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Yesterday, I got two interesting emails.

One of them was asking me to consider how I can uncover the truth without plunging people into despair.

(It’s a very good question.)

And another was asking me this:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

Also a very good question.

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Firstly, this is what I replied to my first correspondent:

Thanks for taking the time to email me this.
I think you are probably right, that if I could make that paradigm shift to phrasing things more positively, that would be useful for a lot of reasons.
It’s just very, very hard for me to do, even when I make a conscious effort.
There’s a big klipa around doing things that way.
A very big klipa.
But I do understand that if it were possible, that would be better for a lot of reasons, and I am taking you as a nudge from Upstairs to at least pray on it some more and see what happens.
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The last thing to mention is that I actually have a lot more hope than sometimes comes through my writing… but it’s connected to my connection with Rebbe Nachman and Rav Berland, which I often downplay, especially with Rav Berland, for obvious reasons.
But really, I have so much hope and chizzuk from these two, and maybe I need to start being more vocal on that count, on my blog.
Lots to think about.
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I have lost count of the number of times I was feeling despairing and lost in the world, and my connection with Rav Berland somehow turned it around.

Like, I’d just open one of his books ‘randomly’ and find words that truly spoke to my heart, and comforted me.
Or, I’d read one of his shiurim and it would seem as though the Rav was addressing his remarks specifically to my particular problem or worry.
Or even, I’d just go hang out by the Beit HaRav in Musrara for a few minutes, and come away just feeling lighter and happier about life.

That happened again this Rosh Hashana, even though the Rav himself is still under house arrest in some unknown location.

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I got there n the first day still feeling somewhat ‘down’ about the situation in Israel, and after an hour there, hearing the shofar, I came back home with a big spring in my step.

As I walked back through the streets of Jerusalem, I just had this one thought on repeat in my head:

They have already lost. 5781 is going to be a great year.

I know that’s still not so obvious.

But that is the ‘vibe’ I picked up very strongly from being at the Beit HaRav on Rosh Hashana.

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So, BH, I will let you know about more of these incidences, and more of these ‘reasons to be cheerful’, because that is how I balance out all the hard stuff that is going on all around, without going into either denial or despair.

(And let me just plug my husband’s new site, where he brings snippets of the Rav’s words in English most days, called Words from the Rav.)

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So now, let’s turn to the next question:

A question I have had for a while is about the legitimacy of us being here in eretz Yisrael before Meshiach.

I saw you said you questioned it? What do you think are the reasons to stay/leave??

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I had a really rough aliya experience, in myriad different ways.

We ran out of money, lost our house (twice!!), have moved around loads and loads, had difficulties finding communities, difficulties finding schools, difficulties with fake rabbis and bad advice, and a bunch of other things besides.

But throughout all these difficulties, I ALWAYS was grateful that I was living in Eretz Yisrael, still.

I knew the difficulties here are part and parcel of the kedusha, part and parcel of what makes us grow as people, as Jews, instead of mouldering away in often suffocating spiritual ‘comfort zones’ in Chul.

The only time I ever questioned being in Israel was literally that two days when I started researching Uzi Meshulam and the Yemenite children – and I got a very strong whiff of the spiritual corruption underpinning the secular State of Israel.

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That was around five years ago, when I was doing the research on why the State of Israel was persecuting Rav Berland, that ultimately became One in a Generation.

At that stage, I wanted to run away from Israel (for two days…) because I was scared of what the evil people here could do to me.

But then, I worked on it a lot in hitbodedut, and I realised that this ‘fear’ of these evildoers is a fallen fear.

Because Ein Od Milvado.

And if God doesn’t want something to happen to me, it’s not going to happen, however hard these evildoers try.

This same idea also applies to rockets, terrorist attacks, stabbings and Iranian nukes – and all those other scary things that sometimes make us want to run away from Israel.

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The Coronafascism here over the last year and a half, and all the stressful and troubling diktats about masks and coercion about ‘vaccinations’, has been very hard for all of us to take.

I’m hearing more and more stories of people looking to leave Israel soon, religious and secular people, ‘vaccinated’ and un-vaccinated.

I totally understand the impulse to get away from all the stress and ‘yuck’ that we’ve been subjected to the last year and a half, but I personally feel it’s a big mistake to make any long-term move away from Israel.

This is still the Holy Land.

This is still the country that God has His eye on, so to speak, 24 hours a day, and 365 days a year.

It’s still the land of emuna and miracles.

And ultimately, it all comes down to Ein Od Milvado – I can’t run away from God, and His plans for my life.

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The day we signed on our first house in Israel, in Modiin, the ‘terrorist attacks’ occurred in London.

One of the victims on the Number 13 bus was an Israeli woman who had moved to the UK to get away from the suicide bus bombings back home.

That really taught me something very profound, about how it’s impossible to run away from God.

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A few years ago, our Rav was Rav Arush, and he was pushing all of his students to come and live in Jerusalem.

It was not a very appealing option, honestly, as the house prices had just rocketed through the roof, and I was living in my own new house in a yishuv an hour’s drive away.

To cut a very long story short, we ended up making the move, and I swapped my big house for a rented, 65 sqm apartment in a scummy-looking building.

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The first two years in Jerusalem were brutal, in a whole bunch of ways.

It was like making aliya all over again, except 20 times harder.

(And believe me, that’s saying something.)

But after two years of tremendous suffering, and also tremendous teshuva, the clouds started to part, and I found myself – totally by accident – living in the same neighborhood as Rav Berland and many of his students.

One thing led to another, and that’s how I started to hear more about Rav Berland, and started to research him, and started to understand that he was the true Tzaddik HaDor.

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Today, I look back at that move to Jerusalem as one of the biggest blessings of my life, despite the fact that Coronafascism has hit this city so hard, the last year and a half.

