I was sitting at the Rav’s prayers last week, when a girl came up and handed me something.

It’s a prayer to get off the internet.

Something that I’ve been increasingly thinking about, as the 5….G is turned up, and my health has been taking the hit.

(Thank God, I’m doing much better since I began the experiment with the Mineral Miracle Solution, and paid a pidyon to the Rav. More on that another time.)


I was discussing with a friend yesterday, how ‘different’ life would look like, if the internet would disappear.

And while there is also some fear there – because I write this blog, for example, and I’d probably have to return to a typewriter – there is also a lot of yearning for that.

Even without all the ‘tech’ health issues – which lets be honest, are huge all by themselves – no internet would also mean way fewer opportunities to space out, run away and ‘escape’ from real life.

So then, we’d have to find other things to do like sew, garden, read, learn Torah, do hitbodedut, walk around, actually speak to people again, including our spouses and children, find different hobbies to fill the time.

Again, lots of fear around these thoughts, because we’ve all got so used to zoning out ‘online’, but also lots of hope, for how good life will actually be, once we are through this stage of very tough birur.


So in the meantime, here is that prayer, with my translation underneath.





Ribono shel olam, Who can do anything.

Please strengthen us with deep joy, and that we should no longer look at the internet ever again.

And we should always pray every single word and letter with kavana.

And each and every second, we should just be bound to You, with all 248 of our limbs and 365 of our sinews, with all our nefesh, ruach, neshama, chaya and yehida.

And we should merit to see Eliyahu (52) HaNavi (68), may his memory (233) be for a blessing (47) = 400, face to face, whose eyes (220) were pure (180) = 400.

Please answer, Hashem!

“Remember, Hashem, [to repay] the offspring of Edom, the day of Jerusalem; [to repay] those who say Destroy! Destroy! To it’s very foundation! (Psalms 137)

Please answer, Hashem!

Let us merit to have the intellect of our Holy (415) and Awesome (268) Rabbenu (268) Nachman (148) ben (52) Simcha (353) ben (52) Feigue (94), and to see Eliyahu (52) HaNavi (68), may his memory (233) be for a blessing (47) = 2598, face to face.

And by way of this, we should merit to the verse:

“And to all (86) the tremendous (98) awe (252) and to all (86) the strong (125) hand (19) that (501) Moshe (345) did (375) before the eyes (170) of all (50) of Israel (541) = 2598.


UPDATE: Thanks to the readers who helped me tidy this prayer up, and also add in gematriot.


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A couple of years ago, I was looking for shiurim by the Breslov Rabbi Ofer Erez, and this is what popped up instead, on Youtube:


It’s ‘Lt Shachar Erez’, the IDF’s first openly trans woman.

(Or is it trans man? I can’t keep all the terms straight…)

I was reminded of this by THIS post, yesterday, on the Habayitah blog:


That interview with Shachar Erez is from 2017 – 5  years ago, already.

So, this has been a live issue in the IDF for years and years and years already… just it was creeping along under the surface, so we didn’t notice it.

But you know what gives me hope? A lot of hope, even? It’s the comments on the bottom of THIS story, from Arutz 7.

Despite their very best efforts to brainwash us all into believing a biological woman can truly turn herself into a biological man, most people aren’t buying it.

(At least, for now…)


The more I research all this stuff, the more I’m coming to the conclusion that LGBTQ+++ whatever is actually it’s own religion.

It’s based on a bunch of beliefs about biology and anatomy that are unsupported by anything scientific or factual, and that these LGBTQ ‘missionaries’ then try to push on everyone else, to get them to believe the same cack they do.

Recently, I was researching the Keshet organisation, which you can see HERE.



Plain English:

“We bully and intimidate other people into accepting our beliefs about biology and gender, even though that flies in the face of the Torah and science.”

Because let’s be clear, that if these Jewish organisations want to build ‘LGBTQ-affirming communities’, that means they are alienating people like me, who don’t want to live in a ‘LGBTQ-affirming community’ because that goes directly against my beliefs, that are rooted in the Torah. 


And in case you were worrying that there isn’t something like ‘Keshet’ specifically for the orthodox community, think again.

Let me introduce you to ESHEL.

Here is their mission statement:



If you check out their ‘Programs’ tab, you’ll find a whole bunch of things they are trying to do, to penetrate the orthodox community with their anti-Torah, anti-authentic Judaism beliefs, and ‘open hearts, minds and doors in traditional Jewish communities’.

Take a look at their ‘WELCOMING SHULS’ program.

This screenshot is part of their ‘Principles of Inclusion’:


How would you feel, if a Jew for Jesus appeared in your orthodox shul one day, and started telling you that you need to make the shul more ‘inclusive’ and supportive of their beliefs?

How would you feel, if that person told the shul that they should be ‘welcomed as full members’, and ‘participate and count ritually’?

And that if you didn’t make them feel comfortable, they were going to ‘leave Orthodoxy’?

That is the parallel for what is going on here, because the LGBTQ+++ ideology flies in the face of Torah-mandated morality, behavior and beliefs.


So, the more you make that LGBTQ+++ ideology ‘welcome’ in your apparently orthodox shul, school and community, the less you are making that space a place that welcomes Jews who genuinely believe in the Torah.

At this point, the rainbow flag is kind of acting like the crucifix, in terms of how ‘comfortable’ it makes a genuinely God-fearing Jew feel.

Yeah, sure, please set a up a few crucifixes all over the shul and school; and please also wear a crucifix pendant to shul and school, and talk about Yoshki every chance you get, and we will do our very best to make you feel comfortable and welcome, because hey, what’s the big deal about respecting the Torah’s commandments, anyway?


The big argument is that LGBTQ+++ will  leave the orthodox community, if they aren’t made to feel more welcome.

So leave!!!

What’s the big deal? Go and join a non-orthodox community that has no problem with your LGBTQ+++ beliefs, and learn as much Torah, and keep as much Shabbat, as you want to. 

Problem solved.


As I’ve said repeatedly, I have NO PROBLEM having LGBTQ+++ Jewish people at my table for Shabbat and Chag, as long as they are not trying to push their beliefs down my throat.

But if they are trying to get ME to change my beliefs about what God says is a man, and what God says is a woman, and what God says is a holy relationship that builds the world, instead of destroying it – then those people are missionaries.

And anti-Torah missionaries are not welcome anywhere near my shul, school, community or home, regardless of the specific creed they are pushing.


One more snippet about Eshel, and then let’s close with a story.

Here’s a screenshot of their ‘secret missionary’ program, which they call ‘ON ALLIANCE’:

Plain English:

We want to recruit people to become LGBTQ+++ ‘missionaries’ in the orthodox Jewish community, who will use their social media and other networks to push our anti-Torah beliefs onto their friends, families and communities.


This came to mind yesterday when a friend told me that someone had posted a whole ‘anti’ rant about the ‘What is a Woman’ documentary on the ‘Secret Jerusalem’ Facebook group.

You can watch that on Bitchute here:

(Highly recommended, but not at all shmirat eynayim friendly.)


I’d told my friend about ‘What is a Woman’ last week, and she was interested in watching it.

Now after reading that rant, she’s back on the fence about the whole issue, and has decided to basically stay out of it.

That’s exactly how these unholy ‘alliances’, and these secret LGBTQ+++ missionaries divide and conquer.

Already in kindergartens in Israel, they are abolishing the ‘Ima and Abba’ of Shabbat for young children, and encouraging the kids to have ‘Abba and Abba’ and ‘Ima and Ima’ of shabbat….

So, if you have kids, if you care, if you are a God-fearing Jew, or at least trying to be – at this point, you can’t ‘stay out of it’.

We are mamash at a cross-roads here, and every person who is willing to talk back to the LGBTQ+++ missionaries can tip the whole balance.


Again, people do whatever people do behind closed doors, and my issue is with the IDEOLOGY, and the missionaries who are trying to push their beliefs on other people.

Most of the people caught in the trap of actually living the LGBTQ+++ life are probably very nice, very miserable and went through an awful lot of trauma and difficulties in their life.

I’ve had a few of them at my table, and I see how much pain they are in emotionally and spiritually, in so many different ways.

They aren’t going through an easy tikkun.


But that doesn’t mean I’m going to turn the whole Torah on its head, just to try and please them.

I fear God, more than I fear being called a dinosaur, bigot or ‘trans-phobe’.

(BTW, is ‘christian-phobe’ a thing, too? How about ‘buddhist-phobe’? Just asking.)


This issue is not going away.

And sooner or later, each person will have to examine their heart, and figure out if they really do fear God – regardless of whether they label themselves ‘orthodox’, or ‘ultra orthodox’, or ‘chassidic’ or whatever.

That’s what all this boils down to.

If you think you can ‘reform’ the Torah, then you don’t fear God the way a sincerely God-fearing Jew should.

And if you think you can do things that are against the Torah in secret – like hurting small children or abusing your spouse – whilst calling yourself ‘chassidic’ or ‘ultra-orthodox’ – then you also don’t fear God the way a sincerely God-fearing Jew should.

God doesn’t care about external labels.

He just wants the heart.


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I’ve been debating writing this post for a while.


