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Just want to get this up now, without a lot of analysis, to make sure it’s not ‘scrubbed’ out of the record.

This is not easy video to watch, please be advised.

But it clearly shows the police were at the scene long before Channel 12 put them there.

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UPDATE: Someone just sent me the link to this on Youtube, too, where it’s clearer to see it:

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I will keep this version up too, tho, to make sure it’s still available in case the Youtube link gets scrubbed:

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It also shows that BOTH SIDES of the stairs were blocked – the left-hand exit by the police, who can be seen in the video above waving people back up the stairs.

  

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And the right hand side probably by a fence like the one below, or something similar, a little further down the steps.

(These screenshots come from a Russian-language news report into what happened in Meron. More on that another time.)

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The screenshot below comes from a report from ‘ILTV’, that shows the steps that lead down off to the right-hand side of the ‘Reb Dov Shvil’ main stairs.

These steps are ‘Area 42’ – the area where it seems most people actually died on L’ag B’Omer.

It’s crucial to grasp that there was a RIGHT and a LEFT exit off the bottom of the ‘Reb Dov Shvil stairs, and BOTH EXITS WERE BLOCKED at the time people were crushed and asphyxiated to death there.

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The RIGHT HAND exit (‘Area 42) off the ‘Reb Dov Shvil’ seems to have been blocked by a double gate.

The LEFT HAND exit (‘Area 41’) off the ‘Reb Dov Shvil’ seems to have been blocked by a group of policemen and women, and possibly also a gate, or something else.

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BH, I will look at this much closer motzash, and what it is telling us about what really happened, but wanted to get this up and circulating widely, before it gets scrubbed.

I have additional video taken from the same angle, but showing further down the ‘tunnel’ to the left, that clearly shows there were A LOT of police there, blocking the left-hand exit and waving people back.

The crucial piece of information is WHEN, exactly, was this video taken, BH, can anyone help to answer this question?

And I’m still very confused about WHAT is stopping these people from moving forward at the bottom of the stairs to the left (as you descend the stairs), where you see the police gesticulating at them to go back.

How is there a 2-3 metres gap of empty space between the police, and the crowd?

WHAT is preventing the people on the steps who are facing the police from moving forward, exactly?

Something here is still not making sense.

But with Hashem’s help, and a lot of prayers, we’ll continue to figure this out, BH.

TBC

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Thanks to everyone who helped me get this video on to the site. May Hashem bless you all.

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When I took the car up to Meron on Monday, I didn’t really know why I was going.

I mean, it was already three days after the disaster, what did I think I was going to find, or see, that hadn’t already been cleaned away or covered up?

But still, my heart was giving me no peace, and so I found myself arriving in Meron at approximately Monday lunchtime.

I was surprised to see it was still full of people, so much so that parking was difficult.

Somehow, I still got a spot right next to the complex, and then I set out to try to find out what I was actually doing there.

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I walked around the bleachers area first, where Toldos Aharon had lit their bonfire, and where 20,000 people had been pinned into an area with just one exit, instead of the four exits the Israel Fire and Rescue Association had recommended in their report.

There were still some of the police barriers at the top of the stairs leading down from Rashbi’s tomb, that they hadn’t managed to pack away yet.

I glared at them, then walked around all the bleachers, trying to see if any of them – or anything else at the back there – looked like it had ‘collapsed’, even a little bit, like all those strange media reports rushed to tell us had happened.

(More on that a little later.)

Nothing.

Everything looked sturdy, normal, solid.

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Then, I had no idea where the tragedy had actually occurred, and I wasn’t about to start asking people to show me.

That just didn’t seem appropriate.

So, I found a quiet corner inside the women’s section of Rashbi’s tomb, and decided to eat my sandwich, while I pondered what to do next.

God, I don’t know why you sent me here today, or what you want me to really ‘do’. I don’t even know where this place is, and I’m not going to ask. So, if you want me to find, or to do something, please show me. 

Otherwise, I’m just going to say some of the Rav’s ‘Perakim Nivcharim’ for the souls of the departed, and go home…

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I finished my sandwich, benched, then headed out the front of the complex.

An old lady was sat on a bench, chewing a boureka. She looked me up and down, then told me:

If you came to light a candle, it’s down there.

She pointed me down to the left side of the Rashbi complex, into a dark ‘tunnel’ of corrugated white metal that I only learnt afterwards was put up by the authorities ‘especially for L’ag B’omer’.

I walked down it, and I came to a small group of people, all chareidi, mostly men, who were standing at the bottom of the stairs and lighting candles for the souls of the departed.

I’d brought my camera, but it just didn’t seem ‘appropriate’ to start taking pictures then.

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There was a stillness, a heaviness, a sense of palpable yeoush, when I first got there.

I overheard one man telling his three young daughters a little of his experience being caught in that killer crush on L’ag B’omer, but when they started to ask questions, he sighed heavily and said let’s not speak of it any more.

A dagger went through my heart when I heard that, because if we DON’T speak about it, then the people who planned all this are going to win! They are going to get away with it again!

But I understood him.

So, feeling some of that yeoush myself, that there was nothing more to do there in Meron, I found somewhere to sit near to the steps, and I pulled out the ‘Perakim Nivcharim’.

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Three minutes later, a camera crew showed up accompanying a man who’d lost someone in the crush on L’ag B’omer, who had come to place a memorial candle.

The main reporter looked at me, and asked me if I was planning to be there for a while. I nodded. So then he whipped out his expensive camera tripod, and asked me to ‘keep it safe’ for him.

I kind of rolled my eyes at him – but OK. Whatever. 

All of a sudden, I got the idea in my head that something in the spiritual equation was changing, over there by the steps, and that some of the fire and passion and energy to NOT just roll over and let them keep killing religious Jews was sparking back up.

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All of a sudden, I heard voices raised, as a massive argument erupted between an older ‘dati leumi’ sightseer who was trying to tell three teenage boys who had been caught in the crush that night that ‘there was no barrier across the exit’.

There were other people there who’d also been in that murderous crush, and also seen people die in front of the faces because the exit had been blocked by the police – but that older dati leumi guy was having none of it.

The police would never do something like that!!! 

He kept screaming, totally enraged by the suggestion that the police had blocked the exit, and that’s what had killed the 45 martyrs.

How can you say such things about the police?!? You should be ashamed of yourselves, to be saying such things as this holy spot!!!

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An older man, a quiet type, who had also been there on the night came up and corroborated what the teens were telling the dati leumi guy:

There was a barrier here, my friend.

At that point, the dati leumi guy totally lost his cool, and stalked away muttering loud curses against all these people who were ‘speaking lashon hara and spreading sinat chinam’ against the police.

Why are you running away?! 

One of the teens called out after him.

Come back and listen to what he is telling you!!

But that was the very last thing the dati leumi guy wanted to do, because then his worldview of ‘the Israeli police’ – and probably a bunch of other things ‘State of Israel’ related – was going to come crashing down.

After 60+ years of brainwashing that the State of Israel, and its institutions, is only good, and only helpful, and only cares about the Jews…. Well.

You can see why he had to walk away, to preserve his sanity.

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At that point, I’d finished my tehillim.

And the camera guy had retrieved his tripod.

So, I came over to the teens, and to a couple of the older men standing there, and eavesdropped on their conversation, while I started to snap a few photos.

That’s where I heard first-hand accounts of people fainting – and then dying – while the police looked on.

Of kids throwing up and passing out, as their fathers begged for assistance, while the police looked on.

Of how more and more people had been sent down that already packed and dangerously overcrowded metal ramp, that no-one knew had been blocked by the police at the bottom.

And then standing there, hearing those first-hand accounts and seeing the place where it had all happened with my own eyes, it was obvious that they were telling the truth.

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The clarity of what had happened by the stairs that night suddenly blared out like a foghorn.

While I took a few more pictures, to share with my readers here on the blog, another camera crew from Channel 13 showed up, together with an assorted group of police officers, all in smartly pressed shirts and stiff uniforms.

This (very small….) group of police officers were being hailed as ‘heroes of Meron’ by the Channel 13 interviewer, who tried to position them by the steps where 45 people had been crushed and asphyxiated to death, thanks to the police.

Except, the interview kept getting interrupted by a very determined young yeshiva bochur, who kept repeating, loudly, the same mantra, over and over again.

Kol haKovod to the police who helped, and we love you as our brothers – but who put the barrier across the exit?

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The group didn’t like that question.

And they were also being heckled by the three teens who started calling them ‘murderers’ and ‘nazis’ – not exactly the ‘feel’ they were after for their ‘heroes of Meron’ interview – so they decided to try again, by heading further down to the bottom bleachers.

The determined young yeshiva bochur followed them down there, and that’s when I started to take pictures of this obviously staged and heavily-managed Channel 13 interview with the ‘heroes of Meron’ – all three of them.

(It’s a side point, but my daughter told me she didn’t see any police on the night helping to carry stretchers.

It was the first responders, helped by a lot of the bystanders. So it’s amazing Channel 3 managed to dig up a whole three ‘heroes of Meron’ in police uniform. But I digress.)

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Thanks to the heckling from the teens and the determined young yeshiva bochur, the Channel 13 TV crew had to keep changing locations, trying to find somewhere where they could shake them off.

They set up again, directly in front of the Rashbi complex – and at this point, the three heckling teenagers left the party.

Now, the Channel 13 TV crew were surrounded by lots of the sightseers who’d come down to light candles and see what had happened.

They were on more friendly territory again, surrounded by more of the dati leumi crowd who were raised to believe the State of Israel and its institutions are a holy, good ‘peel’ around the fruit.