I can still go to the Kotel whenever I want.

I can still go to the Beit HaRav (where they have been davening unmasked the whole time. Baruch Hashem!)

I can also go to supermarkets and stores in chareidi neighborhoods where no-one gives a stuff about social distancing, masking or Tav Yarok.

And I’ve also seen how my children’s yiddishkeit has actually flourished here, strangely, because we had such a hard time and never fit in to any particular ‘box’.

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I have a nice (rented…) house here.

I have a mostly very nice life (Coronafascism notwithstanding…)

And my soul feels more content here than it’s ever felt anywhere else.

And what happened to those of Rav Arush’s English-speaking students who didn’t make that move to Jerusalem, because it was so hard?

Without exception, they all fell off the ‘Breslov’ bandwagon big time, and some of them even ended up leaving the country altogether.

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Things relating to Eretz Yisrael and Jerusalem are often totally deceptive.

It looks like here is the worst place to be.

It looks like life is hardest here.

That the evil is strongest here.

But all this is just a klipah, the ‘shadow’ that’s hiding the biggest light of all.

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At the end of the day, most of the people who know how to use a gun in this country are good Jews, deep down.

You can’t say that about any other country in the world.

At the end of the day, there are more true tzaddikim, hidden and otherwise, and more holy keverim here, than any other place in the world.

And these tzaddikim, alive and dead, are protecting us all with their merits.

The type and frequency of open miracles in Israel just don’t really happen anywhere else, (except maybe Uman.)

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So, even though I have three passports, that is why I’m staying put in this country.

The ‘raging stormwind’ that’s been running the show here is very close to finally blowing itself out.

The good is starting to sprout visibly, all over the country.

And the birur, so painful as it’s been, is almost complete.

There’s a lot of light at the end of the tunnel, and the ‘end’ is approaching.

So don’t bail out now.

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I know it’s pretty dark right now.

But don’t give up.

This ‘war’ that we’re all fighting, just to hang on to our sanity and our souls is 99% in our heads.

‘They’ are trying to make us believe that we are just soul-less hunks of animated meat.

If you take the soul out of the picture, if you take God out of the picture, then sadly, that’s almost true.

But when you put the soul back in the picture – front stage, in the picture – then everything changes.

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I’m speed-reading through a ton of information at the moment, and speed-watching through a ton of videos, trying to do the birur of separating truth from fiction.

What I can tell you at this stage, is that in that ‘false reality’ they’ve created for us all – the one that is totally disconnected from God and Torah and the soul – things are way, way worse than most people imagine.

If that reality is ‘real’, then humanity as we know it is about to cease to exist.

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James Corbett sets out ‘the dark future reality’ very clearly:

(Take a look at the 12 minute mark, where they talk about how they can engineer cells to ‘produce’ anything, including gasoline…)

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And take a look at this, a document on ‘Human Augmentation‘ from the Ministry of Defense in the UK:

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Take a look at this, from Wikipedia:

Genome Project-Write

Since the Human Genome Project first sequenced the human genome from 1987 to 2004 at a cost of US$3 billion, costs have fallen precipitously, outpacing even Moore’s law, and were ≈US$1,000 in 2015. More widely available genome sequencing has led to more data on variants of uncertain significance.

The Genome Project – Write (also known as GP-Write) is a large-scale collaborative research project (an extension of Genome Projects, aimed at reading genomes since 1984) that focuses on the development of technologies for the synthesis and testing of genomes of many different species of microbes, plants, and animals, including the human genome in a sub-project known as Human Genome Project-Write (HGP-Write). Formally announced on 2 June 2016, the project leverages two decades of work on synthetic biology and artificial gene synthesis.

The newly created GP-Write project will be managed by the Center of Excellence for Engineering Biology, an American nonprofit organization. Researchers expect that the ability to artificially synthesize large portions of many genomes will result in many scientific and medical advances.

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That project is being run by the ‘Center of Excellence for Engineering Biology‘.

This comes from their homepage:

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Sadly, this stuff is so very real.

But that’s not the reality that I live in.

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The reality that I live in is one where God, and the Torah, and the soul are really the only things that matter, the only things I’m paying attention to.

(Just to keep this real, of course I’m still eating potato chips and watching way too many things online…. I’m not talking about living a ‘perfect’ lifestyle here, I’m talking about where my SOUL is plugged in to, at it’s root. And that’s God and the Torah and the true tzaddikim.)

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In that reality, I’m starting to see how personal ‘levitation’ devices are actually within grasp.

Mamash.

And how ‘free unlimited energy’ exists all around us.

Mamash.

And how people can be healed from the most awful physical diseases with a few blasts of ultrasound – sound, music, prayer….

Mamash.

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This is the future world.

The world of Moshiach and geula.

The world of the soul.

And it’s already here, hidden from view, just we need to get the ‘false version of reality’ out of the way first.

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I don’t really care what the true shape of the world turns out to be…

It could be ‘flat’, spherical, wheel-shaped, like a bagel, even….

Who cares?

The real war here is between that vision of the world as a limited, savage, ‘survival of the fittest’ place where natural resources are so pressured by humanity, it seems like a ‘mitzvah’ to get rid of people.

God forbid, a million times over.

OR

That the real world is actually much, much larger than we’re being told.

And holds abundant and limitless ‘free’ energy.

And is surrounded by more fresh water than any of us could use up even in a million years.

And is perfectly geared to supporting billions of inhabitants in comfort and good health, as they go about their lives finally focussed on the real and only point of being alive: Getting to know God.

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God is infinite.

That process is never-ending.

And the greatest joy a person can experience.

Or at least, that’s what I think. I’m still in a very small state of ‘getting to know God’ myself, right at the beginning of that process, still.

But this I can tell you:

God is good.

And He loves us all.

