zigabenos is another source for these accusations.

The idea of these unholy acts can be tracked back to alleged practices of certain Gnostic sects.

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Jacob Frank was hanging out with some Bogomils in Podolia / Ukraine.

This snippet comes from a post called ‘False Messiahs’:

  • The ancient sect of Jewish-Gnostic-Sabians were known to be present and active in the Ukraine / Podolia, at the time that “Frankism” really took off.

“Has’sidism and Frankism… belong to the long chain of heretic sects that goes back to the early Christians and the Gnostics…..from that remote corner of eastern Europe, the forest and mountain country of eastern Galicia and the adjoining Ukraine which saw the last offsprings of gnostic Manicheism and the Bogomils.

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There is so much to unpick and sort here, the information can become overwhelming – even for me!

So for the rest of this post, let’s just focus on one area where these underground ‘Jewish-xtian-gnostic’ groups really took off: Northern Italy, and the South of France.

In these areas, the Bogomils influenced a new movement called the ‘CATHARS’, which suddenly appeared out of nowhere in the 11th century.

This snippet comes from HERE:

As Dualists, Cathars believed in two principles, a good god and his evil adversary (much like God and Satan of mainstream Christianity).

The good principle had created everything immaterial (good, permanent, immutable) while the bad principle had created everything material (bad, temporary, perishable).

Cathars called themselves simply Christians; their neighbours distinguished them as “Good Christians”. The Catholic Church called them Albigenses, or less frequently. Cathars.

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Before we go on, I want to underline that ‘Good xtian’ thing, because the Cathars called themselves ‘Bon hommes’.

The Ebionites before them called themselves ‘Tobim’, or tovim – good.

And here’s one of those weird hook-ups that kind of makes a very big point, in a very simple way.

On geni, you see that the progenitor of the Goldschmidts and the Rothschilds (and Hugh Schonfield’s ancestor….) is called ‘Joseph de Bonne’ – ‘Joseph the good’. And that he hails from France – the same region as the Cathars.

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But here is where we see he has a ‘double identify’:

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In this version, Joseph de Bonne is called ‘Joseph HaLevy Goldschmidt Stadthagen’.

And that family tree leads us straight to ‘Jewish rabbinic royalty’, plus a whole bunch more court Jews, including the Oppenheimers.

(I will be unpicking this family tree for months….)

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Back to the Cathars.

Here’s another telling snippet about what this Jewish-Christian-Gnostic group actually believed:

[The Cathars] largely regarded men and women as equals, and had no doctrinal objection to contraceptioneuthanasia or suicide. In some respects the Cathar and Catholic Churches were polar opposites. For example the Cathar Church taught that all non-procreative sex was better than any procreative sex. The Catholic Church taught – as it still teaches – exactly the opposite.

Following their tenet, Catholics concluded that masturbation was a far greater sin than rape (as mediaeval penitentials confirm). Following their principles, Cathars could deduce that sexual intercourse between man and wife was more culpable than homosexual sex.

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Does any of this sound familiar?

Most of the nobles and aristocracy in the South of France become Cathars in the 11th and 12th century.

And most of the people.

So much so, that the Catholic Church was almost totally replaced. Pope Innocent III doesn’t like that – at all! – so he organises a crusade against the Cathars in the South of France, which comes to be known as the Albigensian Crusade.

It began in 1209, lasted 20 years – and killed a million people.

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Who else is hanging out in ‘Cathar France’ at this point?

  1. The Knights Templar
  2. The Knights Hospitaller

These groups don’t participate in the crusade against the ‘Cathars’.

Interestingly, this is also the same time and place where we find RASHI (1040-1105 CE), and his group of scholars.

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Butz claims that RASHI was a frequent and welcome guest at Count Hugo De Payens Court, in Troyes.

That’s a claim that needs more double-checking.

But what IS true, is that Hugo de Payens (1070-1136) was the first Grand Master of the Knights Templar, who set up shop in the Holy Land.

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And so we see there is a lot of cross-over with these ‘Jewish-Christian-Gnostics’, and Eretz Yisrael.

In his book, Butz comments on the fact that the Knights Templar effectively become the first ‘multinational corporation’ in the World, and also set up the first real international banking system.

Honestly, I need to do a whole separate post about ‘Knights Templars’ and modern-day freemasonry, because there’s a lot of information to consider.

But let’s sum up the main points, from this post.

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RECAP:

  • Hugh Schonfield is a ‘Hebrew Christian’, who writes The History of Jewish Christianity, in 1937.
  • He’s also related to the Boas, Cohen and Goldschmidt families, known to be a) court Jews, parnassim and b) wealthy supporters of Shabtai Tzvi, Dr Samuel Chaim Falk, and Jacob Frank.
  • Gnostic-Jewish-Christianity has been going on for the last 2,000 years, and particularly popped up again in France in the 11th and 12th century, as part of the ‘Cathars’ movement, that was put down by the Catholic Church.
  • The Knights Templars also began in France, at the same time that the Cathars was going strong.
  • Meanwhile, the Gnostic-Jewish-Christian ‘Bogomils’ had a very strong presence in Kievan-Rus – what is today known as Ukraine – amongst other places.
  • False messiah Jacob Frank was apparently in touch with these ‘Bogomils’ in Podolia.
  • So many of the ‘court Jews’, including the Rothschilds, appear to be connected to these ‘Jewish-Christian’ groups, who maintained a belief in Yoshki for the last 2,000 years, whilst trying to stay ‘culturally Jewish’.
  • The movement of Mani in the 4th century is when the ‘Jewish-Christian’ group called the Elkecaites really started to incorporate more devil-worshipping, ‘dualistic’ beliefs, that basically state there is a ‘good God’ and a ‘bad God’, chas v’halila, and that the ‘bad God’ is the one who created the material world.
  • This Gnostic belief system also teaches that ‘releasing’ people from their human body (i.e. killing them….) is the biggest kindest you can do for someone, and the way to achieve spiritual ‘Nirvana’.
  • So, instead of blaming the Jews for all the world’s ills, all the anti-semites out there can hopefully now start to understand that it is ‘believers in Christ’ who are really causing so much of the evil in the world, and mamash worshipping the devil. (A person can hope….)

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There is still so much to write, not least about how all this ties in with people like Jonathan Eybshutz, and his censorship of the Talmud and gnostic-xtian tendencies.

And also, how it connects back to Dr Falk, and his ‘Order of the Golden Dawn’.

And also, how the Armenian church fits into this – with it’s ‘all seeing eye’ symbolism and connection to the Old City of Jerusalem, and the Templars, and the Armenian convert who lived in Jerusalem at the time of Yoshki, etc, Queen Helene of Adiabene.

And last but not least, where the whole question of ‘Christian Zionism’ and the State of Israel fit into this picture.

I guess we’ll get to all that in due course.

But in the next post, I want to go back to the beginning, to see if we can get a clearer picture of when Yoshki was actually alive, and what else was happening in the Jewish world, at that time.

I think we’ll learn some very interesting things.

TBC

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What’s going on right now is a massive opportunity for the Jewish community to finally fix the sin of ‘sinat chinam’.

And God is inviting each of us to do a bit of that ‘fixing’ in our own back yard.

Now that we know that ‘yichus’ actually has nothing to do with how easy or hard we find it to serve Hashem, really – in both directions – that  means that the whole shebang actually boils down to this:

Free choice, and working on our own bad middot.

I.e. whoever we are, there is still everything to play for.

And whoever we are, there are still choices that we ourselves can make, to really build the world, work on our own bad middot and rebuild the Temple – in our hearts.