It all began when I passed the massive Gur yeshiva in the Romema neighborhood of Jerusalem in 2020, when we were deep in the middle of the ‘Covid 19’ parsha, and I saw that it was finally being completed.

That building had been a concrete eyesore for over a decade, because Gur chassidut clearly didn’t have the cash to finish it off nicely, with fancy facing stones.

And now, in the middle of the lockdowns and the biggest economic downturn since the Great Depression – a miracle!!!

I watched in fascination, as one load of expensive, shiny white facing stones went up on at the building pell-mell, transferring the eye-sore into one of the most impressive religious institutions in Jerusalem.


Who does this building belong to? I pondered to myself, as I drove past it, time and again.

The answer to that question would have to wait quite a few months, until they got around to sticking the name on it.

And then, lo and behold, I discovered it was a Gur building.

How did Gur get the money to finish that building so splendidly, dafka in the middle of massive Covid 19 economic recession and lockdowns?

I don’t know, exactly.

But trying to answer that question indirectly lead to this post.


As you may, or may not recall, the State of Israel’s ‘Health Minister’ when Covid 19 first began, back in February 2020, was one Yaakov Litzman.

Before he got moved out to let Yuli Edelstein take over, Litzman had been Health Minister in Israel for the best part of a decade.

He’s also a Gur chassid who apparently has very close ties to late Gerrer Rebbe, Simcha Bunim Alter, and his son and successor, current Gerrer Rebbe Yaakov Aryeh.



We all know that our corrupt politicians were totally bought and sold by Big Pharma and the shadowy forces behind companies like Pfizer, to force the nanotech Covid 19 killer shots onto the population here.

That’s not a chiddush, at this point, and I’m praying for the day when politicians like Netanyahu and Bennett also get full exposure, for what they’ve done to the Jewish people, and how much $$$ they got for doing it.

But right now, let’s focus on Litzman and Gur.

HERE‘s what was happening to our former ‘Minister of Health’, less than six months before the Covid 19 plandemic kicked off:


Sounds like the perfect man for the job of ‘Minister of Health’!

Then, all that apparently disappeared during Covid, with its ridiculous, draconian lockdowns and scare stories and forced face-masking and banning of weddings and minyans.

And instead, Litzman / Gur apparently got a big influx of cash, to they could finally finish their huge, fancy building in Romema.

I was curious as to where that money might have come from, so I started tootling around the search engines, and very soon, I had a pile of stories with headlines like these:


Apparently, Litzman and his associates had been caught, repeatedly, taking bribes from people in the ‘health’ sector.

This doesn’t need spelling out any more.


From that point on, I started to have less-than-fuzzy feelings towards Gur chassidut.

Then, all the hoo-haa about Australian pedophile Malka Leifer blew up again – and particularly, the fact that Minister Litzman, faithful Gur chassid, had been running interference for Leifer, to try and prevent her from being extradited to Australia, to face justice.

(Incidentally, try as I might, I can’t seem to find what ‘chassidut’ Leifer herself belongs to…)

Maybe this is a one off, I thought at the time. Maybe Litzman himself is just a bad egg, but Gur chassidut is mostly OK….


Then I really started to research all the Sabbatean-Frankists who have taken over the Jewish community, and subverted it from within.

And that’s where this post starts to get kinda interesting.

We first need to go back to secret Sabbatean-Frankist Jonathan Eybshutz, whose true history and deeds, including having an incestuous mamzer with his own daughter, have been completely scrubbed out of our history books.

(If you have no idea what I’m talking about, go back and read THIS post, first.)


In the process of writing all that stuff up, I started taking a closer look at where some of Eybshutz’s descendants had ended up, in the Jewish community.

Because remember, when you have a father secretly committing incest and promoting adultery and pedophilia, while externally pretending to be a ‘super-frum, pious rabbi’, that sort of behavior tends to pass down the generations, like a satanic piece of DNA.

So much of that information, especially as it pertains to the Chabad rebbes and the Litvak community centred around Bnei Brak, is still very covered up.

But some of the other chassiduts have been less careful with how they scrubbed their family trees.


This screenshot comes from the family tree of the first Rebbe of Gur, R’ Yitzhak Meir Alter, HERE:


It shows that that Gerrer Rebbes are direct descendants of the incest, pedophilia and hypocrisy-promoting Jonathan Eybshutz.

(And on the other side, they descend from that infamous SHOR family I’ve written so much about, who are also the ancestors of the Chabad Rebbes. And the Queen of England….)

Of course, that doesn’t mean that all of Eybshutz’s descendants are definitely engaging in these types of satanic, Sabbatean-Frankist activities themselves, God forbid.

But it certainly does mean that when we see ‘religious leaders’ excusing and enabling pedophilia, specifically, we are at least entitled to ask if there may be some connection with the ‘Frankist-satanic minhagim‘ of their direct ancestors.


This is where I’d got up to 3-4 months ago, but I still didn’t really want to do a deep-dive on Gur.

Then two weeks ago, when I started researching all the Nachlaot Missionaries Christian / Fake-Frum Frankist pedo ring cover-up in Jerusalem, I read this, on the Linked-In page of one of the main Nachlaot activists, who has done more than most to expose what was really going on there:


Who was ‘Avraham Mondrowitz’?

That was the first question. Type his name into your search engine, and you’ll quickly see for yourself that he is one of the most demonic, ‘externally-frum’ child rapists out there, with hundreds if not thousands of victims all over the world.

He was / is also a Gerrer chassid.

He ran away from the USA just before he was going to be arrested, and of course, the Frankist State of Israel welcomed this monster with open arms.


Once he got to Israel, no-one could apparently touch him or extradite him back to the US, because he was being ‘protected’ by a very important Chassidic Rebbe.

Excerpt from HERE:


So the second question I had about ‘Avraham Mondrowitz’ was:


Why would anyone, let alone a ‘very important Chassidic Rebbe’ be protecting a piece of scum, like this?


While you are considering that question, let’s continue.

I was still debating writing something about Gur, when I tripped over THIS recent article, on the Voz Iz Neas website, entitled:

An open letter about the conflict in Gur

Here’s the excerpt, that finally decided me to write this post:


I really recommend you read that whole post by Zvi Gluck, who himself hails from a family of Gur chassidim.

He simply describes his efforts to try and stop the Gur leadership from using extreme violence and threats to prevent followers from breaking away from the current Gerrer Rebbe, to start following a different ‘rebbe’ within Gur.

And what happened to Zvi Gluck, as a result of his efforts to do this?

More ‘threats and punishment’ from the Gerrer Rebbe’s camp.

Another snippet:


So, what are we simple people to make of all this?

When we see people – Rebbes! – over and over again protecting the lowest pedophiles and predators, and these people are still welcomed at the top levels of their chassidut...

When we see people over and over again taking bribes….

When we see people – Rebbes! – over and over again using violence, threats and intimidation to retain control, and silence any opposition to their ‘rule’….

When we see people acting against the simple halacha again and again – I mean what?! Chemical castration?! And encouraging people to violently hurt others, and if that’s not enough, to do that on Shabbos itself?!


What are we, the simple people, meant to make of all this?


For one minute, let’s put all the brainwashing aside, and just look with clear eyes at this picture.

Do you think a ‘rebbe’ who protects pedophiles like this really has yirat shemayim?


I’m sticking to this one subject, because anyone who still has even a bit of soul left can see that there is never any excuse for protecting and enabling pedophiles.

Yet Gur chassidut seems to have gone out on a real limb, to help ‘fake frum’ pedophiles escape justice time and again.

And I can’t think of a reason why they would do this, if they weren’t deep in the whole ‘pedophilia is a mitzvah’ parsha themselves, inherited from the known Sabbtean-Frankists clearly hanging out on the family tree.

If you have a better explanation, I’d love to hear it.


Once again, what is going on in Gur is, sadly for us, not unusual.

Pedophilia and incest are huge problems, across large swathes of the so called ‘chareidi / chassidic’ world.

Most of the rebbes, most of the ‘chassiduts’, most of the leading Litvak rabbis, are rooted firmly in the Sabbatean-Frankist family tree.

That doesn’t mean they are all ‘bad’, God forbid.

But it does mean that there is a huge, painful and long-overdue birur of the situation required, here.


We’ll stop there.

For now.

But I still have an eye on what is going on in that kindergarten in Bait Vegan where 15 small children were abused by their ‘rebbe’, while the school is running to support him, and to try and cover it all up again, with the help of our corrupt Frankist judiciary.

It seems the accused has some serious protektzia for some reason, to the point where they even slapped a gag order on naming him.

9,000 people signed a petition asking the court to overturn that gag order, and I’ll let you know what happens next, when I hear about it.


One thing is clear.

Most of our ‘leaders’ are from the ranks of the Erev Rav, in this generation.

Rabbenu, Rebbe Nachman, warned us that this would be the case.

If we’re going to sit here waiting for our ‘leaders’ to solve the problems they themselves have created, we are going to be waiting a very long time.

Geula starts with each one of us awakening out of our slumber, and taking the steps required to finally move out of the world of lies.

Nowhere is that more important, than in the area of middot, and especially, of treating our precious children with the kindness, respect and love they require to grow up mentally, physically and emotionally healthy.

And let me tell you this: pedophile-protecting, violence-encouraging, bribe-taking ‘rebbes’ are NOT going to be the ones to show you how to raise your children in a safe, loving and truly God-fearing environment.


