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An hour before Succot began, I went for a stroll around the neighborhood, with my husband.

***Very important updates below***

It was nice to see how many succahs had popped up all over the place, even in my hood, which is really not known for being very observant.

Five minutes from home, we saw a guy from shul up a ladder, painting out the light of one of the lamp-posts right next to his home.

What are you doing, is that a 5G lamp-post?! I called out to him.

It must be! He told me. There is something really ‘off’ with the light, it’s so bright I can’t take it.

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On the way home, I noticed that more of these new ‘blade style’ 5G lights had been fitted to the old lamp-posts in our neighborhood.

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

I started to worry.

When did that happen?

My kid told me they came round the neighborhood and replaced the old tops of the lamp-posts four days ago.

Was it in the middle of the night? I asked her, incredulous as to how I could have missed this.

Apparently, yes it was.

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I came home, and started googling stuff about 5G again.

Maybe, that wasn’t the best thing to have done an hour before Succot began.

I got to THIS article, from healthimpactnews.com (which is being heavily censored and even blocked…) called:

Weaponising 5G and Nanotechnology: How do we protect ourselves?

And then, I got to THIS article:

Will nanotechnologies and the 5G network become the most powerful weapons system the world has ever seen?

And then, half an hour before Succot, I found myself watching some guy in Canada who was trying to teach me how to make an ‘anti-nanotechnology’ bucket, to detox from all this stuff:

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I started to feel pretty ill.

My husband came over.

What are you watching?

I started guiltily.

Um, I’m watching some guy in Canada who is teaching you how make this kind of ‘electric bucket’ thing, that helps your body to detox from all the nanotech… I told him.

This stuff is in everything… The food, the water, the plants, the challah.

And now they’ve put a 5G lamp-post right outside my house, and I’m scared they are going to start frying our brain cells alive….

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I could tell we were going to have a ‘tin foil hat’ conversation again.

But in the meantime, I started to feel so trapped in this world where I can’t throw out my computer, can’t switch off my wireless, can’t totally rid my house of evil phones and evil tablets.

Then, I remembered our Succah was sitting right outside, bathed in the ‘rays’ of the evil 5G lamp-post, and my heart sank.

Long story short, I totally didn’t go into Succot with the right frame of mind.

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Succot morning, I decided I had to do some serious hitbodedut about what was going on.

I can’t make an ‘anti-nano bucket’, nor an ‘anti-nano triangle’.

At the same time, this explanation of what’s going on with all this nanotech felt intuitively ‘right’ to me:

How do These Devices Deprogram Nano?

Tony Pantalleresco explains:

They create a DC electric pulse. We use a DC power supply to create a field in the bucket or bathtub. Some power supplies have a cut-off mechanism where they turn on and off. This creates a mini electromagnetic pulse (EMP). The EMP overloads the programing of the nano materials and wipes it clean for a while. 

The idea is when the field hits the programing it disengages it, then without the programming the nano materials just become inert nano substances such as nano-metal which can then more easily be flushed out of the body. The gentle pulsing of the field first disengages the programing, which is designed to build, construct, and network. 

The second thing you are doing is to make nano substances collide.

Nano particles are 1 nano-second apart – they don’t touch each other. They know where to go and how to flow. They know what part of the equation they fit into, and they fall in place. As they assemble up they do not interfere with one another. The moment you make them touch each other they take themselves out.

You have substances that are 3 times harder than diamond and a hundred times stronger than steel that have a charge. When they touch each other it is like a major explosion in the nano world. When two collide it has adverse effects on the network that they are in. It is like a line of dominos. You hit one and a hundred of them will fall. 

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These articles about bio-nanotech were written 2,3 and even 4 years ago.

But they are describing exactly how the research papers say this stuff is meant to be working in situ.

So this morning, I had a big chat with God about all this, and what He wants from me.

God, do you want me to be making a ‘nano-bucket’?

The answer came back negative.

I’m scared of this 5G lamp-post they just put right next to my house, God. I’m feeling very powerless to fight all this ‘bad’ again. What do you want from me, God?

The answer came back very fast:

Don’t be scared of anything except ME, Rivka. And pray for all this nanotech to start breaking up.

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Way back when, I used to do – and share – a lot of visualisations for mental and physical health.

These are very powerful techniques, not least because the human brain can’t distinguish between something you ‘imagine’ and something you actually experience, in the moment, which is why dreams always feel so real.

So, I decided to ‘create’ an anti-nanotech visualisation for myself.

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It’s very simple.

I just pictured Hashem’s ineffable name – the YKVK, in Hebrew – kind of making a ‘lightning storm’ anywhere where I felt maybe some nanotech had lodged.

Like, my magnetic clavicles.

And my magnetic temples.

And also, all over my stomach, too, which has honestly been feeling ‘weird’ and not quite right for years, now.

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I just pictured Hashem’s ineffable name creating a lightning storm at just the right frequency, to take this stuff out, and reduce it back to inert material, that the body can then naturally flush out.

I honestly don’t know if it worked, on the physical level.

But I can tell you that at the emotional and spiritual level, I started to feel way, way happier again.

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Life is very scary at the moment.

When that 5G lamppost showed up literally on my doorstep this week, it really brought it home to me that I am up against a regime that is really trying to control and / or kill me and my family.

I have no say in what’s happening on my own doorstep.

I have no where I can run to, to escape this ‘technology’.

So my only recourse is to take it all back to God, and give it all back to Him to deal with.

Ein Od Milvado.

Even all this evil ‘bio-nanotech’ I’m eating and breathing and drinking all the frigging time actually is just a part of God’s creation.

So, I’m trying to take it back to Him, to deal with it.

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One other thing I realised today is the incredible importance of saying the brachot over our food and drink with at least a  bit of kavana, (proper intention).

Today, I really internalised that when I say my blessings carefully, I am also ‘elevating’ my food and drink, and hopefully neutralising anything in that stuff that isn’t good for me.

Mamash, I haven’t been this careful about saying my blessings over food and drink for a very long time.

I hope it lasts.

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It’s very tempting to go the ‘foil hat’ route, sometimes.

I also used to mock those people who believed that the government was experimenting on them with ‘mind control’ techniques that ‘beamed stuff into their brains’ as demented lunatics.

Not any more.

The more I learn about bio-nanotech, graphene oxide, and its links to 5G, the more I realise that most of these people were way, way ahead of the curve.

But as a Jew, I know it’s the power of prayer that’s going to get me through all this in one piece, and not the ‘nano bucket’ (or the foil hat…)

But if anyone out there wants to start taking down these 5G lampposts in the meantime… be my guest.

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UPDATE:

I am trying to verify if this ‘new look’ lamp post outside my house is really 5G – and that’s proving surprising difficult to do.

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

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It’s very hard to track down information about what the ‘5G’ equipment actually looks like, in real life, presumably bcause they don’t want people to go out and wreck it, once they understand how bad it is for their health, to be near it.

I found this, from 2016 (shmirat eynayim friendly):

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I also know that putting 5G in / on lamp-posts is definitely a real ‘thing’, and that ‘5G lamp-posts’ are being rolled out all over the world.

For example, this video is of George Street, downtown Sydney, from July 2019. (It’s not shmirat eynayim friendly, so underneath there are a couple of screenshots of the relevant parts.)

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Screenshots:

This one shows what these 5G lamp-posts in Sydney look like, with the round cylinder on top.