And everything that’s going on right now is just a mental / spiritual process of birur, to separate out the people who really do believe that they are just ‘animated hunks of meat’ from those who know that the physical body is just the ‘container’ for the soul. Nothing more, and nothing less.

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BH, I hope to bring some more ‘real science’ stuff here over the next few weeks, that will totally turn the picture around of what’s really going on in our world.

That good world we are all striving after, and that we are all yearning for, is mamash within grasp.

It’s here already, the puzzle parts are all around, they just need to be assembled into the whole.

While it’s Moshiach’s job to really complete that process (and / or kick start it!), we also have a crucially important part to play in all this, namely:

  • To connect to our souls.
  • To connect our souls back to God.
  • And to connect to our true tzaddikim.

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How?

Hitbodedut – talking to God, ideally for an hour, every single day.

That’s how.

And if you can’t manage an hour, start with a minute, or five minutes. But do it every single day.

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Everything that’s happening right now is just midda kneged midda.

The people who want to go through life as unquestioning, unthinking, unfeeling ‘robots’ – frum or otherwise – will get their wish.

And those of us who are willing to really connect – even when sometimes it’s painful, and hard, and pulls us into such enormous confusion, and humbles us so very much, and feels so darned uncomfortable we just want to tear our hair out, sometimes – we will also get our wish.

One way or another, the ‘world of connection’ is approaching, fast.

The only question is:

Will you be connecting up to the ‘internet of things’, as a human robot, or will you be connecting back to God and Torah and Moshiach, and the world of truth?

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That answer doesn’t depend on whether you got ‘vaccinated’.

It depends on what YOU really want, deep down, and how YOU really want to live your life, going forward.

Connected to your soul, and to God, and to real goodness.

Or connected to technology, ‘science’ and that atheistic, genocidal view of life that says there is just not enough of ‘earth’ to go around.

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The point is:

There is still everything to play for.

God is so good, so merciful. Even if you already got vaccinated, there is still no reason to lose hope. You’ll just have to get your socks on, and start really ramping up your teshuva process, and your hitbodedut process, and your learning about how your body really works, energetically, process – so you can beat it.

That’s what I’m busy doing now – trying to figure out how to beat this ‘nano-vaxx’.

Because there is FOR SURE A WAY TO STOP IT IN ITS TRACKS.

And that process starts with praying – a lot.

From the heart.

That God should replace our heart of ‘stone’ (or silicon….) with a real heart of flesh.

And  whoever does that sincerely, I really feel they will come out of this birur process OK.

Because that’s the whole point of why God is making this happen in the first place.

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It looks to me like the government here is starting to panic.

With all this talk of ‘double masking’, and extending lockdowns forever (that btw, the police are hardly enforcing anywhere on the roads, even in Jerusalem….), and all this fake information to convince us that ‘everyone’ got the vaccine here….

I’m getting the impression that the wheels are finally starting to come off the bus.

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It’s small things, like noticing that way fewer people outside are ‘masking up’ the way they used to.

Way fewer people are ‘policing’ other people now.

And I can also see from the fake coverage of the vaccine numbers, that all the ‘low hanging fruit’ has rushed out to vaccinate, but everyone else is holding back. (That’s still a horribly high number – around 2.8 million people who had at least one dose, but it’s definitely tailed off, in terms of numbers of new people being jabbed.)

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The panic about ‘Covid 19’ has diminished radically.

I think probably because of the false panacea that is the ‘vaccine’, but it’s having the effect (ironically…) of damping down the hysteria, even as the medical situation looks to be worsening because of all the ‘vaccine’s’ side effects.

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That’s a real problem for the government.

They govern by fear, they rule by fear, they have been using fear to destroy the economy and ‘lock us down’ and tie us up in greater levels of coronafascist insanity.

When the fear starts to fade – so does their power to manipulate.

Behind the scenes, I am hearing that something positive may soon be happening that really will change the whole picture, radically.

As soon as I can confirm that, I will.

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And I’ve also just tripped over a whole bunch of additional information about the ‘Sabbatean Frankist’ network, in real time, and how it basically took over America – A LONG TIME AGO – as well as the education system.

I’m working through it all, and once I’ve got it into some sort of format, I’ll try to share it with you.

Each one of these ‘exposes’ is chopping off another tentacle, bringing more truth up to the surface, and shifting things along towards the world of truth.

But man, they require so much brain power that sometimes I just have to do it really slowly, so I don’t get totally overwhelmed.

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Hang on, dear readers!

The sap is rising.

Things are about to start blooming and blossoming again.

But first – we have to get the rest of this difficult winter out of the way.

So bed down, keep praying, and don’t lose hope.

I have a feeling that evil is finally on the ropes.

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Honestly, I totally forgot about it.

With all the craziness going on, and the ‘lockdown’ that makes it seem that days, weeks and months just kind of slide into each other, it’s not always so easy to remember what day of the week it is.

Lucky for me, I had a ‘Na Nach’ show up yesterday – with a couple of his friends – and he’s the one that told me today is Tu B’shvat.

I had a bit of fruit hanging around, some nuts in the cupboard, so we just cut it up and put it out on the table, for an impromptu, very low key ‘Tu B’Shvat’ seder.

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Tu B’Shvat is way more significant, spiritually, than it can appear.

Here we are, in the middle of the winter, when the trees still nearly all look ‘dead’ and leafless and lifeless.

But on the inside?

The sap is rising.

The tree is returning back to life, and getting ready to blossom and bloom.

It may take a few more weeks, a couple more months, but life is returning.

Between here and Pesach, life is returning.

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So take heart, dear readers.

The evil madness we are living through right now isn’t going to continue on forever.

God is great – much, much greater than all of the evil out there.

All this is just a test.

I’m not whitewashing stuff here. There are life and death issues going on all the time, and big decisions to be made with big consequences attached to them.