PS: After I finished writing this, I came across two more bits of pertinent information.

  1. There are some very disturbing spiritual ideas being taught in Gur, around the whole subject of intimacy, which are referred to by the term ‘prishut’ – separation.

Take a look at THIS article on the Failed Messiah website, snippet below:


Remember, how we started to explore how some of the ‘Sabbatean-Frankist’ idealogy was to add more and more ‘chumrot’ and stringencies into yiddishkeit, to make it a horrible, soul-destroying yoke to bear?

I think we may have tripped over a classic example of that – and of course, in the most sensitive part of person’s life, their relationship with their spouse.


HERE‘s a response to that original article, that appeared in Ha’aretz, but which has now been scrubbed off the site, so only available as an archived copy.

It contains interviews with a few people who left Gur, and who describe their personal experiences:

Snippet 1:

If this is true, it’s disturbing beyond belief.


Snippet 2 is what the Steipler had to say about the Gur practise of ‘prishut’, from that same article:


And the last snippet describes more of what these ‘commandants’ are doing, within the Gur community:

L.: “Early on in my marriage, it sometimes happened that at 1:30 A.M. on the night of my immersion [in the mikveh, or ritual bath, to render her pure for marital relations], he would phone to consult.

The commandant told my husband to set a clock for 3 A.M. because only until dawn is it possible to observe the mitzvah.

We fell asleep and suddenly the alarm clock rang. It was pitch dark – because in marital relations you cover even the light of the clock. I didn’t wake up. The whole evening I had cleansed myself in order to be immersed in the purification pool at the mikveh. I had worked that day. I was tired. And nevertheless he performed the mitzvah.

If that isn’t rape, what is it?


Deep, deep sigh.

The second thing I learned is about the ‘Adass Israel’ school, where Malka Leifer was principal, but where I can’t seem to get a straight answer as to which ‘chassidut’ the school is actually affiliated with.

Is it Gur? Is it Chabad? Is it something else?

In any case, the person who took over from Leifer as principal when she fled Australia is Meir Shlomo Kluwgant, who we talked about HERE.

Screenshot from the Daily Mail, HERE:


It’s a small world, isn’t it?

Deep sigh again.

This is definitely To Be Continued.

All this shmutz has to finally come out of the ‘wound’, so the Jewish community can start to heal from the damage wrought by all these Sabbatean-Frankists, without and within the orthodox world.

But I know this process of cleaning the wound is painful, and I’m sorry for that.



Well, it’s starting to become clearer why Malka Leifer’s ‘chassidut’ has been covered up.

If you go HERE, you’ll find the Wikipedia page for the Israeli chassidic town of Immanuel, in the shtachim.

It is truly amazing how many of the chassidic  pedophiles seem to find their way to Immanuel, including Malka Leifer herself.

The town was apparently founded by Gur chassidim (yes, I know that surprises you tremendously….), with some help from Ariel Sharon.


Now, here’s the snippet from that Wikipedia article that I want you to pay particular attention to:

In 2016, Malka Leifer, a former high school principal facing 74 counts of alleged sex abuse of her pupils in Australia, returned to live in Immanuel, but was rearrested in 2018 and extradited to Australia in 2021. 

In June 2018, Emmanuel was cited as a “haven for paedophiles” by The Sydney Morning Herald, which exposed further alleged child sexual abuse there by Leifer, committed “without consequence.” 

Leifer’s husband, Rabbi Yaakov Yosef (Jacob) Leifer, fled to Israel with her and reportedly heads the small Chust (Khust) Hassidic community in Immanuel, where his wife was arrested.

The father of Rabbi Leifer and former leader of the Khust Hasidic, Grand Rabbi Baruch Pinchas Leifer, was arrested, in January 2022, and charged with historical sexual abuse of a minor to whom he is related, and a then 18 year-old male; he denies the charges, which are before Jerusalem Magistrate Courts.


HERE is that article about Immanuel being a haven for pedophiles from the Sydney Morning Herald.

This is probably a good time to remind you that Nachlaot Xtian Pedophile suspect Sarah Kramer-Vorst, and her suspected pedophile husband, also spent some time in Immanuel, before being forced to leave because her husband was suspected of molesting teenagers.

And now, let’s take a closer look at ‘Grand Rabbi Baruch Pinchas Leifer’, of the Chust chassidim.


First, here’s why none of us really heard about this here in Israel, even though it was reported in places like Australia back in January 2022:

(Screenshot from HERE.)


The Leifer family have a whole bunch of ‘admorim’ connected to Nadvorna chassidut, amongst many others.

HERE is the Wikipedia page, where you can learn lots more about the yichus of the illustrious Leifers.

And this screenshot pinpoints the yichus of Malka Leifer’s father-in-law:

HERE is the family tree on Geni, for those who may be interested.


You see?

They are all connected to each other, and all connect back to the Sabbatean-Frankist network that the Baal Shem Tov tried to ‘sweeten’ with chassidut – but only partially succeeded.

Again, this doesn’t mean that every member of this family is bad or engaged in awful, immoral acts, God forbid.

But it certainly does mean that the ‘Sabbatean-Frankist’ ideology of incest, pedophilia and immorality has a VERY strong hold at the very top of so much of the chassidic world.

And these rebbes are not going to clean up this mess themselves, because even if they themselves are ‘clean’, they are literally related by blood and marriage to awful pedophiles all over the place, and they probably – rightly – fear bringing down the whole edifice of religious Judaism down, if they went public.

But…. it’s still got to happen.



Thank God I’m connected to Breslov, and to Rav Berland’s bit of Breslov, and that I checked all this out in detail, before I got closer to it. I feel so sorry, for the people who have been fooled by all these ‘fake chassiduts’…

It’s Rabbenu’s story of the Hungarian Wine:



Yesterday, they lifted they finally lifted the gag order on the alleged pedophile ‘rebbe’ in Beit Vegan.

You can google translate the story that’s on the Makor Rishon website HERE.

His name is Mordechai (Motty) Shulman.

As usual, the police are failing to gather tons of the solid evidence that should have made this an open-and-shut case.

And as usual, the Talmud Torah where he worked in Beit Vegan is standing by their man, and pushing back against the poor parents and the poor kids, instead of cooperating with the police ‘investigation’, what little there even is.

But the mums are not backing down this time…

The time when they could just shut us all up and carry on abusing our kids is drawing to a close.

And they know it.


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Over Shavuot, I had some more guests from the place where my daughter works for abused girls from chareidi backgrounds.

Many of these girls have stories that would mamash make you weep, about the level of cruelty and depravation they have been exposed to – within their own families.

But not all of those girls were physically or bodily abused.

And the girls that were *only* having to deal with emotional and mental abuse and manipulation actually have it the worst of all, in many ways. Because very people understand the torture they’ve actually been through.


I was having a conversation with someone yesterday who has small kids in gan in Jerusalem, about what parents can really do, to keep our children safe from abusers.

The first response is to pray, and to ask God to protect our kids from all harm. Because parents can’t hover over their kids’ shoulders 24/7 – and even if we could, somehow, that would still be mentally-ill behaviour and very harmful for our children’s development.

Getting that balance between ‘protection’ and ‘suffocation’ is tricky, for sure, especially in our world.

Personally, if I didn’t really believe in Hashem, and really try to work on my emuna that Ein Od Milvado, I would probably also be one of those psycho parents who won’t let their children out of their sight, and who uses their kids mobile phone to eavesdrop on their conversations (without them knowing…) and to ‘track and trace’.



So, prayer is the parent’s first line of defense.

But there is something else that can also have a very powerful effect on whether our children will be targeted by abusers, and that’s how much the parent themselves creates an ‘atmosphere of abuse’ in the home.

I’ve written a bit about this before, but today I wanted to do more of a deep dive on the subject. It’s not an easy topic to cover, and I hope God will give me the right words, here.

Let’s start with a story.


On Shavuot morning, I walked over to the Rav’s ‘outdoor shul’ on Ido HaNavi.

It was totally packed, and there were no chairs, so because I had a long walk to get there, and also a long walk to get back, I went to the back of the courtyard, where I knew there was a wall I could sit on.

The area was full of small Shuvu Banim boys, throwing half-full bottles of water up in the air tied to plastic bags that acted as parachutes. I nearly got hit in the head by one as I walked over the wall, which is when I realised why no-one else was sitting there…

So, I sit down, and keep my eyes peeled so that if a ‘bottle rocket’ heads my way, I can hopefully move or duck before it hits me, and that’s when I noticed an older boy, around 11-12 years old, that just didn’t look like a Shuvu Banim kid, despite his peyos.

This older kid was engaged in ‘wrestling’ games with the younger kids – not unusual at all.

But over the next five minutes, I noticed a couple of things that were starting to disturb me.


This older kid was really trying to hurt the smaller boys he’d ‘captured’.

And not only that, when the small boys had clearly had enough, he wasn’t letting them go.

And not only that, at one point, he ‘captured’ two small boys, and started roughly marching them away from the courtyard, to take them ‘to prison’.

The boys were struggling to get away from him, and he was just doubling-down, with a pretty nasty look on his face, and basically man-handling them out the back of the courtyard.

