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Yesterday, one of my friends sent me a message about a new booklet on Ahavat Yisrael, put out by Rav Arush.

Honestly?

I didn’t real feel so much like tracking it down to read it, but it appears God had other plans.

This morning, that booklet showed up in my house, so I grabbed it and took it off to the kever of the Saba Yisrael, where I was heading off to do some hitbodedut on the cause of my current bad mood.

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I get to the Saba, I find a step to sit down on, and I open the booklet ‘randomly’.

This is what I got to (pages 8-9 – my own free translation of Rav Arush’s words):

…But emuna that ‘hakol letova’ – everything is for the best, this is mamash not enough!

It’s not enough to believe that Hashem is righteous and yeshar (straight); rather, we are obligated to progress to the third level of emuna:

To seek out what Hashem wants from us, what is the message that He is sending us?

Because in everything that happens to a person, and to the world, there are ‘hints’ from Heaven, and a call from Hashem for us to come closer to Him, and to return in teshuva.

And whatever happens to us, it’s not a small hint, rather, it’s a loud call from Heaven, to all of us, to save ourselves….

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….Whoever says ‘hakol letova’, ‘the holy ones will sweeten all the dinim (judgments) from off of us, and cancel out all the decrees’ – or all sorts of other sentences of ’emuna’ like this, and he is satisfied with this, and he continues on his way with his life, without waking up, and without making teshuva, and without any cheshbon nefesh (self-searching) –

So first of all, this person doesn’t have any connection at all to emuna!

He doesn’t really believe that ‘hakol letova’, because the biggest good is when a person wakes up.

And a person who doesn’t wake up, he’s not just someone who ‘doesn’t believe’, rather, he’s a person who is blocked and cruel, and who wraps up all his own opacity in empty words.

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Whoever doesn’t search for the message, and who doesn’t want to change, with all his strength – he isn’t just ‘insensitive’, and he’s not just ‘old’ – but we’re really talking about a person who is dead.

Because even an old person feels something, when they kick him. There are things that even the most insensitive person still feels.

Only a dead person doesn’t feel anything.

Whoever isn’t shaken to the very depth of his soul [when bad things happen], he’s in a situation of being deeply ‘frozen’.

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So, I read this, and suddenly I understood why I’ve been feeling so down the last couple of days.

It’s because I’ve been trying to communicate with people who are basically dead, from the soul up.

All those people who can’t get why I’m so upset with what’s happening with 5G and poisonous Covid shots… And who think I should calm down, as hundreds of thousands of people worldwide get killed and injured – pointlessly – because they believe all the lies they’re being told by the media and the drs and the government… And who don’t think it’s a ‘big deal’ that graphene oxide smart dust is literally in everything we eat and drink, not to mention medications, cosmetics and also smeared all over face masks….

Well.

They’re effectively dead.

That’s why I’m not getting very far, no matter how much solid evidence I bring on this blog, no matter how much sourced and verified information I share here.

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Now that I have this crucial piece of information, I can see why I’m feeling down and angry.

I’ve been taken out by all the apathy, condescension, denial, fake ’emuna’, and self-righteousness of the spiritual walking-dead.

I don’t have a problem, that all this stuff is upsetting me.

All the spiritual zombies out there have a problem – a massive spiritual problem – that it’s not upsetting THEM anywhere near as much as it should be.

And now we have that all nice and clear, I’m feeling way, way happier again.

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PS: I read this in the ‘Advice’ book over Shabbat, (No.10, in the chapter called ‘Tzaddik’):

“Make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy, and shut their eyes; lest they, seeing with their eyes and hearing with their ears and understanding with their heart, return and be healed (Isiaiah 6:10).

Before a person draws close to the Tzaddik, his heart is fat, his ears are heavy etc. This means that his heart and ears are shut and his eyes are blind to the truth.

He is unable to come to his senses and return to God.

But when he binds himself to the Tzaddikim and follows their guidance, his heart, his eyes and his ears are opened. He sees, hears and understands the truth and becomes worthy of returning to God.”

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An hour before Succot began, I went for a stroll around the neighborhood, with my husband.

***Very important updates below***

It was nice to see how many succahs had popped up all over the place, even in my hood, which is really not known for being very observant.

Five minutes from home, we saw a guy from shul up a ladder, painting out the light of one of the lamp-posts right next to his home.

What are you doing, is that a 5G lamp-post?! I called out to him.

It must be! He told me. There is something really ‘off’ with the light, it’s so bright I can’t take it.

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On the way home, I noticed that more of these new ‘blade style’ 5G lights had been fitted to the old lamp-posts in our neighborhood.

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

I started to worry.

When did that happen?

My kid told me they came round the neighborhood and replaced the old tops of the lamp-posts four days ago.

Was it in the middle of the night? I asked her, incredulous as to how I could have missed this.

Apparently, yes it was.

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I came home, and started googling stuff about 5G again.

Maybe, that wasn’t the best thing to have done an hour before Succot began.

I got to THIS article, from healthimpactnews.com (which is being heavily censored and even blocked…) called:

Weaponising 5G and Nanotechnology: How do we protect ourselves?

And then, I got to THIS article:

Will nanotechnologies and the 5G network become the most powerful weapons system the world has ever seen?

And then, half an hour before Succot, I found myself watching some guy in Canada who was trying to teach me how to make an ‘anti-nanotechnology’ bucket, to detox from all this stuff:

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I started to feel pretty ill.

My husband came over.

What are you watching?

I started guiltily.

Um, I’m watching some guy in Canada who is teaching you how make this kind of ‘electric bucket’ thing, that helps your body to detox from all the nanotech… I told him.

This stuff is in everything… The food, the water, the plants, the challah.

And now they’ve put a 5G lamp-post right outside my house, and I’m scared they are going to start frying our brain cells alive….

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I could tell we were going to have a ‘tin foil hat’ conversation again.

But in the meantime, I started to feel so trapped in this world where I can’t throw out my computer, can’t switch off my wireless, can’t totally rid my house of evil phones and evil tablets.

Then, I remembered our Succah was sitting right outside, bathed in the ‘rays’ of the evil 5G lamp-post, and my heart sank.

Long story short, I totally didn’t go into Succot with the right frame of mind.

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Succot morning, I decided I had to do some serious hitbodedut about what was going on.

I can’t make an ‘anti-nano bucket’, nor an ‘anti-nano triangle’.

At the same time, this explanation of what’s going on with all this nanotech felt intuitively ‘right’ to me:

How do These Devices Deprogram Nano?

Tony Pantalleresco explains:

They create a DC electric pulse. We use a DC power supply to create a field in the bucket or bathtub. Some power supplies have a cut-off mechanism where they turn on and off. This creates a mini electromagnetic pulse (EMP). The EMP overloads the programing of the nano materials and wipes it clean for a while. 

The idea is when the field hits the programing it disengages it, then without the programming the nano materials just become inert nano substances such as nano-metal which can then more easily be flushed out of the body. The gentle pulsing of the field first disengages the programing, which is designed to build, construct, and network. 

The second thing you are doing is to make nano substances collide.

Nano particles are 1 nano-second apart – they don’t touch each other. They know where to go and how to flow. They know what part of the equation they fit into, and they fall in place. As they assemble up they do not interfere with one another. The moment you make them touch each other they take themselves out.

You have substances that are 3 times harder than diamond and a hundred times stronger than steel that have a charge. When they touch each other it is like a major explosion in the nano world. When two collide it has adverse effects on the network that they are in. It is like a line of dominos. You hit one and a hundred of them will fall. 

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These articles about bio-nanotech were written 2,3 and even 4 years ago.

But they are describing exactly how the research papers say this stuff is meant to be working in situ.

So this morning, I had a big chat with God about all this, and what He wants from me.

God, do you want me to be making a ‘nano-bucket’?

The answer came back negative.

I’m scared of this 5G lamp-post they just put right next to my house, God. I’m feeling very powerless to fight all this ‘bad’ again. What do you want from me, God?

The answer came back very fast:

Don’t be scared of anything except ME, Rivka. And pray for all this nanotech to start breaking up.

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Way back when, I used to do – and share – a lot of visualisations for mental and physical health.

These are very powerful techniques, not least because the human brain can’t distinguish between something you ‘imagine’ and something you actually experience, in the moment, which is why dreams always feel so real.

So, I decided to ‘create’ an anti-nanotech visualisation for myself.

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It’s very simple.

I just pictured Hashem’s ineffable name – the YKVK, in Hebrew – kind of making a ‘lightning storm’ anywhere where I felt maybe some nanotech had lodged.

Like, my magnetic clavicles.

And my magnetic temples.

And also, all over my stomach, too, which has honestly been feeling ‘weird’ and not quite right for years, now.

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I just pictured Hashem’s ineffable name creating a lightning storm at just the right frequency, to take this stuff out, and reduce it back to inert material, that the body can then naturally flush out.

I honestly don’t know if it worked, on the physical level.

But I can tell you that at the emotional and spiritual level, I started to feel way, way happier again.

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Life is very scary at the moment.

When that 5G lamppost showed up literally on my doorstep this week, it really brought it home to me that I am up against a regime that is really trying to control and / or kill me and my family.