Each of us has to dig deep, and stop living in denial of the obvious evil that’s squishing out of just about every place right now, both in the public arena and also in our private lives.

But don’t forget, God is great.

And all this can turn around in the blink of any eye.

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Personally, I’m starting to feel happier about the situation than I have done for the last 11 months.

Finally, more and more people are waking up to the fact that the media is bad, the State of Israel – and its institutions – are corrupt and that many of their assumptions were built on false premises.

That’s very good news.

The next stage will be when more and more people start searching for the truth, and start looking for the real tzaddikim, the real leaders, to get behind.

And here too, there’s a lot of movement.

So take heart.

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Sure, right now everything looks gloomy, grey, dead and lifeless.

On the outside.

But hidden away inside, redemption is rising with the sap.

And BH very soon, it will start to bud and blossom.

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Last year, one of my friends put out a film called ‘Talking to God’.

I saw it and liked it a lot, and she asked me if I could put some links to it here, for anyone who wants to download it.

(The film is about a woman, FYI, for shmirat eynayim people).

For some reason, I can’t get the trailer to load here on the site, but here’s where you can see it yourself:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sM6ZrPJN2Wk&feature=youtu.be
Here’s how to watch the film:
In Israel can only be seen on iTunes and here’s the link ( There’s a button for Hebrew subtitles FYI):
https://itunes.apple.com/il/movie/talking-to-god/id1536856963
From the US here’s the link to watch:
Enjoy!
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This time around, things are completely different.

That’s what I told my daughter, who was lying in bed with a stress headache brought on by worrying about ‘the 4th lockdown’ that they’ve just instituted in Israel.

Really, it’s just an extension of the 3rd lockdown, but the Israeli government excels at the art of psychological warfare, and they know that ‘changing the goalposts’ is one of the single best ways of doing that.

So, the 2 week lockdown became the 4 week lockdown, and now it’s morphed again into the 6 week lockdown….

And it’s starting to feel like there is no end in sight.

But that’s not true.

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First, let’s state something obvious, that most of us are maybe forgetting, in this crazy time we live in.

Life is actually still pretty good.

Most of us still have a roof over our heads and food on the table.

Personally, I’m sitting here learning how to play the guitar – a lifelong dream! – and day to day, life is actually still good.

What makes is ‘less good’ is the worry.

And the stress and anxiety about ‘what will be’.

Which brings me to something interesting I remembered yesterday, when I was talking to my daughter.

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A few years’ back, when I was gorging myself on ‘geula stuff’, I read somewhere that this third stage of the war of Gog and Magog was going to be completely different.

(Maybe it was the autistics who said this?)

In the first 2 ‘wars’ of Gog and Magog, i.e. WW1 and WW2, a ‘good’ person could find themselves in a place where bad things were happening, and sadly still get caught up in the web of destruction.

But with ‘WW3’ – the last battle of Gog and Magog – it wasn’t going to be like that.

A ‘good’ person who was clinging on to Hashem and the true tzaddikim would still make it through in one piece, even if chaos was raging around them.

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When I first heard this a few years back, it seemed incredible to me.

What, you can drop a nuke on a city and the ‘good people’ are going to survive it?!

You can have a full-scale war happening outside your front door, and you’re going to survive it, just because you are ‘good’ and holding on to God and the true tzaddikim?!

I just couldn’t see how that was going to work.

But today….

It’s starting to become obvious.

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I keep seeing these quotes attributed to Henry Kissinger that it’s easier and cleaner to decimate populations via bio-weapon vaccines than by yucky, destructive wars.

Whether or not that evil guy actually said it, the idea holds true.

And we know that the ‘war of Gog and Magog’ has already started, because Rabbi Eliezer Berland told us that, back in June 2019.

You can read that post HERE – and see the Rav speaking (in Hebrew) below:

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mamash have goosebumps writing this.

June 2019 was a year and a half ago.

It must have been exactly when the ‘Covid plot’was actually being actioned in the world.

According to this story, scientists in Spain ‘retroactively’ found Covid-19 in waste water samples dating back to March 2019.

So, by the time the Rav was speaking, Covid-19 was already circulating all over the world, and the war of Gog and Magog (part 3) had started in earnest.

Just we didn’t realise back then what it really entailed.

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Let me just quote the Rav’s words, before we move on:

“Today is the 4th of Sivan [5779], and Gog and Magog will be in [the month of] Heshvan. All the nations will gather together against Israel. Moshe will blow on the Shofar HaGadol (the Great Shofar), and the whole Torah will be heard from one end of the world to the other.

THEN, ALL THE NATIONS OF THE WORLD WILL COME. THEY WILL COME ON SHIPS.

It’s written in the Zohar (at the end of Parshat Ki Tavo) that the whole sea will be filled with [war] ships. Then the sea will split, and open. In the month of Heshvan, there will be the apex of wars. Sivan 4th is the beginning (of Gog and Magog), and in the month of Heshvan, the Third Temple will be built.

“WE NEED TO NOT GIVE UP. EVERYONE REPEAT, ‘IT’S FORBIDDEN TO GIVE UP’. AND THEN, THE TEMPLE WILL BE BUILT THAT WILL NEVER BE DESTROYED EVER AGAIN.”

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It’s that last paragraph that I want to focus on.

Right now, we are in the middle of a ‘war’ that is primarily being fought with psychological manipulation and propaganda.

It’s ‘gaslighing’ on steroids, where we’re told again and again and again that what we ourselves experience as ‘true’ – i.e., no-one dropping dead in the streets from Covid-19, nothing really unusual going on that requires ‘lockdowns’ and ‘untested experimential vaccines’ and ‘facemasks – is wrong.

The media is full of fear porn.

The governments and their ‘spokespeople’ are churning out scare stories, and concocting horrible statistics (out of thin air…) and manipulating the public with measures that amount to psychological torture.