And no-one is excluded from this work, not even ‘the biggest tzaddikim’, who have far more responsibility than us average Joes, for setting an example, in the area of cultivating true humility, and acknowledging their own bad middot.

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Baruch Hashem, Rav Eliezer Berland is a paradigm for this ‘real’ approach to avodat Hashem.

And Rabbenu, Rebbe Nachman, set the example for this, too, when he encouraged his student Rav Natan to write books like Chayei Moharan that really depicted Rabbenu’s struggles to work on himself, and overcome his own bad middot, and to uproot his ta’avot – lusts.

That was one of the biggest selling points of Breslov for me, all those years ago, that finally, I had a Tzaddik who I could relate to as a real human being – and who could also relate to me, and my struggles.

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I had a lot of issues with bad depressions and feelings of totally yeoush, before I hit Breslov.

And then, I started reading about how Rabbenu sometimes also had days when he despaired, and couldn’t carry on talking to God because of it…. but how he always picked himself up, broke through that yeoush and returned to Hashem.

Rabbenu had been there before me – and he charted the way to get out of all the bad middot, and the sadness, and the despair and all the other issues that prevent us from serving Hashem and building the world by refining our own characters.

And that information forms the real foundation of his teachings.

And Rav Berland is carrying on where Rabbenu left off.

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Below, I’m going to bring a translated excerpt of R’ Natan’s Likutei Halachot, which lays out some very important ideas about ‘free choice’, in connection with the True Tzaddikim and overcoming the Erev Rav.

Before I do that, tho, I want to tell you about a bar mitzvah I went to yesterday, in a penthouse overlooking the beach in the Gush Dan area.

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We have close family who made aliya last year, and it was their son’s barmitzvah.

Our family members are not ‘frum’, and down the years, we have had massive clashes and blow-ups around just about every family gathering you can imagine, beginning with my own wedding, and then snaking through a bunch of other weddings, funerals, stone settings – and even, my ‘good bye’ party, which my in-laws decided to hold in the 9 days, totally against my wishes.

Long story short, most of these ‘family gatherings’ have resulted in the sort of acrimony and bitterness that would make what happened with Kamtza and Bar Kamtza look like child’s play.

And so…. the barmitzvah appeared on the horizon.

But this time, things were totally different.

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Over the last few years, me and my husband have paid innumerable pidyonot to the Rav, on behalf of ourselves and other family members, to try to ‘heal’ so much of what has gone wrong.

Those pidyons have worked in big and small ways – to the point that even our ‘unreligious’ family members have paid a pidyon or two, now, as well.

And yesterday, we could all see the effect of what happens when you connect to the True Tzaddikim, and also make an effort to identify and work on your own bad middot.

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The barmitzvah and party were held in the Omer, at the time when you’re not meant to attend gatherings with live music.

The party was a ‘cocktail party’ – in every since of the word! – and totally not the sort of thing that me and my husband like, or are suited to.

In the past, my yetzer would have been working overtime, giving me justifications for why we shouldn’t go, why we definitely shouldn’t dance, why we definitely shouldn’t approve of all the OTT gashmius and untznius behavior, etc.

This time, I had one clear message in  my head:

This is family, and family are celebrating a big milestone in their son’s life, and instead of thinking about yourself, the whole time, Rivka, in your super-duper-holy-way, why don’t you think about what you can do for them, and the barmitzvah boy, instead?

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And this insight mamash changed the whole picture.

Instead of sitting in the corner dissing everything and everyone the whole night, and feeling holier-than-thou, I decided I’m going to do my best to really celebrate that barmitzvah with our extended family, even though we were way out of our comfort zone.

Because what’s the point of coming, just to sit in a corner with a sour face and making my hosts feel bad about themselves, and their celebration – and us?

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It’s only today, the morning after, that I realised just how ‘big a deal’ yesterday was – because make no mistake, it was still very hard not to fall back into the mindset of ‘Kamtza and Bar Kamtza’, while we were there.

Some close friend of the hosts from the UK stuck his hand out to me to shake when we were introduced, and I saw the look of panic flit across my brother-in-law’s face, because in the past, I have flat-out refused to shake hands with people back in the home country, no matter how embarrassed that made them.

This time – I shook hands.

And chalked it up to mesirut nefesh for shalom bayit.

And I still got overwhelmed by things like the saxophone-playing young woman with pink hair and tight black leather, and indulged in a bit of ‘quiet tutting’ before I got over myself again, and just found somewhere else to go and sit, where I didn’t have to eyeball her.

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In these small, myriad ways, me and my husband did our bit, to fix the sin of sinat chinam.

And on the other side of the equation, my sister-in-law did her bit, too, by accepting us totally as we were – with payot, headscarves and totally NO cocktail dress, and with strictly kosher food, and with an understanding that we should come as we were, with no other instructions about how to behave or dress.

It’s huge.

As I type these words, I really feel how ‘huge’ it was, yesterday, because there has barely been a family get-together that has no resulted in all out, acrimonious warfare for 25 years, since my husband first got ‘frum’.

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And now, here’s Rav Natan, writing about the Erev Rav, and free choice, and how we can really only uncover that ‘free choice’ to overcome our own bad middot when we’re connected to the True Tzaddikim.

Enjoy!

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Likutei Halachot – The Laws of Blessings on Smell and Blessings of Thanks (4, 33)

This is an aspect of what we have seen, something confusing and strange, from which everyone is astounded. That after the Nation of Israel merited to receive the Torah, with such wonderous signs. And everyone merited ruach hakodesh etc. After all this, to hear that they acted in such a way, to sin by going after the golden calf…

And even though it wasn’t the Nation of Israel who did this, but rather the Erev Rav, afterwards some of the Nation of Israel did sin.

Nonetheless, even the few of the few who made this mistake, what was going on with them?

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And even on the Erev Rav themselves there is still a difficulty, because even the Erev Rav had a huge spiritual awareness, as is apparent from the writings of the Arizal.

And certainly, even in them there was some small good, since they followed Moshe out of Egypt and threw away their families and households, and wanted to convert, since they saw tremendous signs and wonders from Moshe Rabbenu in Egypt.

And after all of this, after all the tremendous wonders that they saw with their own eyes in Egypt, and the splitting of the Sea and the war with Amalek and the Giving of the Torah with such tremendous signs and wonders, like its written ‘the great signs which you saw with your eyes, and the signs and wonders, etc.’

And after all this to do such an act, to make a calf for themselves as a god…[!?]

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But, from all this, each of us can understand just how much free choice we all have, and just how much the Sitra Achra can overcome a person every day, because Hashem Who is Blessed created everything for the sake of free choice, because everything was created for the sake of man. Not for the sake of the angels.

And so too, the opposite, not for the sake of the animals or the plants, etc.

Simply, everything was made for the sake of man, from the beginning to end.

And the main thing is that man has free choice, because it is for this which is his work which is of so great importance, far more than the work of the angels, since they do not have free choice, and a man does have free choice. And it was for this that Hashem created everything, from start to finish.

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So, it turns out that everything was created for the sake of free choice, and therefore free choice has great power.

So much so, that Hashem Himself, so to speak, is not able to cancel the free choice without cancelling the world.

Like our sages said, ‘everything is in the hands of heaven, except for the Fear of Heaven’.

And, on account of the greatness of free choice, for which everything was created, therefore the Sitra Achra has the power to overcome each time anew with all types of new confusions and ways to lead astray, such that he had the power to overcome Israel after the Giving of the Torah, so that they would create the golden calf.

And all of this happened because Moshe Rabbenu was absent from them and wasn’t among them.