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And this one shows that the EMF radiation on George Street, Sydney is well ABOVE even the maximum public exposure level set by the corrupt WHO.

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But my new, LED-light lamp-post doesn’t look anything like that.

So I carry on looking around, which is when I get to THIS website, which has links to a bunch of ‘Smart Lamp-post’ specifications, straight from the manufacturers.

If you go HERE, you’ll find the ‘smart LED lamp-post’ being produced by a company called OrangeTek, screenshot of their PDF below.

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This model looks very similar to what just turned up on my street:

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

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This creepy video pushing ‘Smart Lighting’ comes from a company called iNELS, from 2017.

It’s shmirat eynayim friendly, and explains this idea of ‘smart lighting’ – which if it’s correct, means I’m breaking shabbat everytime I walk past one of these things on a Friday night and it ‘brightens’ as a result….

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These screenshots show how these Smart LED lights are meant to function.

This first one shows where the WIFI connected control unit is, behind the LED strip at the front of the light:

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This second one shows how the ‘connectivity’ with these lights are controlled by a central command:

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What’s an ‘RTS’ tower?

I’m also wondering that. Apparently, it stands for “Remote Tower Systems”.

[Update: I misread that, it actually says ‘BTS’, which is the old-fashioned, unmistakeable 4G towers. Clearly, God wanted this over information ‘out there’ instead…]

On the first pass, all I can find is stuff about ‘Remote Tower Systems for Airports’, which doesn’t seem to fit with lamp-posts on my street…

So then I try again, this time including ‘5G’ – and THIS is what comes up, a very balanced and informative article about the technology being used for 5G, from the Shieldyourbody.com website.

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Here’s the relevant snippets:

Massive MIMO

Another way that 5G accelerates internet connections is using something called MIMO.

MIMO stands for “multiple-input, multiple-output”. It refers to antenna systems that are designed to coordinate communication to simultaneously send data over the same channel.

MIMO has been part of prior cellular networks. But remember 5G is designed to accommodate many more connections sending much more data. And one way they do that is with massive MIMO.

A standard MIMO might include four to eight antennas. To accommodate the data transmission requirements of 5G, new 5G cell phone towers will include ‘massive’ 128-antenna arrays.

Beamforming

Beamforming is another key technology used alongside MIMO to support the dizzying speeds of 5G. In fact, the terms beamforming and massive MIMO (or mMIMO) are often used interchangeably.

Beamforming is the technology that works with mMIMO to “aim” the cell signal. It focuses the wireless transmission from the 5G tower in a specific direction, rather than blasting in all directions with equal power.

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Let me plain English this for you.

Massive MIMO can send many different signals, remotely, to many different devices simultaneously, and each ‘device’ can be signalled to do something different.

So, if my ‘Smart LED Lamp-post’ is connected to a massive MIMO network, it can be sent a signal telling it to start emitting all sorts of different directed energy waves…. at my home.

Remember, that our thoughts, emotions and physical processes are all fundamentally controlled by electro-magnetic ‘waves’.

This is very scary stuff.

 

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If you go HERE, you’ll find a description of what these ‘massive MIMO’ antenna arrays look like.

I’ve screenshotted that below:

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When I was walking back from the Kotel on Succot, I noticed one of these ‘hidden’ on the roof of the Mount Zion Hotel.

So, another piece of the puzzle falls into place.

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So, back to my 5G streetlight.

I’m very sensitive to energy, and apart from the awful LED light, it seems to me the technology hasn’t been ‘switched on’ yet, because if it had, I’d ‘feel’ it probably immediately.

We have a small window of opportunity, to understand what’s going on here, and to make the teshuva required to derail it before we get to the next stage of ‘the plan’.

This all totally ties in with the nanotech graphene oxide shots, and smart dust, and the ‘Internet of Things‘ – and a lot of other things I’ve been writing about on the blog, for a while now.

It ties in to the weird-named ‘Covid 19 variants’. It ties into DARPA’s ‘Directed Energy Weapons‘ and mind control agendas.

And of course, all this ultimately ties into geula and redemption.

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Of course, you don’t have to take my word for it – and you shouldn’t.

Research this yourself, every which way you can, so you can really start to tell the difference between ‘truth’ and ‘lies’.

Take responsibility for yourself, for your life, for your health, do the real hishtadloos required, to get through this stage in one piece.

In the meantime, let me leave you with this:

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It’s a 5 minute talk entitled Neuroweapons. Directed Energy Weapons. Brain Implants, by a real person, a neuroscientist named Dr James Giordano, from February 2019.

PLEASE, PLEASE, take the time to listen to it.

Here’s a screenshot of his (cached…) bio, which has otherwise been scrubbed of the net:

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The highlighted bit reads:

He is Senior Science Advisory Fellow of the Strategic Multilevel Assessment Group, Joint Staff/J-2, Deputy Director for Global Operations at the Pentagon, and an appointed member of the Neuroethics, Legal and Social Issues Advisory Panel of the Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency (DARPA).

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Here’s some screenshots from his talk.

Remember, this stuff isn’t just being tried out on ‘terrorists in Eye-rak’, or Al Kaida in Syria… it’s first and foremost being used against the global elite’s biggest enemy of all: you and me.

Pay particular attention to that last thing, where DARPA employee Giordano describes how they can use nanotech to induce a ‘stroke epidemic’ in the population.

At the 1 minute 30 second marks, he starts to talk about different ways you can use ‘directed energy’ to affect the health of the brain, and explains more about some of DARPA’s ongoing programs, including the N3 program.

I’m going to bring the rest of his comments below.

They are shocking in the extreme.

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[N3] is a non-invasive, neuro-surgical modulation program, being run their program manager Dr Al Lundy.

The idea here is to put minimal-sized electrodes in a network within the brain to [enable] minimal intervention to be able to read and write into the brain function, in real time, remotely…

I can disrupt an individual from the level of their cell to their system, and disrupt individuals on a variety of levels, and disrupt individuals all the way up to the social fabric. Target a specific individual. Change or eliminate that individual with very little attribution or trace….

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 We also see the use of biodata as a bioweapon.

Manipulating biodata, so that I can then put into your particular medical records subtle information that may change the disposition of whether your sick, or not. Change how you’re treated. Influence the postures that go to you in terms of insurance, care, viability for military service. 

By altering that information, by changing those data, by promoting that data, I essentially change the ‘you’ of you.

And I can do that in very subtle and insidious ways…. If I change those data, I can change the way you are regarded and treated. And I can do that in one of two ways: I can do it in such a way that you’re going to be regarded, in a negative sense. Or I can do it in such a way that they’re going to treat you incorrectly.

If I say, for example, that you have a particular allergy, or a particular disorder, you’ll be treated for that. And that could then harm your health and your stability….

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One of the newest developments is that nanoparticulate matter can be stabilised for distribution.

If you’re not aware of what nanoparticulate matter is, it’s that matter that exists on the scale of 1 x 10 to the minus 9. Very, very small. Smaller than a cell. 

And we can manufacture materials that have discrete properties that can be controlled by virtue of bio-engineering and their physical chemistry.

I can create small robotic units, controllable robotic units at the nanoscale, and then these too can be ‘aerosol-ised’, to create a nano-swarm of bio-penetrable materials that you cannot see, that can penetrate all but the most robust bio-chemical filters; that are able to integrate themselves into a variety of membranes  – mucous membranes in wherever, mouth, nose, ears, eyes.