I have no say in what’s happening on my own doorstep.

I have no where I can run to, to escape this ‘technology’.

So my only recourse is to take it all back to God, and give it all back to Him to deal with.

Ein Od Milvado.

Even all this evil ‘bio-nanotech’ I’m eating and breathing and drinking all the frigging time actually is just a part of God’s creation.

So, I’m trying to take it back to Him, to deal with it.

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One other thing I realised today is the incredible importance of saying the brachot over our food and drink with at least a  bit of kavana, (proper intention).

Today, I really internalised that when I say my blessings carefully, I am also ‘elevating’ my food and drink, and hopefully neutralising anything in that stuff that isn’t good for me.

Mamash, I haven’t been this careful about saying my blessings over food and drink for a very long time.

I hope it lasts.

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It’s very tempting to go the ‘foil hat’ route, sometimes.

I also used to mock those people who believed that the government was experimenting on them with ‘mind control’ techniques that ‘beamed stuff into their brains’ as demented lunatics.

Not any more.

The more I learn about bio-nanotech, graphene oxide, and its links to 5G, the more I realise that most of these people were way, way ahead of the curve.

But as a Jew, I know it’s the power of prayer that’s going to get me through all this in one piece, and not the ‘nano bucket’ (or the foil hat…)

But if anyone out there wants to start taking down these 5G lampposts in the meantime… be my guest.

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UPDATE:

I am trying to verify if this ‘new look’ lamp post outside my house is really 5G – and that’s proving surprising difficult to do.

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

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It’s very hard to track down information about what the ‘5G’ equipment actually looks like, in real life, presumably bcause they don’t want people to go out and wreck it, once they understand how bad it is for their health, to be near it.

I found this, from 2016 (shmirat eynayim friendly):

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I also know that putting 5G in / on lamp-posts is definitely a real ‘thing’, and that ‘5G lamp-posts’ are being rolled out all over the world.

For example, this video is of George Street, downtown Sydney, from July 2019. (It’s not shmirat eynayim friendly, so underneath there are a couple of screenshots of the relevant parts.)

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Screenshots:

This one shows what these 5G lamp-posts in Sydney look like, with the round cylinder on top.

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And this one shows that the EMF radiation on George Street, Sydney is well ABOVE even the maximum public exposure level set by the corrupt WHO.

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But my new, LED-light lamp-post doesn’t look anything like that.

So I carry on looking around, which is when I get to THIS website, which has links to a bunch of ‘Smart Lamp-post’ specifications, straight from the manufacturers.

If you go HERE, you’ll find the ‘smart LED lamp-post’ being produced by a company called OrangeTek, screenshot of their PDF below.

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This model looks very similar to what just turned up on my street:

One of the new 5G lampposts on my street in Jerusalem.

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This creepy video pushing ‘Smart Lighting’ comes from a company called iNELS, from 2017.

It’s shmirat eynayim friendly, and explains this idea of ‘smart lighting’ – which if it’s correct, means I’m breaking shabbat everytime I walk past one of these things on a Friday night and it ‘brightens’ as a result….

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These screenshots show how these Smart LED lights are meant to function.

This first one shows where the WIFI connected control unit is, behind the LED strip at the front of the light:

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This second one shows how the ‘connectivity’ with these lights are controlled by a central command:

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What’s an ‘RTS’ tower?

I’m also wondering that. Apparently, it stands for “Remote Tower Systems”.

[Update: I misread that, it actually says ‘BTS’, which is the old-fashioned, unmistakeable 4G towers. Clearly, God wanted this over information ‘out there’ instead…]

On the first pass, all I can find is stuff about ‘Remote Tower Systems for Airports’, which doesn’t seem to fit with lamp-posts on my street…

So then I try again, this time including ‘5G’ – and THIS is what comes up, a very balanced and informative article about the technology being used for 5G, from the Shieldyourbody.com website.

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Here’s the relevant snippets:

Massive MIMO

Another way that 5G accelerates internet connections is using something called MIMO.

MIMO stands for “multiple-input, multiple-output”. It refers to antenna systems that are designed to coordinate communication to simultaneously send data over the same channel.

MIMO has been part of prior cellular networks. But remember 5G is designed to accommodate many more connections sending much more data. And one way they do that is with massive MIMO.

A standard MIMO might include four to eight antennas. To accommodate the data transmission requirements of 5G, new 5G cell phone towers will include ‘massive’ 128-antenna arrays.

Beamforming

Beamforming is another key technology used alongside MIMO to support the dizzying speeds of 5G. In fact, the terms beamforming and massive MIMO (or mMIMO) are often used interchangeably.

Beamforming is the technology that works with mMIMO to “aim” the cell signal. It focuses the wireless transmission from the 5G tower in a specific direction, rather than blasting in all directions with equal power.

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Let me plain English this for you.

Massive MIMO can send many different signals, remotely, to many different devices simultaneously, and each ‘device’ can be signalled to do something different.

So, if my ‘Smart LED Lamp-post’ is connected to a massive MIMO network, it can be sent a signal telling it to start emitting all sorts of different directed energy waves…. at my home.

Remember, that our thoughts, emotions and physical processes are all fundamentally controlled by electro-magnetic ‘waves’.

This is very scary stuff.

 

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If you go HERE, you’ll find a description of what these ‘massive MIMO’ antenna arrays look like.

I’ve screenshotted that below:

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When I was walking back from the Kotel on Succot, I noticed one of these ‘hidden’ on the roof of the Mount Zion Hotel.

So, another piece of the puzzle falls into place.

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So, back to my 5G streetlight.

I’m very sensitive to energy, and apart from the awful LED light, it seems to me the technology hasn’t been ‘switched on’ yet, because if it had, I’d ‘feel’ it probably immediately.

We have a small window of opportunity, to understand what’s going on here, and to make the teshuva required to derail it before we get to the next stage of ‘the plan’.

This all totally ties in with the nanotech graphene oxide shots, and smart dust, and the ‘Internet of Things‘ – and a lot of other things I’ve been writing about on the blog, for a while now.

It ties in to the weird-named ‘Covid 19 variants’. It ties into DARPA’s ‘Directed Energy Weapons‘ and mind control agendas.

And of course, all this ultimately ties into geula and redemption.

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Of course, you don’t have to take my word for it – and you shouldn’t.

Research this yourself, every which way you can, so you can really start to tell the difference between ‘truth’ and ‘lies’.

Take responsibility for yourself, for your life, for your health, do the real hishtadloos required, to get through this stage in one piece.

In the meantime, let me leave you with this:

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It’s a 5 minute talk entitled Neuroweapons. Directed Energy Weapons. Brain Implants, by a real person, a neuroscientist named Dr James Giordano, from February 2019.

PLEASE, PLEASE, take the time to listen to it.

Here’s a screenshot of his (cached…) bio, which has otherwise been scrubbed of the net:

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The highlighted bit reads:

He is Senior Science Advisory Fellow of the Strategic Multilevel Assessment Group, Joint Staff/J-2, Deputy Director for Global Operations at the Pentagon, and an appointed member of the Neuroethics, Legal and Social Issues Advisory Panel of the Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency (DARPA).

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Here’s some screenshots from his talk.

Remember, this stuff isn’t just being tried out on ‘terrorists in Eye-rak’, or Al Kaida in Syria… it’s first and foremost being used against the global elite’s biggest enemy of all: you and me.

Pay particular attention to that last thing, where DARPA employee Giordano describes how they can use nanotech to induce a ‘stroke epidemic’ in the population.

At the 1 minute 30 second marks, he starts to talk about different ways you can use ‘directed energy’ to affect the health of the brain, and explains more about some of DARPA’s ongoing programs, including the N3 program.

I’m going to bring the rest of his comments below.

They are shocking in the extreme.

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[N3] is a non-invasive, neuro-surgical modulation program, being run their program manager Dr Al Lundy.

The idea here is to put minimal-sized electrodes in a network within the brain to [enable] minimal intervention to be able to read and write into the brain function, in real time, remotely…

I can disrupt an individual from the level of their cell to their system, and disrupt individuals on a variety of levels, and disrupt individuals all the way up to the social fabric. Target a specific individual. Change or eliminate that individual with very little attribution or trace….

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 We also see the use of biodata as a bioweapon.

Manipulating biodata, so that I can then put into your particular medical records subtle information that may change the disposition of whether your sick, or not. Change how you’re treated. Influence the postures that go to you in terms of insurance, care, viability for military service. 

By altering that information, by changing those data, by promoting that data, I essentially change the ‘you’ of you.

And I can do that in very subtle and insidious ways…. If I change those data, I can change the way you are regarded and treated. And I can do that in one of two ways: I can do it in such a way that you’re going to be regarded, in a negative sense. Or I can do it in such a way that they’re going to treat you incorrectly.

If I say, for example, that you have a particular allergy, or a particular disorder, you’ll be treated for that. And that could then harm your health and your stability….

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One of the newest developments is that nanoparticulate matter can be stabilised for distribution.

If you’re not aware of what nanoparticulate matter is, it’s that matter that exists on the scale of 1 x 10 to the minus 9. Very, very small. Smaller than a cell. 

