I wasn’t going to write anything today.

On some deep level, I’m feeling more and more like I just want to let all this stuff go, and do something else with my time.

(That’s probably just a Summer thing, it happens every year at this point in the calendar.)

Why keep going on about how community has been hijacked by evil Erev Rav?

Why keep shoving more and more information out there, about just how bad all these ‘Covid 19’ shots really are, when that is becoming so obvious to so many, with each day that passes?

Etc etc.

But then I got a couple of emails, with links to a couple of things, that are really showing me why I have to carry on writing what I’m writing at the moment.

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The true evil behind this scheme has been very careful to put ‘externally identified Jews’ in nearly every position of power, as the scapegoats for when all this blows up.

Pfizer’s boss Bourla is identified as being Jewish.

Rochelle Walensky head of the CDC – Jewish.

Tal Zaks, head of Moderna – Jewish AND Israeli.

Trump – and his ‘Jewish’ family members – initiated ‘Operation Warp Speed’ to push Covid restrictions and shots all over the USA.

And let’s not forget, that Netanyahu and a bunch of phoney ‘rabbis’ and ‘enforcers’ were right at the forefront of persuading other countries to go into lockdowns, force-masking, social distancing and then force-vaxxing.

Sure, all that stuff was happening in China, but no-one cares what happens in China.

But when ISRAEL, that light unto the nation, that country of ‘clever Jews’ who know a lot about medicine, started locking down and masking up – I know that made a huge impact on the psyche of regular people in so many other countries, to follow suite.

And that was probably the point.

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So, I have to keep writing to explain that these ‘Jews’ are not God-fearing, however they appear externally, and very probably are somehow connected to that Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemason nexus, that hijacked our community many centuries ago.

Even though I know this whole discussion is very painful and demoralising for so many of us – including, sometimes, me.

Because otherwise, all the millions of real, authentic, kind and thoughtful Jews who still exist out there, even if they don’t identify as ‘religious’ or ‘orthodox’ or ‘observant’ will also start to believe that these fake Jews are somehow representing what real Torah, real Judaism is all about.

When they don’t, in a million years.

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And of course, there’s also the ongoing battle to show that these fake Jews are way more ‘xtian’ than they are Jewish.

And that is also part of this whole propaganda thing being deliberately crafted here, to blame ‘the Jews’ for all of this, when ‘the Jews’ that are part of this Covid 19 genocide are NOT representative, at all, of God-fearing, God-given Torah Judaism.

They are Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemason-Jewish-Christian Erev Rav.

And if you trace their family lines back over the last 1000 years, you see that it’s always these same people coming up in leadership roles within the Jewish community, and who hob-nob with the non-Jews, and who cause us real Jewish plebs so very much grief and suffering, with their machinations and political maneuverings.

AND THERE IS NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN.

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That doesn’t mean everyone in these families is ‘bad’, not at all.

Free choice always applies to everyone, at all times.

But, we can see that if you are being raised in a Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemason-Jewish-Christian household where demonic rites and terrible things are being practised, religiously – that makes it way, way harder to ‘choose good’.

But it’s still possible.

And the people who ‘choose good’ under those conditions are some of the best and biggest souls in the world.

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Now, the second reason I can see I have to keep writing.

And that is to share the light of the True Tzaddikim, who do still exist in the world, however it may seem at the moment.

There are at least 36 True Tzaddikim, and maybe 72 – depending on the opinion that there are 36 tzaddikim supporting the world in total, or 36 each in Eretz Israel, and chul.

And Rav Berland is probably at the top of that tree of ‘hidden tzaddikim’.

I know people get all upset when I state this, but I’ve experienced enough, read enough, prayed enough to get clarity, to feel very strongly that this is true.

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And that’s why there is a ‘short-cut’ to this whole, painful process of birur, which you can sum up like this:

If you really want to know where someone is coming from, spiritually, take a look at their stance on Rav Berland.

‘Not knowing the truth’ is a starting point in this whole discussion.

If someone refuses to have an opinion because they don’t know the truth, that is actually a very healthy place to start.

But it’s a starting point.

And at some point, even when we’re running away from doing the birur and sticking our head in the sand – in every area of life – we will have to stop, take a deep breath, and do the very hard work of starting to sort the lies from the truth.

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The True Tzaddik is just a mirror.

Whatever is on the inside of us, is what we ‘project outwards’ on to the True Tzaddikim.