Can then be up-taken into the vascular system to create clumping.

Can affect the vascular system of the brain,  or can directly diffuse into the brain space. And these can be weaponised.

And it can be done at such a level, that their presence is almost impossible to detect. And as such, the attribution becomes exceedingly difficult to demonstrate. 

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There is it, spelled out as clearly as you can get, by a guy who works for DARPA and who is also the Deputy Director for Global Operations at the Pentagon.

That nanotech ‘clumping’ in the vascular system, described by Giordano, is what’s causing the heart attacks, the thrombi, the clots, the strokes – and of course, the other weird breathing difficulties and lung issues otherwise known as ‘Covid 19’.

I rest my case.

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Don’t despair!

I know this stuff is very heavy, believe me, I know.

But there is still time – ample time – to turn all this around. We just need to pull our heads out of the sand, and start to work together to figure out how to wrest ‘control’ back from these horrible people, and to give it back to God.

Prayer, teshuva and charity have always worked to overturn the decree, and this is no different.

Just don’t go into denial or despair about what is happening.

God and His tzaddikim will pull through for us, I promise.

But first – we have to stop being part of the problem, pushing the fake ‘Covid 19’ masking / vaxxing cack on people, and start being part of the solution.

TBC

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Yesterday, I got two interesting emails.

One of them was asking me to consider how I can uncover the truth without plunging people into despair.

(It’s a very good question.)

And another was asking me this:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

Also a very good question.

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Firstly, this is what I replied to my first correspondent:

Thanks for taking the time to email me this.
I think you are probably right, that if I could make that paradigm shift to phrasing things more positively, that would be useful for a lot of reasons.
It’s just very, very hard for me to do, even when I make a conscious effort.
There’s a big klipa around doing things that way.
A very big klipa.
But I do understand that if it were possible, that would be better for a lot of reasons, and I am taking you as a nudge from Upstairs to at least pray on it some more and see what happens.
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The last thing to mention is that I actually have a lot more hope than sometimes comes through my writing… but it’s connected to my connection with Rebbe Nachman and Rav Berland, which I often downplay, especially with Rav Berland, for obvious reasons.
But really, I have so much hope and chizzuk from these two, and maybe I need to start being more vocal on that count, on my blog.
Lots to think about.
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I have lost count of the number of times I was feeling despairing and lost in the world, and my connection with Rav Berland somehow turned it around.

Like, I’d just open one of his books ‘randomly’ and find words that truly spoke to my heart, and comforted me.
Or, I’d read one of his shiurim and it would seem as though the Rav was addressing his remarks specifically to my particular problem or worry.
Or even, I’d just go hang out by the Beit HaRav in Musrara for a few minutes, and come away just feeling lighter and happier about life.

That happened again this Rosh Hashana, even though the Rav himself is still under house arrest in some unknown location.

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I got there n the first day still feeling somewhat ‘down’ about the situation in Israel, and after an hour there, hearing the shofar, I came back home with a big spring in my step.

As I walked back through the streets of Jerusalem, I just had this one thought on repeat in my head:

They have already lost. 5781 is going to be a great year.

I know that’s still not so obvious.

But that is the ‘vibe’ I picked up very strongly from being at the Beit HaRav on Rosh Hashana.

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So, BH, I will let you know about more of these incidences, and more of these ‘reasons to be cheerful’, because that is how I balance out all the hard stuff that is going on all around, without going into either denial or despair.

(And let me just plug my husband’s new site, where he brings snippets of the Rav’s words in English most days, called Words from the Rav.)

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So now, let’s turn to the next question:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

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I had a really rough aliya experience, in myriad different ways.

We ran out of money, lost our house (twice!!), have moved around loads and loads, had difficulties finding communities, difficulties finding schools, difficulties with fake rabbis and bad advice, and a bunch of other things besides.

But throughout all these difficulties, I ALWAYS was grateful that I was living in Eretz Yisrael, still.

I knew the difficulties here are part and parcel of the kedusha, part and parcel of what makes us grow as people, as Jews, instead of mouldering away in often suffocating spiritual ‘comfort zones’ in Chul.

The only time I ever questioned being in Israel was literally that two days when I started researching Uzi Meshulam and the Yemenite children – and I got a very strong whiff of the spiritual corruption underpinning the secular State of Israel.

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That was around five years ago, when I was doing the research on why the State of Israel was persecuting Rav Berland, that ultimately became One in a Generation.

At that stage, I wanted to run away from Israel (for two days…) because I was scared of what the evil people here could do to me.

But then, I worked on it a lot in hitbodedut, and I realised that this ‘fear’ of these evildoers is a fallen fear.

Because Ein Od Milvado.

And if God doesn’t want something to happen to me, it’s not going to happen, however hard these evildoers try.

This same idea also applies to rockets, terrorist attacks, stabbings and Iranian nukes – and all those other scary things that sometimes make us want to run away from Israel.

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The Coronafascism here over the last year and a half, and all the stressful and troubling diktats about masks and coercion about ‘vaccinations’, has been very hard for all of us to take.

I’m hearing more and more stories of people looking to leave Israel soon, religious and secular people, ‘vaccinated’ and un-vaccinated.

I totally understand the impulse to get away from all the stress and ‘yuck’ that we’ve been subjected to the last year and a half, but I personally feel it’s a big mistake to make any long-term move away from Israel.

This is still the Holy Land.

This is still the country that God has His eye on, so to speak, 24 hours a day, and 365 days a year.

It’s still the land of emuna and miracles.

And ultimately, it all comes down to Ein Od Milvado – I can’t run away from God, and His plans for my life.

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The day we signed on our first house in Israel, in Modiin, the ‘terrorist attacks’ occurred in London.

One of the victims on the Number 13 bus was an Israeli woman who had moved to the UK to get away from the suicide bus bombings back home.

That really taught me something very profound, about how it’s impossible to run away from God.

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A few years ago, our Rav was Rav Arush, and he was pushing all of his students to come and live in Jerusalem.

It was not a very appealing option, honestly, as the house prices had just rocketed through the roof, and I was living in my own new house in a yishuv an hour’s drive away.

To cut a very long story short, we ended up making the move, and I swapped my big house for a rented, 65 sqm apartment in a scummy-looking building.

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The first two years in Jerusalem were brutal, in a whole bunch of ways.

It was like making aliya all over again, except 20 times harder.

(And believe me, that’s saying something.)

But after two years of tremendous suffering, and also tremendous teshuva, the clouds started to part, and I found myself – totally by accident – living in the same neighborhood as Rav Berland and many of his students.

One thing led to another, and that’s how I started to hear more about Rav Berland, and started to research him, and started to understand that he was the true Tzaddik HaDor.

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Today, I look back at that move to Jerusalem as one of the biggest blessings of my life, despite the fact that Coronafascism has hit this city so hard, the last year and a half.

I can still go to the Kotel whenever I want.

I can still go to the Beit HaRav (where they have been davening unmasked the whole time. Baruch Hashem!)

I can also go to supermarkets and stores in chareidi neighborhoods where no-one gives a stuff about social distancing, masking or Tav Yarok.

And I’ve also seen how my children’s yiddishkeit has actually flourished here, strangely, because we had such a hard time and never fit in to any particular ‘box’.