And we can manufacture materials that have discrete properties that can be controlled by virtue of bio-engineering and their physical chemistry.

I can create small robotic units, controllable robotic units at the nanoscale, and then these too can be ‘aerosol-ised’, to create a nano-swarm of bio-penetrable materials that you cannot see, that can penetrate all but the most robust bio-chemical filters; that are able to integrate themselves into a variety of membranes  – mucous membranes in wherever, mouth, nose, ears, eyes.

Can then be up-taken into the vascular system to create clumping.

Can affect the vascular system of the brain,  or can directly diffuse into the brain space. And these can be weaponised.

And it can be done at such a level, that their presence is almost impossible to detect. And as such, the attribution becomes exceedingly difficult to demonstrate. 

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There is it, spelled out as clearly as you can get, by a guy who works for DARPA and who is also the Deputy Director for Global Operations at the Pentagon.

That nanotech ‘clumping’ in the vascular system, described by Giordano, is what’s causing the heart attacks, the thrombi, the clots, the strokes – and of course, the other weird breathing difficulties and lung issues otherwise known as ‘Covid 19’.

I rest my case.

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Don’t despair!

I know this stuff is very heavy, believe me, I know.

But there is still time – ample time – to turn all this around. We just need to pull our heads out of the sand, and start to work together to figure out how to wrest ‘control’ back from these horrible people, and to give it back to God.

Prayer, teshuva and charity have always worked to overturn the decree, and this is no different.

Just don’t go into denial or despair about what is happening.

God and His tzaddikim will pull through for us, I promise.

But first – we have to stop being part of the problem, pushing the fake ‘Covid 19’ masking / vaxxing cack on people, and start being part of the solution.

TBC

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Sometimes when we’re in the middle of tremendous suffering, the hardest thing of all is that feeling that we are totally alone in our misery.

For all of us there comes that point of truth, that very narrow bridge to cross, where no-one else can ‘fit’ in the moment except us.

There is no room for friends, parents, siblings – and often, not even spouses.

I’ve written about this idea before, but the path that leads into the ‘world of truth’, and that place of true humility and teshuva, and ultimately, to complete redemption, is a very lonely one.

And this is how it has to be.

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Yesterday, I was talking to an old friend of mine, who helped me buy groceries when we mamash ran out of money, a few years’ ago.

She was one of the very, very few people that stayed with me, while I was going through years and years of difficulties, suffering and extreme loneliness.

That process taught me a lot, not least about my own capacity to endure, and the importance of speaking to God every single day, for an hour if possible.

And it also taught me the limitations of human relationships.

Even when people love us, and we love them, sometimes the situation is just so crushing, the pain is just so great, that there is nothing anyone else can do to help, or change things around.

And that’s when you are dealing with truly caring, empathetic people, who really do want to help.

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In my life back then, I discovered that most of the people I was hanging out with at that point really didn’t fit in that category.

It was a very difficult process of birur, and for years and years and years, I carried a profound sense of sadness around, that I just couldn’t seem to ‘connect’ to so many of those around me in a real way, and that I seemed to spend so much of my time alone, operating in a completely different world.

Now I’m seeing, it was great training for ‘Covid 19’ times.

Not least, because I had so much time to myself, that I could literally spend hours and hours talking to God.

Because I had no-one else to talk to, anyway.

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So, I was talking to my friend yesterday, and she was telling me how ‘alone’ she’s feeling at the moment.

She isn’t ‘vaccinated’, has no intention of getting ‘vaccinated’ – but is getting increasingly worn down by the people around her, who apparently believe the news 100%; believe the government 100%, and keep trying to manipulate and guilt her into ‘doing her hishtadloos‘ for her health and her family.

The days we do hitbodedut, and connect to God and the true tzaddikim, are the days we can easily stand up to all the propaganda, see through the lies, and not break in the face of an onslaught of manipulative, mentally-ill guilt tactics.

And the days we don’t….

Are really hard.

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While I was talking to my friend, I happened to mention that all those years spent in Rav Berland’s corner were also excellent training for what’s going on now.

Then too, I had to stand up for what I believed in – and had exhaustively researched – while everyone around me was literally telling me to my face I was a gullible fool.

Then too, I had to get into the habit of pressing ‘pause’ on the media’s manipulative and deceptive headlines, and avoid jumping to conclusions about what was really going on with the Rav, to dig a bit deeper and verify the truth.

Which brings me, the long way around, to the ikker of today’s post.

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A couple of days’ ago, after hours of hearings about the Covid 19 shots, the FDA decided to NOT approve the ‘third shot’ for anyone under the age of 65.

Of course, Israel has been ‘force vaxxing’ its citizens with the third dose for weeks already, using coercive tactics and lying propaganda, so the corrupt government here found itself really on the back foot with this decision, and scrambling to ‘explain’ why Covid 19 is apparently so different in Israel, than it is in America.

Before we continue, you really should understand what the testimony presented in the US uncovered about the safety and efficacy of these shots.

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BH, another good friend H. just sent me this, which sums things up very nicely:

I urge you to share this with every doctor, rabbi and community leader you know.

This is very concerning and very real. Do not let them blow you off.

Let them know that listening to another opinion costs nothing, hurts no one and does not make you a conspiracy theorist.

It may actually save countless lives.

This meeting was regarding the approval of the boosters (which thankfully did not happen on a broad scale) but the data shared in this clip is regarding the overall vaccine program and MUST be heard!

The FDA’s 67th virtual vaccines and related biological products advisory committee just held this meeting less than 24 hours ago and they have presented data that admits to everything we have warned about over the last 17 months and for some of us over the last 7 years +….

The full 8 hour presentation is on YouTube.

[This starts at the crucial part of the discussion, screenshots below].

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Summary:

  • Are the shots effective? No.

  • Are they causing deaths? Yes.

  • Are they causing menstrual problems? Yes.

  • Are they causing pregnancy issues? Yes.

  • Do they reduce death? NO!

  • Do they reduce hospitalization? NO!

  • Are they connected to causing the new variants? YES.

  • Are they less effective than natural immunity? YES!

  • Are those who are unvaccinated MORE informed than those who are vaccinated? YES. 

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Here’s some screenshots and direct quotes from Steve Kirsch (Executive Director of the Covid 19 Early Treatment Fund).

His presentation, begins around the 4hr 20 min mark.

“We were led to believe that vaccines are perfectly safe. But this is simply not true.”

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“VAERS shows heart attacks happen 71 times more often, following these [Covid 19] vaccines, compared to any other vaccine.”

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[Statistical analysis by a number of different experts shows] “We kill two people [with the vaccines] to ‘save’ one life.”

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[Four different experts found] “There are 411 deaths per million doses. That translates into 150,000 people have died.”

(Ed. note – that’s just in America…. And that’s just the deaths that occurred very soon after having the shots…)

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[Referring to data about people aged 90+, from the Israel Ministry of Health]:

“In the most optimistic scenario, it means that 50% of the vaccinated group died, and zero percent of unvaccinated people died. Unless you can explain that to the American public, you cannot approve the boosters.”

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[Talking about Maddie de Garay, a teenager who participated in the Pfizer trials]:

“Now she is paralysed for life. And there is no investigation. Please tell us why this fraud was not investigated.”

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“Early treatments are a much better alternative to boosters. In Israel, cases are at an all-time high. In India, Uttar Pradesh is almost totally Covid 19 free. Almost nobody there is vaccinated.”

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There are 8 hours of information and input from real experts, real doctors, real researchers, with access to real, verifiable information on the efficacy and safety of the Covid 19 ‘vaccines’, HERE.

As a result of being presented with that information, even the totally corrupt FDA has now pressed ‘pause’ on the Covid 19 vaccines.

What does that tell you, about how even more corrupt the government of Israel, and our media, and our health establishment is?

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When this bombshell information came out, the State of Israel -and the media propagandists that work for it – went into urgent ‘damage limitation’ mode.

Yesterday’s headlines were full of fake news of all these ‘young people’ – all unnamed, of course – who are apparently totally unvaccinated, and dying of Covid 19.

How can we explain this? My friend wanted to know yesterday.

Without researching it in depth, here is what I told her:

  1. This government, the Health Ministry and the media are lying about everything.

You think they are honestly telling us the truth about anything to do with ‘Covid 19’? Because I don’t.

2. Even before ‘Covid 19’, there were young-ish people who were getting sick and hospitalised for a bunch of different reasons, and some of those people even died.

Just now, no-one in Israel can apparently die from anything except ‘Covid 19’.

3. The government has changed the definition of ‘unvaccinated’ to include people who have had one shot, two shots – or even, people who had a third shot, but died within 2 weeks of getting it, hence labelled ‘unvaccinated’. 

Of course, that 2 week ‘rule’ was introduced to magically transform an adverse reaction to the ‘vaccine’ that resulted in death, to a ‘lack of protection from Covid 19’.

4. If you put a person with healthy lungs on a ventilator, you can explode their lungs and kill them.

Which means that many of the people going into hospital for treatment are literally and deliberately being killed by people within the medical establishment, to boost the number of ‘Covid 19’ deaths.