So, the Satan confused the world until the made the golden calf, like it says there in the parasha, ‘and the people saw that Moshe was delayed…etc.’, [and they said] ‘come let us make for ourselves a god’, ‘because this man, Moshe, we don’t know what has become of him.’

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So, it turns out that the main way the Satan overcame them was by hiding Moshe from them, and placing in their hearts the thought that Moshe had now disappeared.

Therefore, he managed to persuade them to do this thing, because on that day the Sitra Achra so powerfully overcame them, that no-one had the power to nullify him, except for Moshe if he had been there.

And this is what it means when it says, ‘and the people saw that Moshe was delayed.’

And our sages explained this [that the word ‘boshesh’ delayed] can be read as ‘ba-shesh’ [the sixth hour came], that it was a cloudy day etc. [ie, that the people thought the day had already passed and Moshe, who had promised to return that day, did not arrive.] That the Satan confused the world so much, such that this day was destined for calamity. And, specifically, at that time, after the six[th hour] had come.

And it was a cloudy day, and so specifically then the Satan had the power to overcome with confusion and heresy like this.

Specifically, on that day and at that time. So much so, that no one had the power to nullify him with anything, except for Moshe Rabbenu himself, who was the Tzadik of that generation.

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And, since Moshe was at that time in Heaven, therefore the Satan succeeded at that time.

But, as soon as Moshe came down from the mountain, he subdued him and smashed [the tablets] and nullified the golden calf.

And he went back and received the second set of tablets. And returned to strengthen their emunah. But, even then, it was all in the power of the remainder of the impression of the foundations of emunah which remained engraved in the heart of Israel from the Giving of the Torah.

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At the time of Receiving the First Tablets, because on the basis of this foundation of emunah, each and every Tzadik has the power in his generation to clarify to Israel the holy emunah, because on account of this foundation of emunah the Nation of Israel in each generation merit to come close to the True Tzadik, to request and to search for him until they find him.

And like we described above, therefore we need to make an effort to come close to the Tzadik of the generation specifically, so that we will merit that he clarifies for us the holy emunah each time, according to the day and the hour.

Because, even though at the time of the Giving of the Torah, Israel merited emunah through ruach hakodesh, as we described earlier.

And so too, through the Tzadikim and the prophets in each generation, who clarified the emunah each time more and more.

Nevertheless, we ourselves need in this generation to come close to the True Tzadik of this generation, in order that he can clarify for us the emunah according to the current period and time.

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Ad kan.

Without a connection to the True Tzaddikim, the ‘Erev Rav’ in our midst will overwhelm us, confuse us and rule us, however ‘holy’ and sincere we ourselves might be.

Because only the ‘Moshe Rabbenu’ of the generation has the power to take them on, and destroy them.

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There seems to be a lot of overlap with snake venom, and the symptoms of both ‘Covid 19’ and the Covid 19 shots.

Remember, there is nothing new under the sun.

Go back and read this post:

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Then watch this below, an expose from the Stew Peters show just released yesterday:

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It contains a lot of information that seems to be credible, at least at this stage, and worthy of more investigation.

And it’s connected to what I was musing on last week about the green dust in Jerusalem that seems to have the same colour as the powerful toxin Deadly Nightshade.

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Here’s a screenshot, about what compounds protect against snake venom poisoning:

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(Many Israelis smoke like chimneys…. that could also start to explain why super-vaccinated Israel has comparably way less death and destruction going on from these Covid shots, then many other countries were smoking is not as socially acceptable, these days….)

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That Stew Peters show has a lot of information that can be verified independently.

I’m not saying it’s 100% – for sure, there is more to discover here, more to figure out and more to learn.

But once you understand these people are one trick ponies, it becomes far more credible that they will just use modern technology to keep pulling the same tried-and-tested stunt on the world’s population, over and over again.

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Dr Brian Ardis, in the expose, is talking about poison from the King Cobra, amongst other things.

Remember which nation just lurved that snake, here’s a reminder:

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The ancient Egyptians venerated the cobra, and included it on a lot of their ritualistic stuff, including the ‘Blue Crown’, where it was called the ‘Uraeus’.

Here’s a snippet about that Blue Crown Uraeus-Cobra, from Wikipedia:

[S]ome scholars think that the crown was also meant to evoke the divine power of the pharaoh, and was thereby worn to religiously situate kings as manifestations of gods on earth.[

As we are heading into Pesach in a few days time, let’s be clear the timing of all this is not an accident.

We are still fighting that same baby-slaughtering, Jew-hating, idol-worshipping evil of old, and we are still slaves to that incredibly evil culture of ancient Egypt – updated for our times.

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Poisoning the wells.

Again.

Mamash.

But this time, it looks like they aren’t going to get away with it.

And this Pesach, Bezrat Hashem, we will finally break free from this Egyptian ‘enslavement’ once and for all.

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Two days’ ago, a bunch of ‘green dust’ fell all over Jerusalem again.

Just before the first wave of ‘Covid 19’ started up two years ago, I saw a lot of that ‘green dust’ all over the place.

At the time, I thought it was just spring pollen.

Now, with all the information about graphene oxide, smart dust, deliberately toxic ‘chem trails’ sprayed all over the place…

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I went out to check if that green dust in Jerusalem is magnetic.

It isn’t.

Maybe, it’s just pollen after all?

That’s what my husband said. That’s what I started to think myself, again.

But then….

Since when does ‘pollen’ only fall from the sky during a hazy heatwave?

Really?

How does that work?

I’m putting this out there, and if readers can point me in the direction of some factual information that explains how this ‘pollen’ only coats my car, windows and furniture on one or two specific days a year, I am really interested in seeing that.

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In the meantime….

My family has not been feeling so well, the last two days.

Sure, we can blame it on the ‘change of weather’, where it went from being super cold for Jerusalem – 5 degrees – to now super hot, up in the low 30s.

Maybe that’s true.

Maybe that’s the only reason I started to feel a bit pukey, and I’m feeling weirdly ‘tired’ at the moment, with my half-head migraine that worsens when I sit on the internet too long.

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Or maybe, that green dust was more than just pollen, and it combined with another dose of 5…G radiation from all the towers now up all over the place in Jerusalem, to start us off on the next wave of ‘Covid 19’.

I guess at some point, with God’s help, we’ll figure that out.

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In the meantime, one of my kids sent me links to two series (only in Hebrew) that are making a big stir in Israeli society.

Series one was about families where the kid made teshuva, adopted a religious lifestyle – and so the connection with the parents broke.

Series two is about kids who ‘went off the derech’, and the connection with the parents broke.

In some cases, it’s the kids who broke the connection, in others, it’s the parents.

But the whole series is about trying to get these kids and parents speaking again, and loving each other again, even though they are on very different paths.

Here’s the link:

(If you’re not in Israel, you’ll need an Israeli VPN to view it)

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UPDATE:

This version has English subtitles:

https://www.kan.org.il/page.aspx?landingpageid=1209

It’s not at all shmirat eynayim friendly.

But I watched the first two episodes of the second series with one of my kids, and we both cried and had a big hug.

Kids are so very precious, even when they aren’t walking the same path that we are.

And parents are also so very precious, even when they don’t understand us and did a lot to mess us up and hurt us.

Strange to say, watching this did more ‘internal Pesach cleaning’ for me than just about anything else, at the moment.

God wants us to love each other, (sometimes sensibly, and still maintaining a distance…) even when that’s hard.

But removing all the ego, self-righteous anger and victim mentality that’s blocking that from happening is really, really hard.

Which is why we have ‘Pesach’.