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I have a nice (rented…) house here.

I have a mostly very nice life (Coronafascism notwithstanding…)

And my soul feels more content here than it’s ever felt anywhere else.

And what happened to those of Rav Arush’s English-speaking students who didn’t make that move to Jerusalem, because it was so hard?

Without exception, they all fell off the ‘Breslov’ bandwagon big time, and some of them even ended up leaving the country altogether.

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Things relating to Eretz Yisrael and Jerusalem are often totally deceptive.

It looks like here is the worst place to be.

It looks like life is hardest here.

That the evil is strongest here.

But all this is just a klipah, the ‘shadow’ that’s hiding the biggest light of all.

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At the end of the day, most of the people who know how to use a gun in this country are good Jews, deep down.

You can’t say that about any other country in the world.

At the end of the day, there are more true tzaddikim, hidden and otherwise, and more holy keverim here, than any other place in the world.

And these tzaddikim, alive and dead, are protecting us all with their merits.

The type and frequency of open miracles in Israel just don’t really happen anywhere else, (except maybe Uman.)

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So, even though I have three passports, that is why I’m staying put in this country.

The ‘raging stormwind’ that’s been running the show here is very close to finally blowing itself out.

The good is starting to sprout visibly, all over the country.

And the birur, so painful as it’s been, is almost complete.

There’s a lot of light at the end of the tunnel, and the ‘end’ is approaching.

So don’t bail out now.

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Conclusive proof that we are being ‘sprayed’ with magnetic nanodust in Jerusalem.

Ever since I wrote this post:

I’ve been wondering how they’ve been getting all this magnetic graphene oxide inside of me and my husband.

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Before we continue, a reminder that neither me nor my husband have had a ‘Covid 19’ shot, nor even a single PCR test, and we both try and avoid wearing masks – especially the graphene oxide-coated ‘clinical’ versions – as much as possible.

And yet, I’m still magnetic all over my collarbones and breathing passage, and also in my sinuses.

And so is my husband:

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Here’s a snippet of what I wrote back then:

While I was busy sticking magnets to my thorax this morning, I heard the low rumble of a small engine fly overhead, here in Jerusalem.

It was a crop-sprayer.

I know that not because I saw it, but because I lived in the middle of fields or 5 years, and I can tell what a crop-sprayer sounds like with my eyes shut.

Over the course of the next 45 minutes to an hour, it made at least 11 passes over my area of Jerusalem.

THERE ARE NO FIELDS HERE.

So what exactly was it ‘spraying’ all over us?

Graphene Oxide nanoparticle smart dust.

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That’s been my theory for a few weeks, and today I think I’ve proven it.

I got inspired by this video, below, from the Orwellcity.com website, which shows people in Spain sticking magnets in the dust outside, and on the dust on their car windscreens, to see if it’s magnetic.

It sure is!

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But I like to test things out as much as possible in my own dalet amot, as there is so much deliberate disinformation out there.

Lucky me, I didn’t get around to cleaning my car before Rosh Hashana, so there it sat outside, filthy with ‘dust’, just waiting for my experiment.

Here’s what happened next:

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I had to heap it up into a line before I could see what was really going on, as not every particle of the dust is magnetic graphene oxide nanodust, just some of it.

So there we have it.

They are spraying down all this stuff from the sky, and then it goes into the water, the food supply – and of course, straight up our noses to our sinuses and breathing tubes and lungs, which is why I’m magnetic where I am magnetic.

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The good news:

I think the zinc and NAC stuff is definitely working to make me less magnetic – and remember, they’ve been doing this for years and years without any of us knowing it, so there is a big ‘magnetic nanodust’ backlog to break up in our bodies.

And I’m also a big believer in the power of prayer, and the God-given innate power of the human body to heal itself, so I’m actually feeling pretty positive that know we’ve ‘outed’ the toxic graphene nanodust, the problem will start to clear up pretty fast.

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I’m visualising all this nanodust in my airways and bronchial tubes as just dissolving into nothing.

And of course, asking God to heal us all from this.

God can do anything, can solve any problem.

And this graphene oxide stuff is no match for God!

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You don’t have to take my word for this, of course.

It would make me really happy, if you would take just 2 minutes of time, and go and do your own experiments with the dust on your windscreen, or anywhere else you care to find it.

And just honestly ask this question:

Is it magnetic?

And if you feel like it, let me know what you discover – and also, which part of the planet you happen to live on, so we can keep track of where is being ‘graphened’ with this smart dust, and where isn’t.

It’s happening in Jerusalem;  it’s happening in Spain; so the question is, where else is it happening?

And then we can move to the next part of this geula equation:

How do we get this to stop?

TBC

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As I walked back from hearing the shofar blowing at the Beit HaRav first day Rosh Hashana, I had this feeling well up:

It’s going to be a good year.

I know that doesn’t look obvious, but on Rosh Hashana, you can catch the ‘flavor’ of the year to come, and this year there seemed to be a lot of peace and kedusha in the air.

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Erev chag, I was feeling pretty anxious.

I woke up with the feeling that I’ve really not been the best Jew in 5781, and I got a bit teary about how hard it’s been to try and keep up with my yiddishkeit.

As is my custom now, I went off to the tomb of Shimon HaTzaddik to say vidui devarim – and I felt like 90% of what I was saying directly applied.

Especially all the stuff about hating other people in my heart and speaking lashon hara.

Hashem, I want to be good!!! I want to do better!!! 

I want to be holy…..

I’m just really, really struggling at the moment.

I came out of Shimon HaTzaddik feeling so much better.

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At home, I found out I was having three guests stay by me for chag this year – all formerly-chareidi girls from complicated families, who now ‘live’ in a girls’ dorm in Jerusalem.

They had no-where else to go for chag, so one of my kids invited them to us.

Oh, and the 15 year old thinks she’s a lesbian… Is that OK Ima?

Man, what a question to be asked Erev Rosh Hashana.

But, I’m trying to adopt an attitude of just going with the flow, and letting Hashem send the people and experiences into my life that is required for my growth and teshuva, so I double-checked with my husband, then gave the greenlight to my kid.

But they have to be respectful at the table, I told her.

Because otherwise, it’s just a disaster.

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The three turned up with pierced everythings, in-your-face interesting haircuts, and the 15 year old had somehow managed to get herself tattooed already, even though it’s illegal if you’re not 18.

But to cut a long story short – it was actually fine.

A little awkward in parts, but generally OK.

I cracked open Rabbenu’s advice, and in the section on ‘Peace’ I read how true peace is achieved when two total opposites are brought together, and that this can only occur by the Tzaddik.

That me and the 15 year old wannabe-lesbian shared 4 meals together with no proverbial blood being spilt was truly an open miracle.

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I walked into the Rav to hear shofar blowing both times, and for the first time ever on Rosh Hashana, I just had the feeling that I belonged somewhere.

And then I walked home, and I just had the feeling that some of the kedusha had returned to the streets of Jerusalem.

There were hardly any masks in sight, the sun was shining in a beautiful blue sky, but it wasn’t too hot.

And that feeling rose up unbidden that:

They have already lost. This whole, fake,’Covid 19′ plandemic is finished.

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My husband was also davening at the Rav for most of Rosh Hashana, and he also had a good experience.