And the doctors and nurses and scientists (most of them….) are also in on the game, either because they know what’s going on and are totally corrupt; or they don’t know what’s going on, but their training in Western medicine has taught them to bury their consciences, and to not question things that really don’t make sense.

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It’s a ‘war’ for hearts and minds, make no mistake.

They are trying to wear everyone down, so that we all wave the white flag, give up, and let them inject whatever poisonous concoction they want into us – no questions asked – so we can get back to ‘life as normal’.

Despair is our biggest enemy right now, which is why the Rav gave us such a clear message back in June 2019:

DON’T GIVE UP!!!!

Don’t let yourself be ground down by what is going on at the moment, because really, God is behind it all, and it’s all leading to something very, very good!

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Here’s how a ‘good person’ who is hanging on to God and the true tzaddikim can avoid the worst ravages of the war of Gog and Magog, wherever they happen to live:

That war is psychological.

The people who are far away from truth; who have put all their trust in the medical establishment; who aren’t willing to question things that ‘feel wrong’; who aren’t willing to stand up for what’s right, and to feel some inevitable discomfort from bucking the trend – those people are running to get their shots right now.

They are ‘selecting themselves’ to the left, if you can say that.

There is no point wasting your breath in arguing with those people, or burying them in ‘information’, because the problem has a very deep spiritual root, and their ears are literally being blocked and their eyes blinded from seeing the truth by shemayim.

(It should be obvious that this category includes ‘externally religious’ people, too.)

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Then, there’s the category who are trying to hold on, but who are being buffeted by gales of propaganda and despair.

Some of my extended family members are in that first category, described above, and some of them are in this second category.

I had a chat with [someone] a few days ago, who asked me what they are meant to do, because the government is soon going to force people to take the shots to even go shopping, or to travel abroad.

I told him:

HOLD ON!!!

Don’t do anything until that scenario actually occurs – because so much can and will change, in the meantime, that could totally disrupt the ‘plan’.

When people start dropping dead en masse, lo alenu – as is already starting to happen here, as the side effects of the ‘vaccine’ start to really kick in – everyone else who is isn’t automatically buying into the fear porn will start to pushback.

So just hold on!

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Of course, that’s easier said than done.

People’s anxiety levels are shooting through the roof, and it’s getting to the stage where many people who are naturally ‘anti’ the idea of Covid-19 ‘vaccinations’ are starting to crack under the strain.

They just want some relief from the internal pressure.

From the non-stop worrying about tomorrow.

And some of them are being won over by the idea that vaccination = ‘back to normal’.

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So, for those people, here’s a suggested plan of action, to help you navigate the coming weeks and months.

  1. Stop arguing with brainwashed people who ‘believe’ in Covid 19 and getting the shot.

There is no point, you won’t change their mind, and all that will happen is that you will emotionally exhaust yourself and start to feel very despairing.

Your life comes first, and those people will have to take responsibility for themselves and their own decisions.

2. Start talking to God for at least 5 minutes every day.

Yes, I know you have 5 zillion kids at home, and no koach, and all you want to do is eat chocolate cake and watch Youtube videos, to ‘run away’ from the depressing reality – but if you do 5 minutes of talking to God a day, I guarantee that you’ll start to feel better, and calmer, and less anxious and more able to ‘deal’.

Try it!

At the bottom of this post, I’ll link to some posts here on the blog about how to get started doing hitbodedut.

3. Get with the Rav, Rabbi Berland.

I am noticing a direct correlation in my own family between the level of attachment to the Rav, and the level of anxiety about ‘Covid’ and the state of the world, etc.

This is all midda kneged midda.

The more we believed the lying media, and it’s lying reports about the Rav, the more we are now caught up in the lies and propaganda about Covid 19.

I guess that’s the teshuva required, that God is putting us back into the same situation, and this time we have to dig deep and know that it’s all lies.

Again, that’s easier said than done.

In the meantime, I’m trying to ‘smooth the path’ as much as possible by paying small pidyonot nefesh over to the Rav, via the website HERE – and again, I see INSTANT improvements in people’s mental health when I do that.

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Two weeks ago, after one kid got slapped in the face on the bus for not wearing a mask, I paid a pidyon for her.

She is currently doing better, emotionally, than at any other time in the last 4 years.

Yes, we have lockdowns and all the rest of it, and she’s doing school by zoom – but she’s still feeling happy, and is even now thriving in the situation, and growing up in all sorts of fun and useful ways.

Ditto for other people in my household – I pay a pidyon to the Rav, and ‘the problem’ – especially its emotional and mental component – resolves pretty fast.

This war we are in is mostly psychological, so doing a pidyon nefesh is the ‘biggest gun’ you can use to fire back with.

But only if you believe in it.

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4. Look for nice, fun things you can still do for yourself, and with the members of your household.

For myself, that meant buying a small, second-hand Jeep and going off-roading as much as possible over the last 8 months; it meant buying a guitar (and an online course, to learn how to actually play it).

It means sometimes cooking strange new stuff – and sometimes not cooking at all, and just eating cereal for supper without putting myself on a guilt trip.

If I find an interesting book online, I get it now.

Carpe diem!

This world isn’t going to last for much longer, and I want to go into the next stage with very few regrets about not doing something, or trying something, I always wanted.

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5. Shut ‘the outside world’ out, as much as possible.

That doesn’t mean going into denial, but unless you are someone who has a VERY STRONG grip on reality right now, you should be avoiding news sites, and ‘fear porn’ – and the people who amplify it and churn it out socially, too – like the plague.

Just work on developing your connection to God, and to the real tzaddikim, and trust that God will make sure that whatever information you need to really have right now, you will get it.

Again, this is just teshuva for being too connected into soul-destroying stuff like Facebook and Whatsapp and smart phones.