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There are probably many other things to say here, including how our governments are using totally unidentifiable ‘crisis actors’, who give long interviews apparently from their death beds all saying the same thing:

I wasn’t vaccinated, and now (immediately after doing this interview in full make-up on Tik-Tok, without even being intubated….) I’m going to die tomorrow from Covid. I WISH I’D GOT VACCINATED!!!!

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(It’s a post for another time, but if you go HERE, you’ll see a recent video with three ‘Covid Crisis Actors’ in Australia.

At least one of them, Ramona Khoury is definitely an actress. The Daily Mail tries to debunk this by saying the person in the video is really one ‘Ramona El-Nachar’, a pharmacist. Guess what? ‘Ramona El-Nachar’ seems to be failing the ‘real person’ test. I can’t find a trace of her online – but if you can, I’d love you to share the information, so we can keep track of what’s really going on here.)

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If you look past the ‘spin’, and all the deceptive headlines, the information about what is really going on here is hidden in plain sight.

Like THIS, from July 2021, from the UK:

Most COVID deaths in England now are in the vaccinated – here’s why that shouldn’t alarm you

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Or THIS, from Israel, back on August 8, 2021:

Israel: No difference between vaccinated and unvaccinated; both are at the same risk of contracting COVID

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So, if being ‘vaccinated’ doesn’t reduce your risk of catching ‘Covid 19’…. and being ‘vaccinated’ makes you 71 times m ore likely to have a fatal heart attack…. and if two people die from the ‘vaccine’ for everyone supposedly saved by it….

You tell me.

What’s the best hishtadloos you can do, to stay healthy?

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It boils down to this.

Covid 19 is bringing everyone’s secret (and not so secret) bad middot to the fore.

Covid mask / vaccine bullies with narcissistic tendencies were ALWAYS bullies with narcissistic tendencies.

Covid hyperchondriacs who ran to the doctor and meds to ‘protect them’ from their own fears and anxiety were ALWAYS hyperchondriacs.

Covid manipulators who try to ‘guilt’ everyone into getting vaccines, and who ‘blame’ everyone else for getting sick, were always emotional manipulators who use guilt and blame to control the people around them.

And Covid ‘people pleasers’, who are willing to impale themselves on a toxic needle-tip just to keep the people around them ‘happy’…. Well. They were always ‘people pleasing’ in a way that half-killed them, even before Covid 19 showed up.

But it’s time for all that to change, now.

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Tonight, begins the holiday of Sukkot.

I don’t know if ‘the next stage’ of this geula process is going to start at the end of this Sukkot holiday, or whether it’s going to continue until Chanuka, or whether the Rav, Rav Berland, has to be fully released, before that next stage begins in earnest.

But begin it will.

Covid 19 is only about working on our bad middot, and getting closer to God.

It’s a very lonely, difficult process, I know.

But at the end, you finally cross that narrow bridge to humility, peace of mind and real emuna.

And that’s when life really starts to be worth living, again.

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Is it OK to take dodgy new ‘medicines’ because God is going to decide if we’re going to die, anyway?

At the bottom of THIS post, an interesting discussion developed in the comments section, and I’m bringing parts of it here, into its own post, and expanding it, because there are some fundamental issues here that need addressing.

As always, this is NOT about trying to make ourselves ‘right’ and others ‘wrong’.

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and free choice is paramount. We can’t force others to accept our views – about anything! – and we shouldn’t be trying to.

That said, ‘personal opinion’ and ‘cold, hard fact’ are often conflated, as we all have blind spots and biases, and selectively pick and choose the things we read and watch, and the things we believe, to support our underlying bias.

And I also do that too, hard as I try not to.

It’s human nature.

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What helps here is to remember the ‘100%-0%- rule of discussion and disagreement.

That rule basically states that no-one is 100% right, or 100% wrong, and that the truth can always be found on both sides of the discussion or argument, even if it ends up being a 99%-1% split.

That 1% of truth is still valuable, and it’s part of this ongoing birur process, to bring it out and acknowledge it, when we hear it in other people’s arguments, or view points, that contradict our own.

So with all these caveats out the way, let’s dive in.

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First, here’s Devorah’s comment, which sparked this post:

Quarantine camps are not concentration camps.

Australia is an island, they have gone to a great deal of trouble to keep us Covid free, obviously that didn’t work out, hence the lockdowns.

Those ”camps” are just in case we are swamped with Covid and there is nowhere to isolate people and the hotels/hospitals are all full.

So far we have not needed anything like that. It was a ‘worst case’ scenario. I can assure all of you that we are very safe here, and sometimes I think everyone is just looking for disasters to happen to fit in with their own scenarios.

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I’ve read some dreadful and ridiculous things about Australia on the internet.

I’ve seen a video of a child apparently being wrenched from her parents and forced to take the vaccine. No idea what that was about as children here are not vaccinated at all. They have just started to allow vaccines for 12-15 year olds, but they are voluntary. No vaccine is forced on anyone, certainly not children.

While there are some conditions attached to people who choose to not vaccinate, such as travel…. those conditions seem to be consistent with the rest of the world. So of course anyone who wants to travel will get the vaccine.

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I don’t believe that the vaccine is a conspiracy.

It’s a new vaccine, it hasn’t been tested properly obviously People have died from it and people have gotten sick from it. But I don’t believe anyone dies unless Hashem decreed they should die, and had they not received the vaccine, they would have died anyway either from Covid or something else.

Isn’t that what the Torah teaches us? No-one dies unless it is decreed in Heaven? Even a suicide needs permission from Heaven to actually die.

Correct me if I’m wrong here please.

I don’t know what is really going on, but I do know that whatever is happening is sanctioned by Hashem, as a preparation for Geula.

So I am not worried about it, and I’m not losing any sleep, this is how Hashem wants things to be to prepare the world for Moshiach.

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Here’s what I responded – and I’m going to expand on this, below, as this is part of a very important spiritual birur:

You are raising some interesting points.

I think at least some of what we’re all being fed by the media in relation to ‘anti vaxxers’ is definitely ‘staged’.

I.e. in Israel, hard as it is, I’ve seen videos of police violently ‘arresting’ chareidi women in supermarkets, and it strikes me that this is Government-designed propaganda to ‘scare’ everyone else in chareidi supermarkets into wearing a mask without resisting.

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The chareidi supermarkets I shop in seem to be very laid back about masks – increasingly so, Baruch Hashem.

And even the crazy ‘mask fascist’ supermarkets I have shopped in formerly never got the police involved. So there does seem to be a strong element of deliberate disinformation going on, which is why it’s useful to pool information from people on the ground who are not working for the Deep State, or MSM.

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That said, I can’t agree with your comments that this is a vaccine – it isn’t.

It doesn’t prevent transmission, and it doesn’t prevent infection. And it doesn’t contain any attenuated ‘virus’. These are the basic requirements for something to be considered a ‘vaccine’, according to scientific and medical definitions that have been in play for decades, so whatever this IS, it’s not a ‘vaccine’.

It’s an experimental gene therapy – and again, this isn’t ‘conspiracy’, this is plain, hard fact.

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Also, it’s hard to see why camps of any nature should be set up for a disease that has a 99.5% of surviving for ANYONE, even geriatrics with co-moribidities.

Nor why masks should be forced on a population when they a) don’t prevent transmission of anything and b) actually cause decreased de-oxygenation of the blood (and never mind the stress and psychological damage, which is also through the roof.)

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That biotoxic graphene oxide is being used to coat many of these masks is also clearly and openly admitted – not least, by the companies who are manufacturing these products in their hundreds of millions – and so is also not in the realm of ‘conspiracy’, but cold, hard fact.

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The second part of this discussion – the spiritual one about no-one dying unless Hashem decrees it – goes to the heart of deep spiritual questions about free choice, and personal responsibility. 

The short answer is that I think the approach you set out above is based on ‘false emuna’.

We are totally responsible for ourselves and our health. Someone can’t take drugs, or eat fried mars bars for breakfast every day, or go for a run in the middle of the highway and say ‘I’m not responsible for any bad outcome here, it’s God who decides if I’m going to die.’

God IS running the whole world, Ein Od Milvado. But there is still reward and punishment for our choices, both in this world and the next.

And while God gives us ‘permission’ to go against His divine will, so that free choice can exist, we are still ‘rewarded’ for really doing what He wants, and punished for doing the opposite.

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So now, let’s explore this idea of ‘reward and punishment’ and free choice a little more.

Long-term readers of this blog probably know that I spent many years in a state of ‘false emuna’.

We had a fake ‘rabbi’ a few years’ back who told my husband that God was responsible for our parnassa, so he should basically quit his job, and just pray for God to send him his income.

This sounded correct spiritually, because Ein Od Milvado – and it’s a basic tenet of belief that our parnassa IS decided on Rosh Hashana by Hashem, and that it’s going to come to us one way or another, regardless of what we do.

(See, all these false emuna arguments work the same way…)

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So, my husband jacked in the well-paying job that he was anyway hating, and started doing six hours of hitbodedut a day, for God to send us income direct.