To search for all those chametz-bad-middot still hiding out, over a few weeks even, and to try to sweep them away.

And now, back to cleaning the fridge.

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PS: I’m hearing from a few readers that my site is ‘blocking them’ from commenting.

That’s one of the ways the censorship happens, and there’s not much I can do to stop it.

If you really have a comment you want up, put it in the contact form on the site with the name you want it attributed to, and I’ll post it up from my side.

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This is a translated excerpt of a shiur given by Rav Berland a couple of weeks ago.

It really helped me to shift my perspective into one of having more emuna again, after dealing with that horrible story of the 108 small, frum children repeatedly kidnapped from Jerusalem and assaulted in horrible ways – while the police here continue to totally cover it all up.

BH, I will translate more snippets from the Rav this week, and he’s saying a lot of things that are giving some much deeper insights into what is really going on at the moment.

In the meantime, here it is, and I hope it gives you chizzuk, too.

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Words from the Rav on the Parsha

It’s like now, we read a story that occurred in the Shoah, that a grandfather said to his grandson, either you will be a Jew, or you’ll die. I don’t want you to be a goy.

He – the grandson – was placed with a priest, and the grandfather made a condition with the priest that under no circumstance should he be forced to become a christian. He agreed this with the priest, that he should protect his grandson from the Nazis, on condition that he wouldn’t missionize him.

Because that grandfather had saved the priest’s life when he fell in some pit with his wagon. There, in chutz l’aretz, everyone was falling into swamps and pits. (And so to show his gratitude, the priest agreed to save his grandson from the Nazis.)

In [the book] Kivsha Hashachora, he brings down [this story.] I read it, with the Rabbanit.

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Long story short, he recounts how one person put his child with the Priest, and how he told him, if the Priest wants to baptise you, go and kill yourself, go and commit suicide. Jump from the window, and die.

[And in addition to this] he also made a condition with the Priest, that he wouldn’t baptise him. Ultimately, the Priest died after two years, so he [the grandson] ran away to the forests, exactly when the Shoah began in Poland, on the 17th of Elul.

After that, there were more pogroms, after this on the 25th of Av there was a pogrom, it was a year where they were doing pogroms without stopping.

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This captain [in the Russian army] who saw how the Tzion exploded, he came to Poland with the army.

He was a Breslover. He was in the KGB’s Yevetskiya. He was going to be the biggest commander, but in the end he said that he was going to make teshuva, and that he’s going to go now and conquer Uman.

The first thing is to capture Uman, the first thing, everyone travels to Uman. Tonight, everyone is travelling to Uman, this is the first thing.

They fought precisely right next to [Rebbe Nachman’s] Tzion – the Germans and the Russians. And he [i.e. the captain] saw how the Tzion exploded, and even, which shell exploded it. He saw it with his own eyes.

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After that, he got to Poland with the whole army, and he went into the beit knesset there.

He was still a bachor (young man). He got there with 10 falafel (Israeli slang for the shoulder epaulets that show an officer’s rank) on his shoulders,

He was a captain – they thought the KGB had come. This was the evening of Kol Nidre, everyone was petrified, they didn’t know whether they should just run away. He said: Don’t run away! I myself am also a Jew!

He saw how everyone was broken, and how they were so overwhelmed with fear, they couldn’t even pray.

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He asked them: Who are you afraid of? Are you scared of me? You have nothing to fear! I’m not the KGB, I’m just a captain who is chasing after Nazis.

They said to him: No, tomorrow they are going to come and kill everyone! They are saying that tomorrow there will be pogroms, and they are going to kill all of the Jews. They already announced it! There is no escape, there is nowhere to run to.

He said: What, what is this ‘pogrom’? Who is going to do this pogrom?

They answered: All the goyim (non-Jews), all the Poles, all the hevra’men, all the gangsters of the city.

He replied, ain’t going to happen! I’m now going to stand watch over you!

He stood on the roof and saved everyone. He didn’t leave a trace of them [the sonei Israel] Maybe they went to Gan Eden, I’m not entirely sure. Maybe [they went] to Mars. It needs to be clarified.

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In any case, we are telling the story [of a Jew who left his child with a Priest], and he told him, if the Priest wants to baptise you, jump off the roof! Commit suicide! Take poison!

“It’s better that you die as a Jew, instead of being a non-Jewish young man!”

And this Priest kept his word, and he didn’t convert him. And when the Priest died, he didn’t have what else to do. He said that he was the son of [the Priest’s] sister, and that he had to go back.

He was pale, and he had blond hair. When the Nazis passed next to him, they used to hug him and kiss him, because they thought he was a German boy. He couldn’t stand that. He knew they were murderers, the people who had killed his grandfather and his mother, and his family.

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One day, he went next to the fence – the wall bordering the ghetto. And he heard some girl crying out, maybe, you have some food? I’ve already been here for a few days, with no food.

He heard the girl crying, and he ran home, (took some apples and threw them to her.) He did like this for five days, then went and told the Jewish partisans that there was some girl hiding out by the fence. He didn’t know how she looked, but he knew that each time she was catching the apples.

She yelled at him, throw something, some food! She also didn’t know who was doing the throwing. She didn’t know if it was a Nazi, some ‘Nazi-Chassid’ from the nations of the world, some Pole. Whoever it was who saving her life, she didn’t know. She was a child aged 10.

Her uncle had hidden her under the bushes, next to the wall.

So, the boy called the Jewish partisans, and then he climbed over the wall and grabbed hold of her – and the Nazis didn’t see. Maybe, it was dark. He found her in the bushes and took her away to the forests – for three years. There was another three or four years, until the end of the war. So they brought her to the forest.

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After she grew up in the forest, there was a trip to Eretz Yisrael. She was broken. She’d seen such awful things. She said, where was God? Where is God?!

When I was growing up, I always thought about where was God. I was a child aged 7. I used to answer them, about all their kooshiot (difficulties / questions). I was 7 years old, and everyone came back from the Shoah.

My cousin, and my uncles. Everyone used to come to me with a million difficulties, I used to talk. Even my father used to come to me.

I said to them, what’s all this? They went straight to Gan Eden! This was without any din! (Harsh judgements, that need to be ‘scrubbed off’ by a temporary stay in gehinnom.)

It’s written that a single ‘singe’ in gehinnom is far worse than the whole of Auschwitz.

[Ed. note: stop and think about this sentence for a moment. It encapsulates everything, about why there is so much suffering going on in this lowly world of ours – and why God is still only good, regardless of the suffering going on.]

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[Those who were murdered in the Shoah], it’s six million people who made a ‘request’ of Hashem, that they wanted to come down in a generation of shmad (annihilation).

That they wanted to come down in this way, because they wanted everything to be atoned for.

No [stain of sin] remained for them! They asked Hashem for this! This is the whole reason they came down to the world!

It’s not like there was some mistake here. They chose this, and there was a pigua (terrorist attack) here.

All sorts of questions – but they chose this! They asked Hashem before they came down to this world, ‘send us down in a generation of shmad!’

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Translated from the Shivevei Or Newsletter, 255.

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I was so disturbed by the implications of that last post, I had to take a few days off.

Honestly, I was also asking God some hard questions, about why He’s continuing to let this awful evil happen, especially to innocent children.

After a couple of days of difficult thoughts about that subject, I finally got some peace of mind back again, when I remembered what the Baal Shem Tov taught, about every single thing being a ‘tikkun’ for previous lives.

Who knows what we did, and who we were in our past lives.

Who knows, how many people we hurt, in terrible ways.

I also read something from the Rav, Rav Berland, that he said last week, and that really helped me a lot, and which BH I will try to translate later this week for the blog.