Until 5 minutes before the end of the chag, when he decided to catch ma’ariv in the local shul where we live.

The shul is pretty laid back, and most people don’t hold by the masks at all. But there is one resident ‘Mr Evil’ who likes to bully and control other people, and of course the masks is the perfect excuse to do that.

So 5 minutes before the end of Rosh Hashana, he picked a fight with my husband, who had his mask under his chin, same as 80% of the rest of the congregants.

So, the plandemic is finished, spiritually….. but the Covid bullies are probably still going to be a force to deal with for a little while longer.

At least, until the ‘vaccinations’ really start to work as they’ve been designed to.

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So on balance, it was a very good Rosh Hashana.

We missed Uman a lot, particularly my husband.

And I’m still sitting here pondering on what comes next, and what I should be working towards and focussing on.

But I have a lot more optimism that something very good is on the horizon than I did this time last year.

And that all the terrible suffering and difficulties we all went through in 5781 are almost coming to an end.

At least, for those who are making some sincere teshuva, and doing their best to stick close to the true tzaddikim and to stay out of the world of lies.

We still live in interesting times, and there is still so much going on, so who really knows what’s going to happen next.

But I’m just feeling way happier about it all again now.

And that counts for a lot.

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PS: Just as I was finishing this up, I got sent this via email:

You need to be honest with yourself and see how much of your day is spend worrying instead of learning the advice of Rabbenu (Rebbe Nachman).

He is the Tzaddik Hashem sent to help us specifically to find Hashem in the thickest darkness.

You must put in effort to learn his advice and apply it.

It’s very wise words.

And BH, I want to take them more to heart this year.

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Yesterday night, my daughter got back from Uman.

To cut a long story short, a month ago, my then 17 year old daughter told me she was going to Uman with a friend.

My heart dropped to my stomach.

You can’t go abroad now, it’s crazy! They are ‘PCR testing’ everyone everywhere, and it’s just so unstable. They could close the airport any day! It’s just not safe!

Of course, she ignored me.

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But then I thought I’d won a temporary reprieve, because her passport was out of date, and the first appointment she could get to renew it was only in September.

Aha, thanks God! Now, she’s not going anywhere!

But as usual, I was wrong about that.

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Two weeks’ ago, out of the blue, she announced that as soon as she turned 18, she was going go Uman.

You haven’t got a passport, you can’t.

I’m going to renew it at the airport, she told me.

You haven’t got enough money to pay for the ticket.

I’m going to find someone to lend it to me.

It’s dangerous, you can’t go anywhere now…. I pleaded.

Ima! You can’t spend your whole life living in fear! Do you know how many of my friends are in Uman right now, and you are the only retarded person that thinks it’s dangerous!

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(I’m pretty sure I’m not, but I digress.)

For 2 days at the beginning of last week, I had a massive fight within myself, to support my daughter in her choice to go Uman.

Because she really couldn’t have done it without me.

I shlepped her around to get the PCR tests; I found her the flights; I took her to the airport and sat with her to renew her passport. My husband, bless him, paid for the ticket and a few other bits.

And the whole time, I was sitting there thinking about worse case scenarios, of what could happen in Uman.

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One of those nights, I was tossing and turning in bed, when a small voice piped up and told me:

You just have to let this go. Totally.

You have to bitul all these fears, let it go, and just trust Hashem that whatever needs to happen – good or bad – it’s all for the ultimate best.

So I did.

And I trusted that even if my kid got stuck in Ukraine for weeks; even if something ‘bad’ happened, God forbid; even if it didn’t turn out OK – this was God’s plan, and my job was to take a deep breath and accept that I am not in control.

Dear reader, it nearly killed me.

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In the end, she had a great time.

She found somewhere to stay.

She navigated all the Covid bureaucracy and PCR tests that still give me nightmares.

And yesterday night, she came back to Israel and brought a big dose of ‘Rabbenu light’ with her.

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She tells me she thinks there are 25,000 Jews in Uman right now, and more are coming all the time.

She tells me people there are preparing for the biggest Rosh Hashana ever, as so many people are trying to make up for not being there last year.

She tells me some people are worrying about ‘the Freemasons’ trying to pull something off in Uman, the way they did in Meron – but not a lot.

She also told me that the Ukrainian PCR swabber at the airport in Kiev basically told her that all the tests ‘were going to come out negative’, so she had nothing to worry about….

There’s so much achdus in Uman, Ima, it was to good to be there and to just walk down the street, and to see how everyone is talking to each other and just trying to help each other. It really made me feel so happy to be a Jew. I wish it was more like that in Israel, too…

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I dropped her at home at 4 in the morning, and decided to go to the Kotel.

I haven’t been there for a few weeks, because I got stressed out when all the masks and coronafascism roared back again in Israel.

There’s a big sign there now that says that because of ‘Tav Yarok’ regulations, you have to wear a mask (outside!!) and can only come in if you are vaccinated, if there are more than a 100 people there.

Even just seeing those signs upsets me tremendously, but at 4am, I figured no-one is really enforcing anything.

And they weren’t.

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So I sat there, and just cried a bit.

I cried about how heavy all this stuff seems to be, especially in Israel, especially in Jerusalem.

And I cried about not being able to go to Uman at the moment. And all the mental ‘hassle’ and stress involved with doing even small things, like going to the garden centre.

And I just sat there feeling so small and mentally exhausted.

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All year, I’ve been dealing with the ‘sewage in the pipes’ underneath Am Yisrael, and it’s really taken a toll.

I want to be able to see the good again, to focus on the positive, to go back to Azamra.

And at the same time, I feel I have this awful, heavy job to do, to keep lifting up stones and see what crawls out, ahead of geula and Moshiach really happening.

I’m feeling very conflicted, honestly.

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There is no neat ending to this post.

I really hope and pray that nothing bad is going to happen to any good Jew, anywhere in the world, and especially the thousands of people going to Uman.

We so need the light of Rabbenu.

We so need the light of the Rav.

And I hope we get it, very soon.

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Just a quick post, to ‘update’ you on the situation in my bit of Jerusalem.

The birds are singing, the sun is shining, and things are eerily quiet where I live, in a ‘mixed’ community right next to the Old City.

This morning at around 6:30am, I thought I heard a group of protesters, or something, close by, but I couldn’t make out if they were chanting in Hebrew or Arabic, and I didn’t have the sense of ‘panic’ I get when something feels off.

Yesterday, my husband went to work with no problems.

I went to the supermarket with no problems.

My kids went all over the place visiting friends etc with no problems.

I know, that’s not at all the picture you are being painted by the media, but that is my first hand experience, currently of Jerusalem.

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I know people are dying in other parts of the country.

Or rather, I should say I think I know that, because the level of lies and media manipulation going on has ratcheted up so high, the last few weeks, I literally trust NOTHING I see in the media anymore, unless I can verify it personally.

There are so many things setting the BS-O-meter off about what’s going on right now, I don’t know where to start in trying to unpick it all to see what’s true and what isn’t.

So, I’m basically ignoring ‘the matzav’ at the moment, while I focus on trying to finish up my investigation into what really happened in Meron.

Which is taking a lot of effort, all by itself.

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I will continue to update you with my own personal experiences of life in Jerusalem, in the meantime.

If I see something with my own eyes, or speak to real people about their real experiences, I will share that.