At that point, one of the kids, who was maximum 5-6 years old, started screaming at the top of his voice ‘Don’t touch me!! Don’t touch me!! Get away from me!!’


I’d been watching the bully for 5 minutes, but I still didn’t know if it was just a game, albeit a sadistic, yucky one.

But as soon as I heard that small kid say those words, I got up and went over to the bully, and asked him what the hell he was doing.

He glared at me, but let the kids go.

And I returned to my wall.


On the walk back home, I was thinking about what happened a lot.

And I was thinking about how that small Shuvu Banim kid had been excellently trained by his parents, to stand up for himself, to respect and validate himself, and his feelings, and to firmly assert his boundaries, in the face of an ‘abusive outsider’.

As soon as he started yelling out ‘don’t touch me!!’, that gave me, the adult passerby, the clear message that I could come and intervene.

But if he hadn’t have reacted like that….it would have been much harder for me to read the ‘cues’ to know if I should get involved or not, to chase the bully away.


Sometimes, it’s hard for us to create an environment where our kids can really stand up for themselves, respect and honor their own experience of what is occurring, and assert healthy boundaries.

And it’s particularly hard if we’re training our kids to ‘obey us’, or to ‘back down’ from doing what is right for THEM, but may be inconvenient or against what we, as their parents, prefer.

I’m not even talking here about physical abuse.


It’s clear, obvious, that if a parent is physically abusing their kid, then they are already teaching their kid that their physical boundaries effectively don’t exist.

If you are slapping your kid around, and not letting them fight back, and punishing them even more harshly if they dare to try and fight back – you may as well just paste a big ‘come and abuse me’ sign on their foreheads.

Except you don’t have to.

Because abusers have a sixth sense, and they can sniff these kids out all by themselves.


That’s hopefully obvious.

What’s way less obvious, is that emotional and mental manipulation of our kids can also achieve the exact same dangerous ‘conditioning’, that abusers can so easily exploit.

When kids grow up in homes saturated with the message that ‘the grown up is always right’, and that ‘the grown up can never be challenged’, and that ‘the grown up must always be obeyed, even when that feels totally wrong to you and is against your best interests’ – then that kid’s protective boundaries are also being dangerously eroded.


As parents, we try our best.

But we also have to recognise that we are also bonkers, at least some of the time.

And at least some of the time, we are operating from a place of bad middot, and not from a place of ‘perfect chinuch’.

And at least some of the time, we do put our kids in situations where we want them to go along with what is best for us, and not what is necessarily right for them.

If any parent believes they never do this – they are totally lying to themselves.

We all do this, at least some of the time.

(Wherever you hear lots of speeches about how important it is to ‘respect the parents’, you can be sure what’s described above is happening on a regular basis…)


The point here is not to say we can never put our needs and preferences ahead of what our children’s needs and preferences.

That’s not realistic, and this is not about pinging from one extreme to another.

What I AM trying to put across, is that even if we expect our kids to do certain things that they feel are not in their best interests, we can’t just pull the ‘I’m the grown up here, so obey me or else’ shtick on them.

We have to encourage them to have their own opinions – even if they are diametrically opposed to ours.

And we have to RESPECT and protect their right to have their own opinion, even if we strongly disagree with it.

And that needs to start at a very young age.


Let me tell you another story.

One of my kids has very different opinions from me on the whole ‘gay’ issue.

She’s much more accepting, much more understanding of the struggles that is going on inside the souls of many gay people, at least in the modern orthodox community of Jerusalem.

Over the last couple of years, we have been having some very interesting discussions, and I have been learning a great deal from here about what is really going on.

Like, for example, all of the gay young women she knows come from very broken, very dysfunctional homes, where ‘marriage’ and ‘family life’ were synonymous with hell on earth. (And that’s the ones who weren’t being sexually abused by their ‘frum’ fathers and brothers…)

Before Rosh Hashana, when she asked me if I’d be OK if three of her gay friends came and stayed in my house for two days, for the chag, we had a full and frank discussion, about what I would and wouldn’t tolerate.


I told her straight: I’m very happy for them to come, on the condition that I don’t have to sit at the table on Rosh Hashana listening to a whole bunch of LGTB++123whatever cack.

If they want to come to the house as my fellow Jews, and to leave all the ‘labels’ behind for two days, then let them come b’simcha.

They came, and we all got on well.


Because they were accepting me for who I am, and I was accepting them for who they really are – beautiful souls that have been through tremendous trauma, and who needed a place for Rosh Hashana.


On Shavuot, one of them came back again, this time covered in even more tattoos, including a massive ‘pattern’ in black, all over her wrist and lower arm.

I hate tattoos.

Mamash, I hate tattoos, and the more tattoos a person has, the more I understand that they are suffering tremendously, inside, because tattoos are just a socially-acceptable form of self-harm.

So, I was feeling bummed out about the tattoos, when my daughter explained something to me:

Mum, her arm was covered in scars from where she’s been burning herself and cutting herself. Since she got the tattoo to cover all the scars up, she’s had a lot more self-confidence.

Let’s be clear, I still hate tattoos.

But now I understand way more about why my guest was going nuts, covering her body in permanent ink, and that understanding is helping me to feel a lot more compassion towards her.


Let’s bring this back around to ‘abuse in the home’.

That tattoo’d guest of mine was not physically or bodily abused in the home.

If you met her “Class A Narcissist’ mother, you would think she was the cutest, frummest, kindest little woman on the planet.

But my guest endured such horrible mental and emotional abuse from that ‘cute, frum woman’, she is still struggling to hold herself together (and in many ways, she’s not holding herself together.)


The Jewish community currently has a massive problem.

For the last 350+ years, we have been getting our cues and our messages about how we should treat our children, and how we should treat others, from a bunch of spiritually-corrupt, mentally-ill, highly abusive hypocrites.

These hypocrites hold others to impossibly-high standards in public, while giving themselves carte blanche to do whatever they want behind closed doors.

These hypocrites teach us that ‘might is right’, and that children, and people generally, should be ‘forced’ into doing things against their will.

They teach that people in positions of authority can never be questioned.

That it’s ‘bad’ to have your own opinions, and to stand out from the crowd.

And some of their biggest weapons of control are guilt, manipulation and threats of being ‘shunned’ or ‘cancelled’ for daring to disagree.


We win this spiritual battle against the Erev Rav ‘leaders’ who have taken over our Jewish community by distancing ourselves from their tactics and their teachings, as much as possible.

Sometimes, it is so very hard for me to give my children the space they need, to become healthy, spiritually-connected, self-aware adults.

Sometimes, my fears about ‘what can happen’ really get in the way of just letting them figure life out on their own terms, in their own way.

But the biggest present I can give my children is teaching them how to think for themselves, and not just to blindly follow the dictates of other people.

Even when that ‘other person’ is their mum.


Being a parent is the hardest job in the world, for all of us.

But the point is this:

Encouraging your child to ‘be them’, and giving them the space to say and do things that you don’t always like, and don’t always agree with, and respecting your child’s mental and physical boundaries is the single best line of defense against abusers.

Together with praying for their safety.


Let’s end with this, a quote from the self-righteous ‘Message’ from Penina Taylor, the editor of the Reform-funded ‘Unorthoboxed’ website.

“This blogger is of the opinion, and she is by no means alone in this, that trans people are invalid and should not be given a voice, but rather, must be silenced at all cost – and these anti-trans activists will go to no end to silence them.”

I’m pulling this out, because I want to give you an example of how ‘unhealthy dialogue’ looks, in real time.

(Taylor is talking about me, here, BTW, in case you hadn’t grasped that)


God forbid, I don’t think any human being on the planet is ‘invalid’.

I DO have huge problems with ‘invalid ideas’ and agendas and behaviors, that are evil, anti-God, and piggy-backing off young people’s inner turmoil to encourage them to undergo radical surgery and other harmful experimental procedures that can never be reversed if they change their mind in the future.

If Taylor was really interested in giving people with different opinions a voice, instead of just pushing the anti-Torah agendas and brainwashing of the Frankist-Reform paymasters of ‘Unorthoboxed’, then the right thing to do would be to give someone like Miriam Grossman a column next to ‘Shuli Transwoman’.


Or maybe, Taylor should run a column from the growing numbers of people who went through the ‘trans’ process – only to find that it left them scarred, ill, and even more miserable than when they began. Like Chris Binford, below. For example.


That’s what real journalism looks like – it provides balanced, helpful content for readers to make up their own minds about the issue, instead of just trying to brainwash them.

How is that, for a radical idea?


If my daughter asks me if a ‘trans’ can come for a meal on Shabbat (and at this stage, anything is possible…) what am I going to tell her?

I am going to tell her that IF that person is:

a) A nice human being and pleasant to be around generally;


b) Can respect me, and my belief in God’s Torah, at least enough to focus on other areas of their life that are not LGFT123++whatever related for 25 hours – then come with pleasure!


I live in a world where people are so much more than their sexual orientation.

I live in a world where I can find so many other things to talk about and discuss than just ‘gender’ or relationship preferences.

There is so much more that connects us, as people, as Jews, than all this ‘trans’ or gender cack.

We’re souls, remember.

Not just bodies.