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Point is, for a few days I just wanted to shut up the laptop and do a ‘Prophet Yonah’.

I really wanted to run away from all the ‘bad’ in the world, and just kind of circle the horses, and wait for Moshiach to show up quietly, without sticking my neck out any more.

I shut down all my tabs.

I started talking about spending my time doing more painting, and way less writing again….

And then, yesterday, I came across this, on a Telegram channel I went to check out because they had a picture of how our murderous, evil corrupt governments are even sticking 5…G transmitters down manhole covers, too – of course, without telling anyone.

Here’s that first picture:

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But here’s the thing that really caught my attention:

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Really, that’s all I want to do on this blog, is to encourage you to find the truth for yourself.

That’s why I’m very happy to post up conflicting opinions and opposing views, as long as they are phrased respectfully (and sometimes, even when they aren’t, depending on how many ‘diamonds’ I feel I need, at that moment.)

I’m not a paid-for-propaganda machine, trying to convince you that only my brand, my way, my political party, my ideas are the ones that are right.

I have my personal beliefs, that I’ve invested a great deal of prayer and inquiry and teshuva into, and I’ll defend those because they are part of me.

But mostly, I’m just trying to share impartial information about what is going on with 5…G, or the war in Ukraine, or the terrible child abuse occurring at all levels of the Jewish community, frum or otherwise, so you can make up your own minds.

Jews are meant to question, we’re meant to challenge, we’re meant to keep searching for the truth, however uncomfortable that makes us, and the people around us.

God’s seal is truth, don’t forget.

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When I came across this meme, it kind of shone a path for me, out of some of the difficulties I’m having about how to share information in a ‘safe’ way.

Now I see, I don’t need to spell anything out, I just need to lay out some links, and let you, the reader, do your own research, and come to your own conclusions, whatever they may be.

Same way as I did.

So, here’s some dots, and please connect them yourselves, in any way you see fit:

This screenshot comes from HERE:

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This screenshot comes from HERE:

 

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Here’s a short video from Regavim about that secret tunnel:

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And here is my last post:

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Now, do your own investigations, and come to your own conclusions.

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Wow.

I feel a huge weight lifting off.

Sometimes, I feel like there is no way that we can ever ‘beat’ all the evil that’s controlling the world right now. They have our police, judiciary and military in their pockets. They control our media, our schools – and even most of our ‘rabbis’.

But then my soul starts whispering to me again: Ein Od Milvado.

That all this is really just a puppet show, carefully designed to bring the truth out of ourselves, and to encourage us to stop lying to ourselves, and to work on our own bad middot and lack of emuna.

When I remember that, it gives me a lot of hope, that this can and will turn around for the good, very soon.

Each person that reconnects to ‘truth’ within themselves – to God, essentially – removes the evil ‘world of lies’ from that part of creation.

And there are thousands, maybe even millions, of people actively engaged in that process now, every single day.

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We get to geula one step at a time, one soul at a time, one ‘enlightened’, honest, courageous person at a time.

There is no other way.

And when I remember that, it gives me the koach to continue, because that’s when I realise that everything that is going on right now is actually bringing us leaps and bounds closer to that time of true goodness for all of humanity.

And then, I can tolerate the world again.

Just about.

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Over the years, I have lived in many different Jewish communities.

And I’ve also worked as investigative journalist for 25+ years, and that’s brought me into contact with many different people, and their stories.

What I can tell you is that sexual abuse of children is a massive problem today, everywhere.

But I guess I’ve been focussing more on the frum world in this blog, because so many of us want to believe that things like this don’t happen in ‘religious’ communities.

And so we trust perhaps way more than we should, and don’t recognise the warning signs in quite the same way, because  we don’t want to believe that ‘religious’ people, frum Jews, would be capable of acting in these awful, despicable ways.

And of course, so many of the rabbis and leaders in these communities want to keep all the shmutz and yuck covered up, because they are protecting their ‘brand’. And that seems to take precedence over protecting the victim, for people who don’t really fear Hashem, and who are more interested in receiving honor and kavod, than doing the right thing.

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BUT – as one commentator pointed out, this problem goes way, way beyond the religious community.

In the secular world there are also enormous problems – as you’ll remember from THIS post a few weeks ago, that mentioned the gang rape of a young teenage girl by a pack of feral teenage boys in a Netanya school. That story was totally blanked by the media here, to ‘protect the guilty’.

In the meantime, the poor girl and her father apparently ended up in a mental institution, from the trauma of what had happened – which was compounded by the cover-up.

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Today, the world is a very sick place.

There is no such thing as a ‘safe’ place, spiritually, today.

(Although I have to say, ironically, that Rav Berland’s community seems to have way, way less issues than any other community I’m aware of. After the last 10 years of slander and scrutiny, Shuvu Banim is pretty much the last place a pedophile would try to hang out in.)

Let me tell you a story that emphasizes this point, and then we’ll move on to tachlis, what we as parents can really do to try to protect our children, to the best of our abilities.

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A few years back, I lived in a very large, mixed yishuv, that had chardal communities all the way up to dati ‘light’, and was mixed between olim from many different backgrounds, and Israelis.

It all seemed so ‘wonderful’ there, externally, the first two years. Then, I started figuring out that appearances can be very deceptive, that literally half the yishuv was on Prozac (or something similar) – and that sexual abuse and wife-swapping was also occurring there.

I knew a lady whose 9 year old daughter was repeatedly raped by a ‘frum’ cousin – a stellar, solid dati leumi-type older teen.

When that news came out, her world fell apart – and the dati leumi rabbis counselled her not to go to the police about what had happened, because it would ruin the cousin’s life.

In the meantime…. that guy got married, and continued on in the dati leumi community as apparently a paragon of virtue.

While this lady’s kid went totally ‘off’, started smoking, and experienced tremendous tzaar in her soul.

Does this sound right, to you?

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So now, let’s move into talking tachlis, what can we do, as parents, to try to protect our children?

There is a separate discussion to be had about changing the culture, both in the (Freemason-Frankist….) secular world and in the (Freemason-Frankist….) religious world about not playing down abuse like this any more, and not trying to just keep covering it up.

We’ll leave that for now, although you can be sure that is something that I will come back to in future posts, BH.

Today, I want to focus on what we can do as parents, with God’s help.

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When I was looking into this more, I tripped over the ‘BrightBeginnings’ website, of R’ Yakov Horowitz.

You can find that website HERE.

He’s written a book about how to keep children safe, and he’s also put out this 10 minute video, that covers some very useful information on how to deal with this issue, tachlis:

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Here’s a screenshot of the 4 main messages R’ Horowitz says parents have to give over to their kids – in as calm a way as possible, because when the parent is agitated, the kid won’t remember what they are saying:

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Watch the video above, to really understand how to put these messages across to your children.

He packs a lot of good information into 10 minutes, and he’s also got books in both Hebrew and English called ‘Let’s stay Safe!’, that you can get HERE.

Here’s a precis:

  1. Teach your child that NO-ONE should ever tell them to keep a secret from you, their parents. This is a massive red flag for predatory behavior.
  2. Give your child a sense of having firm boundaries – that their body, their personal ‘space’, belongs to them, and they get to decide who can enter it, and when.
  3. Explain to them the ‘bathing suit’ rule, that no-one else should touch them in places covered by their bathing suit – except for very specific people, in very specific instances (i.e. the parents or main caregivers, when they need to clean them up or care for them in some way – but keep these parameters as tightly-defined as possible.)
  4. Teach your children to trust their own instincts – and to get away from people who make them feel uncomfortable, AS SOON AS they start to feel uncomfortable, even if nothing ‘bad’ has happened.