Within three months, we’d totally run out of money, and we had days where I couldn’t buy food or toilet paper.

We ended up having to sell our house just to be able to live.

And my husband got so ‘burnt’ by his ‘fake emuna’ experiment, he sank into a serious depression for two years, and had enormous psychological trauma that going back to work would mean he’d failed the ‘good, believing Jew’ test.

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I’ve written about the various facets of that experience before, but here’s the distilled version of what I learned from that, relevant to this discussion about Covid ‘vaccines’:

  1. We only listen to the people, the experts, the ‘rabbis’ we want to listen to.

We often don’t want to take responsibility for our own lives, and our own decisions, so instead we find some egomaniac with a big reputation, with charisma, with a strong opinion that really accords with our own, and then we ‘follow their advice’.

When it goes wrong, we feel we can still ‘blame them’ for what happened, so that’s OK then.

We can carry on telling ourselves ‘victim stories’ and moaning about all the horrible people who have misled us, while still refusing to take the basic responsibility for our own lives.

2. God created the world as a partnership between Him and us.

So YES, of course, Ein Od Milvado.

Everything is God.

But God also wants me to do my part.

He wants ME to pray profusely about my decisions and my actions; He wants ME to make the birur between true and false information and beliefs; He wants ME to make my maximum effort to try to sweeten things, and to try to change things with my sincere prayers and teshuva and mesirut nefesh, so that He doesn’t have to bring harsh judgments to the world.

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When we ran out of cash, and had all the other suffering we had, connected to our false emuna, it took me a while to realise that it was TOTALLY DESERVED.

We were operating from a false, arrogant, ‘superior’ and unreal place.

I mean, who were we, really, to think we were on the level to get enough cash to maintain a huge house and an expensive lifestyle by way of open miracles?!?

I write that now, and I see how totally absurd it is.

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God created a world where men work on their emuna by having to work for a living without getting stressed or miserly. And women work on their emuna, fundamentally, by having to pray for Divine assistance with their shalom bayit and raising their children.

That is the work God created us to do, day to day.

Can I do this, can I work on my emuna and cope with life without getting God involved in my decision-making process and day-to-day issues?

Absolutely not!

But, that also doesn’t mean I can run away from taking the responsibility for my own decisions and choices by saying ‘God is doing everything, anyway….

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Breslov teachings set this out very clearly.

Rav Natan writes that BEFORE a decision, BEFORE an action:

I am 100% responsible to do my homework, to do my hishtadlut, to pray for guidance, to try to do the birur as completely as I can, as to what is correct, and what God wants from me.

AFTER the decision:

The outcome is totally up to God, and what God wants for me.

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So, let’s try and tease out how all this applies to the discussion in hand.

Covid 19 is all about getting each one of us make teshuva, and to developing the sort of emuna we need to get into geula, and the world of truth.

As such, the teshuva is built in at every stage of this process.

Personally I try to follow Breslov teachings as much as I’m able. so for the last 10 years, I have been doing my best to totally stay away from all Western doctors, and their ‘cut and medicate’ approach to illness.

For me, health comes down to making the appropriate teshuva across the three levels of body, mind and soul – and then doing pidyonot nefesh for the stuff that’s rooted in previous gilgulim, that I can’t reach myself.

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If I get sick because I eat pizza and fries every day, don’t exercise, don’t sleep enough and do drugs – then probably, changing these habits around at the ‘body’ level will go a long way to helping me heal.

If I get sick because I am constantly stuffing down negative emotions like anger, hatred and arrogance, or wallowing in despair and jealousy, or trying to ‘control’ others to try to ‘control’ my own anxiety levels – then starting to work through these emotions in hitbodedut, and starting to do some real (but still gentle…) cheshbon hanefesh to really own my own feelings about things will probably help a lot

If I get sick because I’m disconnected from God, and from Torah and mitzvot, and / or treating other people in a bad way, and / or not living my life in accordance with Hashem’s plan for me – then this is where strengthening the spiritual connection will make a big difference.

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So, Covid 19, for me, has been one big test of trying to see the good in others, and trying to accept God’s will without falling into despair, while still continuing to do the birur about what is really going on here.

It’s not been about a physical fear of the ‘disease’ itself.

But for others, the test is different.

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For some people, it’s a constant battle wavering between ‘getting vaccinated’ because of peer pressure and government coercion, and staying true to what they themselves really believe.

For others, it’s about respecting other people’s free choice, and the decision to NOT vaccinate, even when they themselves can clearly see vaccination is a gift from shemayim to save humanity.

For others, the test comes down to not fearing ‘Covid’, but fearing Hashem, instead.

Or not fearing the negative effects of the ‘vaccine’, but fearing Hashem instead – and looking for a spiritual response to turn everything around for the best.

Or maybe, the test is to maintain achdut and respect, even when ‘the other’ believes in things, and acts in ways, that you personally find totally repugnant and hard-to-understand.

Or to stand up for what’s true and right, and to go against the flow, even when that is going to cost you big, in some way, and require a lot of courage.

Point is, each person’s test is specifically geared to them, and what they need to work on and fix.

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But there are some generalities, across the board.

God wants us to have more emuna, to really believe in Him and to know Ein Od Milvado.

For sure.

All those people in favor of ‘force-vaxxing’ others to resolve their lack of emuna and ongoing fear and anxiety probably need to focus more in this area.

At the same time:

God also wants us to take more responsibility for what is going on in the world, and what is going on in our lives, and to do the hard work of birur.

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Birur doesn’t just mean trying to sort fact from fiction, propaganda from truth, personal bias from objective reality.

It really means doing the birur inside of us, about all the bad middot and false beliefs that are still hanging out in our souls.

Lack of empathy for ‘the other’ is bad middot.

Wanting to be ‘right’ at any cost is bad middot.

Absolving ourselves from caring about what is going on, or getting the hint about what God wants us to change in our own lives is bad middot.

Painting people all people who disagree with us as ‘conspiracy theorists’ or ‘crazy psychos’ who I don’t have to engage with at all – is bad middot.

Because even psychos and conspiracy theories are from God, and have something to teach us, even if it’s just a 1% of something.

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I’ll stop there, but I’m very happy to have more of a discussion about this, if there are specific points anyone wants to air out in the comments section.

Let’s end with the wise words of Rabbenu, Rebbe Nachman of Breslov:

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Rebbe Nachman spoke about the correct way to deal with harsh decrees:

He said:

“[E]ach person must say that the world was only created for his sake, and [the Rebbe said] how every person must endeavor to make up the deficiencies of the world, praying on its behalf – i.e. before the decree [actually materialises].

He also said the following:

“That year [1803] the Rebbe was very preoccupied with the Cantonist Decrees. He was extremely worried about the situation and said they were not an idle threat. He disagreed strongly with the people who were saying nothing would come of it in the end, for how could God do such a thing to the Jewish people?!

The Rebbe said several times that this was nonsense.

We find many occasions when harsh decrees did materialise.

The Rebbe spoke about this a great deal and said that the rumored decrees had to be taken with the utmost seriousness and not be treated lightly.

We had to pray and cry out to God, and to be and beseech Him in the hope that He would hear us and annul them….

If only people had listened to his call to set the earth shaking with prayers and appeals to God, these decrees would have been nullified completely!”

(Tzaddik, Conversations Relating to His Lessons, page 132)

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Ultimately, saying ‘everything is from God, so I don’t have to do anything about it or worry’ is spiritual apathy.

It’s spiritual laziness. It’s false emuna.

God wants us to see the ‘bad’ on the horizon, and to pray our hearts out to get the ‘bad’ to disappear – in whichever way God sees fit.

That’s our part of the equation, our part of the deal.

And none of us are exempt.

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Yesterday, I got two interesting emails.

One of them was asking me to consider how I can uncover the truth without plunging people into despair.

(It’s a very good question.)

And another was asking me this:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

Also a very good question.

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Firstly, this is what I replied to my first correspondent:

Thanks for taking the time to email me this.
I think you are probably right, that if I could make that paradigm shift to phrasing things more positively, that would be useful for a lot of reasons.
It’s just very, very hard for me to do, even when I make a conscious effort.
There’s a big klipa around doing things that way.
A very big klipa.
But I do understand that if it were possible, that would be better for a lot of reasons, and I am taking you as a nudge from Upstairs to at least pray on it some more and see what happens.
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The last thing to mention is that I actually have a lot more hope than sometimes comes through my writing… but it’s connected to my connection with Rebbe Nachman and Rav Berland, which I often downplay, especially with Rav Berland, for obvious reasons.
But really, I have so much hope and chizzuk from these two, and maybe I need to start being more vocal on that count, on my blog.
Lots to think about.
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I have lost count of the number of times I was feeling despairing and lost in the world, and my connection with Rav Berland somehow turned it around.

Like, I’d just open one of his books ‘randomly’ and find words that truly spoke to my heart, and comforted me.
Or, I’d read one of his shiurim and it would seem as though the Rav was addressing his remarks specifically to my particular problem or worry.
Or even, I’d just go hang out by the Beit HaRav in Musrara for a few minutes, and come away just feeling lighter and happier about life.