And if people are connecting to their souls and transcending their bodies, in whatever modest way that might be happening, then we’ll find plenty of things to talk about and ‘connect’ through.

But if someone is a mentally-ill narcissist, who wants to spend a whole day forcing others to listen to inappropriate details about their personal choices and private life – then stay the heck away!

Because that is grossly abusive behavior.

And ‘respect’ goes both ways.



I just spent the last two hours watching Matt Walsh’s ‘What is a Woman’ documentary on the Daily Wire.

I paid $14 to do that, and it was TOTALLY WORTH IT!!!

Watch the official trailer below (not at all shmirat eynayim  friendly, FYI.)


I watched it with my daughter (the one referred to above) – she was totally blown away.

All the lies being told about biology literally just exploded in a puff of smoke…

Highly recommended.

(And btw, just watch how totally abusive all these brave ‘fighters for transgender rights’ actually are…. We have to agree with whatever they believe – even when that flies in the face of objective reality – but they get to tell us that all our beliefs and ideas are wrong and ‘bad’. Classic.)


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One of my friends sent me a link to ‘Unorthoboxed’ latest ‘letter from the editor’.

It’s referring to stuff discussed on this blog, HERE, about how all the ‘trans’ stuff is being stealthily shoved down the throat of the orthodox community by people and publications who are anything but.

You will be shocked – shocked!!! – to discover that the editor of ‘Unorthoboxed’ feels she has done absolutely nothing wrong, foisting all this semi-pornographic trans propaganda on her readers, and trying to make it seem like this is all just about a simple difference of opinion.

We are back down that rabbit hole of ‘Da’at Torah’, or ‘Da’at Me’.


So anyway, my friend sent me a link to the latest self-righteous rant from the Unorthoboxed editor, that you can read HERE, if you have nothing better to do with your time, like having a root canal or cleaning a toilet.

And also told me how hypocritical she is finding this whole ‘we silence no dissenting voice’ cack on the Unorthoboxed website, because for sure they have recieved a bunch of letters complaining about all this anti-Torah ‘trans agenda’ pushing – and they haven’t printed a single one of them.

Talk about being in an echo chamber.

My friend is currently debating sending a ‘letter to the editor’ herself, just to see if they will actually print it.

Personally, I’m not holding my breath.


But in the meantime, I decided to go and check out their letters to the editor page, HERE.

Apparently, they only have one letter.

And it’s from a woman named Hannah Katsman, who writes the ‘A Mother In Israel’ blog. Hannah Katsman is another one of those ‘Ortho Fems’ so beloved by the anti-Torah groups trying to ‘shatter orthodoxy’ from within.

Back in February 2019, Katsman decided she was going to liberate women by suing Ikea, for putting out a culturally-sensitive catalogue appropriate for strictly ultra-orthodox households.



On my old blog, I wrote a whole post about how Katsman was just being used as the ‘Modern Orthodox’ fig-leaf for the legal suit, which was really being sponsored and paid for by something called the Israel Religious Action Center.

Here’s a screenshot from their About page:


Here’s what it says about IRAC on Wikipedia:

The Israel Religious Action Center ….was established in 1987 as the public and legal advocacy arm of the Israel Movement for Progressive Judaism. It is located in Jerusalem, Israel.

IRAC aims to defend equality, social justice, and religious pluralism within Israel, through the Israeli legal system, lobbying and publications….Recent campaigns include an effort to ban gender segregation on Israeli public buses, a successful public campaign for the abolition of income guarantees to kollel students, and a lobbying campaign in defense of human rights organizations operating in Israel. 

Anat Hoffman, currently the executive director of IRAC, is also the director and a founding member of Neshot HaKotel, also known as “Women of the Wall”…


Does that change the picture, any, now you know that Ikea was actually being sued by the same intolerant, vindictive orthodox Judaism-hating ‘Reform people’ who are behind the Women of the Wall?

Who can apparently tolerate everything and everyone… except Torah-observant Jews and kollel students.


So anyway, when I saw Hannah Katsman’s ‘Letter to the Editor’ on the Unorthoboxed website…

I was shocked!!! Shocked!!! That a Reform-funded ‘modern orthodox’ blogger with tight links to Progressive Judaism and the Women of the Wall was the one letter being published in the open-minded, all-inclusive-as-long-as-you-agree-with-me pages of Unorthoboxed…. funded by who, exactly?

I think we are starting to figure that out.


Me being me, I headed over to Katsman’s website to see if she’d written anything lately about pedophile and child-trafficker Jeffrey Epstein’s links to a bunch of big names in the Reform movement….

Or anything at all, about that subject.

You’ll be shocked – shocked!!! – to learn that no, predatory pedophiles and wealthy child traffickers at the higher echelons of the ‘pluralistic’ Jewish community didn’t get any airtime at all.

In fact, the blog has slowed down the last two years, and there was just one post on it from the last 24 months, namely this one:

Update about Amanda and Michael Elk/Elkohen/Tzadok


In case you forgot, Amanda and Michael Elk were xtian missionaries living in French Hill, who faked being orthodox Jews – and even faked being ‘Kohens!’ – and wreaked havoc amongst the Jewish community.

They were busted when Amanda Elk died of cancer, and her kids were caught ‘missionising’ about Yoshki to classmates in her local Beis Yaakov school.

It turns out, missionary Jew-for-Jesus Amanda Elk and Hannah Katsman were apparently good friends.

It’s a small world…

But even more strange than that, is one of the comments that appeared underneath that article, which I am screenshotting here, as these things have a way of ‘disappearing’ once you start actually paying attention to them.



So unlike Hannah Katsman, I’m really not convinced that ‘there is no hint of any connection’ between these pretend-Jewish xtian missionaries, and the pedophile scandal within the Jewish community.

And like the commentator above, I also find it very interesting that Michael Elk, the secret xtian missionary, appears to have been at the forefront of trying to get everyone to shut up about the terrible abuse of 200 children by pedophiles in Nachlaot, 10 years ago.

It’s also news to me that:

“Zalman Cohen, the only pervert who is in jail, was also involved in missionary work.”

Say what?!?!


And I didn’t know who that ‘Sarah Vorst’ being referred to even was, so I had to look her up.

This screenshot comes from the Tablet Magazine, HERE, from 2012:


Is this a good time to remind us all of that story about the 108 kids who were secretly taken out of their Jerusalem kindergartens in the middle of the day?

I wrote the details HERE, but the low-down is that these kids said they were being taken to tunnels under churches by people who were not Jewish, and then drugged and horribly abused, while being filmed.

If that wasn’t bad enough, these kids also said they were forcibly ‘baptised’ in pools of water, forced to eat traif, and had to participate in strange rituals that appeared to be mocking Jewish customs like the shulchan Shabbat.

And the Jerusalem police covered all this up, and did absolutely nothing!!!!


So, we have pedophiles connected to tunnels under churches, ‘baptisms’, and strange rituals mocking Judaism – and the police refuse to do anything, and even arrest some of the therapists who raise the alarm.

And then, we have pedophiles connected to xtian missionaries deep undercover in Nachlaot – and nearly every one gets off scot-free, while the police blame the parents for ‘messing up’ the investigation.

And then, we have ‘rebbe’ pedophiles doing awful things in kindergartens while the police initially refuse to do anything, and then the court slaps a gag order on the case to protect the pedophiles identity, when the parents finally force the police to act.

Do you believe in coincidences?


Here’s another CO-IN-CID-ENCE, while we’re collecting them.

If you go back to that Tablet Magazine article, referenced above, you read this:

There was no hint of pedophilia in the community before October 2010. But the Haredi community in Nahlaot now believes that the highly organized ring has been operating secretly for years—possibly generations—and is governed by an elaborate hierarchy.

According to community members with whom I’ve spoken over the past year, they believe that a small number of masterminds, including the 70-year-old Vorst, a convert to Judaism who directs Ohel Sarah Imenu, an organization that facilitates Haredi conversions, used formerly abused teenagers and mentally handicapped locals as scouts for the victims. 

Many are convinced that there are Christian missionary motivations at play here and that false converts have infiltrated their community. A number of locals told me they believe that the videos and media produced by the pedophile ring are being sold for tens of thousands of dollars or more.


This article is ten years old.

But compare and contrast with what we’ve been learning on this blog about the ‘pretend Jewish / pretend xtian’ Frankists in our midst, and you start to see that a lot of what was being dismissed as pure fantasy and conspiracy theory a decade ago seems to be increasingly borne out by the information we are piecing together about all the satanic Sabbatean-Frankists who have always had very strong links to xtian communities and organisations.


Me being me, I went to look up ‘Ohel Sarah Imenu’, to see if I could shed any more light on what is really going on here.

Very quickly, I got to THIS article, on the LukeFord website HERE.

Man, oh man, this story just gets worse and worse.

These sickos seem to be directly connected to the heart of the ‘orthodox’ religious establishment.

None of this would make a lot of sense, if we didn’t know that ‘pretend Jewish / pretend xtian’ Sabbatean-Frankists were running the show in the Jewish world, on all sides of the religious / secular equation.

But once we know that….

We start to understand that we really have our work cut out for us, to start exposing what’s really going on here, and to stand up for our children.


Someone asked me this week, what can we really do?

These evil people control the beit dins, the police, the courts, the media, the ‘Tznius patrols’, the schools….