All those people who have come out publically hating on the Rav – the people who were so quick to believe all the media lies, so fast to make assumptions, and then, to go out publically on the attack against the Rav and his community….

Where was all that hate really coming from?

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There’s a well-known trick they do with personality testing, where they ask you to estimate how many people around you are doing things like stealing money and doing drugs.

The higher the percentages you give, the more they can ascertain how many of the people in your own life are really doing these types of behavior.

A person who grows up in a very yeshar environment, where they don’t regularly see rabbis molesting women and children, or people smoking weed five times a day, or taking things that don’t belong to them on a regular basis, will truly believe that what they experience themselves is how the rest of the world is.

But the families and communities where bad middot and worse morals are the norm?

Well, OF COURSE those people, families and communities were going to believe the lies being told about Rav Berland, because it mirrors their own experience.

Think about this carefully.

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The Rav and Rebbe Nachman’s light is what has been keeping me and my family going, the last few years.

Thank God, I got such a ‘social media’ dissing a few years ago, when I publically ‘came out’ as a supporter of the Rav.

After I’d spent a year really checking in to the story, and trying to figure out what was true, and what was lies.

And after I’d already been badly burned by a few other ‘rabbinic fakers’ – all of whom, BTW, were distinctly ‘anti’ Rav Berland, despite being Breslovers.

The people who were leading the charge against the Rav on social media and elswhere, pretty much to a person, have all experienced some horrible reversals and issues the last few years.

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Some of them freied out, and are no longer orthodox.

Some of them experienced horrible health issues that took them out of circulation for months.

Some of them saw their whole social media platform crumple to nothing.

Some of them lost their whole status and career.

(And BTW, nearly every single one of them has been tirelessly pushing Covid 19 shots…. I’m sure that’s just a CO-IN-CID-ENCE.)

And this is just the stuff I personally know about, without doing a whole big research project on this.

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Why am I going through all this now?

Because, dear reader, we have to understand that while our communities are stuffed full of fakers and Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemason-Jewish-Christians with truly horrible morality and middot  – the real, authentic Jewish light can still be found in our communities.

It can be found in simple, God-fearing Jews like you and me, who are flawed, but acknowledging that, and trying to work on improving ourselves, and getting closer to God.

It doesn’t look like it, but we are really the majority here, when you blow all the propaganda away, and look past the ‘top of the pyramid’, of the yucky people who are all we hear about in our corrupted media, as they are acclaimed as our ‘leaders’.

And for us simple Jews, there is still a beacon of light to follow, to get out of this darkness.

And that is hitbodedut, and Rebbe Nachman’s other advice and teachings.

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Rebbe Nachman is the real deal, and his teachings work to fix our real problems and issues.

Rav Berland is the real deal, the Tzaddik HaDor, and probably the head of the 36 ‘lamed vad’ tzaddikim who exist in every generation, and who still exist in ours.

That much I can tell you.

That much, I’m going to continue to tell you.

Because I can see where this is heading next.

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Already, there are more and more videos, articles and comments circulating on social media about how ‘the Jews planned this Covid 19 genocide’.

Stop for a moment, and see how all this looks to a non-Jew.

The head of Moderna is Jewish…. the head of Pfizer is Jewish….the guy who ‘invented’ the Covid 19 shots for Russia is a Jewish Ginsburgh…

Israel set the pace for the rest of the West to go into lockdowns and force-masking….there are Israeli and Jewish names all over the nanotech (like Ido Bachelet, remember him?) that more and more people are figuring out is in these Covid shots…

They are even taking Torah lessons from people like Rav Shalom Arush out of context, where he said that Corona is for the non-Jews, not the Jews, at the start of the fake ‘pandemic‘ (i.e. explaining that Jews are above nature, and that even ‘Corona pandemics’ can be sweetened with our teshuva and prayers….How right that was.)

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Honestly?

Something miraculous DOES seem to be happening in Israel, with these shots.

Something does seem to be being ‘sweetened’ here, more than in other places.

We know that’s God and our True Tzaddikim, sweetening things behind the scenes with all the prayers, mesirut nefesh, sincere teshuva and Tikkun Haklalis etc.

But how does all this look to a non-Jew?

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Rebbe Nachman referred to sincere, God-fearing Jews who didn’t take the time to figure out who the True Tzaddik really was before geula arrived as pleetim.

That translates as ‘unfortunate’.

Unfortunate, because figuring this stuff out is a spiritual short-cut that will end up saving you so much pain and suffering and heartache, going forward.