But the reason I’m staying mostly quiet about ‘the matzav’ is because so much of it feels like ‘fake news’ – but I haven’t got the ability to sort out the truth from the lies.

BH, God will finally rescue us from all this madness, and all these evil people, intent on plunging the world into more unnecessary violence, wars and human suffering.

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You want to know the real reason for this ‘upswing’ in violence the last couple of days?

***Important updates below***

Here it is, from 5:49am this morning:

Lapid and Bennett almost announced formation of gov’t

Security escalation prevented Yamina chairman and Yesh Atid chairman from asking President to swear in a government as early as next week.
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And here in Israel, it’s not just ‘conspiracy theorists’ like myself who are starting to make these connections.

My kids belong to a hardcore, dati leumi ra-ra ‘State of Israel’ crowd.

Yesterday, one of them got sent a long message by a friend that basically said this:

I think Bibi is behind all this violence. Every time they are about to pick someone else for Prime Minister, the violence starts up again. And then when he’s ‘safe’ as Prime Minister, it goes away again.

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I was so pleased when she told me this.

Why?

Because it means that the zeitgeist of understanding what is really going on here, and who is really behind it, is starting to go mainstream.

Geula doesn’t require everyone to open their eyes and start to understand and acknowledge the truth.

It just requires a critical mass of people – and we are fast, fast approaching it.

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A lot of my kids’ friends live in Maaleh Zeitim.

That’s the Jewish neighborhood at the top right hand of the Mount of Olives cemetery, that’s usually heavily guarded by magavnikim and always at the heart of so much of the violence that goes on, in and around the Old City.

Yesterday, one of the cars driving out of Maaleh Zeitim got pelted with stones and rocks, leading to a horrible smash up – where an Arab rock-thrower basically got run over at high speed, but then bizarrely got up and walked away.

The whole story is setting off my BS-O-Meter, I’m not even sure why, but here’s the real story I want to tell you about Maaleh Zeitim.

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Two days ago, the brother of one of my kid’s really good friends in Maaleh Zeitim were walking back home in a group of his friends, when some Arab teens ambushed them and started pelting them with rocks.

So, the brother and his friend started throwing rocks back, in self-defense, and then managed to get home.

A little while later, the police showed up – and arrested the friend’s brother.

The family have no idea what’s happening with him, and haven’t been able to speak with him.

BH, after everything that’s happened with the Rav, and with the murder of Ahuvya Sandek, and with the mass-murder project at Meron – we’re all praying he’s OK, and not being harmed.

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Yesterday, my husband told me the Border Police stormed Al Aksa mosque, and fired stun grenades at the worshippers.

There were no rock-throwing terrorists there, no-one was doing anything except lying on the floor and prostrating themselves to Allah.

My husband is a-political, really hates all the ‘conspiracy theory’ stuff and plays a very straight bat.

Even he told me:

Why would they do that, on Yom Yerushalayim, at the end of Ramadan, except as an act of deliberate provocation to the Arabs?

Exactly.

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Then also yesterday, my daughter told me an (unconfirmed…) story that in Israel’s airstrikes on Gaza, they ‘accidentally’ killed three small kids, and there is footage of that.

She said to me:

Everyone is going to really hate us now, and it’s going to go crazy….

Today – I can’t find that story anywhere.

Not even on ‘Israel-bashing’ websites like the BBC, which is so, so strange, to say the least.

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Because – for sure – if there is footage of Israeli bombs ‘accidentally’ killing three small kids in Gaza – well, hell-ooo match to light the fuse on the tinderbox.

In fact, you couldn’t dream up a better ‘match’ to light the fuse than that story, if you were hell-bent on starting another war in the Middle East, to save your job and the NWO plans for global domination and the ‘Great Reset’, that are being co-ordinated out of Israel.

But somehow…. it didn’t happen.

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This morning, I woke up (at 5am) to the worrying sounds of angry Arabs chanting something menacing over and over again a little way down the hill, close to my house.

(Which is close to the Temple Mount, close to the old ‘Green Line’, close to a lot of the ‘action’ that’s happening here in the Holy City.)

I lay in bed for five minutes kind of half-paralyzed with the fear that some group of crazy Arabs were going to come marching up the hill any minute, and start attacking Jewish homes.

Like mine.

God forbid, a trillion times over.

Then, I remembered that God is running the world, and that when a person is doing hitbodedut, that prevents harsh decrees from coming to the world.

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So, I did al natilat yadayim really fast, and then started my hour of hitbodedut.

The minute I began, the menacing chanting that had been going on for half an hour just stopped, and all I could hear was the chirping of dawn birds.

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Prayer is the answer.

Sincere, heart-felt prayer.

That’s how we get all this violence to go away, that’s how we stop all this madness, all this evil, from consuming the world.

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What’s going on right now in Israel is so, so strange.

If you follow the headlines, you can see how everything has been deliberately constructed over the last few weeks to lead us, ‘inevitably’, into another war with the Arabs.

They have done their level best over the last few weeks to create violence, strife and division in Israel, between all communities at all levels.

Jew vs Arab

Religious vs Secular

People who go to Meron vs People who don’t believe in going to Meron

The list goes on and on and on….

And yet, everything is being continually sweetened.

As fast as they create the ‘tinderbox’, the ‘explosive situation’, the ‘excuse for escalating things even higher’ – it somehow fades as fast as it appears.

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What’s going on here right now is totally abnormal, and clearly touching the realms of openly supernatural.

We’ll see what today brings, but right now in Jerusalem, there are no sirens – of police cars nor rockets – and all I can hear are birds chirping outside my window.

For sure, they aren’t done yet, and there will be more ‘deliberate provocations’.

But I don’t think they are going to be able to light the fuse this time around, no matter how hard they try.

And with each renewed attempt to stir things up, more people are seeing through the facade, and understanding that the people who are running the show here are really bad.

We only need a critical mass to open our eyes and understand that.

And once it happens – the evil will meltdown all by itself.

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PS: I’m still working on what happened in Meron, and I think I’ve found footage of the ‘mysterious barrier’ that blocked the left-hand exit out of Area 41.

It was hidden in plain view, as so many things are.

BH, I will do that post a little later on today, World War III notwithstanding.

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Prayer to avoid anger and slander against background of a snake

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UPDATE:

One of my readers, Ana, just sent me this via email, which I’m reproducing below:

Regarding the JPOST article you referenced in your most recent post (WATCH: Attempted lynching of Israeli driver during Jerusalem riots – The Jerusalem Post (jpost.com)), what’s with the photos?

They did a re-enactment?

The scene in the photos in no way depicts anything that happened in the video – not to mention that the Jew already has a bandage on his head and the blood looks very suspicious… and the article said that the two Jews were transported to the hospital.

They were transported after the photo op with the policeman or they went back later in the day to reenact it? Also notice the slick police interview embedded in that article.

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I have images blocked on most sites, including Jpost, so I didn’t see the fishy pictures.

Here’s what they show:

The driver of the car fighting with Arabs next to his car – with his head apparently already bandaged.

There’s also a ‘police hero’ shot of a cop ‘saving his life’ by taking out his gun and waving it around.

Whatever.

Go take a look yourselves, and see what it is you are really looking at, instead of just believing the ‘story’.

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So then, I asked my kid to check in with her friends in Maaleh Zeit – the community where all this is meant to have happened in Jerusalem – to see if anyone knows who the driver actually is.