All we can do is continue to build awareness, and to pray to God to finally uproot and destroy this evil from our midst once and for all.

That’s all we can really do.

But that’s enough.


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Yesterday, the Rav wasn’t at the prayers at the ‘Beit HaRav’ on Ido HaNavi.

It turns out that he is back in the hospital again, and needs our prayers.

If you can say 1, 3 or even 7 Tikkun Haklalis, for the refuah shleimah of Rav Eliezer ben Ettia, that would be great.

As I’ve said a million times on this blog, whatever prayers we say for the Rav, we’re really just saying them for ourselves, and for Am Yisrael.

And a lot of prayers are required right now, as the spiritual battle is continuing to rage.


When I was doing my hitbodedut yesterday night, I suddenly realised how much I take the Rav for granted.

That I can just pop down there, whenever I feel like I need a spiritual shot in the arm, or some chizzuk, and go and join the Rav and his community praying.

The ‘outside shul’ on Ido HaNavi is not pretty.

The community has very little money – and while that is something that is praised and lauded by ‘truth seekers’ when they see impoverished boodhist monks etc etc etc, when we see impoverished holy Jews who have devoted their life to learning Torah, instead of praising that, we just criticise the material ‘lack’.

It’s the olam hafuch, the upside-down world.

So, just as in places like Golders Green and Flatbush, where it looks pretty ‘good’, externally, but feels so dead, spiritually, on Ido HaNavi Street it looks pretty dingy, to be honest.

But you come away just feeling so much happier and uplifted and calm.


And I also realised how much I take for granted the fact that whenever I hit a big problem, challenge or obstacle, that I just head over to the Rav’s website, pay a pidyon nefesh – and things start to clear up.

Someone told me recently that most people have stopped trying to do a pidyon nefesh with the Rav, because the corrupt court system here have now made it ‘illegal’ for the Rav to be given any money directly, or to do anything connected directly with raising money.

Don’t let that stop you!

Intention is everything here.

If you want to do a pidyon with the Rav, just go to the website HERE, and follow the instructions.

Put in whatever amount you want, state what you want the pidyon for, and then have the emuna that your action of giving the pidyon, all by itself, is enough for things to start moving.


There are so many spiritual battles raging, right now.

And the Rav and his community are on the frontlines.

So, please make some time to pray for the Rav’s recovery and continued good health.

Consider donating some funds to the Shuvu Banim community, which has been financially decimated by the corrupt, Frankist State of Israel.

And please take advantage of praying with the Rav again, once he BH returns, because the spiritual benefits of coming to pray with the Rav even once, are enormous.


Remember, this is the olam-hafuch.

And the same people who have worked so hard to paint the Rav and Shuvu Banim as being ‘bad’ have really just been projecting their own shmutz and spiritual corruption.

All those people accusing the Rav of being a new ‘Shabtai Tzvi’ – they are in the middle of the Sabbatean-Frankist nexus that’s controlling the Jewish world, on all sides of the equation.

And that story isn’t over yet.

There are a lot of revelations still to come.

And a lot of prayers and teshuva still required, to sweeten this process of geula, and have redemption come about the sweetest way possible.


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The 49 days of the Omer were pretty heavy going this year, at least for me.

I’ve been ‘under the weather’ since Pesach, with a bunch of symptoms that fit – exactly! – the description of what Arthur Firstenberg calls ‘electrical sickness’.

On page 387 he writes this, about what happened in 1998, when the Iridium Telecomms company launched 66 satellites into space, massively kick-starting cell-phone coverage across the word, and especially in the US:

[O]n Wednesday, September 23, exactly, [the day the satellites started to operate]…my survey found that 86% of the electrically sensitive people interviewed, and a majority of patients and support group members had become ill…with typical symptoms of electrical illness such as headaches, dizziness, nausea, insomnia, nosebleeds, heart palpitations, asthma attacks, ringing in the ears, and so forth.


Compare and contrast this, with what the MMS is now telling us are the typical symptoms of so-called ‘long Covid’:

Snippet from HERE.

Lasting symptoms of coronavirus can include:

  • fatigue

  • breathlessness or shortness of breath

  • difficulty sleeping

  • anxiety and depression

  • heart palpitations

  • chest tightness or pain

  • joint or muscle pain

  • not being able to think straight or focus (‘brain fog’)

  • change to your sense of smell or taste

  • persistent cough


I’ve had weird headaches and a sense of weakness, on and off, for over a month.

Sometimes, I also get buzzing in my hands and feet.

And the last three weeks, when I spend too much time online, my eyeballs have started to literally hurt and to tear up.

When I was tootling around my internet connection trying to get it grounded with an ethernet cable (that’s another story…. in Israel, at least, the new routers make it impossible to do that) – my computer proudly informed me that it’s operating on the 5…G network now.

Of course it is!

That’s why they’ve been sticking all the antennas up all over the place in Israel, and elsewhere, all quietly, quietly, without formally announcing that 5…G has arrived, so no-one out there connects all their weird physical symptoms with this killer tech being foisted on all of us, whether we like it or not.


So, last week before Shavuot, I finally girded my loins, and got on with making some Miracle Mineral Solution.

You can read more about that HERE, or watch something, if you prefer, HERE, but so far, I’m noticing some big differences in the amount of energy I have (way more) and the amount of brain fog and weird pains I have (way less, Baruch Hashem.)

I will tell you more, good and bad, once I’ve finished doing the experiment.

But it gave me some hope, that I don’t just have to sit here as this new tech continues to destroy my health, while I twiddle my thumbs.


And it’s not just human health that all these radiowaves and microwaves have been destroying – for decades already!

Just as ‘Covid 19’, and ‘long Covid’, and ‘Monkey Pox’ and who knows what else is really just the cover story for all the illnesses being caused by cell phone use, laptop use, and 2, 3, 4 and 5…G antennas and broadcasts (just to stick with the more recent apparitions of ‘electrical illness’) – ‘climate change’ is the excuse given for what all these radiowaves are doing to the environment.

Do you know that forests exposed to these radiowaves and microwaves start to decay in a massive way?

That trees close to all these antennas start to display mottled, small, and ‘mouldy-burnt looking’ leaves?

That bees in hives next to antennas – or even, where just a cell phone is in operation very close by – go into disorganised chaos and then collapse?

That birds ‘forget’ how to build nests when they are near antennas, and that even when they do build nests, the clutch of eggs they lay numbers way less, and most of the eggs either don’t hatch or the chicks come out deformed and then die very quickly afterwards?


Firstenberg’s book, ‘The Invisible Rainbow’, has literally 200 pages of research documents and resources at the back, setting all this stuff out so clearly, that only a retard could try and say this is ‘conspiracy theory’.

But of course, that won’t stop them.

Because the implications of this are enormous: it’s our technology, our wifi, our cell phones, our ‘GPS’ – and before that, just our plain electricity – that is killing the planet and making human being all over the world chronically, severely ill.

And that’s the ‘big secret’ the industrial-military complex has been keeping from everyone, for at least the last 120 years.


Let me quote you something from the last page of Firstenberg’s book (published back in 2019), then we’ll move on:

In 2014, Japanese physician Tetsuharu Shinjyo…evaluated the health of residents of an apartment building in Okinawa, upon whose roof cell phone antennas had been operating for a number of years.

122 individuals, representing 39 out of 47 apartments, were interviewed and examined.

Prior to the removal of the antennas:

  • 21 people suffered from chronic fatigue,
  • 14 from dizziness, vertigo or Meniere’s disease,
  • 14 from headaches,
  • 17 from eye pain, dry eyes or repeated eye infections,
  • 14 from insomnia,
  • 10 from chronic nosebleeds.

Five months after the antennas were removed, no one in the building had chronic fatigue. No one had nosebleeds any more. No one had eye problems. Only two people still had insomnia. One still had dizziness. One still had headaches. Cases of gastritis and glaucoma resolved.

Like the residents of that building before the study, the majority of the people in the world today do not know that their acute and chronic illnesses are in large part caused by electromagnetic pollution.


So why am I in such a good mood, this morning?

Because I can feel that this is about to change.

I know that more and more people are about to understand just how bad all this ‘tech’ really is, for our health, our souls, our planet.

And that understanding, more than anything else, it going to usher in that world of geula and goodness.



I walked down to the Rav early Shavuot morning, just to sit there on the wall for 20 minutes.

At 5:30am, the streets were bustling with so very many different Jews, who had gone to the Kotel, or gone to the tomb of King David, to pray and read tehillim.

My daughter was in the Old City itself, and she told me she really caught a whiff of geula this year.

We aren’t there yet, I know.

And there may well be a long path to travel, until we get there, I don’t know.

But the destination is at least coming into sight, now.


Over the next few weeks and months, there is going to be a battle royale in the media, trying to convince us that all the ‘illnesses’ that are being sown from 5…G, smart lamp-posts, smart cities, and of course, the nano-circuitry that was injected into so many people via the Covid shots are down to things like ‘long Covid’ and ‘Monkey Pox’ – whatever.

The media will also continue trying to pull us into more ‘wars’ and more ‘fear porn’ and more ‘shortages’.

There IS still a war going on in Ukraine, it’s true.

But even there, you can see how the whole narrative is flopping badly.