This time, when the interviewer started again, with the ‘heroes of Meron’, there were at least three dati leumi people there trying to get the determined young yeshiva bochur to shut up:

Kol haKovod to the police who helped, and we love you as our brothers – but who put the barrier across the exit?

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Why are you saying that?! What’s your problem?! 

Some older dati leumi guy started screaming at him, before telling him he should take off his tefillin, because he wasn’t acting the way a religious Jew should.

Some other guy told him to stop bothering the TV crew, and the ‘heroes of Meron’, and to go back to learning Torah, instead.

Then, an Arab cleaner came up and told him:

Leave them alone, God will deal with them.

(Which was actually the most cogent argument out of all of the people trying to shut the yeshiva bochur up.)

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But now, the yeshiva bochur had really gotten under the skin of the Channel 13 TV crew.

I mean, the nerve of the guy.

There they were, trying to do an interview with the three police (out of who knows how many hundreds….) who’d actually made an effort to try to save some Jewish lives during the disaster on L’ag B’omer, and here was this guy, ruining it all, by asking a question about who had actually put the barrier across the exit that had directly lead to the deaths of 45 people.

I mean, c’mon!

What you are doing is a chillul Hashem!!! The Channel 13 interviewer screamed at the yeshiva bochur, while one of the cameraman actually tried to punch him.

In the meantime, the ‘heroes of Meron’ were starting to look increasingly uncomfortable, while the police handlers who were flanking them were just looking plain angry.

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The yeshiva bochur, to his credit, stood his ground, and just kept repeating over and over again:

Kol haKovod to the police who helped, and we love you as our brothers – but who put the barrier across the exit?

At that point, one of the older dati leumi guys who’d been trying to shut him up leaned over and said to one of the police handlers, a woman, the following:

Honestly, it’s a good question. Who did put the barrier across the exit? And why did they block the exit in the first place?

At that point, some of the angry arrogance in her face evaporated, and she started to look very uncomfortable.

There’s an answer to that question, she snapped back.

I’d also like to hear it,  I chimed in.

Who did put the barrier across the exit, and why did they do it?

The policewoman turned her back on us, throwing over her shoulder:

There is no-one here to talk to.

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And that, dear reader, is when I knew that this time around, the police, the government, are not going to be able to cover this up.

As the interview continued, another man walked past and called out angrily:

We know you are paying off the families of the victims, so they won’t lodge complaints against you.

And so, another piece of the puzzle slotted into place, as to why the ‘heroes of Meron’ were being welcomed into shiva homes where everyone was clearly very uncomfortable, and unhappy, that they were there, despite all the carefully choreographed shots of ‘grateful hugging’.

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While all this was going on, one of the quiet, elder men who had been caught in the deadly crush asked the Channel 13 crowd if they’d liked to interview him, about his experiences on the night.

Of course, they didn’t.

I mean, who wants to hear first-hand testimony from someone who saw with his own eyes how the police in Meron deliberately blocked the one exit out of the Toldos Aharon complex, in the middle of a segment about the ‘heroes of Meron’?!

What was the man thinking?

How could he think that these journalists from Channel 13 were interested in getting to the truth?

Tut tut.

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Today, as I write this, I know that there is still an uphill battle ahead of us, to get the real story out there.

But I can feel in my bones that this time, IT WILL GET OUT THERE.

My email is full of people bringing their own piece of the puzzle to this attempt to find clarity and justice.

Too many people are asking questions, too many people can’t sleep at night, too many stories are leaking out about what the police did, and didn’t do that night in Meron.

The desperate ‘spin’ will continue for a little while longer, but I can tell you one thing about our craven media:

As soon as they realise that the general public is not buying their lies anymore, they will instantly ‘switch sides’, in an attempt to save their own credibility (and jobs….).

We aren’t there yet, but I’m starting to see the beginning of that process, in some of the pieces I’m reading, and some of the stories that are starting to make it into the mainstream.

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If ‘the media’ becomes irrelevant – if more of us wake up and realise that they are just government-sponsored propagandists, paid to manipulate the gullible public – then they will be out of a job.

And things are stretched so far in that direction now with the ‘story’ they’ve been telling about Meron, they will have to ping back hard and fast, if they want to keep being able to fool us, that they at least sometimes tell the truth.

There is blood in the water now.

The police and the politicians and everyone else who planned murder in Meron this year will be exposed, and justice will be done for the 45 victims.

It’s just a matter of time.

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Kol haKovod to the police who helped, and we love you as our brothers – but who put the barrier across the exit?

And why?

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UPDATE:

Israel National News put up this article this morning (for 5 minutes…):

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Snippet:

In documentation obtained by Channel 13 News, ambulances can be seen evacuating the injured, but not allowed to return and treat other injured people who are still at the compound. “We were not allowed to enter the site, the police blocked us,” the paramedics claimed.

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And more first-hand testimony is coming out, that the single exit out of the Toldos Aharon complex was blocked by 10 burly policemen, who were pushing people back up the stairs and the ramp, just before the ‘disaster’ (in Hebrew):

https://go.bhol.co.il/31eLuS

Google translated snippet:

“[Q]uite a few dozen seconds after we passed the entrance to the path, a lot of policemen and at least one policewoman came to the entrance to the path and blocked the exit.

Anyone who knows this area at the time of L’ag B’Omer, this year and every year knows that police officers do not walk around in the mehadrin area at all [i.e. the area cordoned off for just men]… And certainly there are no policewomen in the whole area.

Suddenly at least 10 policemen appeared in one shot?!?! They were at the ‘disaster’ long before the first responders and Magen Dovid Adam !! And after the disaster – most of them (not all!) did not reach out at all… they were not determined and urgent to help, to say the least.”

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Today, I went for a walk around downtown Jerusalem for the first time in really a year.

I thought it was going to be so nice…. so amazing… so uplifting…. so fun.

I haven’t been for a walk like that around Jerusalem, without worrying about getting into arguments or fines for not wearing a mask outside, for literally a year.

The weather was perfect – sunny but not too hot.

I woke up early, popped off to the Kotel as part of my morning hitbodedut – which thank God is looking SO much free-er and almost normal – then decided to spend today window shopping in Jerusalem.

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I walked down there.

Perfect weather, nice walk.

I walked into a few of my old favorite shops – that haven’t closed down – and even bought some art stuff and a couple of dresses.

But.

Something is totally missing from the picture.

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I waited a year to do that walk, that way, with no masks (outside…), no worrying about police, no glaring at strangers on the street, or being glared back at, no tensing for big arguments with poor, delusional psychos who can’t think for themselves.

But when I got it today, it felt strangely flat.

So flat, that I cut it short, and called up my daughter to come pick me up.

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While I’m sitting by the side of the street, waiting for her to come, I call a good friend of mine.

She told me she’s feeling totally depleted, and also has no idea what her path is meant to be in the world.

Man, I can relate.

Last Thursday, I’d reached the end of my ‘carer of last resort’ rope, and was going nuts.

What does that mean, ‘carer of last resort’?

It means you are the person who washes up even when you don’t want to. Who cooks and grocery shops, even when you’ve had enough. Who hangs washing…. and more washing… and more washing…. even when the very last thing you want to do is hang up more washing.

But with Covid 1984 raging all year, and kids and husband underfoot way more than is normal or healthy, and non-stop demands on my time to keep on caring, even though my supply of ‘caring’ at an almost all-time low….

Well.

Last Thursday I just had to stop caring for a couple of days.

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Baruch Hashem, God arranged for my kids to go out for Shabbat, so I could keep the food super basic, and spend a good chunk of time just talking to God.

By myself.

Without worrying about the dishes in the sink, or the state of mind of my offspring, or sweeping the floor, or any of that stuff.

I could just BE, and talk to God.

It was just what I needed.

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So, back to Jerusalem, and today.

I think my trip out showed me that even though so much in Israel appears to have returned to ‘normal’ – whatever that means – really?

It’s totally changed.

The ‘buzz’ I used to get off the gashmius has gone. I shopped because I needed clothes. I walked because I need the exercise. I bought meat because we need to eat.

But none of those things are enlivening me, the way they used to in the past.

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My kids and their friends are also experiencing something similar, on their level.

Mahane Yehuda used to be a favorite past-time for them – they used to hang out there in the evening 3, 4 and even 5 nights a week.

Now?

They barely go once a week, and even, they aren’t really enjoying it very much and come home way earlier than they used to.

Ditto, with parties in the forest, and long days spent up north by some river.

It all sounds fun and amazing and just what you want to be doing.

But when you actually do it….

….it’s so flat.

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Like you, I feel so up in the air at the moment.

I don’t know what any of this means any more.

I don’t know what God wants from me.

I’m trying to hang on to my prayers, my hitbodedut, my religious observance, my mitzvot, as much as possible.

I don’t feel miserable.

I just feel so flat, and one-dimensional.

But kind of happy in that mode, at the moment.

At least for now.

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I guess, when God is ready, He’ll show me what He wants me to work on, to change, to do next.

But in the meantime, it’s the same message I got when I was stressed out of my head in Uman, for 3 weeks leading into Rosh Hashana 5781:

Just BE.

Just sit and BE.

For I am Hashem.

And Hashem has all this covered, one way or another.

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The last few weeks, I’ve been finding it really hard to talk to God.

I’m still doing it, for an hour a day, but I can’t remember a time when doing hitbodedut was coming so hard.

Not even in the middle of a lot of tremendous suffering, on the personal level, have I found it this hard, for this long, to talk to God.

Usually when this happens, I know why:

I’m angry at Him.

And when you’re angry at someone, it’s hard to speak to them.

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This morning, I was trying to drill down a bit more, to figure out what, exactly, I’m angry about.

Because honestly?