Guess what?

No-one in Maaleh Zeit knows him.

But they think he’s a soldier serving in a regiment that’s somehow connected to the Rabbanut.

What a CO-IN-CID-ENCE.

I know that road pretty well, and unless you are going to visit someone in Maaleh Zeit, you just don’t drive down that bit. There is nowhere else to go except DEEP into Arab Jerusalem.

I know this, because two years I tried to figure out if it was a shortcut to anywhere and I got myself trapped up a mountain in the middle of a bunch of Arabs, where I had to reverse around corners, up hills, while half the street came out to watch.

NOT a fun experience.

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Other weird things that immediately struck me about that ‘lynch’:

Why were the frigging car doors unlocked?

I have a super basic 8 year old car – and it’s locks all the doors automatically when you start driving with central locking.

Even if you don’t have central locking (big if…) – you are being pelted by stones in an Arab neighborhood, you feel ‘trapped’ on the street, and NO-ONE in the car thinks to lock the doors?

Really?

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Also, how come not one of those many Arabs who got ‘run over’ at high speed can be seen anywhere in the area, or at least trying to limp away in slow motion?

Who gets mowed down by a car like that, and then just gets up and runs off?

And not just one, a few of them.

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And then, the driver of the car – with his forehead bandages that have no blood on them, and with his totally unbruised, unblemished face – even though there is apparently blood all over the front of his shirt – then goes back to his wrecked car for a photo shoot, holding massive bits of building tile that were apparently thrown at him?

People, are we really this dumb, to keep on falling for this stuff?

It’s giving the term ‘bad actor’ a whole new dimension.

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Lastly, let me remind you of this story, where two cops were caught dressing up as chareidim in Jerusalem a couple of weeks ago, titled:

Undercover cops dressed as chareidim attacked by Arabs in Jerusalem’.

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And now, tell me again:

WHO is lighting the fire in Jerusalem, and WHO is deliberately stirring the pot?

Here’s a clue, from 5:49am this morning:

Lapid and Bennett almost announced formation of gov’t

Security escalation prevented Yamina chairman and Yesh Atid chairman from asking President to swear in a government as early as next week.
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It’s hard to hang on at the moment.

Here in Israel, they are trying to take our minds off the State-sponsored murder of 45 people at Meron – and its subsequent cover up – by trying to start another war with the Arabs, this time focused on Har HaBayit and the Sheikh Jarrah neighborhood.

I live a 15 minute walk from Har HaBayit, and on Friday night I headed down there with one of my kids, to go and remind myself that Am Yisrael Chai v’kayam!!!

The whole walk down the ‘Derech HaShalom’ road was creepy.

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I literally didn’t see another person, or even another car, until I got to the bottom of the Mount Zion carpark entrance, where there were two Border Police standing.

These days, I find it very hard to relate to the police with anything but suspicion and dislike, and it’s a struggle for me to keep that out of my face, so I turned away from them and walked down the steps, behind the bus stops at the Dung Gate, to the entrance in the wall just before it.

Baruch Hashem, there were relatively a lot of people at the Kotel, still, and for the first time in a year, I could approach the wall with no barriers, no ‘corona stewards’, no time limits on how long I was allowed to stand there.

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I stayed five minutes, then turned around to come home.

I got to the pedestrian entrance next to the main Dung Gate, where the cars and buses drive out, to find that in the meantime, someone had blocked it up with a police-issue double gate.

I stared at it, totally perplexed, for a few seconds.

Ima, this is starting to be a bit creepy, my daughter stage-whispered to me.

How did they get this gate up so fast? And why are they blocking the exit?

I didn’t know the answer to either of those questions.

In the meantime, I took the opportunity – with my daughter – to see close up how these police double-gates work, and how they are impossible to ‘tip over’ when interlocked, and how you can only try to kind of move the standing gate forward or backwards, with a lot of pressure.

I came home with the idea I had to look into the gates at Meron a little closer.

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Mount Zion carpark was also now blocked off, with lots of red police tape.

There was just a very strange feeling in the air, and I turned and said to my daughter:

I hope they aren’t going to try and pull another ‘false flag’ stunt here tonight.

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The last few weeks, (months…. years….. decades…..) we’ve been bombarded by one manufactured, pre-meditated ‘crisis’ after another.

Remember the manufactured ‘Tik Tok Intifada, from a couple of weeks ago?

That didn’t take off as planned, and mushroom into a full-on war between Jews and Arabs in Israel, so then the government had to go back to the drawing board, to try to figure out something else.

Then we had more ‘manufactured panic’ about Iran and it’s nuclear weapon, with lots more sabre-rattling on both sides.

Then, we had the pre-meditated murder at Meron, which was meant to have been WAY WORSE then it actually turned out, thanks to some enormous miracles that prevented the bleachers that were held up with just one screw in the Toldos Aharon complex from collapsing.

If that had happened as planned, no-one would even have known that the only exit out had been deliberately blocked by the police.

And the Jewish religious world both in Israel and abroad would have been dealt an unspeakably heavy blow that would have taken at least a generation to recover from.

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Immediately afterwards, there was the ‘manufactured-to-order’ terrorist attack up in the Tapuach junction, that killed one young man and seriously injured two others.

But still, the ‘crisis’ didn’t ignite properly, to enable our dear leader to continue his dictatorship indefinitely, under the banner of a ‘serious security crisis’ that would sweep all such pesky details as not having a mandate to govern under the rug.

So now – we are back to the tried-and-tested formula of ‘violence on the Temple Mount’ and ‘rockets from Gaza’.

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It’s taken me years and years to realise this, but now it’s so obvious:

All of these things, all of these ‘crises’ and ‘wars’ and ‘conflicts’ and ‘disasters’ – they are all being planned and executed by exactly the same people.

Our leaders and politicians are just puppets, and the real power lies behind them.

And that ‘real power’ is the one who sets one people against another, and who invents mythical ‘Covid 19’ pandemics, and who orders rockets to be fired from Gaza, and airstrikes to be made in Syria, and Arabs to start rioting on the Temple Mount.

And Jews to be killed en masse, in Meron.

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I was discussing all this fake news, all this ‘manipulated reality’ with one of my friends, who like me, is finding it hard to hang on sometimes.

So much apathy… so much yeoush… so many lies being told, so little it seems we can do, to really fight against ‘the powers that be’ that have all the money, the connections, the clout.

When she told me this:

Rivka, I was reading the story of someone who was being crushed to death in Meron, and who almost gave up. He said later that he had a friend there on the wall, who was dripping water on to his head and telling him:

Just hang for one more minute! In one more minute, this will all be over! Just hang on one more minute!

And that’s what got him through.

And that’s what is going to get us through, too.

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I’m also here, trying to hang on one more minute, as the air around me fills with more police sirens and more ‘manufactured violence’ again.

After this Covid-19 year, after Meron, after all the other stuff we’ve all been going through, it’s very hard to keep going some days.

Some days, I just want to stop the world and get off, and go and find some quiet corner where I can just sit and wait out the rest of these ‘birth pangs of Moshiach’.

But then, I remind myself:

Just one minute.

Just hang on for one more minute, don’t give up.

Because salvation from all this evil is so very close.

And it comes in the blink of an eye.

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PS: I found video of the actor who was at Meron, whose ‘director’ asked me to hold his tripod while I was praying there last week.