Minimise all that stuff as much as possible, find a good book, develop a constructive hobby, learn something new, begin a fun project, take a walk every day – whatever.

The hour I spend playing guitar gives me so much joy, and I look forward to it all day.

In turn, that also gives me a lot of koach to continue doing whatever I need to be doing, to keep the wheels spinning for myself and my family.

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I was going to end this list with something like ‘work on your bad middot’, but on reflection, that’s what this whole process is all about, isn’t it?

Fear and anxiety are also bad middot.

Feeling despair, anger and ‘stress’ is also bad middot.

This whole situation is just one big test of our middot, isn’t it?

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So, let’s circle round and bring this back to the starting point, about how the war of Gog and Magog can affect one person while totally bypassing another.

That person who has zero emuna, doesn’t really believe in God, runs to doctors for every little thing, has lost touch with their own soul and humanity, can’t deal with stepping out of the world of lies…

Sadly, that person will run to impale themselves on the tip of a syringe.

And there is nothing you or I can do about it.

It’s a spiritual process of self-selection.

But the people who are staying away from the news…. and working on overcoming their anxiety and despair… and who are sacrificing themselves, mamash, to deal with sometimes overwhelming feelings of fear without trying to take the ‘easy option’ – they will probably make it through this process in one piece, albeit it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

And then those people who are sticking close to the Rav, and the other true tzaddikim, and who are talking to God for an hour a day, and who have spent the last little while ALREADY working on their fear and anxiety and anger and despair, and all the rest of it.

They will have it the easiest.

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Remember this:

Doing a pidyon nefesh with the Rav is a shortcut to the easier option.

It’s literally  ‘blood for money’.

So, take your pick, what you prefer.

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And the last bit of chizzuk I wanted to share has to do with the greatness of God.

There’s a passage in Rav Natan’s writings that has always puzzled me.

(It’s alluded to in a footnote on page 192 of the book Tzaddik, connected to one of the discussions where Rabbenu is emphatically warning people to stay away from doctors.)

There, it says this:

“Rav Natan added: “God is so great, He can help a sick person even if he already called a doctor.” –

(Alim LeTerufah 176.)

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To put this in different language:

God is so great, He can even help a sick person who already went to a doctor and got ‘vaccinated’ with COVID-19.

God is running the world.

And even if someone DID get the shot already, that doesn’t mean all hope is gone.

If someone was pressured into it, had a moment of weakness, or maybe was vaccinated against their will – that’s still not game over.

God is so great, He can even turn things around at that point.

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There is no despair in the world!

This ‘war’ is psychological, mental and emotional.

But there are ways (some of which are described above) that we can get through the next few weeks and months without cracking under the pressure.

Just sit and wait for these forces of evil to blow themselves out, without doing anything dumb.

Because their time is very nearly up.

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Something strange was going on yesterday in Jerusalem.

Most of the shops in downtown decided to open – illegally – in total contravention of the Stalinesque government.

There were crowds of people all over the place, shopping (still in the masks, but that’s also going to disappear soon….)

And the police did nothing.

I know it’s not so obvious still, but something changed yesterday for the good.

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I walked downtown with my husband – for the first time in months – 99% of the time without a mask.

Then, I went off to the Kotel – which was also full of people – and said a tikkun haklali.

As I got there, a small chareidi girl ran up to me to give me a laminated prayer – it was from Rabbi Berland, on the topic of being saved from negative and destructive thoughts.

Just what I needed.

On the way out, another small girl ran up to me with a different laminated prayer from the Rav, this time for chinuch yeladim.

Again, just what I needed.

I have missed the Rav, and his quiet, reassuring influence, so much over the last 9 months.

There was meant to be a hearing to decide if he would be freed to house arrest at the end of October. I haven’t heard anything yet, about what was decided. But I think maybe ‘something’ moved yesterday, because you could feel a much happier vibe in the air than there has been for months and months.

At least, in Jerusalem.

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Yeah, for sure Biden stole the election.

That’s not even a question.

But personally, I’m pretty happy about that.

Now Trump’s plans for ‘peace in the Middle East’ and the ‘deal of the century’ have got derailed, and while the other side are also evil incarnate, because they have to at least pretend to be operating in a democrat fashion, it will take them a few months to put their ‘plans’ on the table.

And in the meantime, the geula will have unfolded even more.

It seems to me that all this chaos in the US – where these people, and the global interests they represent will be ripping each other to pieces for at least weeks, and maybe even months – is a total kindness from Hashem.

This way, they will be so busy with their ‘domestic agenda’, they won’t have the same energy to promote ‘deals of the century’, or to push vaccines down everyone’s throats.

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Oh, and one more thing.

Trump is a total psycho.

The way psychos operate is that if you cross them, or do something like obviously steal an election from them, they will never forgive, and never forget.

Trump’s only real power, even as president, has been in his Twitter account.

I expect to see him and his acolytes finally throwing all the ‘dirt’ into the public arena, very soon, as ‘The Talkers’ (see Rabbi Nachman’s story ‘The Cripple’, and also read the post below this one) finally take each other out, and good can finally sprout forth.

My guess is that he’ll do a much better job of clearing the swamp – including the part of it that he himself inhabits – out of office, than in.

So stay tuned!

From this point on, the only way is up.

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A reader asked if I could write a ‘chizzuk’ post.

Honestly, I’d like to do that way more than I do on this blog, but sometimes, it just doesn’t come to me. Especially recently.

But a reader got in touch, and told me they have friends in Israel who recently made aliya, and who are now wondering if they made the right decision, especially with all the revelations about just how corrupt this State really is.

What can I say?

You absolutely made the right decision.

Yes, I know the Kotel is shut to anyone outside the Rova, the holy sites are closed down, Mahane Yehuda is off limits, the beach is shut, and the police are violent thugs and psychopaths who have been trained to hate and attack religious Jews.