My own life is about the best it’s ever been right now, on so many levels.

And yet I am struggling to get out of bed in the morning, and I’m struggling to cook, and I’m struggling to do anything except really just stay in my pyjamas and hibernate. I’m acting as though I’m depressed – although I don’t feel depressed, and believe me, I spent enough time in my life feeling depressed to be able to make that distinction.

So, what’s going on?

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That’s what I was trying to figure out this morning.

And here’s kind of where I got to.

I think I have a very big case of serious yeoush about what’s going on. Yeoush means despair, for those who don’t speak Hebrew.

I think everyone has their own personal package of yeoush going on right now, but for me, it’s based around the feeling I have that no-one really wants to hear what I have to say.

That kind of got underlined with this whole Covid plandemic.

I’ve spent hours and hours and hours carefully researching things, carefully piecing information together, carefully writing posts here, to try to warn people that things really may not be as they seem, and to encourage them to think for themselves.

But most people really just don’t want to hear.

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And then, once I realised that, I also realised that this is kind of the story of my life.

Last week, I unexpectedly ended up in Caesarea with my husband. Long story short, he really needed the toilet, and we knew where there were public bathrooms in Caesarea, so that’s where we headed.

Our best friends used to live in Caesarea, so we know the place really well. But we haven’t been back for a couple of years, because our former best friends went through a truly awful divorce, and the place is now synonymous (for me…) with a lot of sadness and heartache.

For years, I was begging my friend to start really praying about her husband’s bad middot. For years, I was having discussions with the husband himself, about things that needed some attention – not least, his very unhealthy relationship with his parents.

I wrote about that HERE.

Long story short, his parents basically ruined his marriage, and then her parents basically ruined the divorce.

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How different things could have been, if they’d both been talking to God and working on their bad middot, and going to Uman, and trying to learn more of Rebbe Nachman’s advice.

Instead, where that family used to be there is now a jagged crater.

And if I’m still feeling it so hard, a couple of years after it imploded, I can’t imagine how my friends and their children must be feeling about it all.

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Two days ago, I gave a lift to someone who has cancer.

She was moving out of Jerusalem for 3 months, to go somewhere for treatment, and needed a ride. In the car, she was telling me a bit of her life story.

She’s a baal teshuva, married to another baal teshuva, but now in the process of trying to disentangle herself. She’s been married for two decades to a man addicted to alcohol and drugs, who has a massive anger issues.

For 20 years, she was trying to make that marriage work, but now her body is breaking down from the stress, and she can’t do it anymore.

She was telling me about her amazing ‘Rav’, who her husband is close to – and I secretly found myself getting annoyed.

What, this guy couldn’t tell her husband that his bad middot was destroying his marriage and his kids? This guy couldn’t tell the husband he needs to be doing an hour a day of talking to God? That he needs to take responsibility for his anger, instead of pretending like it’s no big deal?!

Most of all, I was upset about all these ‘rabbis’ out there who are keeping people away from the light of the Rav, Rabbi Berland.

Because I know from myself, that so many of my issues only started to resolve themselves when I finally got to the Rav, and could tap into his spiritual koach to really start overcoming my own anger issues, and self-righteousness, and black-and-white thinking.

Until that happened, I was also destroying my children with my own two hands.

All with the best of intentions, of course.

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But who wants to listen to this?

No-one.

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Last week, I tried to do a mind-map, to set out goals and aspirations for the next few months.

In the past, I used to do a lot of mind-maps, and I used to get a lot of things done, as a result.

This time around, I wrote down a few headings, and waited for some ideas and inspiration to show up.

Man, it was painful.

I sat looking at the heading called ‘Books I want to write’ for around 5 minutes, until I found myself scrawling this underneath it:

There is no point writing any more books. No-one will read them.

And much as I wish that wasn’t true, I know it is.

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So here I sit, with all this yeoush, feeling like the world of lies has kind of won, at least, in my dalet amot.

I know that ‘the troof’ isn’t always what God wants to be told.

I also know that God’s seal is truth, and that for as long as we’re telling ourselves and others lies, we are stuck in a sick world, with apparently ‘unsolvable’ problems.

I’m kind of stuck on the horns of a furious dilemma, as so much of what I’m researching, and so much of what interests me, and so much of what I want to share is a ‘truth’ that no-one wants to hear.

And it’s been that way for years.

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Man, I’m feeling sad writing this.

I know, you probably don’t want to be reading it.

What can I do?

My blog is kind of my last sanctuary, the place where I promised myself to tell the truth, even when it’s painful, even when it reveals me in less than glowing colours – and even when people don’t want to hear it.

Ahh, God.

This world of lies is killing me.

But it seems that ‘the world of truth’ is a very lonely place to hang out in.

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UPDATE:

First, thanks to everyone who took the time to write or call me after reading this (and also those that didn’t, but had the thought that at least in theory, they would have wanted to reach out.)

I really appreciated your chizzuk, and it reminded me that I’m not alone in all this.

There are so many people like ‘us’ out there, but it seems we’re mostly distanced apart, spread evenly around the globe, as part of Rabbenu’s ‘grid system’, to make sure he’s got the whole world covered with someone who is connected to Rebbe Nachman and the Rav, and trying to get to the truth.

That by itself brought so much comfort – to have all these insightful people sharing their own wisdom, and their own chizzuk and their own emuna.

Thank you!

BH, I am getting back on the horse now.

One of my friends told me that expecting instant results from all this is ridiculous (I’m paraphrasing) and the point is to write for God, and not to write for egotistical reasons and self-gratification.

She’s right.

But sometimes (often…), that’s hard.

But since when was anything truly meaningful in life easy?

Exactly.

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I woke up today feeling pretty sad.

I guess it’s finally sinking in that millions of my fellow Jews, my fellow human beings, have been totally sold down the river with this whole, evil Covid scam.

So many of my kids’ friends have had this Pfizer ‘vaccine’ that really isn’t.

So much of my family, both in Israel and abroad.

Some of my extended family members even lied and said they were social workers, so they could jump the queue to get ‘vaccinated’ in the UK.

All this is making me very sad.

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If I forget that God is really running the world, and that He can choose to turn all this around for the best, then the sadness is overwhelming.

All those people who say ‘we followed daat Torah in temimut, nothing bad can happen to us’ – do you know how many people followed daat Torah (“quote marks”) who told them it was OK to stay in Europe, to stay in Hungary, during World War II?

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I was talking to my husband about this today, and he told me a couple of things that really helped me cheer up, at least enough to get on with making Shabbat.

  1. He told me that now we are back in Eretz Yisrael, the hashgacha pratit, the Divine oversight of what’s going on is totally miraculous. God could have wiped the whole of Israel out 60 times over, already. We’ve had so many wars with miraculous outcomes, already.

Every second here is a miracle, already, Pfizer shot or not Pfizer shot, and if God wanted us all dead, He could have arranged that a long time ago.

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2. The second thing he told me is that today, we also have the Rav, Rav Berland.

The Rav has been busy sweetening things behind the scenes the last couple of decades, already.

So many things have already not gone to ‘plan’ for the forces of evil, there is good reason to feel more optimistic about the future in Israel, than I currently do.

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I’m still really sad.

I still just feel like crying my eyes out about what’s gone on here.

But, I have to make the effort, spiritually, to remember that God is all there is, and that everything CAN be turned around for the good in a second.

God is only good.

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And God is all there is.

BH, He’ll come and rescue us from all this evil and madness soon.

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Rosh Chodesh Adar rolled in, and I felt a black cloud start to descend.

So much fear about ‘what will be’…

So much sadness about what is ALREADY happening….

So much anger about all these dumb, evil people, all these ‘selfish narcissists’, psycho parents, egotistical bloggers, fake prophets, Dr Evils, neo-brown-shirt politicians, bureaucrats and journalists etc etc etc.

Man, I’ve been swimming in an ocean of difficult feelings the last few days.

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Just so much anger at God, so much worry about everything that’s going on, so many recriminations against other people.

And then yesterday, I realised something that changed the whole picture:

I’m having a flashback.

I wrote all about that on my old website, which is sadly no more, but the basis idea is that ‘big feelings’ that we couldn’t deal with from the past can roar back in the present, and ‘drag us back’ to that traumatised state of mind that was never properly dealt with and defused.

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As soon as you realise what’s going on with emotional flashbacks, they diminish by at least 75%, instantly.

What sparked my ‘flashback’ off was a few different things, including in no real order:

  1. Getting into a minor car crash – which reminded me of the horrible crash I had after the Baba Sali, that meant I had to sell my house and move to Jerusalem in very difficult circumstances.
  2. Having to deal with someone else’s ‘psycho mum‘ – which reminded me of the horrible narcissists I’ve had to deal with in my own dalet amot – until everything got sweetened with a few different pidyonot paid across to Rav Berland.
  3. Seeing that video by Yair Elitzur, filmed in Chut Shel Chesed – which brought back to me just how many high hopes we had when we first moved to Jerusalem of belonging to a real, Breslov community. And how badly they got dashed.

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If you’ve been with me on the blog for a while, you’ll already know what I’m talking about.

And if you haven’t been with me that long- go buy THIS or THIS or THIS on Amazon, and catch yourself up.

Point is, God has been shoving all these ‘unprocessed’ emotions in my face the last 3 days, because He finally wants me to really deal with them.

And point is, probably He’s also been shoving a whole bunch of ‘unprocessed emotions’ in your face, too.

So, it’s not that your husband / mother-in-law / boss / kid / neighbor is now more annoying and upsetting and dumb than they’ve ever been before.

It’s just that God is using them to do some emotional spring-cleaning.