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This is great advice.

But if we’re honest, as parents, we already know that WE have to do a lot of work on our own bad middot and issues, to really put this advice into practise.

What do I mean?

Well, from my own experience of being a sincere baal teshuva, I know I put so much pressure on my kids to ‘conform’ to a certain very high religious standard, that for a couple of years meant that they simply stopped telling me what they were really up to, because they knew I wouldn’t approve.

And when a kid feels that they can’t tell their parent everything, that’s when the kid enters the ‘danger zone’.

I had to do a lot of work on my own bad middot, including my own anger, disappointment and unrealistic expectations, before I could really create a ‘space’ where my kids felt it was safe to tell me about their struggles again, without me going ballistic at them for not being ‘perfect.’

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Another problem is peer pressure.

It’s hard to encourage our kids to call out predatory, bullying behavior when it might cost us, the parents, socially.

For example, a few years ago I had a really good friend, who outside her home was amazing and wonderful – but whose house was full of dysfunction and problems, from the perspective of the children.

Long story short, her kids were routinely bullying and beating up my kids, and it took me two years to really stop making excuses and to tackle the problem, because I knew tackling the problem was going to cost me my own friendship.

And it did.

But in these myriad small ways, we can send our kids messages that they shouldn’t ‘rock our boat’ – and predators, especially predators who are ‘close to home’, can take advantage of this very human tendency, God forbid.

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And perhaps R’ Horowitz’s last ‘message’ can be the most difficult one of all, for a parent to really convey to their children.

Because if I’m a forceful parent, I’m a super-frum, or super-idealistic parent, who has all sorts of ideas of how my kid should be acting, and dressing, and what sort of super-healthy food they should be eating, and who they should be hanging around with….

….And I don’t really give my kid the ability to develop their own instincts about what is right for them, let alone to trust them….

That gives predators a huge ‘in’.

And we parents can do that, without even realising what a disadvantage we are actually giving our children, because we WANT THEM to listen to us, and to obey us, and to not challenge us all the time with their own opinions and ideas.

Can you see the problem?

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The solution again comes down to us parents working on our own bad middot.

It again comes down to challenging our own assumptions about what is really ‘right and wrong’; and being prepared to take a cold, hard look at where we ourselves trample on our children’s ability to honestly feel what they feel, and to honestly express what they feel – without being harshly judged and punished for it.

It’s so easy to write these words, but it can be so, so hard to live up to them.

Especially when we ourselves often came from homes where kids were meant to be ‘seen but not heard’, and where the parents were meant to be held high up on a pedestal by the child, and never questioned or crossed.

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It’s sadly true, that when a kid is bullied, and / or ignored, and / or harshly judged at home, by their parents, that will make them way more ‘at risk’ of attracting predators.

Spiritually-warped people have a kind of ‘sixth sense’, where they can sense which kids don’t have a ‘back’ – don’t have a parent on their side, really supporting and listening to them.

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One more thought, then we’ll talk more about bringing God into the equation.

Like most mothers, I have always loved my kids a lot. But until my oldest was 5, I was trying to hold down a very demanding career, that meant I had pretty much zero time or headspace to really ‘be’ with my kids, after work.

I was usually so exhausted from the day job, all I wanted was for them to disappear to bed, as soon as possible, when I got home.

It was only after we moved to Israel, that Hashem really started giving me the present of understanding just how toxic my career was, for my family (and also, for myself!)

When my oldest was six, that’s when I made the excrutiatingly difficult decision to quit my high-paying job – and to become a stay-at-home mum.

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On some level, I just knew that I couldn’t do both.

And with the benefit of 15 years’ hindsight, I can now honestly say it was the best decision I ever made, for my family and for myself – even though I can’t overestimate how hard it was to do, personally.

I feel now that so many of my kids’ issues with being bullied etc, mostly stem from that time that I was neglecting them emotionally, when they were younger. And that it took me a good 4-5 years of constant work on my own bad middot, via talking to God regularly for an hour every day, to start redressing the balance, and to start resolving the problems.

Thank God, my kids are great.

But we still live in a sick world, and we’ve all still got so many challenges to deal with, on so many levels.

I dread to think, how bad things would be if I hadn’t made the decision to put my kids’ need to have a ‘present’ mother ahead of my own need to do a job I really enjoyed, and that made me a ton of cash.

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So now, let’s put God firmly in this equation.

As mentioned, the key to so much of this is to know that we need God’s help to really protect our kids – both from ‘stranger dangers’, and also from our own bad middot that can render them vulnerable to predators, God forbid.

I cannot overemphasise the importance of getting into the habit of talking to God regularly, every day, to make a strong spiritual ‘connection’, and overcome our own programming to ignore what we really think and feel about bad people and situations.

If we can’t be ‘real’ with ourselves, if we also have unhealthy boundary issues, if also push down things that make us uncomfortable to avoid ‘rocking the boat’ – then so will our kids, however much we try to educate them differently.

So, the first thing is to get into the habit of asking God to help us, ourselves, uproot all these negative habits and bad middot.

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Then of course, we ask God – all the frigging time! – to protect our kids from the ‘bad’ out there.

If you have trouble formulating these prayers by yourself – and many people do – then Rav Berland has a whole bunch of booklets, that are filled with very powerful prayers that really make a difference.

If you go HERE, you’ll find a bunch to pick from.

Here’s one I recommend, Prayers for Holy Children:

 

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If you don’t speak Hebrew, just try to do one a day – it’s the effort that counts, not the quantity.

Alternatively, you can get that book in English translation – and get the hard copy FOR FREE, from the RavBerland.com site, you just pay for the postage, HERE.

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With God’s help, our children will be protected from all the ‘bad’ in the world.

And we will uproot all the ‘bad’ within ourselves, as their parents, that can make them more vulnerable to predators, God forbid.

And BH, Moshiach will come soon, and finally all this tremendous evil will be banished from the Jewish communities, and the wider world, for good.

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UPDATE:

I had a couple of comments telling me that R Horowitz is anti Rav Berland, and pro ‘vaccinating’.

All I can say, is that this is all part of the birur  process, and I guess part of that process of moving away from the unrealistic black and white world where we are pushed to an ‘extreme’ of having to agree with everything a person says, 100%, before being willing to quote them in other areas, and moving towards a more nuanced approach.

I feel R Horowitz advice in this area is useful, so I’m quoting it.

Clearly, I feel he’s totally wrong about Rav Berland, and Covid 19 shots.

Hope that clears up the confusion.

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In this third and final part, the focus is on how Eybshutz and the Sabbatian-Frankists have warped today’s orthodox Jewish community.

Before I begin, let me tell you a story I heard approximately three hours ago.

It’s about a young chareidi boy, who was brutally raped by an older ‘chareidi’ man in the ‘chareidi’ community of Ramat Bet Shemesh in Israel, seven years ago.

Even the boy’s parents don’t know what happened to him.

They just think he ‘went crazy’, ‘got ADHD’, then started ‘acting out’ at yeshiva so he got kicked out, and finally got into drugs and went ‘off the derech’.

Really?

That boy was deeply traumatised by being abused by one of the evil monsters who live in our ‘frum’ communities all over the world, who continue to get away with destroying countless lives in this way because the whole system is geared to cover their crimes up.

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Enough is enough!

How much longer are we going to pretend that this evil of rampant sexual abuse – an obvious hold-over from the Sabbatian-Frankist culture that has infiltrated all our major Jewish institution from the top down – doesn’t exist?