And even there, you can see that somehow, things are still being sweetened. Like this:


Ever since I had that awful experience at the Kiev airport on the way to Uman, for Rosh Hashana 2020, I’ve been finding it hard to really read things like Likutey Moharan or other Torah works.

The stress of everything that was going on there, for three and a half weeks, just kind of took me out for a year a half.

This Shavuot, I had to the inclination and the koach to pick up Likutey Moharan, and to read through a whole bunch of stuff again.

The head fog was gone.

I could concentrate again.

And that’s when I knew, something very big lifted in the world on Shavuot.



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Remember when o so very many of our doctors and rabbis and ‘leaders’ pushed everyone to go and get a Covid 19 shot?

Remember ‘shiurim’ like this, from R’ Mordechai Willig and ‘Dr’ Aaron not-so Glatt?



Remember THIS?


And this?


Remember how they locked us all down for over a year, destroyed businesses all over the world, forced us to wear masks EVEN OUTSIDE, despite there being not a single shred of scientific evidence that masks stop anything?

Remember green passports, and being banned from flying, and all the ‘force vaxxing’ of people if they wanted to keep their jobs?

Remember how they stopped us going to the Kotel for months? And how even when we finally got there, we were penned into spaces, and given a minute – MAXIMUM!!! – to pray at the Kotel?

Remember how they wouldn’t even let you in to places like the Mearat HaMachpela, if you weren’t ‘vaccinated’?

Remember all these ‘rabbis’ that stopped people from attending their synagogues, and insisted on masking everything that moved, and who poured fire and brimstone on all those ‘Covid killers’ who were ‘putting the rest of the community at risk’ by doing things like:

a) Not panicking about Covid

b) Continuing to pray in a minyan

c) Having weddings

d) Going to mikvahs

e) Refusing to believe all the Bill Gates / Pfizer funded ‘propaganda’ about how ‘safe and effective’ the Covid shot

f) Trusting God more than they did press releases from the Department of Health and Pfizer about their ‘safe and effective’ shots


Remember how these ‘rabbis’ and ‘doctors’ and ‘leaders’ called us ‘Covid killers’?

Remember, all the grannies they blamed us for killing, just because we didn’t want to wear a mask 24/7, obsessively wash our hands and still hug people?

Remember them?

They want you to forget all that now, because now, more information is coming to light all the time about the true human cost of these ‘safe and effective’ Covid 19 shots, and just how  many people they are killing and maiming.

Go take a look at this:

It’s a Telegram channel devoted to documenting deaths and serious injuries from Covid 19 shots.

Here’s another one:


BTW – those figures are from January 18, 2022 – i.e. nearly five months ago, already.

By now, they are for sure way higher, already.


Yeah, right.


If you prefer to watch videos, go HERE on Bitchute, to the Covid Vaccine Injuries site, and you’ll find hundreds and hundreds of first hand stories of people who have been seriously injured from these ‘safe and effective’ shots.

But hey, why talk about failed Covid 19 shots now?

That’s all behind us, right folks?

And all those ‘rabbis’, ‘doctors’ and ‘leaders’  who pushed this poison onto us all, for the last two years – well, it’s just not nice to bring this stuff up again, and to remind them that they were all CRIMINALLY WRONG.

Even if they were well-intentioned.

(Which at this point, is a huge if, for most of them.)


Take a look at today’s headline from the Daily Expose:

Here’s a snippet, but I highly recommend you go and read the whole thing:

On the 17th May, the Office for National Statistics (ONS) published its latest dataset on deaths by vaccination status in England, and it has revealed a whole host of shocking findings.

For example we now know that according to the ONS, 70,000 people have died within 28 days of Covid-19 vaccination in England, and 179,000 people have died within 60 days.

We also now know that Covid-19 vaccination increases children’s risk of death between 8,100% and 30,200%.

But it turns out that once you dig a little deeper into data, you find that Covid-19 vaccination actually increases the mortality rate of everyone within approximately 5 months.


This information comes straight from the UK’s Office of National Statistics.

I know, they started a war in the Ukraine to try to take our minds off what they did with the Covid shots – but now that’s falling out of the headlines, while the bodies continue to pile up, with mortality in the US up a shocking 40%.

Watch this:

It’s old news already – from January 2022.


Both Joe Biden and Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau have been blaming the spread of Covid-19 on unvaccinated people for the past year. But recent official data from the Canadian government (Public Health Ontario) shows that 80% of newly infected cases are fully vaccinated.

Prime age mortality rose by 40 percent last year. Many people’s first reaction may be that the deaths were caused by COVID-19; but based on death certificate data gathered by the CDC, the majority of the increased deaths didn’t involve the virus.


Since then, Pfizer was forced to start releasing documentation on the Covid shots via a FOIA request.

So now, we’re learning things like THIS:


And like this:


And like THIS, from the New Zealand Daily Telegraph:


And this is literally the tip of the iceberg.

At some point soon, I will share more new information with you about what they are finding in these Covid shots – all the nanotech and graphene oxide, designed to take humanity into the 4th Industrial Revolution, and to implement the transhumanist agenda.

And of course, our corrupt MSM is totally not covering any of this stuff, because they are bought and paid for by the same people pushing the shots.


The point, for this post, is that all those people who persuaded others to take those ‘safe and effective’ shots, that have ended up killing and maiming literally millions of people around the globe….

When are you going to apologise?

When are you going to admit you were wrong?

When are you going to say sorry to all the people you bullied and ostracised for not going along with the big plan to inject everyone with unsafe, dangerous, experimental nanotech shots that had nothing to do with stopping a pandemic?

And of course, top of this list of people who should apologise are our ‘rabbis’ and ‘doctors’ and ‘leaders’.

We know politicians are scum; we know most doctors are just in their profession for the prestige and the money.

But our RABBIS?!?!?!?!?

All those tremendous, holy rabbis who lined up to write one fake ‘Halacha’ after another, and to make up one fake ‘Torah’ argument after another, about why people HAD to get ‘vaccinated’ with these dangerous, killer shots?

When are they going to admit they were wrong?

(I’m not holding my breath….)


In he meantime, one more piece of news for all the people who want to believe that Directed Energy Weapons are just things that conspiracy theorists believe in.

HERE, you can read about how police in Valencia just tested a ‘sonic cannon’ on crowds.



Of course, the DEW used by Israel to murder 45 people at Meron was way more hi-tech than this, as you’d expect from the ‘Start Up Nation’.

But as time goes on, we are going to see more and more examples of DEWs being used on crowds all over the world.

And then, the video that shows was really happened at Meron will finally make sense to a lot more people.

And justice will finally be done, for the Martyrs of Meron.

I can’t wait.


“It was pretty hard reading that post yesterday”.

My husband told me.

I know. But what can we do? If we carry on pretending this stuff isn’t happening, they will just carry on assaulting innocent children and covering it all up….

That’s the problem, isn’t it? We want, so want, the world to be ‘good’ and ‘perfect’ and ‘happy’.

And there IS so much that is still so good and so happy going on.

But the bad isn’t going to go away all by itself, however much we want it to.

It’s going to go away – permanently – when enough of us take our heads out of the sand, and start really praying for God to destroy all this evil once and for all.


And here is where I want to talk about hitbodedut again.

Rebbe Nachman teaches us, for an hour a day, you look at the bad, you get to grips with the bad, you pray about the bad, you dance and clap about the bad – especially the bad that resides inside ourselves.

And then for the other 23 hours – be happy!

Not the ‘fake happy’ that comes from a Prozac prescription, or an escape into Netflix, work or shopping.

A real happy, that comes from taking the time to connect back to God, and dumping all our issues and problems on His shoulders, and asking God to show us what we’re meant to be doing in the middle of all this madness.

And trusting that He will let us know.

Because anyone who calls out to Hashem from a place of sincerity and humility, with a broken heart – God answers them.


That hour a day of ‘looking at the bad’ and engaging with it, and wrestling with the world of lies, keeps me sane.

But the 23 hours a day when I paint, cook, walk around, chat with a friend, go to the Rav’s prayers (some days….) work on my fiction novel, take a trip out somewhere interesting, play my guitar….

That also keeps me sane.

 Good mental health depends on both: acknowledging the ‘bad’ and the evil – particularly within ourselves, for an hour a day.

And then spending the next 23 hours happy, that we’re riding this wave with Hashem, and that He’s guiding everything, and that even the blackest, baddest stuff CAN AND WILL turn around for the best, once WE make some sincere teshuva.


So much is so hidden, right now.

So many of us are trying so hard to hang on to ‘truth’ and to ‘goodness’, while the world of lies just ramps up louder and louder.

Two days ago, there was a massive fire in the forest in Jerusalem that’s near my house, around 9pm at night. We had a great view, if you can call it that, as the whole mountainside lit up bright orange, filled with smoke, and the fire raged for at least an hour.

Man, that’s going to look brutal tomorrow, I thought to myself. It’s going to be bleak, black carnage.

The next day, I opened the blinds, and low and behold: If I hadn’t seen a massive forest fire going on with my own eyes for an hour the night before, I would have no idea that anything had happened at all.

Because there are a bunch of trees on the hill in front of the ravine where the fire raged, and they were untouched. 

And so, it looks like nothing at all happened.