We’re coming down to the wire, there is no more lying to ourselves about what we really think and feel, what we’re really experiencing and why. This is the world of truth, people, and it’s roaring in a million miles an hour.

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So, once I realised all this, and I spent some time in hitbodedut finally acknowledging all these deeply buried, undigested feelings, I started to feel way, way better and happier and calmer.

And probably, you will too.

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I speed-watched most of Rav Anava’s new shiur yesterday, and he made some good points, similar to what I’ve been banging on about on this blog for years, that working on our bad middot is the real test, before geula kicks off in earnest.

(Ooooo, I just had a thought: do you think that I could be Moshiach? I mean, I have a blog…. and I (sometimes…) talk about Torah sources… and (two years ago) I also had a Youtube channel… and I also called out Bill Gates for being a psycho eugenicist when that wasn’t so popular…)

No?

Ah well.

Maybe if I had more of a beard….

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Which brings me to this:

If you want the upshot, it’s basically saying that having some of the Rav’s prayers in the house is akin to smearing blood on the lintels, ahead of the Plague of the Firstborn, that decimated Egypt – and finally led to the Israelites being freed.

The way things are going, I would highly recommend you get your skates on, and get some of those prayers for yourself, your friends and your family members, while you still can.

(Reality check: I have a lot of friends and family members that I’ve basically given up on, when it comes to Rav Berland.

I guess this is the midda kneged midda part of the process, that anyone who bought all the media lies about the Rav has removed themselves from being able to access the protection of segulot like this. It’s sad, but I can no longer be bothered arguing with anyone, directly, and they’ll have to live with the consequences of their own decisions, like we all will.)

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The latest update on the Rav is that last week the court decided that he could go to house arrest, if he puts up a total of 4 million shekels (!!!!) in bail money, and agrees to have no phone, no contact – at all – with the outside world, and especially not his community.

Let’s be clear: THERE IS NO CASE.

There never was.

And even if there was a case, surely the year he’s already spent in prison would be equal to any possible sentence they could hand down for the ‘crime’ of doing pidyon nefesh for people?

So, thanks for nothing, cr*ppy State of Israel, who is now extorting a huge fortune out of the Rav and his community, at a time when all the borders are apparently sealed shut, so the ‘flight risk’ is the lowest it could possibly be.

But it’s still progress, of sorts.

Moshiach is riding on a donkey, the process is going excrutiatingly slowly, but it’s still going.

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Which brings me to this, the last thing for today.

It’s a comment that was left on both the Shirat Devorah and Tomer Devorah blogs – bloggers who bought all the lies about the Rav, and so now refuse to link to anything from the ravberland.com website, or about the Rav.

Which is a shame, because that’s where you are really going to find the real information, the real news, you need to get through the next part of this process intact, however ‘switched on’ you might otherwise be.

The commentator, who calls themselves ‘Real News’, basically synthesized a lot of information from the English and Hebrew Shuvu Banim sites, amongst other places – but God forbid, anyone should link to those sites, or say anything positive about Rav Berland in the comments section of those blogs!!!

I mean, Rav Berland doesn’t have a blog… or a youtube channel… and he never called out Bill Gates for being a (probable) transgendered eugenicist loving psycho live on TV, so for sure, he can’t be Moshiach….

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Here’s the comment, in the meantime.

I’m bringing it because that ‘fear’ the Rabbanit Stern spoke of, starting Rosh Chodesh Adar, is internal.

It’s linked to all the unfinished emotional business I covered above.

Forewarned is fore-armed, because this process is only going to intensify now, regardless of the Covid 19 Purimshpiel, or the ‘Iranian Nuke’ Purimshpiel, or the ‘war between settlers and arabs’ Purimshpiel, and all the rest of the fake news.

The real war of Gog and Magog is emotional; it’s internal; it’s the war of emuna and emunat tzaddikim.

It’s the war of finally owning up to our bad middot.

And if you’ve been skipping doing that work – well, the consequences of your actions and ego are about to be revealed openly.

There’s no more running away.

There’s no more hiding.

Because that ‘donkey’ that Moshiach is riding is almost here.

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Real News said…

On June 11, 2020, Rav Yehuda Sheinfeld said, “We are in the last stages of the chevlei Moshiach (birthpangs of the Moshiach). All that’s left is the final few months of the chevlei Moshiah.”

Rav Yehuda Sheinfeld, shlita, is a well-known kabbalist, and close student of the late Milkman, z”tl (https://bit.ly/2ZcJh1B).

This article was published on June 11, 2020. From June 11, 2020 to March 14, 2021 is 9 months and 3 days. Fortunately, the Gemara says that in [the month of*] Nissan we were redeemed from Egypt and in Nissan in the future we will be redeemed in the final redemption (Rosh Hashanah 11a).

*Not on Pesach.
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On October 14, the daughter of Rav Dovid Chaim Stern, one of the biggest Kabbalists living now, Rabbanit Stern who is a very big Tzaddaiket said the following:

Then she said: Listen well – the Mashiach is very close and will be revealed soon. In the month of Adar, there is going to be a lot of chaos in the world, in Israel and all over the world, there will be tremendous confusion, many people will die.

Many well respected rabbis are also not going to merit receiving Mashiach, they will not survive, because they are not really tzaddikim.

Why? She said that for them the main thing is learning Torah and they disregard all the requirements of bein adaim l’chaveiro, how a person is supposed to treat others. Love of your fellow man. Not to listen or speak lashon hara.

All those people defile the mitzvah of doing chessed/kindness to others, will not be around when Mashiach is revealed. Ba’alai Machloket, those who stir up strife, will not be around.

Also, those who are not tzinut/modest, they will also not be around when Mashiach comes. Everyone now has time to fix the sin of lashon hara/speaking or thinking badly about others. We have until around the month of Adar (the month when Purim falls), which is around March. It is 4 months from now.

Everyone needs to fix everything in the next 4 months. She continued and said that those who remain will merit to greet Mashiach in the month of Nissan (the month when Pesach falls).

Rabbanit Stern herself said in a recording that there will be tremendous fear, in the world, in the month of Adar. Everyone in the world will be scared, more than right now.

She said, the main thing to work on is Interpersonal Relationships.

The Redemption already has begun, but it is hidden.

There are a lot of people who will not merit to be around.

She said by Pesach there will be a beautiful Redemption (http://bit.ly/3pkDod6).
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Remember, you can go HERE to download a bunch of Rav Berland’s prayers for free, to distribute.

And you can also get hard copies of all four of the prayer books on Amazon, by clicking the links below:

Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Prayers: Prayers for every day, and every situation

Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Prayers 2: Prayers for Health and Wellness

Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Prayers 3: Prayers for Holy Children

Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Prayers 4: Prayers for Shalom Bayit

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UPDATE:

I got this message from Ida-Fake-Name, and it’s making some good points, so I thought I’d post it up:

Name: Ida-Fake-Name
E-Mail: ida@fakename.com
Subject: comments – the light in the darkness

Message: Dear Mrs. Levy,

This is in response to your responses in the comments section and your newest post. Since the original intent was not in any way to embarrass you, it seems better to respond in a private message… feel free to copy any or all of this to comments or other posts (not out of context, of course). The intent is to help, not to attack and create machloket.

The intent of the original comment was not for bizayon or to attack Rav Berland or you. You generally have very thoughtful posts with a high degree of scrutiny – your “BS-O-Meter” or whatever you want to call it. Generally you investigate things and present them with a critical approach…

In this post, you started writing about all the experiences bringing back different things that needed to be sorted out, etc., and how you were trying hard to change the narrative of Adar / Purim of past years. You talked about spring-cleaning and self improvement, etc., which were great thoughts, insights, goals, and everything. Then you went on to mention Rabbi Anava’s shiur… and went on to make what was either an attempt at humor or a passive aggressive attack either on Rabbi Anava or on other people who hold him in high esteem. The whole “(Ooooo… do you think that I could be Moshiach? blog, youtube, bill gates, etc… maybe if I had more of a beard…” You just got done writing such wonderful things about self improvement, working on middos, etc., then continue into making fun of a rav who, whatever you think of him or others’ opinions of him, has totally dedicated himself to serving Hashem, to emet, to teaching other people and has seriously impacted thousands upon thousands of lives with his shiurim. Whether you agree with him or what others think of him or whatever, the point is is that he’s a holy Jew who is trying to bring kavod Shamayim to the world… and he’s being made fun of – again, not clear if you’re just being silly or whatever, but it comes off as passive aggressive / bitterness, perhaps even bitter that there are people out there who rejected Rav Berland while seemingly embrace Rabbi Anava (this especially seems true based on the later paragraphs about two other blogs who bought all the lies and about “Rav Berland doesn’t have a blog… etc etc etc… he can’t be Moshiach…”). With all of the talk about loving people, accepting them, seeing that they’re here to help us with our middos, fix ourselves, etc., this feels pretty bitter…

That’s what initiated the original comment, although looking at it again, that wasn’t really clear to you that it was the motivation… personally, it really had nothing to do with accepting or rejecting Rav Berland either as a holy Jew, a rav, the tzaddik of the dor or anything.

At the very least, you have made a very convincing argument (here and previously) that Rav Berland has been treated unfairly by the state (understatement) and someone has an agenda to keep him from what he should be doing on behalf of the Jewish people.

That being said, a short while back, you posted the audio of Rabbanit Stern warning very literally to prepare talit / tefillin, a wallet, etc., to be prepared to escape to wherever and you very clearly wrote that you didn’t know to believe it or not, but what would it hurt to be prepared. Fine – but it clearly didn’t happen on Rosh Chodesh the way described in the audio… you went on to write “I’m bringing it because that ‘fear’ the Rabbanit Stern spoke of, starting Rosh Chodesh Adar, is internal.” So now things are being “interpreted” – sure she said to literally prepare a wallet and talit / tefillin and get ready to run to “you’ll know where” on Rosh Chodesh… but she didn’t really mean it literally – it’s a metaphor or something.