How much longer are we all just going to set here whistling, while this evil continues unchecked even, and perhaps especially, in the externally ‘frum’ world?

So, I’m devoting this particular post to all the unnamed, unheard, undefended victims of Sabbatian-Frankist abuse in the Jewish community, and particularly, the so-called chareidi world.

And believe me, there are a lot of them out there.

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Now, let’s get back to the precis of R’ Marvin Antelmann’s book, Bekhor Satan.

(Click the links to read Part 1 and Part 2).

12. NETUREI KARTA PHILOSOPHY AND JONATHAN EIBESCHUTZ’ THOUGHT

R’ Antelmann explains that the ruins of the Churva Synagogue in the Old City, built by known Sabbatean Yehuda Chassid and his group of followers, was a holy place for Neturei Karta.

Yehuda Chassid and his group of Sabbatean ‘true believers’ moved to Eretz Israel in 1700 (in preparation for the ‘second coming’ being predicted for Shabtai Tzvi. ‘Second comings’ are a big thing for many of these false messiahs.)

R’ Antelmann explains that according to Zvi Hertz Graetz’s history, the beliefs of this group of Sabbatians was very similar to xtianity. But according to a letter brought in the book ‘Tradition’, written by R’ Yehezkel Kahana, people in Jerusalem were scared to publish this information, because they feared the retribution of the ‘extremists’.

Who are these ‘extremists’ who practise a Sabbatian theology that resembles xtianity?

R’ Antelmann identifies them as the ‘Shomrei HaIr.’

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Translated snippet:

“After the death of Yehuda Chassid in October 1700…his movement of ‘believers’, after a few years had passed, started to embrace Christianity.

The ideas that characterise this anti-Zionist cult are connected to Jonathan Eybshutz.

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R Antelmann then brings a passage from Gershom Scholem’s work, where he describes how most of the Shadarim – the ‘messengers’ and shlichim that went on journeys on behalf of the community in Jerusalem, were actually Sabbatians.

As part of their travels, these Sabbatian ‘Chachamim’ would also serve as messengers between the ‘known’ Sabbatians, and those who remained secretly embedded within the Jewish community, and would also act as a conduit for the secret Sabbatian writings.

Scholem writes that the radically ‘anti’ Eretz Israel stance of this group of xtianised-Sabbatians was identified by R Yakov Emden, in his book Edot B’Yaakov (page 44), as coming from Jonathan Eybshutz’s own mouth, in relation to the passuk about ascending to Eretz Yisrael, that reads:

Not with strength and not with force, but rather with My spirit.

In his drasha given on Shabbos Chanuka, Parshat Mikeitz, Eybshutz writes:

“Because Moshiach will not do signs and wonders and make war with the enemies of Israel, and gather the exiles, and return Israel to its land. Rather, amongst the nations will be found chanina (grace?) [for the Jewish people], through the great wisdom of the Melech Moshiach.”

Ed. note: Eybshutz had a habit of switching what our Sages said for the exact opposite. He did this many, many times, including when he censored and rewrote large parts of the Talmud in Prague, in conjunction with the Jesuit Father Franciscus Haselbauer.

Again, Eybshutz didn’t just take words OUT of the Talmud, he actively rewrote it, to present his warped ideas in a ‘seamless’ way that made it appear to the reader as though they were part of the original text.

More on that another time.

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Rav Antelmann then brings an excerpt of the Neturei Karta writings published under the title ‘Ahavat Yonatan’.

These writings appear to be based on the Neturei Karta understanding of some of Jonathan Eibshutz’s lesson.

Here’s a translated snippet:

“If you provoke and awaken the ‘love’ against Kibbutz Israel (i.e. going to Israel), and if everyone learns together to go to Jerusalem and all the nations agree – even in this case, as if it’s His will to go there, chalila, (God forbid that you should go) – because the end of the exile is hidden. And maybe, this is not the real time, rather it is just an et ratzon, for its own sake.

And today or tomorrow, they will sin, and they will be forced into exile one more time. And the next time will be worse than the first time. Therefore, the request is made to not go, until she will want. That is to say, until the time when all the world will be filled with knowledge, and from then on, the One who is above everything promised that there will be no-one missing from the nation of Israel at all.

And this is the true time, that it should come speedily in our days.

And therefore he said [the passage about coming out from Mevasseret with the feminine declention]. And from here it’s hinted to you….that your God will come by Himself, and redeem you, etc.

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Rav Antelmann next brings a lengthy passage from the Or Sameach to refute these ideas.

I’m not going to translate that here, because the main point is that Neturei Karta revered Jonathan Eibshutz; apparently had very strong links to the Sabbateans that moved to Eretz Yisrael under Yehuda HaChassid, and went to great lengths to ‘defend’ Eybshutz’s reputation, posthumously, against academics like Gershom Scholem.

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13. REGARDING THE BOOK KAVANOT TEKIYOT SHOFAR

In this chapter, R’ Antelmann states that many of the ‘yehi ratzon’ prayers that are found in many commonly-used siddurim – including the ‘Kol Bo’, and those put out by Artscroll – were written by Sabbateans, with Sabbatean intentions (kavanot).

And the main Sabbatean who initially wrote many of these prayers is none other than ‘Nathan of Gaza’, Shabtai Tzvi’s main prophet and cheerleader.

He bases this on the book written by David Kahana called: Toldot HaMekubalim HaShabtim ve’HaChassidim (‘The Generations of the Sabbatean and Chassidic Kabbalists’, p150.)

Translated excerpt:

“And with his great cunning, Nathan from Gaza succeeded in ensnaring many of our brothers, Bnei Yisrael, and up until today, there are found printed in many machsorim and siddorim the prayers ‘yehi ratzon’ and most of the ‘Ribono shel olam’ [prayers].

And they are copied letter-by-letter from the book Chemdat HaYamim, and not a person puts it in his heart to find out who is the person that put these things out….” 

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Ed. note:

Just to make it clear, that I am sharing quotations from R’ Antelmann’s book here. I don’t know which ‘yehi ratzon’ and ‘Ribonu shel olam’ prayers the statement above is referring to, specifically.

And in our days, many other similar prayers have been been written by people other than Nathan of Gaza. Each person should do his own birur.

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Rav Antelmann then brings a passage from the Kol Bo machsor (screenshotted below) and says the following about it:

“The Sabbatean-Frankists showed that they greatly succeeded to ‘infiltrate’ Yeshu HaNotzri – or so to speak, ‘Yeshua Sar HaPanim’ – within [?] of the machsor for the Yomim Noraim, in order to make a connection with avoda zara at this holiest time – the blowing of the Shofar….

…And so, the idea behind this ‘yehi ratzon’ prayer is that Hashem should forgive Yeshu HaNotzri, and should give him [i.e. Yoshki] the job of being the ‘Sar HaPanim’, instead of the Angel Metatron.”

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R’ Antelmann then brings a list of rabbis who have outlawed the yehi ratzon prayers, because of their Sabbatean connections.

The list includes the Nodah b’Yehudah, the Minchat Eliezer, R’ Eliezer Fleckeles – and of course, R’ Yaakov Emden.

He thing brings a list of further prayers that he says were written with the same heretical Sabbatean intentions, as listed by David Kahane, mentioned above.

Here’s a screenshot of the Hebrew:

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14: HOW TO DESTROY JUDAISM WITH EXTRA HUMROT (STRINGENCIES)

The last chapter in ‘Bekhor Satan’ deals with the tricky subject of how part of the Sabbatean project to destroy Judaism from within revolved around trying to make orthodox Jewish observance so ‘hard’ and stringent, day-to-day, that many people would become disheartened and turn away from yiddishkeit.