It’s probably the worst acting I’ve seen in a very long time, honestly, and shortly after this clip at the ramp is when all those arguments started up.

When you watch this, you’ll see why.

As Rav Pinto said months ago, all the ‘news’ is bought and paid for.

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Today, I went for a walk around downtown Jerusalem for the first time in really a year.

I thought it was going to be so nice…. so amazing… so uplifting…. so fun.

I haven’t been for a walk like that around Jerusalem, without worrying about getting into arguments or fines for not wearing a mask outside, for literally a year.

The weather was perfect – sunny but not too hot.

I woke up early, popped off to the Kotel as part of my morning hitbodedut – which thank God is looking SO much free-er and almost normal – then decided to spend today window shopping in Jerusalem.

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I walked down there.

Perfect weather, nice walk.

I walked into a few of my old favorite shops – that haven’t closed down – and even bought some art stuff and a couple of dresses.

But.

Something is totally missing from the picture.

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I waited a year to do that walk, that way, with no masks (outside…), no worrying about police, no glaring at strangers on the street, or being glared back at, no tensing for big arguments with poor, delusional psychos who can’t think for themselves.

But when I got it today, it felt strangely flat.

So flat, that I cut it short, and called up my daughter to come pick me up.

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While I’m sitting by the side of the street, waiting for her to come, I call a good friend of mine.

She told me she’s feeling totally depleted, and also has no idea what her path is meant to be in the world.

Man, I can relate.

Last Thursday, I’d reached the end of my ‘carer of last resort’ rope, and was going nuts.

What does that mean, ‘carer of last resort’?

It means you are the person who washes up even when you don’t want to. Who cooks and grocery shops, even when you’ve had enough. Who hangs washing…. and more washing… and more washing…. even when the very last thing you want to do is hang up more washing.

But with Covid 1984 raging all year, and kids and husband underfoot way more than is normal or healthy, and non-stop demands on my time to keep on caring, even though my supply of ‘caring’ at an almost all-time low….

Well.

Last Thursday I just had to stop caring for a couple of days.

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Baruch Hashem, God arranged for my kids to go out for Shabbat, so I could keep the food super basic, and spend a good chunk of time just talking to God.

By myself.

Without worrying about the dishes in the sink, or the state of mind of my offspring, or sweeping the floor, or any of that stuff.

I could just BE, and talk to God.

It was just what I needed.

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So, back to Jerusalem, and today.

I think my trip out showed me that even though so much in Israel appears to have returned to ‘normal’ – whatever that means – really?

It’s totally changed.

The ‘buzz’ I used to get off the gashmius has gone. I shopped because I needed clothes. I walked because I need the exercise. I bought meat because we need to eat.

But none of those things are enlivening me, the way they used to in the past.

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My kids and their friends are also experiencing something similar, on their level.

Mahane Yehuda used to be a favorite past-time for them – they used to hang out there in the evening 3, 4 and even 5 nights a week.

Now?

They barely go once a week, and even, they aren’t really enjoying it very much and come home way earlier than they used to.

Ditto, with parties in the forest, and long days spent up north by some river.

It all sounds fun and amazing and just what you want to be doing.

But when you actually do it….

….it’s so flat.

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Like you, I feel so up in the air at the moment.

I don’t know what any of this means any more.

I don’t know what God wants from me.

I’m trying to hang on to my prayers, my hitbodedut, my religious observance, my mitzvot, as much as possible.

I don’t feel miserable.

I just feel so flat, and one-dimensional.

But kind of happy in that mode, at the moment.

At least for now.

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I guess, when God is ready, He’ll show me what He wants me to work on, to change, to do next.

But in the meantime, it’s the same message I got when I was stressed out of my head in Uman, for 3 weeks leading into Rosh Hashana 5781:

Just BE.

Just sit and BE.

For I am Hashem.

And Hashem has all this covered, one way or another.

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Apparently, there have been riots in Jerusalem.

I say ‘apparently’, because even though I live a 5 minute walk away from the Old City, in a mixed community with a lot of Arabs, I haven’t experienced anything out of the ordinary at all.

And I’ve been walking all over Jerusalem the last week.

It’s Ramadan at the moment, so there IS a lot of noise and fireworks (especially in the middle of the night…) but riots?

And other forms of ‘violence’ being reported (weirdly…) by all the news sites as apparently taking place in Jerusalem?

Well, I just ain’t seeing it myself.

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After Covid 1984, I have to say it’s getting easier and easier to spot the media manipulation in action.

It works like this:

  1. Stage a ‘riot’ between ‘fanatical extremist Jews’ and ‘fanatical extremist Muslims’ – what both groups are actually rioting about, no-one knows and no-one talks about.
  2. Shoot / stage some provocative video of these ‘riots’ including soundbytes like this: “Death to Arabs!”
  3. Run some stories of bins being set on fire by bored young teenaged chareidim, gangs of boys getting into fights with each other, and people sadly dying in traffic accidents where they ram into traffic lights under the misleading title of: ‘Another night of violence in Jerusalem’.
  4. Get Joe Biden to ‘worry’ about the ‘shocking scenes of violence’ coming out of Jerusalem.
  5. Kick the media manipulation into higher gear with pieces like this:

https://www.jpost.com/middle-east/escalation-over-jerusalem-is-how-wars-start-analysis-666229

6. Organise the ‘usual suspects’ to arrange a ‘counter protest, like this:

Following several days of violence and tensions in Jerusalem, a pro-peace protest was held in the capital on Saturday evening.

The protest, an initiative organized by the Peace Now NGO, was held at Jerusalem’s Zion Square in Jerusalem as a response to the “racist ideology” being spread across the city these past few days. The protest was attended by hundreds of people of all ages, all hoping to voice a clear opposition to violence, racism and incitement. 

7. Run stories about Syrians trying to bomb the Dimona Nuclear Reactor (it’s honestly hard to not laugh out loud typing this. If I wasn’t just bringing some real headlines from the last week, I’d be pulling a flunking grade for writing bad fiction.)

8. Encourage everyone to believe that ‘tensions are running high’ in Jerusalem, and that people here are living in a stage of siege.

9. (Presumably….) try to start World War 3 off the back of all this fake media manipulation, so King Bibi can stay in power for ever after all, and finish the job he started for Pfizer and the NWO.

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Are you starting to see how this all works?

And we’ve been falling for it for decades and decades and centuries and millenia.

But maybe, just maybe, the illusion is about to shatter.

Not just for ‘Covid 1984’ – but for all the rest of the lies, too.

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UPDATE:

My kids showed me some of the videos of Jews being attacked in Jerusalem.

I’m not saying it’s not happening – what I’m saying is that things are being stage-managed.

People are being ‘directed’ – like actors in a play – to go and attack Hareidim; to stage counter-protests; to come out with sound bites designed to fan the flames instead of calming them down.

There is an agenda going on here.

Why would Arabs start to riot now, when they are closer than they’ve ever been to actually getting some real political power in the Knesset? It just doesn’t make sense.

But if you have corrupt politicians trying to hang on to their top job as long as they can…. well.

There’s nothing like a war to ‘bring people together’ and to encourage them to form ‘unity governments’ that otherwise nobody wants.

At least, that nobody wants with Bibi in charge.

Just so much of the reporting is striking me as ‘off’ about all this….

But I guess we’ll wait and see what happens next.

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