That’s what it sounds like you’re saying… which is what was written in the original comment that if someone else related to something like that in a similar way, you would probably call them out on it. It’s like you couldn’t say she was wrong, because now she has something new to say that is good or helpful or whatever… you went on to quote a comment someone else posted, I think from Rav Berland’s website, that Rabbanit Stern is making more predictions or whatever… but who is she and based on what should we now believe her? Because her previous explicit predictions / warnings were inappropriately taken literally when really it was all figurative? On rosh chodesh we were supposed to sleep with our figurative wallet next to our bed and be ready to escape in a metaphoric way for really being somehow turned upside down internally to work on our unfinished emotional business?

“She said by Pesach there will be a beautiful Redemption” – certainly we all hope so!! But was that contingent on the whole upheaval on Rosh Chodesh Adar that didn’t take place? Or really it did in a spiritual / metaphoric / internal way and whoever “ran out with their wallet” in an internal way will now be redeemed?

The point isn’t to keep harping on all of this – my problem was with the less than critical analysis of Rabbanit Stern’s previous warning, then jumping to bringing more of her predictions – from my perspective, none of it had to do with Rav Berland one way or the other – from what is written on your blog, it doesn’t look like what Rabbanit Stern said related to him directly.

In summary – your whole post started talking about how we need to relate to what happens to us by working on our middos, fixing ourselves (ie, it’s not about the other person, it’s about looking inward). Then you apparently mocked Rabbi Anava (which again, regardless of what you think of him or what people say about him, he’s very sincere in his intention), and seemed very bitter… that was followed by not adequately addressing a failed prediction, then bringing further predictions from the same person… then in the comments when the whole part about the comments of Rabbanit Stern were being related to, you responded very angrily and rudely and defensively about the comment having a “dissing the Rav vibe” that you picked up from a mile away.

It seems you should have taken the time to relax and examine it from closer than a mile away and perhaps you could have deciphered the original intent. Apologies for not making it clearer and more explicit and also for seemingly calling you out in the comments – the intent was not to embarrass you, but more to challenge you. You many wonderful things and seem like you want to get to the emet, whatever it is, and therefore challenging your conclusions seemed within the realm of acceptable. Please don’t take it personally and forgive me.

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Takeaways:

  1. Thanks for prompting me to clarify that my intention was not to mock Rav Anava, God forbid.

He’s a brave person, and he’s doing his best to strive after truth. My intention WAS to mock the people who keep coming up with one ‘personality’ after another who they think is moshiach – including politicians, ex-cons and even non-Jews, without even trying to consider whether they ‘fit’ what the Jewish sources say about the identifying signs for Moshiach.

I can see that I was writing from a bitter place, for a few different reasons, and I appreciate the thoughtful discussion about it. As always, I’m a flawed human being, and I was having a really bad few days, when I wrote this piece.

2. I forgive you, Ida-Fake-Name, for the upset caused.

Please also forgive me for carpeting you publically on the blog.

As a footnote, it would be much easier to avoid nastiness if you would use your real name in future, when commenting.

I try to abide by the laws of lashon hara, but when someone is ‘anonymous’ – they don’t apply. And that’s sometimes too hard a test to pass, to have a loophole for evil speech and not to use it.

3. I AM very frustrated with a lot of the bloggers out there.

It’s frustrating me that other ‘opinion formers’ in the Jewish blogging world are refusing to even discuss the possibility that they got it wrong about the Rav.

But you are right, that approaching this subject with bitterness is counter-productive.

God is doing everything, after all, even apparently hardening the hearts of these people.

So, BH, we’re squared off now, and I’ll put a comment up under the other comments, so people can come check back on the update for this post.

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Yesterday, I got some interesting emails.

(My emails are currently going through the roof, btw, so if I don’t respond to yours, please forgive me.)

I had a whole bunch of emails talking about the Baal Shem Tov, and ‘excommunicated tzaddikim’, and how we are forbidden to question tzaddikim.

And then, I had some other emails related to NWO stuff, that I’m still evaluating and sifting through.

And then, amongst other things, I had an email telling me this:

[M]y husband is friends with someone very close to the Rav. This friend asked if he should take the vaccine and which company. He got a response back to vaccinate with Pfizer!!!! 

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It seems all this is actually linked, so let’s try to unpick what is really going on here.

Let’s start with that last email, a person who asked someone who is ‘very close to the Rav’ about whether to get ‘vaccinated’ with an experimental gene therapy with very limited efficacy, plus a list of unknown and potentially very serious side effects, especially over the long term.

Here’s my thoughts on this, in no particular order:

  • I have no idea if the ‘friend’ really knows someone who is close to the Rav.
  • I have no idea if the ‘friend’ is genuinely pious and good, or a religious faker.
  • I have no idea if the ‘friend’ really asked that question to someone who is close to the Rav in the first place, or is using the Rav’s name to try and sway other people.
  • Assuming the ‘friend’ really does know someone close to the Rav, and really did ask them the question – I have no idea if that ‘person close to the Rav’ actually asked the Rav this question (or whether they are genuine or a faker). It seems unlikely to me that the question was even asked, given that the Rav is currently still in prison, and it’s very hard for even his closest family members to speak to him.
  • It’s also very difficult for me to believe that the Rav would say something like this – assuming all the other points above are taken care of – because the way of Breslov rabbis is not to tell people to definitely do things, but to give gentle advice, and encourage people to think for themselves.
  • To that end, I have seen a whole bunch of people get mighty confused when they started trying to use the Rav as some sort of ‘oracle’ or ‘prediction machine’. The Rav – and no other tzaddik – is a shortcut for trying to have your own conversation with God, or working on your own emuna.
  • The best way to get the ‘advice’ from the true tzaddikim is to read their books, and find yourself in their advice.
  • Assuming the Rav really was asked in a genuine way, and really did respond like this- the Rav is currently being held in prison, in awful conditions. If they can coerce and threaten rabbis outside of prison to say what they want with violence and threats, how much more so, this applies to the Rav.

They are literally trying to kill him in there, God forbid.

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All this reminds me of all those people I knew back in London, who insisted on ‘asking a rabbi’ if they should make aliyah, or stay put.

The very fact that they were asking the rabbi showed that they were divided about the idea of going to Israel. That they lacked the inner conviction probably required to put up with all the difficulties and hardships involved.

So, they ‘asked a rabbi’ to offload the decision to someone else, and to try and throw a sop to their own consciences, and if they picked their rabbi well – they didn’t have to move.

Lucky them!

Olam hazeh and olam habah, in one bundle.

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The yetzer hara has been given permission to confuse people tremendously right now.

Even rabbis and tzaddikim with impeccable credentials are apparently being manipulated, duped, threatened, ‘deep fake video-d’, or I don’t know what, around this whole vaccine question.

Remember, when there was that whole hysteria about a measles epidemic in Uman, a couple of years back?

(That was probably just a dry run for what’s going on with Covid, but I digress….)

Some mysterious ‘message’ appeared on the Shuvu Banim Hebrew site saying that the Rav had told everyone to get vaccinated with the measles jab, before heading out to Uman for Rosh Hashana.

I read that – and I just knew in my bones that it wasn’t ‘real.’

Doesn’t matter who really said what, how it got there, whether or not it was genuine.

The point was, it went against my own inner daat, so I had to check it out very carefully in hitbodedut, and the message I got back, for me, was to ignore it.

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There are no shortcuts here.

If I was buying into all the media (fake…) hysteria about measles in Uman back in 2018, and I was subconsciously looking for a reason to get the measles jab – then would have pounced on this ‘announcement’ like manna from the sky.

This whole thing is just a test of emuna, a test of who we really are, and where we are really holding, spiritually.

We live in a world populated by high-level fakers and charlatans who excel in ‘appearing to be perfect’ in their religious observance, and in giving long speeches and mussar shiurim about how the rest of us should really behave, and should really act, if we want to have perfect emuna like them.

I’m not perfect.

I struggle mightily to know what God really wants from me.

I struggle mightily to maintain emuna, in the face of a constant onslaught of lies and apparent ‘bad’. It’s only my hitbodedut that helps me out, and keeps me going.

But because I keep going into that birur process, internally, it’s giving me a clearer and clearer signal that ‘something isn’t quite right’, when I hit people and pronouncements that don’t seem to be coming from a good place.

Regardless of who is apparently making those statements.

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For the record, even if a ‘video’ comes out with the Rav apparently clearly telling me I HAVE to go and get jabbed with an experimental gene therapy, I’m not going to do that.

But also for the record, if in my hitbodedut, God starts telling me that I’ve got this all wrong, and I need to go and get jabbed with an experimental gene therapy – well, I can tell you that I will at least reconsider all angles very carefully again, before coming to a decision.

That’s how we keep our thought processes healthy and flexible, and open to new information and insights that might change the whole picture.

Black and white thinking – the ‘all of nothing’ paradigm – is a clear indication that you are a psycho.

Remember that.

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So now, let’s just take a quick look at another topic my inbox was full of yesterday: did the Baal Shem Tov really get excommunicated by the Vilna Gaon?

The short answer is: No, he didn’t.

The Baal Shem Tov died in 1760, and the first (very limited and short-term) excommunication of the chassidim in Vilna is meant to have happened in 1772 – 12 years after the death of the BESHT.