That happened again this Rosh Hashana, even though the Rav himself is still under house arrest in some unknown location.

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I got there n the first day still feeling somewhat ‘down’ about the situation in Israel, and after an hour there, hearing the shofar, I came back home with a big spring in my step.

As I walked back through the streets of Jerusalem, I just had this one thought on repeat in my head:

They have already lost. 5781 is going to be a great year.

I know that’s still not so obvious.

But that is the ‘vibe’ I picked up very strongly from being at the Beit HaRav on Rosh Hashana.

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So, BH, I will let you know about more of these incidences, and more of these ‘reasons to be cheerful’, because that is how I balance out all the hard stuff that is going on all around, without going into either denial or despair.

(And let me just plug my husband’s new site, where he brings snippets of the Rav’s words in English most days, called Words from the Rav.)

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So now, let’s turn to the next question:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

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I had a really rough aliya experience, in myriad different ways.

We ran out of money, lost our house (twice!!), have moved around loads and loads, had difficulties finding communities, difficulties finding schools, difficulties with fake rabbis and bad advice, and a bunch of other things besides.

But throughout all these difficulties, I ALWAYS was grateful that I was living in Eretz Yisrael, still.

I knew the difficulties here are part and parcel of the kedusha, part and parcel of what makes us grow as people, as Jews, instead of mouldering away in often suffocating spiritual ‘comfort zones’ in Chul.

The only time I ever questioned being in Israel was literally that two days when I started researching Uzi Meshulam and the Yemenite children – and I got a very strong whiff of the spiritual corruption underpinning the secular State of Israel.

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That was around five years ago, when I was doing the research on why the State of Israel was persecuting Rav Berland, that ultimately became One in a Generation.

At that stage, I wanted to run away from Israel (for two days…) because I was scared of what the evil people here could do to me.

But then, I worked on it a lot in hitbodedut, and I realised that this ‘fear’ of these evildoers is a fallen fear.

Because Ein Od Milvado.

And if God doesn’t want something to happen to me, it’s not going to happen, however hard these evildoers try.

This same idea also applies to rockets, terrorist attacks, stabbings and Iranian nukes – and all those other scary things that sometimes make us want to run away from Israel.

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The Coronafascism here over the last year and a half, and all the stressful and troubling diktats about masks and coercion about ‘vaccinations’, has been very hard for all of us to take.

I’m hearing more and more stories of people looking to leave Israel soon, religious and secular people, ‘vaccinated’ and un-vaccinated.

I totally understand the impulse to get away from all the stress and ‘yuck’ that we’ve been subjected to the last year and a half, but I personally feel it’s a big mistake to make any long-term move away from Israel.

This is still the Holy Land.

This is still the country that God has His eye on, so to speak, 24 hours a day, and 365 days a year.

It’s still the land of emuna and miracles.

And ultimately, it all comes down to Ein Od Milvado – I can’t run away from God, and His plans for my life.

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The day we signed on our first house in Israel, in Modiin, the ‘terrorist attacks’ occurred in London.

One of the victims on the Number 13 bus was an Israeli woman who had moved to the UK to get away from the suicide bus bombings back home.

That really taught me something very profound, about how it’s impossible to run away from God.

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A few years ago, our Rav was Rav Arush, and he was pushing all of his students to come and live in Jerusalem.

It was not a very appealing option, honestly, as the house prices had just rocketed through the roof, and I was living in my own new house in a yishuv an hour’s drive away.

To cut a very long story short, we ended up making the move, and I swapped my big house for a rented, 65 sqm apartment in a scummy-looking building.

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The first two years in Jerusalem were brutal, in a whole bunch of ways.

It was like making aliya all over again, except 20 times harder.

(And believe me, that’s saying something.)

But after two years of tremendous suffering, and also tremendous teshuva, the clouds started to part, and I found myself – totally by accident – living in the same neighborhood as Rav Berland and many of his students.

One thing led to another, and that’s how I started to hear more about Rav Berland, and started to research him, and started to understand that he was the true Tzaddik HaDor.

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Today, I look back at that move to Jerusalem as one of the biggest blessings of my life, despite the fact that Coronafascism has hit this city so hard, the last year and a half.

I can still go to the Kotel whenever I want.

I can still go to the Beit HaRav (where they have been davening unmasked the whole time. Baruch Hashem!)

I can also go to supermarkets and stores in chareidi neighborhoods where no-one gives a stuff about social distancing, masking or Tav Yarok.

And I’ve also seen how my children’s yiddishkeit has actually flourished here, strangely, because we had such a hard time and never fit in to any particular ‘box’.

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I have a nice (rented…) house here.

I have a mostly very nice life (Coronafascism notwithstanding…)

And my soul feels more content here than it’s ever felt anywhere else.

And what happened to those of Rav Arush’s English-speaking students who didn’t make that move to Jerusalem, because it was so hard?

Without exception, they all fell off the ‘Breslov’ bandwagon big time, and some of them even ended up leaving the country altogether.

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Things relating to Eretz Yisrael and Jerusalem are often totally deceptive.

It looks like here is the worst place to be.

It looks like life is hardest here.

That the evil is strongest here.

But all this is just a klipah, the ‘shadow’ that’s hiding the biggest light of all.

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At the end of the day, most of the people who know how to use a gun in this country are good Jews, deep down.

You can’t say that about any other country in the world.

At the end of the day, there are more true tzaddikim, hidden and otherwise, and more holy keverim here, than any other place in the world.

And these tzaddikim, alive and dead, are protecting us all with their merits.

The type and frequency of open miracles in Israel just don’t really happen anywhere else, (except maybe Uman.)

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So, even though I have three passports, that is why I’m staying put in this country.

The ‘raging stormwind’ that’s been running the show here is very close to finally blowing itself out.

The good is starting to sprout visibly, all over the country.

And the birur, so painful as it’s been, is almost complete.

There’s a lot of light at the end of the tunnel, and the ‘end’ is approaching.

So don’t bail out now.

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My daughter showed me this video from Avi Barak.

It totally took my breath away.

Not because he made a great case for ‘why not to vaccinate’ or anything like that.

But because he made a great case for why we need to stop hating each other, and stop falling into the trap being set for us by people who want to ‘divide and conquer’.

It’s only in Hebrew, BH, someone will gird their loins to translate it into English.

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Unusually for me, I felt moved to spam this out to a few people in email after I watched it.

(If you were one of them, I apologise…)

It just moved me so much, to see an apparently secular Israeli guy giving a mussar shiur to rival anything I’ve heard for a very long time.

Achdut and respecting the other – and having the courage to stand up for truth and our basic rights and personal freedoms – is how we get out of this mess we are currently in.

Geula is sprouting all over the country right now, in some very unexpected ways.

There are lots of reasons to be optimistic about what happens next.

And with God’s help, I will try to start writing more about that stuff too now, or at least, to include that note of hope in with some of the ‘hard’ things I sometimes put up on the blog.

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God loves us!

God can do anything.

He can heal any illness, even those caused by diabolical nanotech.

And they aren’t going to win.

More and more of the beautiful souls – the real Am Yisrael – are starting to speak up and shine their real light into the world.

Those people who know it’s not the outside appearance that matters, but the heart, the soul.

BH, it’s going to be a really good year this year.

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A couple of weeks’ ago, I had a big test.

Long story short, I’ve been helping out a relative who bought a new-build flat in Israel just before Covid 19 really took off, and he hasn’t been able to set foot in the country since, so I’ve been dealing with it for him.

New build flats in Israel are not simple things.

Dealing with the cablans, the workers (all called Ahmed, Mehmet and Mohammed) and all the bureaucracy with the electricity companies, and the bath people and city hall is really difficult at the best of times.

And with Covid going on for a year and a half, these have not been the best of times.

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So it was, that the day before the new tenants were meant to take possession of the apartment, I found myself having to move literally half a ton of leftover tiles out of the property.

Up on the fifth floor.

Yes, Ahmed and Mohammed really should have done that themselves (six months ago…) but they hadn’t.

And they weren’t around to do it that day, either.

And the tiles had to be moved, and the apartment cleaned, before the new tenants moved in.

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I wasn’t totally retarded.

I had brought my metal shopping trolley thing with me, and my plan was to load a packet of tiles in to it, wheel it over to the lift, then go down to the ground floor and wheel it over to the communal bin and dump it.

Very quickly, I realised my plan wasn’t going to plan.

I couldn’t even lift a packet of tiles into the trolley, because each pack literally weighed 30 kilos.

And even just trying to move them was beyond me, as I realised when I half dropped one on my foot and narrowly escaped totally crushing my toes.

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You know when you just feel so overwhelmed and despairing?

When you just feel totally lost in the problem, and can’t see a way out?

That’s how I felt for a good 10 minutes, as I stared at all these packets of tiles piled up on the floor that were way too heavy for me to even lift for the 10 seconds it would take to get them into my shopping trolley thingy.

Then God gave me an idea that changed the whole picture:

Just deal with one tile at a time.

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But God, if I do it that way it’s going to take me hours and hours!

And if you don’t do it that way, Rivka, then you just can’t do it.

Never argue with God. He’s always right.