Strange to say, that forest fire gave me a lot of chizzuk.

I think a lot of my readers are going around lighting fires under the world of lies, both in their personal lives, and nationally, and globally. We see a few of those lies whoosh, burn and crash. And we think to ourselves yay, a huge bit of the world of lies just got vaporised!

But then the next day, we find our good friend still believes that Covid shots are totally ‘safe and effective’.

Or we read another post blaming what happened at Meron totally on the ‘chareidi animals’, while completely exonerating the corrupt police.

Or we read more rubbish about planned ‘monkey pox’ pandemics, or more ‘interfaith’ cack, or more puff pieces about how President Zelensky is the best Jewish leader since Moshe Rabbenu….

And then we think to ourselves:

Wait a minute…. What’s going on here?!? Where did all that clarity, all that truth, all that effort go?!?

Because yesterday, we mamash saw the world of lies burning down with our own eyes.

But today – apparently nothing at all has changed.


Take heart, dear reader.

Before Hashem destroyed the Temple physically, via the Romans, it was first ‘destroyed’ spiritually.

That’s why it was said that the Romans just ‘ground flour that had already been ground’.

But that principle works the other way, too.

Our Temple has been rebuilt, spiritually, already, and is just waiting to be revealed in this lowly, physical world.

Each time we incinerate another bit of the world of lies, we are bringing that time closer and closer.

Even though right now, the mask keeps moving back into place, the scenery keeps just rearranging itself, and the world keeps appearing as though ‘nothing has changed’.

But all that’s an illusion.


My husband suggested that I try to write a ‘happy post’ at least once a week, to counter some of the harder things that we’re uncovering here.

If I planned anything I write – at all! – that would be a great idea.

As it is, I just sit down and start typing, and whatever God decides I’m going to write about today is what appears on the site.

I don’t plan anything.

But I can tell you that we are approaching that time when the ‘happier posts’ are going to start showing up a lot more, all by themselves.

Because the world of lies is mamash on its last legs.


Remember what happened with the former Soviet Union?

It looked like it was going to continue forever.

Then one day, poof, the Berlin Wall came down, and the USSR imploded all by itself.

We are very close to that happening again.

Our corrupt governments and institutions are being shaken to their core, and while they look like they are going to stand forever and ever…

That’s just an illusion.


These days, who cares about the war going on in the Ukraine?

Hardly anyone.

Who is running off to get ‘Covid tested’, even though they have all the symptoms and have been feeling exhausted for weeks?

Hardly anyone.

Who is really buying into ‘Monkey Pox’ scare stories, or continuing to wear their mask now they don’t have to anymore by law?

Hardly anyone.

Even the people who still ‘believe the news’ are tuning it out and switching it off in droves.


Sure, there is still a plan to control the world, and probably kill most of it off.

But it won’t get there.

Everything is being sweetened, all the time.

That is the ‘good’ that I see 23 hours a day.

That is the reality.



Don’t give up.

Don’t despair.

Don’t switch off and go back into Prozac-land where everything is sababa because we can’t really feel anything, anymore.

Carry on fighting the evil!

Carry on feeling the pain of the world, and praying about it.

But know, that God has everything covered, and there is a plan going on here: His plan.

With patience and emuna and an hour a day of hitbodedut, we will soon see salvation sprout.

And we’ll also be able to hold on to our sanity while that process continues to play out.


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Until this week, I haven’t been able to see my parents for 4 years.

There was a family batmitzvah in London planned for the month ‘Covid’ really kicked off, back in 2020, and all travel got shut down. We were all waiting to meet up again at that – and that didn’t happen.

And then, with all the fascist rules about ‘green passports’ that they were trying to enforce for a year… going to London was off the cards.

I told my mum, when they get rid of all the PCR testing at Ben Gurion, I will immediately book a ticket and come and see you.

Ben Gurion dropped the PCR tests at midnight last Friday. So Sunday morning, I was off to London.


The first 12 hours, I was appreciating the fact that I could actually speak to people, and they would probably understand what I was saying. (Mostly….) I was loving seeing my extended family again. I was kind of liking the green trees everywhere.

But then.

A strange thing happened.

After that first day, I just started to feel that the whole place was dragging me down, emotionally and spiritually.


I was standing in one of the millions of kosher bakeries on Golders Green Road, debating whether I should have a vegetarian sausage roll ‘for old times sake’ – when the spell suddenly broke.

Why would I eat this stodgy, unhealthy food, when I just feel ill afterwards?

That’s when I realised that the whole place is built on appearances of stuff that ‘looks good’ – but actually just makes you sick.

What do you do in places like London, except obsess over houses, holidays – and pastry?


Long story short, at the end of the three days there, me and my husband both felt that when the Rambam wrote that mitzvot don’t really ‘count’, in chul, and that they only reason Jews continue to do them there is so they won’t forget how to do them when they return to Eretz Yisrael – he was totally right.

Everything there felt so empty.

So meaningless.

So pointless.

So disconnected from God.


Just before I left London for good, 17 years ago, I had what most people considered to be a ‘perfect’ life.

Prestigious job, relatively nice house, nice family, lots of friends, nice clothes, blahdy blah.

But I literally felt so unhappy there, that I kept telling my husband that if we didn’t find a way to move out of London, I felt like I wasn’t going to last out another year.

At the time, that seemed like hyperbole and drama-queen-ness.

But now, having spent three days there, I can see how on some level, there was no exaggeration going on.

Because your soul just gets so unhappy in these places – even when Kosher Kingdom is packed full of more glatt gourmet chocolate than you get even in Jerusalem.


I know I have readers who live in chul.

And I know many of them are on a way higher level, spiritually, than I am.

But this is what I feel:

The shechinah has left chutz l’aretz.


Israel right now is full of problems and issues.

Chock full, of problems and issues, while we all wait for this Erev Rav State to finally fall apart, and be replaced by something so, so much better.

But here is what I realised, this last week:

All the tumah in Israel is totally not shiyach  to either the place, or the people.

It’s like a mask, a costume, that looks pretty convincing externally, but which can and will dissolve instantly, as soon as God decides that we have reached that stage, as a people.

It’s not like that in chul.

Even the ‘holiest’ places in chul – like Golders Green – are still based on tumah and feel empty of kedusha.

And even the most tumah-dik places in Eretz Yisrael are still based on kedusha, and that holiness can and will shine through very soon.


I’m not telling you to move or stay.

I’m just sharing how it looks to me, through my subjective lens.


Before I went for that trip, I put a question into the Rav, Rav Berland, about whether it was OK for me to leave Eretz Yisrael even just for three days, to go and visit my parents, as we live in such crazy times at the moment.

The answer I got back surprised me:

The Rav said that England is in danger of war and there is a lot of antisemitism.

But if you are just visiting parents and not roaming around it’s ok. You could go and you have nothing to worry about.


I discussed that surprising statement that ‘England is in danger of war’ with my brother, when I got there.

He told me he agreed – but explained that the ‘war’ he thinks is coming to the UK is a civil war, not a war from external forces.

Inflation is officially running at 7 1/2% – and he says that real inflation is probably twice that.

The cost of living is skyrocketing as I type, with energy bills doubling and even tripling for many of the poorest people, who were struggling to get buy even before that.

The pound is tanking, and my brother explained that if they don’t start to put interest rates up in the UK, sterling’s future as a ‘serious currency’ will effectively be over.

But putting interests up in any serious way is going to torpedo the stock market, and also house prices there.


My brother analyses these sort of trends for a living.

He knows what he’s talking about.


At the same time, my niece in JFS told me that 10% of her school is now ‘coming out’ as either gay or ‘trans’.

And that she has to deal with a boy in her sports class who ‘self-identifies as a girl’ and is now in the girls’ changing room.

All of the girls feel pretty uncomfortable having to get undressed in front of him.

But there is nothing they can do, because the girls’ right to maintain basic rules of tznius, and female dignity, are being completely trampled by anti-Torah ‘woke’ culture.


Personally, I think things really can’t get too much worse, before Moshiach has to come.

My husband disagrees. He thinks there is still quite a way to go, and that the whole of society, as we know it, first has to crumble into the dust, before most people will be open to geulamamash.

I guess as things continue to play out, we’ll find out who is more on the mark.


So, today I’m back in Jerusalem.

And today, I am feeling so grateful that even though I don’t own my home, and I don’t earn money, and I can’t properly speak the language, and the police here are homicidal psychos, and the politicians are all evil, and I still haven’t worked out where to get comfy pants here – dayenu.

I am in the best place in the world.

And I am so grateful to Hashem, that He got me out of London 17 years ago, and brought me to the Holy Land.


I have a lot of stuff to get on with, here on the blog.

But I’m still taking it easy here, until after Shavuot.

Which coincides this year with ramping up the 5…G to 26 ghz, that frequency that has never been properly tested on humans, and is likely to cause a whole range of very serious health issues to a whole bunch of people, including skin lesions, which will then be blamed on ‘Monkey Pox’.

Or whatever.

(If you go HERE, you’ll find a recent report from the CDC, explaining how 5…G radiation can cause the eruption of lesions on the skin, aka ‘cutaneous radiation injury’.)

The world of lies continues still, for now.

But very soon….it’s going to fall.


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