Also, it’s totally unclear whether even then, the Vilna Gaon is meant to have excommunicated chassidim, the way we understand that word today, or chassidim – meaning the secret followers of Shabtai Tzvi and Jacob Frank who remained in the Jewish community.

(Yes, I know who was leading chassidut at that time. There is still a lot of unpicking required here.)

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I wrote a great deal about these things two years ago, before I got into ‘Frankist real history mode’, and you can read some of that stuff below:

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Just for the record, Rebbe Nachman was never excommunicated. And Moshe Rabbenu was never excommunicated. And the Rambam himself wasn’t excommunicated, even though some of his works (The Guide for the Perplexed) were.

Yes, there was a lot opposition to them.

But these tzaddikim were never excommunicated.

It’s important to stick with the facts as much as we’re able, because what really happened in the past is murky enough without adding to the confusion.

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As always, I’m very happy to be sent more information and more sources, to continue this birur process.

As new information comes in, it will for sure change the picture, and the conclusions to be made.

That’s good. That’s healthy.

As soon as people want to close down a discussion based on facts and credible information (as opposed to name-calling and groundless opinion), that always gets me worried.

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Let’s end with this.

For sure, we have to be super-careful with lashon hara, and with accepting false reports about any Jew, let alone a true tzaddik.

But that doesn’t mean that can’t question what’s really going on, and that we can’t voice our kooshiot about our leaders and rabbis in our hitbodedut. 

That is the real – and only – place that you’ll get the truth.

And it’s not only something you can do, it’s something that you are absolutely obligated and obliged to do at this period of time, when so many of our leaders literally have heresy dripping out of their pockets.

There are no shortcuts.

And the best fakers have a veritable team of professional PR people singing their praises 24/7.

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Of course, we don’t question True Tzaddikim, God forbid.

But for sure, we question who is really a ‘true tzaddik’? – exhaustively! – before we let our guard down and move them into the ‘untouchable’ box.

Too many people have been hurt by too many fakers, because they didn’t do this. This is the minimal hishtadlut required of all us.

Because it’s no mitzvah to mindlessly follow after false prophets, charlatans and evil people.

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Engaging with reality is sometimes very ‘heavy’ and demoralising.

That’s why so many people prefer to leave their heads in the sand, and to tell themselves ‘unrealistic’ fairy stories about what’s really happening all around them, and why.

It’s human nature. God built us that way.

But like everything, there is a good way of using that tendency and a ‘bad’ way of using it.

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The bad way of using this tendency to believe in unrealistic happy endings and ‘miraculous salvations’ is when we don’t engage with the truth of what’s really occurring, and we believe that things will somehow ‘workout’ without doing our part, without getting the message, that God is trying to send us.

The ‘message’ from all this Coronavirus stuff is to stop believing in the world of lies; to start talking to God more and to get to know our own souls again; and to make whatever teshuva is required from us – especially in the area of bein adam l’havero.

Rav Berland pointed out last year, when all this was just beginning, that ‘corona’ and bein adam l’havero have the same gematria of 363.

That’s not stam, it’s not a coincidence.

It’s a big clue from God, as to what we really need to be working on, here, to get all this stuff to go away.

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A week before the Rav got arrested, and two weeks before ‘Corona’ began in earnest, in Israel, he said this:

Hashem is not giving up! He’s not backing down!

He’s is making earthquakes, cities sinking in the ground, and the earth is covering whole cities.

Hashem is not backing down!

He’s sending a slap to China, and after that He’s sending one to Mexico, and after that He’s sending it to India.

Each time, He does it in a different country, but people aren’t connecting these things together.

They don’t understand that they blemished the covenant [a reference to immoral behavior], so they have a germ this is called ‘Corona’.

And we need to stop blemishing the brit, that’s all.

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We don’t need serums, we don’t need vaccinations, because still no vaccine helps.

No vaccine has been found.

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Literally two days before he got arrested, the Rav wrote the prayer ‘to be saved from the Coronavirus’, and asked for it to be translated into 70 languages. Back then, he said this:

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We have to pray to defeat the mahala (illness) of Corona.

This is a gezera (negative decree) that was decreed upon Am Yisrael, but Hashem will sweeten it.

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We need to wake up, that it should not come upon Am Yisraelchas v’shalom (God forbid).

We need to – and are obligated to – strengthen ourselves [in the matter] of bein adam l’havero (the relationship between one person and his friend), gematria = 363.

That this comes out in gematria the same as the terrible illness, ‘Corona’ = 363.

And this illness could finish off the whole world, plants, living creatures and human beings.

AND SO, SEE THAT YOU DISTRIBUTE THE PRAYER [AGAINST THE CORONA VIRUS] IN 70 LANGUAGES, AND THAT IT SHOULD REACH EVERY PART OF THE WORLD.

And then, we will be able to sweeten everything.

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To return to our discussion about ‘bad’ emuna and ‘good’ emuna.

‘Bad emuna’ comes in two main flavors.

The first manifests itself in wishful thinking, or not really engaging with reality while still telling ourselves ‘it will work out’. This type of ‘bad emuna’ is defined by the following:

  1. We lie to ourselves about what’s really going on because we’re too scared to really face the truth.
  2. We fail to put God into the picture, in terms of asking Him to ‘sweeten things’ via our prayers.
  3. We don’t make the teshuva required to get the scary situation to sweeten.
  4. We ignore the clues that God is giving us, all the time, from every direction, but especially from our real tzaddikim, about what we specifically need to fix.

If someone expects all this to ‘work out’, magically, from the mindset described above – they are deluding themselves.

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But there is also a second type of ‘bad emuna’, and that’s where people get so convinced by the awful things happening in the world, they lose hope of it ever turning around and become depressed, despairing and nihilistic.

This type of ‘bad emuna’ is defined by the following:

  1. We lie to ourselves about what’s really going on because we’re too arrogant to admit that God is really controlling absolutely everything that’s happening in the world, and that we need to bitul ourselves to Him.
  2. We fail to put God into the picture, in terms of asking Him to ‘sweeten things’ via our prayers.
  3. We don’t make the teshuva required to get the scary situation to sweeten.
  4. We ignore the clues that God is giving us, all the time, from every direction, but especially from our real tzaddikim, about what we specifically need to fix.

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Or to put it another way:

Some people have a ‘bad emuna’ that it will all work out OK, and they don’t have to do, fix or change anything.

And other people have a ‘bad emuna’ that nothing is now going to work out OK, and they don’t have to do, fix or change anything.

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What does ‘good emuna’ look like?

It manifests like this:

  1. We stop lying to ourselves about what’s really going.
  2. We accept that God is really controlling absolutely everything that’s happening in the world.
  3. We start making more of an effort to connect to God, and to really put Him in the picture as the main (and really only….) player.
  4. We start asking Him to ‘sweeten things’ via our prayers – something we can only do, if we really believe He’s listening to us, and that our prayers will affect the outcome.
  5. We start to make the teshuva required to get the scary situation to sweeten.
  6. We pay attention to the clues that God is giving us, all the time, from every direction, but especially from our real tzaddikim, about what we specifically need to fix –

Like this ‘clue’ (with English subtitles), from February 2020:

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And I’ll add something else into the mix here:

7. We don’t despair of God’s salvation, even when things look really bleak, because we know He can do anything, and it can come in the blink of an eye.

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That doesn’t mean He’s definitely going to ‘magically’ turn things around, tho.

There are massive tikkunim, massive cheshbonot going on here, spiritually, before Moshiach finally shows up.

None of us really knows what spiritual debts we still have to pay down, not just from this life, but also from previous ones.

‘Good emuna’ means that I do my bit, I make teshuva, I pray, I don’t try to duck reality – but I also don’t sit here thinking I know better than Hashem, or that Hashem is somehow ‘bad’ for letting things happen, God forbid.

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If we make teshuva, if we pray, then even if we got ‘genetically modified’ with a ‘vaccine’, Hashem can still turn everything around for the best.

If we do the work required to fix things up with all the people we’ve hurt over the years, and get to work on all the bad middot that have caused so much damage in the world, and if we start to really do what our real tzaddikim are telling us, and to get behind them – we will get out of Mitzrayim in one piece, spiritually, regardless of how ‘genetically modified’ we are.

And if we don’t do these things?

There are no guarantees of anything, even if we are totally ‘anti vax’.

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The point is this:

God has set this whole thing up as one big test, one big process of birur, to peel us away from the world of lies, and to also peel ‘the world of lies’ away from inside ourselves.

If you want to still lie to yourself about what’s going on – both with ‘corona’, and with your own yucky behavior towards your fellow man, your spouse, your kids – you can.

There are consequences attached to doing that, and you’ll have to deal with them.

But, as soon as someone makes the conscious decision to step out of the arrogant ‘world of lies’, and to humbly reattach themselves to God – they are no longer bound by ‘world of lies’ rules.

Tachlis, they’ll start doing weird things like talking to God for an hour a day; and reciting strange segulot that make no logical sense, just because the Tzaddik HaDor told them to, or sitting their kids down and apologising to them for (sometimes…) being a really awful parent.

They’ll start to admit their faults….

They’ll start to try to fix the mess they made all around, without blaming other people all the time or trying to play the victim…. they’ll start giving more charity, paying more pidyonot…. they’ll start to admit that they were wrong. About a whole bunch of things. And it’s OK to acknowledge that.

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Our minds are so very powerful.

And our souls are infinitely more so.

If we reconnect ‘illness’ – all illness – back to God, and back to this process of having ‘good emuna’, then Covid-19 really will disappear, bezrat Hashem, and the horrible gene-therapy ‘vax’ will be neutralised.

Because it’s all just a message, just a test.

A ‘Covid 19’ test.

And we all have our work cut out for us, to start passing it.