Yes, that sucks.

I also know that so many of us are going a little crazy from being ‘locked down’ in small apartments, stuck with our families 24/7 and being forced to wear masks for fear of massive fines.

(And not because we’re scared of a virus that has incontrovertibly killed less people than the common flu.)

But nevertheless, you absolutely made the right decision to move to Israel now.

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Here’s why:

  1. So many of our true tzaddikim, the people who really know what they are talking about and aren’t confused by what’s going on, have repeatedly told us to make aliya. And top of that list is Rabbi Eliezer Berland.
  2. Israel is still the holy land, and it’s still chock-full of holy Jews. Once more of us holy Jews understand who the real ‘enemy’ is – and that is slowly dawning on more and more of us – things will turnaround here fast, and fundamentally.
  3. Israel is just 3 months ahead of the rest of the world. Whatever is going on here today will be going on by you very soon – except you’ll also have to deal with way more violent non-Jews, and way more toxic anti-semitism, because Jews are a tiny minority in every other country, even the US, whereas here, they are a massive majority. It’s the bad guys here who are the minority, so when things change – as they inevitably will – the majority rule here will be one of kedusha.

And hopefully, also of geula and Moshiach.

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Nachamu, Nachamu, my people.

Don’t forget that the power of prayer can change everything around, and that our real strength is in our tefilla, not in our hishtadlut.

Turn to God, wherever you happen to be in the world, and beg Him to end all the evil, all the coronafascism, all the madness, and to uncover the lies and help more Jews to make teshuva and return to God, and their true spiritual greatness.

We have been ruled by a small, evil minority of Shabatean ‘crypto Jews’ for approaching three centuries now, who made it a priority to place their people into positions of leadership and power, where they could influence – and ultimately destroy – so much of our kedusha and connection to Hashem.

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Those people run the State of Israel, it’s true.

But they are to be found all over the world in Jewish leadership positions, and especially amongst the ranks of ‘rabbis’ and communal leaders.

More on this soon, BH.

But the bottom line is, staying out of Israel doesn’t mean you are staying out of the problem.

The ‘problem’ is everywhere.

But at least in Israel, there’s also a few million sincere, believing Jews, too. Like, half the country (at least….) has been to Uman, regardless of how they look externally, and Rabbenu’s Army is a massive force to be reckoned with now.

And don’t forget, that it’s ultimately just God, who is behind all this, because He wants some serious teshuva.

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So courage!

We are almost at the finishing line.

Anyone who lives in Israel will probably have a much easier time from here on in, as hard as it is, because all the suffering we’ve endured here is ‘sweetening’ things for us in a profound way, as we head into the final lap for geula.

And anyone that doesn’t – you can connect to God from wherever you are, and connect to Rabbenu, and to the Rav, wherever you live.

True, it’s easier – way easier – to do that in Israel. But it’s possible everywhere.

And each one of us that keeps praying, keeps talking to God, keeps asking Hashem to send us geula and Moshiach the sweet way, and keeps working on our own bad middot, is automatically part of Rabbenu’s Army, and part of something way bigger, spiritually, than any of us can really comprehend.

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I know it’s hard right now.

The light has been so obscured.

But hang on!

It’s all about to turn around.

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UPDATE:

This from Alizah – thanks!

It’s the follow up to the first video from Rabbi Smith, which you can find HERE (scroll down to the bottom).

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Everyone has their limits

There’s something about being stopped by the police right next to your home, for the ‘crime’ of taking an early morning walk around the block, that I thought fell within the 100 meter boundary, that can put a person in a really strange mood.

That happened to me this morning – the policeman told me that I’m just meant to come out of my house to gulp in a breath of fresh air, then turn tail and head back into prison and ze hoo.

I came home feeling so claustrophobic.

I came home feeling like I can probably do this whole ridiculous lockdown prison thing for another week, and then I will go nuts.

How that’s going to look, I have no idea, but when you know that my grandmother was regularly tied to her hospital bed to prevent her from escaping – even with a broken hip – then you know I have a deep need for freedom it in the genes, mamash.

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In the meantime, I had a tough day today mentally.

I was just feeling like bad always wins, and that I’m trapped in an Orwellian nightmare that just seems to be intensifying – because so many of us are lying to ourselves about the fact that the medical profession is not all-powerful, and that we’re not really in control of ANYTHING, let alone COVID-19 – and today, I just felt pretty down and beaten by it all

What can a small person like me really do, to fight bad?

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But then, my friend Chana sent me this video to watch.

A couple of days ago, she called me up to check that she hadn’t gone totally froot-loops herself, because she’d heard shofar sounds coming from the Jerusalem night sky:

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I tried to reassure her that if she’s crazy, then I’m also definitely crazy (not sure how reassuring that was….)

Because in Succot 5776 (2015), when Rav Berland said that we’d hear the shofar hagadol announcing Moshiach on the first day of chol hamoed Succot, me and my husband heard precisely that…. He ran in from the Succah to tell me what was going on, and he opened the window so I could catch the last minute.

It was awesome….

And I really felt it was the shofar hagadol, as it really didn’t sound like anything else I’d heard before. But then, Moshiach apparently didn’t come, and I’ve wondered about what we really heard ever since.

Until I heard this video.

What I heard with my husband was very similar, especially the last minute of it when it seems to become more ‘musical’.

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Geula IS happening people!

Hold on, because the bad is putting the choke hold on us right now, and all our mitzvoth, precisely because it’s on its last legs.

BIBI, YOU WILL NOT MAKE ME FAT!!!

Whatever else happens, I am just going to switch my exercise routine from walking to the Kotel to dancing in my house, and smashing the heads of bad with my dancing heels.

Your time is SO OVER, all you bad boyz…

In the meantime, pass me a beer. Or something.