R’ Antelmann explains that turning super-strict ‘humrot’ into ‘halachas’ is a very old trick, and that it’s not for nothing that Chazal taught that it’s forbidden to take away anything from the halacha – and also forbidden to add anything.

He then refers to Rashi’s teaching on Parshat Bereishit where he explains how the Primordial Snake was the first to turn a ‘humra‘ into a ‘halacha‘ – with terrible consequences for mankind.

[If you don’t already know, the snake told Chava that it was also forbidden to touch the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, and when Chava saw she didn’t die from touching it, then she was easily persuaded that she could also eat from the tree, too, without dying.]

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R’ Antelmann then says:

“Jonathan Eybshutz’s mussar sichot (moral teachings) take this path. In his book ‘Ya’arot Dvash’ there are a lot of moral teachings that he gave over the 10 days of repentance, in the communities where he served as a rabbi.”

The two examples R Antelmann brings from ‘Ya’arot Dvash’ involve Eybshutz forbidding women to wear wigs made from the hair of gentile women; and forbidding mixed dancing.

But then, Eybshutz found a solution for his rich Sabbatean friends who wanted to continue wearing these wigs: he paskened that it was permitted to make wigs from the hair of a Shabbos Goy.

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Ed. note: These examples show just how fraught this whole topic is, and how complicated the birur.

I’ll bring more of my own opinions below, but I just wanted to share here that Rabbenu, Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, had a custom of dancing with his daughters at their marriages.

One daughter, Miriam, refused to dance with her father, Rebbe Nachman because her father-in-law was against ‘mixed dancing’.

Rabbenu later said that if Miriam had danced with him at her wedding, she would have merited to have descendants. As it was, she had one child who died young, before she herself died relatively young. Miriam is buried in a cave next to David Shlomo Eybshutz, in Tsfat.

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R’ Antelmann continues:

“And so, the Sabbateans wanted to increase the things that were minorly ‘forbidden’, and to expand the number of humrot (stringencies), and to make them ‘big deals’, and to bring things from every source to make more humrot, until many of the Jewish people would despair of keeping the halacha, and come to view it as something [heavy?], and impossible to endure.

And finally, they succeeded in introducing a few ‘leaders’, that we continue to suffer from them until this day, to distance the people from the ways of the Torah and the guarding of the mitzvot, following in the same footsteps as the Primordial Snake.”

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He continues:

“The ‘Chareidi-Sabbatean’ stereotype lives as we’ve described: he looks ‘chareidi’ from the outside, but inside, he’s full of lusts. This is the stereotype that Jonathan Eybshutz himself belongs to. They run to fill every position in the ‘official religious’ world, and to be the heads of religious institutions….

[He then brings two specific, named examples.]

“These people wear black garb, they have beards and payot, and it was their custom to get up for chatzot. And whoever would have seen these people, it would have been very hard for him to believe [who they really were].

“The psychological approach used by the Sabbateans was to always emphasise small things in Judaism, and to over-exaggerate their importance, so that the truly important things would ultimately fall….”

He goes on to say that while the Sabbateans were externally obsessing over all these small details that really didn’t matter so much, they made it an unspoken rule to ‘ignore’ any number of major aveirot, including committing incest and adultery, eating neveilot, performing abortions, breaking shabbat, thievery and deception etc – which were all never spoken about publically.

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Ad kan.

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And so, we make a full circle, and return to the story I heard a couple of weeks’ ago, firsthand, of a 13 year old boy who was violated by a ‘talmid chacham’ somewhere in Ramat Bet Shemesh – in the frummest-of-frum area.

It’s an area where there are constant threats of violence and intimidation from ‘modesty patrols.

An area where neighbors will gang up on your for daring to bring a pet – a source of tumah – into your home.

An area where the advice given is to kick those kids who want MP3 players – let alone smartphones – out of the house, and let them live on the street, even at very young ages.

In this bastion of humrot, where every emphasis is put upon keeping up appearances, and every effort is made to force families to conform to the strictest, harshest interpretations of the Torah – child rapists roam free.

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That boy who was assaulted in Ramat Bat Shemesh a few years ago by a ‘talmid chacham’ never told his parents what had happened to him.

Instead, he went totally off the derech and started doing drugs to try and dull the pain and shame, while his parents started dragging him all over the place to one shrink, one counsellor, one rabbi after another.

In these communities that are so focussed on humrot and external appearances, these terrible crimes of rape, incest and pedophilia – the hallmarks of secret Sabbatean-Frankists for the last 350 years – are all covered up, and never spoken about.

But that needs to change.

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While this concludes the precis of Bekhor Satan, I have a lot more information to share with you in future posts about Jonathan Eybshutz’s ancestors – and also, his descendants.

Many of whom are heading up large swathes of the ‘ultra orthodox’ Torah world, both on the Litvak and the Chassidic sides of the equation.

While it’s true that just being a descendant of an evil person doesn’t make you evil, it’s also true that abusive behavior, and mentally-ill habits tend to be passed down from father to child, over the generations – until someone has the courage to acknowledge the truth, and to make a clean break.

Eybshutz had relations with his own daughter; wrote books encouraging other Jews to perform acts of incest and adultery – and was an arch hypocrite, who perfected the role of playing the ‘big tzaddik’ externally, while indulging in the worst sins behind closed doors.

And his descendants are heading up large swathes of the ‘ultra orthodox’ Torah world, both on the Litvak and the Chassidic sides of the equation.

Can you see the problem?

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So, stay tuned.

We will definitely be returning to this topic soon.

Because personally, I am not going to rest until all these child rapists in the frum community are publically called out for their evil actions, and all the countless lives they’ve ruined, and countless numbers they’ve ‘abused’ out of yiddishkeit, and justice is finally done.

Amen.

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To read Part One of this precis of Bekhor Satan, go HERE.

And go HERE, for Part Two.

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“He was the moshiach of the generation”.

Daisy sent me this chesped, where Rav Berland is eulogising R’ Chaim Kanievsky.

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It’s around six minutes long, with Hebrew subtitles.

For those who don’t speak Hebrew, Rav Berland explains how he and his family lived next to R’Chaim for 20 years, and were very close.

R’ Berland says that his children used to go to BatSheva Kanievsky (R’ Chaim’s wife) to eat after school between the ages of 6 and 15, because Rabbanit Berland had a job teaching in school that kept her there until 4pm.

He says R’ Chaim never took his head out of a Torah book, and that even just seeing him for a second could inspire a person to go and learn Torah for 120 years.

He also says that R’ Chaim’s passing is an atonement for our generation, and that in his zchut, no-one should be harmed in Eretz Yisrael, from the decree to ‘destroy and annihilate’ the Jews (using the language of the Purim megillah).

And that R’ Chaim specifically passed away after the reading of Megillat Esther (where we read about the Tzaddik HaDor, Mordechai, saving his generation from the decree of destruction), as an ‘atonement’ for the sins of this generation.

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If I misrepresented anything in the free translation above, by accident, let me know in the comments and I’ll fix it.

But the true tzaddikim are sweetening everything…

In hidden and revealed ways.

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I also want to publically apologise for suspecting R’ Chaim of not being a true tzaddik, with all the false statements that were being put out in his name, around forcing people to take Covid shots.

It’s hard to imagine the amount of spiritual bizayon his soul must have experienced, knowing that the people around him were hurting Am Yisrael – in his name!

Which is why, I guess, his passing is also going to be such a huge ‘atonement’ for what’s gone on with all this, and at least part of how all this starts to be sweetened.

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