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UPDATE:

Another reader (and friend…) sent me this other ‘clue’, from a hidden tzaddik, back in the Summer:

Here’s a snippet, back from July 2020:

Pay attention, that this is beginning with one lockdown, and then another lockdown… Until all of us will be in an absolute lockdown. Don’t say that we didn’t tell you.

Today, it’s still possible to stop this.

Pharoah also started [to enslave] Am Yisrael with soft words.

If we do teshuva, but not completely, meaning with full, heart-felt intention, we will need to complete the relative portion with suffering, the very difficult ‘birthpangs of the Moshiach’, rachmana litzan (Hashem should have mercy).

Therefore, everyone should come, like one man, with one heart, let’s pray together, let’s do teshuva from love, and let’s merit to have geula b’rachamim (redemption with mercy), TODAY! If we will only listen to his voice.

But it’s a fact 100%, that the world will not return to ‘routine’ again.

We are in the final process of geula, Am Yisrael, and how it’s going to come – either with din (harsh judgment) or rachamim (mercy) depends on us.”

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See it yourself, in the original Hebrew, below:

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A couple of days ago, I was having a chat with my friend S.

We were talking about her sudden realisation that there is a ‘parallel universe’ going on in the world, that is not at all soft and fluffy, and that is the very antithesis of everything you and I want for the world, and for ourselves, and for our children and grandchildren.

That’s a terrifying thought.

And most people will quickly shut it down and run away from it – unless they are building the capacity to hold ‘truth’ in their minds and souls via regular talking to God sessions.

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My friend has been doing hitbodedut, on and off, for a while already.

But she said to me:

I don’t get the same sort of ‘messages’ you get from God.

I told her I don’t believe that.

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EVERYONE is getting messages from God all the time, regardless of whether or not they are actually talking to Him every day.

So then we got into a very interesting discussion about what a ‘message from God’ actually is.

My friend asked me to write about it, because she thinks it will help more people out there to take themselves, and their spiritual connection to God, seriously.

So this post is in her zchut.

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Very, very rarely, do I get what most people would think of as a ‘message from God’ in my hitbodedut – i.e. some sort of statement or clearly stated answer to a problem I’m grappling with.

It does happen occasionally, but most of the time, God is actually sending the ‘messages’ via a much simpler route, namely:

Our feelings.

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There has been a war on humanity recognising our true feelings for well over a century.

And probably even longer.

But let’s deal with the most recent bit of this ‘war’ against the part of our soul that goes by the name ruach.

The story starts with the cocaine-using Sigmund Freud.

A lot of the families in Viennese high society were riddled with horrible, unspeakable acts of child abuse and incest.

When Freud started psychoanalysing his patients, a lot of these disturbing memories and stories started to leak out in those sessions.

At some point, Freud realised that if he pursued this line of action – i.e. openly linking people’s mental issues and soul-disfigurement to all the abuse and trauma they’d suffered in childhood – he would be totally shunned in Viennese society and made persona non grata.

So instead, he took the coward’s way out, and sold out abused children for at least the next 60-70 years, by claiming all these ‘memories’ of terrible child abuse and incest by parents were repressed ‘Oedipal’ tendencies.

In other words, he totally and utterly lied.

And he totally and utterly invalidated these children’s traumatic experiences, and memories and even more crucially, their feelings.

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It’s hard for me to not think that Freud himself must have been morally compromised from the start, to have done that.

But I guess we won’t know until Moshiach comes and shows us exactly what’s been going on.

What is beyond a doubt is that the ‘legacy’ of Freudian psychoanalysis has led to some of the worst crimes against humanity being covered up and repressed for well over a hundred years.

It’s a classic ‘gas lighting’ tactic of narcissistic abusers to keep telling their victims that they can’t trust their own memories, their own experiences, their own minds, their own feelings.

And Western society has been built on a paradigm that encourages parents to ‘socialise’ their children out of feeling what they really feel, and out of trusting themselves on a deep soul level.

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Modern society shames people – especially women – for feeling.

It calls us names like ‘over-emotional’, and ‘weak’, and even ‘bi-polar’ and ‘clinically-depressed’ – when really, all these feelings we have, some of which can sometimes be overwhelming and debilitating, are just reactions to things we are experiencing in the world.

Clinically depressed people have ALWAYS had some sort of severe emotional neglect and / or abuse in the past, usually from a parent in a childhood, and especially from a mother.

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Clinical depression is just an extreme form of the FREEZE response to being placed under chronic or acute stress. 

And as such, it’s a perfectly ‘normal’ reaction, albeit not a pleasant or useful one.

No-one’s ‘brain is broken’.

Once people understand that all of their emotional states – even extreme ones – contain messages from God about what they need to deal with, recognise, work on, change or accept, the ’emotional state’ itself gets way, way easier to work with and tame.

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Same with things like ADD – which is just an extreme FLIGHT response to acute or chronic trauma.

Give me any ‘mental health issue’, and I guarantee it’s rooted in some sort of unpleasant experience, or experiences, or fear, or ‘stress’, that the person’s primitive brain is reacting to.

(If you’re interested, I wrote a whole book on how the stress response reacts in different people, called People Smarts, which you can find on Amazon HERE.)

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The point being, that God uses our feelings to communicate some very important messages to us.

For example, so many of my ‘messages’ come from a feeling I have that something is not quite right with a certain picture, or person.

In the past, when my ‘BS-O-Meter’ would start to ping off, I would often just try to ignore it or bury it. I’d been socialised by society to keep talking to creeps and yucky people even when they were making me uncomfortable.

That put me into some very vulnerable positions, because the ‘difficult characters’ out there quickly recognise when they are dealing with someone who can’t stand up for themselves when they need to – and that’s when life can get very unpleasant, very quickly.

Now, when it dings off, I pay very careful attention to it.

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In my hitbodedut, I’ll go back in and I’ll try to figure out why a certain something, a certain someone, is making me feel stressed, unhappy, nervous, angry, on edge – whatever it might be.

I can’t always pin it down – and it’s not always the other person’s problem, either, sometimes they are just triggering something that is entirely my issue to deal with.

But the point is, that God is sending me that ‘feeling’ as part of a message that needs to be decoded and analysed.

Once I learned to start respecting my own feelings, and to give them the ‘space’ they needed for me to really know what it was I was actually feeling, my extreme mood swings pretty much disappeared overnight.

Now, I have no problem standing up for myself against all the creepy, yucky people out there, and as a result, my life is way less complicated and much, much happier than it used to be.

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But ‘feeling’ messages can also work in a positive way, too.

When I didn’t know anything about the Rav, Rabbi Berland, for example, my starting point was a feeling that something was ‘off’ in all the reporting about him.

I couldn’t put my finger on it exactly, but it just didn’t feel right.

That’s when I started doing my own research to see what was really going on, and that’s when I started to unpick the whole, sordid story of how the Rav had been framed by the same evil people who are now pulling the ‘COVID-19’ con trick on us all, via the media.

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But even when I had a bunch of information that seemed to show the Rav was totally innocent of any of the charges that had been fabricated against him, I still took a few months to really work through what my soul was telling me about him.

When I thought about the Rav, what was the feeling I got?

Calm and happy, or uneasy and anxious?

Time and time again, when I explored my real feelings in hitbodedut, I got the ‘calm and happy’ vibe back.

That’s what gave me the courage to cautiously approach the Rav more, and to risk being more part of his community.

But even then, anytime I got even a whiff of the BS-O-Meter going off, I stopped to explore it in my hitbodedut, and to work out the messages that God was trying to give me.

Not everyone around a True Tzaddik is a true tzaddik themselves, and yucky people automatically gravitate to positions where they can have a ‘presumption of innocence’ and trust.

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Thank God, really, for all the persecution of Shuvu Banim and the Rav.

Because it smoked out so very many of the ‘yucky’ people, who quickly peeled off and went somewhere else, where they didn’t have the whole world poking holes in their cover stories and actively seeking out their misdeeds and bad middot.

The people who are left are, for the most part, some of the best people in the world.

They are people who have been constantly humiliated and disgraced – and who have continued to stand up for the Rav, and continued to try to do what’s right, even at great personal cost to themselves.

But I digress.

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Most people today have been totally cut off from feeling their own feelings, and owning their own emotions.

We are the ‘Prozac’ generation, who were taught that any feeling that is not fake happy is somehow bad and requires medication.

But all feelings – even ‘bad’ feelings – are actually just messages for us to decode, and clues from Hashem that are being sent to lead us forward in life, somehow.

Feelings are part of the soul level called ruach.

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The soul level associated with the physical body and ‘reptilian brain’ is called the nefesh, or animal soul.

The soul level associated with our mind, higher functioning and connection to God is called the neshama.

And the soul level ‘in between’ these two extremes of ‘animal’ and ‘angel’ is the ruach.

The ruach is the part of the brain that’s actually feeling things.

Then, there’s a fight that goes on between the ‘animal’ brain and the ‘angelic’ brain to frame our feelings correctly.

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When we do hitbodedut regularly – and we try to adopt a more emuna-dik, God-centric approach to life – that strengthens the ‘angel’ brain, and weakens the ‘animal’ brain’s grip on us.

When the ‘angel brain’ is in the driving seat, and ruling over the ‘animal brain’, our extreme emotional states, mood swings and physiological stress responses start to calm down.

BUT ONLY WHEN WE’RE TAKING THE TIME TO ACKNOWLEDGE ANY REAL ‘DANGER’, AND TO NOT JUST PUSH IT UNDER A MENTAL CARPET.

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Let’s use some real-life examples.

If there is a situation or a person that makes you feel very tense – that’s usually a big clue from God that there is ‘something’ there that you are finding threatening or unpleasant.