Rabbenu and Rav Berland are the two tzaddikim that have kept me going, and kept me writing, and kept me hopeful, and even kept me mostly happy, over the last few very difficult years.

They’ve also kept me working on my bad middot, kept me working to improve my relationships with others, kept me ‘real’, and given me real tools for dealing with so many issues in my life that otherwise would have totally overwhelmed me with despair and bitterness.

And that’s also why I will keep writing, even though sometimes I get so fed-up of this ‘birur’, I just want to stop already.

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Despite all the dark around, I really actually feel hopeful.

Evil never wins, long-term.

And all this is only happening to bring people closer to God, and to reveal the light of God’s Torah and the light of the real, True Tzaddikim in the world.

There are at least 36 of them walking around today, don’t forget.

And while I can’t tell you the names of the rest of them, I am CERTAIN that Rav Berland is to be found in their camp.

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Let’s end with this quote from Rebbe Nachman:

In Sichos HaRan (translated into English as ‘Rebbe Nachman’s Wisdom’, by the Breslov Research Institute), Rebbe Nachman tells us the following:

“It’s written about the time of Moshiach (Job 38:13): ‘To grasp the ends of the earth and shake the wicked from it’. However, one who comes close to a true Tzaddik, [he] can grab hold of him, and not be cast off. When we hold on to the Tzaddik, we can stay firm.”

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There’s a whole ton of fake, Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemason-Jewish-Christian ‘tzaddikim’ out there today.

But when you find the True Tzaddik, and hold on to him, then Rabbenu says that ‘we can stay firm’, while the rest of the world is being shaken to its core during the chevlei Moshiach.

So, do some hitbodedut, and pick your ‘True Tzaddik’ very carefully.

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The RavBerland.com website is regularly putting up translated snippets from the Rav’s recent shiurim.

Go HERE to take a look, and here’s one of my favorites from last week:

Stew Peters put this documentary up a few days ago.

It’s about state-sponsored child-trafficking going on in the USA, as we speak.

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I was debating whether to post the link, because Stew Peters and his group are very, very ‘xtian’.

They make a big deal about Yoshki caring about children, ‘these little ones’, but again if you go back and take a deeper look, here is a more famous saying of Yoshki (from the Gospel of Matthew):

SUFFER THE LITTLE CHILDREN TO COME UNTO ME

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All this starts to sound a little different now, doesn’t it?

 But I guess that is also part of this birur, to understand that there are many good people, Jews and non-Jews, caught up in a false philosophy, in a web of lies, who really do want the truth, and who really do want the world to be a better place.

Just they have been lied to and deceived for centuries.

I have no idea if Stew Peters, and the other xtians on his channel like Dr Jane Ruby are going to be able to ‘cross the Rubicon’, when we finally get down to the wire.

But in the meantime, I respect their courage and bravery, in trying to figure out what’s really going on, particularly with the Covid shots.

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All this stuff is disturbing and also quite scary, I freely admit.

That’s how they’ve been getting away with it all for so long, because it’s much easier to go into denial and pretend none of this is really happening.

I read somewhere that evil’s biggest trick was managing to fool the public that it doesn’t really exist.

But it does.

And we can’t fight this evil by ourselves, at least, outside of working on our own bad middot and lack of emuna.

What we CAN do, is put our prayers, our efforts, our spiritual support behind the true tzaddikim, who will then use all that as ‘ammunition’ to really take the evil down at it’s spiritual root – without firing a single shot.

That’s why so much effort has gone into pulling the Jews away from the true tzaddikim, and giving them one false leader, one ‘false moshiach’ to follow, one after another.

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BH, you should have an easy fast, this Tisha B’Av, if that’s relevant.

And don’t worry too much, that there is no way of fixing this.

WE can’t fix it.

That’s the point.

But we can make sincere teshuva, we can make more effort to pray every day, and do some hitbodedut and say our Tikkun Haklalis, and after Sunday, to go back to dancing and clapping all this stuff away.

And we can trust that Hashem and His true tzaddikim actually have all this covered 100%.

And they are just waiting for enough of us to really wake up, and return to Hashem, instead of following after the Golden Calf.

May it be soon!

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PS: I decided I need to take a break from blogging for a bit.

Probably a few days, maybe longer, just to ‘clear all this gunk’ out the system, and try to reconnect to more  good, healthy Jewish soul stuff now, like Rav Berland and Rebbe Nachman of Breslov.