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So, I girded my loins, and by the end I’d worked out a system where I could get 3-4 tiles carefully balanced in my shopping trolley things, so I only had to make about 30 trips up and down in the elevator.

On a scorchingly hot August day.

Where the nearest skip was a good 100 metres up the road, so I ended up having to load my car up about 10 different times, and drive up there at 2 miles an hour so all the tiles wouldn’t crush together in my boot and make a difficult job even harder.

And there were other obstacles, too.

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At the end of all that, one of the neighbors in the building actually called the police on me, because I parked in *their* space for all of 10 minutes.

Someone else had parked in the space that belonged to my relative’s apartment, and I couldn’t park further away as I was already shlepping half a ton of tiles down – by hand – and I had just two more loads to go.

So, I parked my car in the adjacent space – and the cow that owned it called the police on me.

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Now, it’s funny.

But two weeks ago, I didn’t find it so amusing.

Why am I telling you all this?

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I’m having a few conversations with a few different ‘overwhelmed’ people who are telling me Rivka, I can’t do this for much longer… I can’t do this for another six months, or another year…. However long it’s going to take before this breaks and we get the geula….

This is akin to looking at that big, half-ton pile of tiles and saying I can’t lift it.

Of course, that’s 100% right.

Nobody can lift that.

Nobody can ‘do this’ for another year.

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But you know what? We don’t have to.

All we have to do is break it up into manageable chunks, and to lift one tile at a time.

One day at a time.

You can definitely do one day at a time, however tedious, or stressful, or overwhelming that day might be.

It’s still doable!

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One more thing.

In the middle of shlepping all those tiles down to the car and then over the skip, there was a point where I felt like my back was going to go out.

I mean, I’m in my late forties, and shlepping half a ton of tiles is not something I’ve really been training for, honestly.

And when my back started to feel a little weak, I started to panic again that even if it holds out long enough for me to get this job done, I could be stuck in bed with a bad back for a week afterwards…

With Rosh Hashana right around the corner.

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So I stopped shlepping for a few minutes, and I started praying.

God, if you want me to do this, then please give me the strength to continue!

Please protect my back, and give me the energy to get this done for my relative!

Almost instantly, all the twinging and ‘weak feeling’ disappeared, and my back felt fine.

And I had no backache afterwards, either, even though I was shlepping those tiles for four hours solid.

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We haven’t got the strength to carry on, if God doesn’t help us, if God doesn’t give it to us.

But if you’re feeling like you can’t do it any more – like you’re about to crack under the strain – ask God for the koach you need to continue.

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If we approach life one tile at a time, one day at a time, all of us will cross the finishing line.

Even if it’s still a year away, or 10 years away.

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Yesterday, I had a few of my peeps come join me in the garden for cake and tea.

It may not sound like so much, but these small ‘get togethers’ of like-minded people are so uplifting and strengthening, stuck as we are in this current Covid 19 nightmare.

So we sat in the garden on a perfect Jerusalem night, as Ahmed down the street blasted his Arab wedding karaoke, and spoke about all things Corona and emuna related.

Because those two things go together.

And I learnt some surprising things, that gave me a lot of hope.

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The first thing that I learnt is that there are apparently tens of thousands of secular people in Israel – what we would call ‘lefties’ – who are implacably ‘against’ what’s going on with the Covid 19 shots.

And these people are organising on Facebook, and starting to get a lot of things done.

UPDATE:

Here’s the link:

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100040820560715

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They are encouraging parents to take their children out of ‘force-vaxxing’ schools and to work together to homeschool, come September 1.

They are publically standing up to these Government diktats in their groups, and apparently encouraged 2,500 secular teachers to quit, rather than go back to school and be ‘force-vaxxed’.

And most remarkable of all, they are talking about God.

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You won’t hear about these groups from the MSM, because the corrupt media want us all to think that we are the only ‘weirdos in the village’ who are anti-Covid 19 shots.

But there are way, way more people out there who are not buying the propaganda, and who are standing up for what’s right, bravely, in whatever small way they can.

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Over on the habayitah website HERE, you’ll find another example of that personal bravery that starts to turn the tide.

It’s the personal story of a Jew who risked getting arrested at the pool, to stand up for what’s right, and to not just crumple in the face of all this coronafascism.

Here’s a snippet:

Anyone can do this. Anywhere.

You must do this.

Just walk in, and call their bluff. Tell them to call the police. The worst that will happen, if you are calm and stand your ground, is that you will get a ticket, that you can then appeal in court, and the ticket will be cancelled, because they do not want anything going to court, lest they lose, there’s precedent, and the whole totalitarian system crumbles.

Call. Their. Bluff.

This is all just fear. There is nothing to be afraid of. Pool conquered. Gym conquered. Supermarket conquered. The counterattack progresses.

Thank you God for giving us the strength to do Your will and to fight back.

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I just went to read that hyperlink above, called ‘Supermarket conquered‘ – and it’s even more inspiring than the pool story.

Go and read it – it’s along the lines of my Post Office saga, but honestly? The woman is way, way braver than I was, because she is taking a stand to walk around everywhere, totally unmasked.

But here’s the takeaway message:

 This is all one big bluff.

Our enemies are empty shells. Evil is emptiness.

Show no fear. Stare the bastards down. Keep your calm. They’re nothing.

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There is a weird ‘rule’ that the forces of evil appear to keep, that whatever diabolical, demonic scheme they are working on, it all has to be done according the rule of law.

We saw that in the Purim story, where Haman’s attempted mass murder is all played out against the backdrop of complying with Shushan’s legal code.

The same thing happened in Sdom, which apparently was also infested with lawyers and corrupt judges.

And the same thing is happening today, in the State of Israel, and the other places we all live in.

They are using psychological manipulation, peer pressure and threats with all this masks and ‘force-vaxxing’ stuff, because legally, they don’t have a leg to stand on.

And once more of us start to challenge the ‘rule of law’ all of this ISN’T BASED ON, the whole system of coronafascism will collapse.

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If that sounds incredible, it may already be happening.

Also on habayitah, I saw this post:

Rabbi Weissman:  Interesting news someone shared with me that won’t be reported:

Almost 1000 policemen were supposed to be sent to chalat because they refused to get the jab.

The Bagatz [Supreme Court] ruled out that it is illegal to force anybody to take the cr*p or any other medical procedure against their will.

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People, be brave!

Talk to God, screw your emuna up to the sticking point, and then start to stand up for what you really believe in, and for the safety and health of yourselves and your families.

We can’t ‘play it safe’ anymore – the stakes are getting to high.

Each person, in their own way, has to take a stand for truth, for free choice, for the right of every human being to live life in the way the Creator designed it.

Every small ‘push back’ you make sends ripples out into the wider world, and creates angels that will help others to find their courage, and their voices, and their true emuna.

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I have a good friend whose son is now being ‘banned’ from his high school because he doesn’t have a green pass.

My friend is a lawyer, married to a lawyer.

I want to say to her: sue the pants off that school!!!

Send them a lawyer letter telling them what they are doing is totally illegal, and see how quickly they crumple.

What do you have to lose, at this point?

What’s the alternative – to let them force-vaxx your son, just so he continue his education?!?!?

Since when is that even a credible idea?

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I know it’s hard to stand up for what’s right.

I know the fear-consumed Karens are REALLY hard to deal with.

But here’s what you have to understand about humanity:

Most people are followers, not leaders.

As soon as there is a tiny group of people who start to stand up for what’s right, in all areas of life, that will paralyse the march of Coronafascism in its tracks.

I am 100% sure that much as my encounters with Karens disturbed me, it also disturbed them, and made it way less likely that they were going to launch an attack on their next unsuspecting victim.

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We can’t play it safe anymore and continue just living in fear, and negating our free will and personal integrity and health just to keep in our comfort zone and avoid conflicts with the psychos out there.

What sort of life is that anyway, where we shuffle around bemasked and force-vaxxed, unable to even go for a jog, or to pray in a minyan, or to stand in silent prayer at the Kotel without wearing a mask, just because the coronafascists say so?

At some point, we have to say no more!!!

At some point, we have to be brave, and to manifest our emuna in the real world, in some tangible way.

Ein Od Milvado.

There is only Hashem.

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And if I don’t take that risk, and if I don’t move out of my comfort zone?

Then what’s the point of being alive anyway, just to be ‘transhuman experiment’ with no free choice whose soul is totally trapped amongst the klippot anyway?

What’s the point of staying alive, if those are the conditions?

What’s the point?

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Rabbenu tells us, we only have today.

Don’t wait for someone else to be ‘the one’ who is going to break the fear, and the force of coronafascism in your life.

Today, with God’s help, you can turn that corner already, and stop letting illegal and immoral coronafascism from dictating to you how you breathe, and where you go, and whether you can pray in a minyan.

Today.

So hold God’s hand, take a deep breath, and stand up for what’s right, in whichever way you can.

At this point, we have nothing left to lose.

And they can’t arrest us all.

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I had a bit of an epiphany on Shabbat.

Last week was really, really heavy, at least in my part of the State of Israel.