If you feel wrung-out or down or depleted or ‘missing’ after an interaction, that’s usually a big clue that the other person is sucking way more energy out of you, than they are giving in return. All relationships are give and take, but if you are always the one giving – that’s a problem that needs to be addressed.

For me personally, if I start to feel that someone is trying to manipulate me emotionally with guilt trips or ‘save me’ stories (who aren’t my kids…), I will pull back sharply and put up a barrier.

In the past, I used to feel so bad for other people, I could really get taken advantage of.

Now, when I get that ‘uncomfortable’ feeling in the pit of my stomach, I don’t push it down, I listen to it, and I make a conscious decision whether I still want to engage with the other person, or not. 

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All this stuff is part of the ‘conversation’ I have with God – and of course, with myself.

The last thing I wanted to touch on in this post, is that the concept of da’at, of ‘knowing’, can’t really be translated into words, it has to be experienced.

Sometimes, the da’at you get in hitbodedut, in talking to God, totally transcends even things like ‘feelings’ or ‘thoughts’.

So many times, I find myself knowing something, but without being able to explain how I have that knowledge, or why I know it to be true.

That is also how Hashem gives us messages.

And I think that’s probably the most sublime way, Hashem gives us messages.

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Any one out there can get ‘messages’ from Hashem, starting today.

All that’s required is a bit of patience, a bit of work to reconnect to feelings that may have been in the deep freeze for decades, and a bit of courage to follow the truth and the da’at and the direction you’ll get from shemayim, wherever it might take you.

As the world of lies continues to implode, we will need that strong connection to Hashem to keep going through the darkness, and to discern the real light at the end of the tunnel, when it shows up.

Start small, just five minutes a day.

Or even one minute.

Something.

But also remember that God is talking to us via everyone and everything 24/7, and that we are constantly surrounded by opportunities to get to know Him – and ourselves – better.

Don’t be scared to feel, even if those feelings start off overwhelming and ‘angry’.

They are a part of your ruach – mamash, a part of your soul.

And when you make space for them, and really listen to the messages they contain, you’ll see how fast your life starts to transform for the better, and how quickly your feelings become your best friends.

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If you want me to try to explain more about anything here, or about other aspects of talking to God, let me know in the comments.

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Long-term readers of this blog will know I’ve been a Trump sceptic right from the start.

It just always seemed so odd to me, how so many people believed that a bankrupt billionaire with very bad middot could literally morph into some sort of ‘moshiach’ just by taking office.

But of course, there were so many rabbis (ahem) explaining how Trump was a non-Jewish ‘Moshiach ben Yosef’; and there were so many dumb bloggers repeating that message – and even getting into fights with anyone who dared to question the idea – that I mostly stayed away from the subject of Trump.

Until 2019, which is when I started publically questioning the whole idea of America being some good, benevolent country, that only does goodness and righteousness in the world.

Whatever.

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There was an interesting discussion over on Daisy’s blog, HERE, that got me thinking about the whole idea of ‘controlled opposition’, and how Trump, and other people we know, fit into that.

As we’ve stated here a few times, the swamp is controlling both sides of the debate, the argument, the political process, ‘the great divide’.

Whatever the subject is, you can be sure that the swamp has representatives on both sides of the fence, especially with the political system, but also when it comes to every great ‘debate’ or controversy.

How do we know who those ‘representatives’ are?

Simple:

They never really get shut down.

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And for those who want to tell me that Trump was ‘shut down’ on Twitter the last two weeks, the answer is: so what?

It’s a ‘deep cover’ tactic.

If they hadn’t shut Trump down for 2 weeks right at the end of his Presidency, then more and more people would have realised that nothing was going to change, anyway.

The swamp are masters of manipulation and human psychology.

They had half the free world ‘hanging out’ for Moshiach Trump to finally reveal himself, and perform the miracle to ‘clean up the swamp’.

And in the meantime….. those people weren’t doing anything else spiritually constructive, and they were totally living in a fantasy world that ‘Trump will fix it’.

And of course, Trump himself had no intention of ever ‘cleaning up the swamp’ because if he had, don’t you think he’d have made a tiny bit more progress, over the last 4 years?

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What can we learn from all this?

#1 – taken from a recent prayer put out by Rabbi Eliezer Berland, is that POLITICS = AMALEK.

That applies to all politicians, everywhere.

It’s just one big circus, one big distraction, fooling the whole population into thinking that their vote, their decision, their ‘candidate’ is going to represent their interests, and enact the changes they want to see in their society and world.

Even if an individual politician isn’t totally corrupted (big if…) personally, they are still serving a system that is so corrupt, that no-one who isn’t corrupt will ever be allowed to obtain real power.

And that is true, wherever you happen to live in the world.

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#2 – So many of those rabbis and ‘commentators’ are still misleading people, publically.

If these people had an ounce of humility, they would put their hands up, apologise, and make some serious teshuva for siphoning-off 4 years of Jewish yearning for geula, and Jewish prayers for Moshiach over to ‘Moshiach Trump’.

(And let’s not even talk about all the prayers, mitzvahs and Jewish yearning that’s been ‘siphoned off’ towards other false moshiachs, over the past few decades….)

And I’m willing to bet good money that once they get over this latest ‘disappointment’ and failed prediction, they will be back with another round of pointless distraction and fake Torah.

They aren’t going to retire any time soon, but you for sure can switch them off, and stop listening to all their distracting drivel.

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#3 – The only way to get to the truth is to pray on it yourself, and stop looking for shortcuts.

How do you know I’m bona fide, and not ‘controlled opposition’?

You don’t.

At least, you don’t unless you are doing some soul-searching, and you are double-checking if the stuff I’m writing sits well with your soul, or not.

Is the stuff on this blog bringing you closer to Hashem, or pushing you further away?

When I bring advice and segulot from Rabbenu, or from Rav Berland, are those things helping you, calming you, reassuring you – or not?

These are big questions, they are important questions – and nobody can answer them, really, except you.

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Stop looking for shortcuts and ‘rabbis’ and commentators to make important decisions for you.

It’s your life, in your hands, and YOU are the only one, really, who can know which path is best for you, and which path Hashem is taking you down.

And sometimes, those answers may be contrary to what you want to believe, or what you think sounds ‘right’.

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I’ve lost count of the times I’ve gone against the tide, because I was prompted to in my hitbodedut.

Like, when I started unpicking all the ‘narcissists’ and narcissism in my own life, and started questioning whether it really was OK for parents to manipulate their children with disapproval, criticism and guilt trips.

Like, when I started pondering what on earth was going on with the bizarre coverage of what was happening with Rabbi Berland, way before I’d come close to him in any way, shape or form.

Like, more recently, researching all this stuff with Yonatan Eybshutz, the rasha, and Jacob Frank, and all the secret sabbateans still in our midst.

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All of these things – and many more – usually led me to some very uncomfortable realisations, and some very hard choices.

That’s what it really means, to ‘leave the world of lies’.

It’s painful. It’s challenging. It means you have to change things – often really big things – and to make a lot of teshuva, and to accept that a lot has happened that was wrong and bad.

And that I myself have done so many things that are objectively wrong and bad.

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The problem is not reaching that conclusion.

The real problem is when people trip over their own human frailties, and human failings, and middot malfunctions – and then try very hard to continue covering them up.

Which is why, paradoxically, ‘Moshiach Trump’ has the potential to still be useful, spiritually.

Trump acolytes – you now have a chance to make some real, sincere teshuva.

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Instead of fuming about ‘evil Democrats’; instead of complaining that you were ‘misled by others’; instead of pretending that really, you knew it all along – come clean.

At least to Hashem, come clean.

Put you hand up, and admit that you believed Trump was ‘the answer’ because you never really took the time to check him out in your own personal conversation with God.

You never took the time to question the assumptions ‘Moshiach Trump’ was based on.

You didn’t spend even a second to ask yourself what your own biases were, and how they could be coloring your take on ‘Moshiach Trump’.

And as it is with ‘Moshiach Trump’, so it is with a whole bunch of other things in our lives, too.

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Trump, and all the ‘rabbis’ (ahem…) and commentators supporting him led so many people away from real answers.

You want a real answer to the massive – and growing – problems in the world?

There is only one way you are going to get it.

Start talking to God, and start figuring out which of your own plentiful bad middot are continuing to prop up that yucky ‘world of lies’, that is doing so much damage to all of us.

And then, start asking God to show you who is really ‘true’ and ‘trustworthy’ in the world – and who isn’t.

And be prepared to be totally shocked by the answers.

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When my husband and I started doing that in earnest, around 6 years ago, it blew our three main ‘rabbinic advisors’ out of the water, one after the another, over a period of just a few weeks.

To say it was traumatic is a massive understatement.

But that process (eventually…) led us to the Rav.

And since then, life has continued to just get better and easier.

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But don’t take my word for it!!!!

Do the experiment yourself, there is simply no other way.

If you are honestly asking God to show you the truth, He will.

About Trump.

About Covid.

About all these ‘rabbis’.

About Moshiach.

About what you and me really need to work on, and really need to fix.

And that’s when geula will really start in earnest – at least for you – whatever else is going on in the world.

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PS: I had a thought about evil Biden, too.

Remember that Haman was ‘elevated’ by being invited to Queen Esther’s feast just before he fell.

We are much closer to things turning around than it may look.

Don’t buy into all the fear porn!

They are cranking things up because they have a very short window left to ‘vaccinate’ as many people as they can. Hang on just a couple more weeks, and let’s see what’s going on then.

Haman toppled within 24 hours of being ‘elevated’ – and God’s salvation comes in the blink of an eye.

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