All this xtianity / satan-worship / Sabbatean-Frankist-Freemasons stuff is heavy…

And every time I try to steer away from it on the blog – like when I wrote the Turkey Trans post – somehow or other, I get pulled back into it even harder.

There’s a lot of stuff to go back and look at here, about xtianity, Jewish-Christians, Shabtai Tzvi and other connected issues.

Once I’ve recharged my batteries a little, I’ll be back.

And who knows, maybe something HUGE really is going to shift this Tisha B’av, that will change the whole picture around for the good.

Bezrat Hashem.

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One of the commentators wanted to know if Rav Berland had said anything about ‘war with China’.

I try and read the Hebrew digest of his weekly shiurim called Shivivei Or on Shabbat every week. The last two weeks, I haven’t managed to read the whole thing, but to my knowledge, he hasn’t been speaking about war with China.

If I come across anything relevant in the meantime, I’ll try to translate it, and to post it up.

But I think there is a much deeper phenomenon going on with all these ‘wars’ being threatened and arranged right now, which I wanted to try to set out here.

Why?

Because then you’ll start to feel way better, and way calmer, about what’s really going on, and what we can all really do to improve things.

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From the time I’ve been following the Rav, there have been so very many threats of ‘war’ in the background.

Iran’s nuke, rockets from Gaza, stabbing intifadas, war with Syria, the list goes on and on  and on. And that’s just in Israel.

And the Rav has spoken out many times in the past, about an incipient, threatened ‘war’ that needs to be sweetened with tehillim, prayer rallies, Tikkun Haklalis, bi-weekly fasts – and of course, huge amounts of bizayon, shaming and disgrace for the Rav himself, and his community.

And each time this has happened – and it’s happened literally more than a score of times, that I’m personally aware of – everything has been ‘sweetened’ somehow, and that war, that wave of terror, that threat, somehow disappears and everything calms down again.

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The main ‘disagreement’ between the Rav and the autistics, if we can call it that, is that the autistics kept banging the war drum, and scaring the pants off people.

In the meantime, the Rav kept saying there will be no big war, because everything is being sweetened with prayers, Tikkun Haklalis, rallies in Hevron – and of course, huge doses of bizayon and disgrace for the Rav and his community.

It’s crucial to understand that THE REAL WAR IS SPIRITUAL.

And it’s also crucial to understand that the media lies about everything, literally everything.

When we buy into their lies about ‘wars’, and ‘pandemics’ and ‘food shortages’ – and all the rest – we typically fall into yeoush (despair), feel far away from God, and start to despair of our prayers, our efforts, our yearning for good making any difference at all.

And that’s the whole point of trying to pump us all full of ‘fear porn’, 24/7.

Because when a person is full of fallen fears, they are very easy to manipulate and control, and they forget that God is really in charge of EVERYTHING, and by God, there is ALWAYS a solution to the problem.

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I don’t think anyone could accuse me of being a rosy-tinted optimist.

I see so much of the ‘bad’ that is really going on, I’m not trying to cover it over, or run away from it, or bury my head in the sand and go into denial.

But what I’m saying is, there is ALWAYS something you and I can really do, to swing the balance in some radical ways between good and evil.

We can pray sincerely, from our hearts, and ask God to get openly involved.

We can really get behind the Rav, the real Tzaddik HaDor, and when he’s putting a call out to say some Tikkun Haklalis every day, or to show up to a prayer gathering, or to undertake a special learning seder, we can take that seriously and try to participate, to the best of our abilities.

We can start doing some regular hitbodedut, to start transforming all of our ‘fallen fears’ into some real yirat shemayim, and do the hard work of building up our emuna, and acknowledging that really, there is only God going on here.

There’s really a million different options for tipping the balance here, because THE REAL WAR IS ONLY SPIRITUAL, AND INTERNAL.

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I have a few friends who are going through a lot of difficult situations right now, and who sometimes feel like all they do is struggle with themselves, and their own bad middot.

There are days they struggle to get out of bed.

Days they struggle to clean their houses.

Days where they really wonder what on earth they are doing with their lives, because sometimes it all seems just so banal and pointless, to keep putting food on the table for their families, to keep cleaning toilets, to keep sweeping the floor.

I tell them: We are living in the olam hafuch, the upside-down world.

It’s dafka the big internal battles that we small people are waging, that is making all the difference in the world right now.