The masks were roaring back, the Karen’s were roaring at everyone, and my heart was roaring inside of me I can’t do this anymore!!!!

God, I mamash can’t do this anymore!!!!

But really, what could I do to stop all the madness, or to run away from it?

Nothing.

Or so it seemed to me.

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So on Shabbat, I was walking around the Jerusalem streets in the early hours of the morning, doing some hitbodedut, when suddenly the thought came to me that I should go to Uman.

You remember, I had that same thought last year, and it was quite the wild ride.

But then, the fear immediately roared up.

What?!? You’re going to let them swab all your genetic material out of your nostrils and send it to that Chinese gene editing bank?!

So they can start targeting you with 5G frequencies designed to kill you?!?

And who even knows what they are still planning to do in Uman itself (God forbid, a million, billion times)?

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While I was pondering this, that quiet small voice of my soul decided to join the conversation.

Don’t fear them.

That’s what it told me.

Don’t fear them. 

Don’t let them cage you up in fear, because if you let them do that, what sort of life are you living anyway?

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Think about this for a moment.

We all have it drummed into us a million, billion times a day that ‘saving a life’ is the most important thing in the world.

And in many ways, that’s true.

But then, it seems to me, we are forgetting that the quality of the life that we’re trying to save is also a huge factor.

Just look around at all the masked Karens yelling at everyone, living in fear that ‘a germ’ is going to somehow get through the 3 masks they are wearing, plus yours.

Look at all the people rushing to get jabbed with who knows what, solely because they were scared out of their whits by all the government / media propaganda.

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And on the other side of the equation, there’s people like you and me.

And we’re also letting fear control us, just it’s fear of what they are going to do to us, if they get hold of our genetic material.

For sure, it’s a valid concern.

Just like ‘catching Covid 19’ is apparently a valid concern.

But it’s still a fallen fear. It’s still taking God out of the picture.

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Who decides if I’m going to live another second?

Only God.

Who decided if I’m going to get sick, God forbid?

Only God.

That is the reality of Ein Od Milvado.

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As I was pondering this, and thinking about the PCR test at Hadassah I’d need to do to get on the plane; and the PCR test I’d have to do in Borispol airport just to be able to leave it; and the PCR test I’d have to do in Uman, 72 hours before returning to Borispol just to get on the flight; and the PCR test I’d have to do in the ‘special hangar’ kindly set up by the Frankist-Freemason government especially for people returning from Uman just to leave the building; and then the 2 weeks (!) of strict isolation required, to avoid getting a 5,000 fine….

I suddenly realised that if my soul really needed to get to Uman, then it was still an ordeal I was willing to face.

Ha, take my genes, you Frankist-Freemason fascists, see what good it’s going to do you!!

Because I’m going to program my genes from this side of the equation to totally wreck whatever system you try to put them in.

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I am one big, walking chaos gene.

That’s my speciality, I get things to ‘move’ in all sorts of unexpected directions.

Point is, once I lifted that fallen fear of what they can do to me, and do with my genes back to Hashem, to understand again, that Ein Od Milvado – I stopped being scared of them.

I stepped out of that mental prison I’ve been cowering in for months, already.

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You want to kill me, Frankist-Freemason-Fascists?

I can’t stop you, if that is what God wants, (God forbid).

But I can sure as heck stop you from ‘killing’ my quality of life in the meantime, by living in fear all the time.

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In the end, I’m not going to Uman (yet….)

If I was going to go, I would go 2 weeks before Rosh Hashana, like the Rav said, which falls out Monday evening.

And ultimately, I have a lot of important chores to get done the next few days, including commitments made to other people.

But that whole process of at least considering the trip has literally changed everything around in my head.

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Yes, I’m still taking my Zinc and NAC and quercetin, and a few other things.

Yes, I’m now making sure I go out for an hour of ‘walking hitbodedut‘ every day, to get the exercise in that breaks down that graphene in the body naturally.

Yes, I’m still researching ‘syringe-injectible mesh electronics‘ and other evil nanotech….

But the point is this:

I’m not scared of them anymore.

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Whatever happens, I am going to live my life.

I am going to do my best to carry on dancing, and praying, and hoping, and learning and loving – and yes, sometimes also ‘risking’.

Playing it safe all the time and reacting to all these fallen fears is what’s got so much of the world into such a mess.

They create the fear, and then use that fear to control us.

But I’m opting out.

(Or at least, trying my best to.)

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It’s a personal ‘revolution’ against the reality created by these Frankist-Freemason-Fascists.

It’s the only form of protest I really have available.

But inside of me, where it really counts, it’s already changed the whole picture.

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When I was 18, I spent a year learning poet Philip Larkin, for my A-levels.

Strangely, a lot of his poetry actually spoke to me, and as I age, I find more and more of his stanzas popping into my head.

Like, after my post office experience, and after so many different members of my family also got attacked by proto-nazi ‘Karens’ for not wearing face masks over their noses, this verse popped, unbidden, into my head:

Come, friendly bombs, and fall on Slough
It isn’t fit for humans now,
There isn’t grass to graze a cow
— Swarm over, Death!

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Except of course, I mentally scratched out the word ‘Slough’ and replaced it with ‘Karen’.

It’s been a rough week, emotionally.

A week of super-high stress.

A week of really starting to worry again, that this isn’t going to turn out so well after all.

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My husband is Mr Super-chilled.

He’s one of those that stays calm and collected on the outside, while all the time secretly cultivating mouth ulcers.

Even he came home yesterday super-super-stressed, by his experiences on the Jerusalem tram.

Two days ago, two pensioner Karens called the ticket inspector on him, because he wasn’t wearing a mask.

The ticket inspector had seen his ticket – when he was maskless – and not mentioned anything.

But once these proto-Nazi Karens started screaming and hollering that he wasn’t wearing a mask!!! That dirty Jewish person is not wearing a mask!!! Get him off the train and disinfect him in some camp somewhere IMMEDIATELY!!!

Well.

The ticket inspector found themselves between a rock and a hard place, and told my husband to fully mask up, or get booted off the train.

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This stuff wears you down.

I went to Kever Dan yesterday with a friend.

I wasn’t wearing a mask and had no intention of wearing a mask.

Suddenly, a minibus of middle-aged Sephardi grandmas joined us at the Kever, nearly all wearing masks.

I tensed for the coming assault….

Baruch Hashem, it never came, and most of the ladies ‘de-masked’ pretty fast themselves once they settled in.

But it showed me just how much I am living in fear of the next confrontation with the Karens.

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Come friendly bombs…

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Another friend of mine told me she was sitting in the park when she met someone into ‘healthy’ stuff, who she’s had some good conversations with in the past.

Somehow or other, the conversation shifted to Covid 19 ‘vaccinations’, and my friend confessed she hadn’t lined up to be injected with graphene nanobots and DNA origami.

The other woman – who it turns out was totally vaccinated up to the wahootsi – narrowed her eyes, and told my friend:

You are putting my life in danger.

Say what?!?

Why are you taking the ‘vaccine’ if it doesn’t even work, Karen?

Of course, logical arguments like this get you precisely nowhere, because this isn’t about ‘logic’ or facts – and it never was.

And it really puts you off going out of your house, when you have to deal with proto-Nazi morons whose bad middot and lack of emuna have totally swamped their humanity and ability to think.

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So here in Israel, the fear factor, the fascist ‘blaming people’ factor, is going through the roof again.

And our dear leader Naftali Bennett is spouting his corona-fascism every chance he gets.

The good news is, he’s no Bibi.

Bibi was a much better actor, a master manipulator, while Bennett is kind of like a chainsaw sculpture.

Get vaccine or no holiday…

Get vaccine or no job…

Get vaccine or we take your dog and shoot it….

It’s not subtle, is it?

And more and more people are slowly starting to figure out that something is very wrong with this picture.

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Nearly all my daughter’s friends were ‘vaccinated’, mostly so they could get their freedoms back.

Now they are seeing there are no freedoms, still, there is no end to the ‘coronavirus scamdemic’, and the endless demands to curtail their liberties and human rights, at least some of them are starting to regret that they rushed to get the shots.

I’m sure their ranks will swell and swell, as the next few weeks play out.

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Ima, this is the blanket being shaken, and it’s amazing that we’re holding on!

My daughter told me yesterday.

It IS amazing that we are holding on.

I just hope we can continue, as the madness escalates further and further.

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But let’s just come back to those proto-Nazi Karens.

And to all the other ‘small people’ who are keeping this rule of evil going, like the nurses who are busily injecting the graphene oxide into old and young arms; and the police who are busily enforcing illegal ‘quarantine’ regulations; and the ticket inspectors on the public trams, who would rather keep their jobs in the Third Reich, than stand up for freedom and human dignity.

Let’s ask those people this question:

When all this is finally unmasked; when this whole plandemic is finally exposed as the ‘final solution’ for humanity it was engineered to be, are you going to tell your descendants that you were ‘just following orders?’

And are you going to expect your descendants – and the rest of us – to accept that, as a reason for why you continued to function as a small cog in this fascist, evil, destructive machine?

If that thought is making you a little uncomfortable (and it really should….)

Get out now, while you still have some of your soul intact.

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