It’s been a tough day.

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Over the last decade, and particularly over the last five years or so, I’ve had so many occasions when after a lot of investment, time, effort, prayers etc, it seems I got left empty-handed.

Nothing to show for all that output. All those tefillot. All that time spent working on my middot, or trying to move forward in life.

When you get that ‘empty handed’ feeling, it can so take you down so quickly, and make it seem as though there’s really no point trying and more, or continuing any longer, or picking yourself back up.

But that’s a huge lie spread around by the yetzer.

Here’s what’s really happening, courtesy of a Rebbe Nachman parable:

Once, a man was granted the opportunity to go to the King’s treasury for hour. He was told that whatever he managed to grab hold of and carry out of the treasury would be his – riches for life!

So he showed up to the treasury at the appointed time, and started frantically running around trying to grab the most valuable and easy-to-carry stuff. He staggered back to the exit with his booty – and the guard on the gate slapped it all out of his hands.

Shocked, the man turned around and started frantically trying to amass more diamonds and gold objects. Again, he came over to the exit – and again, the guard on the gate slapped everything out of his hands.

Again, the man had to start all over again. And again. And again. And each time, the guard on the gate would slap it all away, leaving him with nothing.

At one point, the man got so dejected he slumped down on the floor and simply couldn’t find the energy or will to drag himself up again. What’s the point? The guard on the gate would slap it all out of his hands leaving him with nothing to show for himself.

Yet, in that very low place a small voice whispered to him: “Stand up! Try again! Keep going! This is all going to turn around for the best, you’ll see!”

So the man stood back up, collected more items – and had them slapped out of his hands again.

And again.

And again.

Until finally the hour was up.

As that moment approached, the guard on the gate finally let the exhausted man leave with whatever he was carrying.

Which is when he got his second massive shock of the day: all of the treasure that had been slapped out of his hands was waiting for him outside the treasury.

The guard on the gate came over and explained:

“What can one person carry, all by himself? Not so much. So the King gave me orders to keep slapping your treasure out of your arms, so you’d be free to collect even more…”

And that’s how it is with us, too.

God keeps slapping all our ‘treasure’ away, because He wants us to go and collect more mitzvahs, more brownie points, more kindnesses, more humility, more emuna.

The real diamonds.

And when the hour is up, that’s when we’ll see just how much we’ve really amassed, despite all the times we walked around feeling lost and empty.

So don’t give up.

We’re nearly there.

Yesterday morning (Shabbat morning) I woke up feeling pretty icky about the world, and my life generally.

I had that feeling like ‘nothing ever changes’, ‘nothing is EVER GOING TO change…’, doesn’t matter what I do, say, try, pray on – it’s never going to change.

I’ve had that feeling, on and off, for years and years, and last year I spent around six months doing some major teshuva and inner work to try and get rid of it. And BH, for the last few months I’ve generally been feeling much happier and more optimistic.

But yesterday I woke up with it again, and my stomach sank. Not this again. Not this horrible, soul-destroying, heavy feeling that no matter what I do, say, try, or pray on, I’m just going to be dealing with the same old rubbish FOREVER, until I die.

In short, I was having a massive yetzer attack.

So I decided to try to fight back by doing a long talking to God session. I don’t have the koach to do six hours at the moment, so I aimed for four hours, pulled on my winter boots, and set out for the Kotel.

I took the longer way round, up the side of the Guy ben Hinnom valley where they just built a new walkway for pedestrians to reduce your chances of getting squashed by a bus, and it was cool, half-wet and pretty quiet.

As I walked and talked, the same idea kept coming up: “I’m stuck. I’m completely stuck. There’s nothing I can do to change things or improve things, I’m completely stuck.”

A lot of this has to do with the house buying situation I’m in still. Even though Jerusalem’s housing market seems to finally be cooling down, the prices being asked in our neighborhood are still ridiculously too much for anyone who’s not a millionaire to reasonably pay.

So anyway, all this ‘stuck-ness’ just kind of bubbled up again, and I started to feel so much despair that after all this time, I still don’t have an answer in sight, or a solutions to my problem, or a way to progress.

I sat at the Kotel trying to talk to God about it all, but kept getting distracted by non-Jewish ‘pilgrims’ with their massive i-phones and cameras, who figured that wrapping a see-thru scarf around their short shorts was modest enough for Judaism’s holiest site on a Shabbos morning.

I couldn’t help staring and then started pondering why so many fat women wear such short skirts, etc, which kind of put paid to any deeper exploration for why I was feeling so ‘off’. So I came home again, still feeling stuck and dissatisfied.

I ate lunch with the family, read some Likutey Moharan, had a Shabbos shluff (which I normally never do, and which is normally always a sign that I’m feeling pretty miserable and overwhelmed by life.)

My one consolation is that I know I’m not alone. From what I can see, so many of us feel that we’re stuck in a problem, or a situation, that we no longer have the strength to deal with, but which doesn’t seem to be going away or ending, anytime soon.

That’s part of the test of this time, this generation.

To carry on, even though it frequently seems so pointless or meaningless, even though the ‘big change’ we’re waiting for doesn’t seem to be showing up, even though life feels like such a drag so much of the time.

And to do it happily.

That’s the part that’s really challenging, isn’t it? To accept God’s will, and God’s dominion, and to accept that as much as we may want ‘X’, ‘X’ may not be God’s plan for us and our lives, or at least, not right now.

It’s really, really hard work.

There’s so much yeoush in the world at the moment, so much despair. Talk to anyone for any length of time, and it comes peeping out around the corners of whatever else they happen to be talking about.

But things surely have to turn around soon!

We just have to keep believing that, and praying for it to happen.

And also, accepting that if it doesn’t happen, or at least, not now, or not the way we really want, that somehow that’s also good for us, and just the way it needs to be.