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Each time I manage to wean off disgusting Netflix, or binging on Youtube – I am striking a massive blow against the forces of darkness.

Every tiny kindness I do, especially for my husband and kids and other family members – I am striking a massive blow, against the forces of darkness.

Each time I avoid getting angry, or put myself out for something ‘holy’, or even just find the strength to get out of bed again to start the day – I am striking a massive blow, against the forces of evil.

Dafka, it’s these internal battles of ours that give God the most pleasure, and that ultimately make the most difference in the world.

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Some days, I also get overwhelmed by everything that is going on.

Sometimes, I also feel like giving up.

That’s where the whole principle of ‘running and returning’ comes in, that Rabbenu talks about.

On those days, I will eat an icecream, I will ‘tune out the bad’, I will stay away from the internet for a day, or two, or three, until I have the energy to deal with it all again.

That’s ok. I’m a human being, and I can’t maintain this pace ad infinitum, without taking big breaks and holidays, when required, in all sorts of ways.

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Some days, I also start day-dreaming about writing about way happier things, and just leaving all this crud and yucky stuff totally behind.

Then I remember that part of my job down here, part of my own ‘spiritual battle’ is to carry on plugging away ‘unblocking the toilet’ that is real Jewish history.

Why?

So that more people can start to really beg Hashem to show them what is true, and who our real tzaddikim are.

Because then that’s game over, the whole enchilada.

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I don’t have a nice way of wrapping this post up today, so instead, I’m going to share some of the more interesting links I’ve been sent, the last few days by other people.

EXHIBIT 1: RABBANIT ROTHSCHILD, THE NEW ‘CHIEF RABBANIT’ OF EUROPE

Read more about that HERE.

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EXHIBIT 2: THERE IS GRAPHENE OXIDE – LOTS OF IT! – IN YOUR NUROFEN

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EXHIBIT 3: THE VATICAN ALSO HAS AN ‘ORDER OF THE HOLY SEPULCHRE’

Read more about that HERE, as a starting point.

Here’s what really took my eye:

The Equestrian Order of the Holy Sepulchre of Jerusalem, also called Order of the Holy Sepulchre or Knights of the Holy Sepulchre, is a Catholic order of knighthood under the protection of the Holy See.

The pope is the sovereign of the order.

The order creates “canons” as well as knights, with the primary mission to “support the Christian presence in the Holy Land”….

The order today is estimated to have some 30,000 knights and dames in 60 Lieutenancies around the world, including monarchs, crown princes and their consorts, and heads of state from countries such as Spain, Belgium, Monaco, Luxembourg and Liechtenstein.

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This ‘order’ got started at the same time as the Knights Templar, and the Knights Hospitaller / SMOM.

I have a feeling that it basically ‘took over’ from the Knights Templar when that formally ‘disappeared’, because 30,000 members!?!?!?!

Including a whole bunch of royals and heads of state?!?!?!?!

All pledged to:

“Support the Christian presence in the Holy Land”….

Now, we start to understand what the Jewish nation is really up again, in Eretz Yisrael.

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Let’s stop here for now.

The war is definitely raging, and the battle continues.

But we win that battle with prayers, teshuva and by sticking close to God and His true tzaddikim.

And no other way.

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I had a few emails from people who are feeling more than a little confused.

Who can they trust?

How do they know, if something is really ‘true’ or not?

If one person says that Rebbe Nachman got them out of the dark, and then another person says that Rabbi Ploni got them out of the dark – who is to say, which one is good, which one is ‘right’? Maybe they are both ‘right’?

Or maybe, they are both ‘wrong’?

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These are difficult questions, but important questions.

And there is a simple answer to ‘how do we really know’ who and what to trust and that’s this:

We have to beg Hashem to show us the truth.

And there are no shortcuts in this process.

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But here’s the thing:

The real ‘world of lies’ that a person has to get out of, is their own internal one.

Because the ‘rabbis’ and ‘leaders’ we follow, the ‘truth’ that we recognise is really just a mirror of our own soul.

And for as long as our soul is mamash still trapped in its own world of lies, it’s almost impossible for a person to really know what is ‘true’ or ‘false’ in the world around them.

Let’s give some practical examples.

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  1. Anger

For as long as someone is still justifying their own self-righteous anger, and still thinking that there are times when anger, and lashing out at other people is a great thing – they will be drawn to angry people, self-righteous and vindictive people.

Whisper this: Most people who are consistently angry are very hard to be around, and usually have a lot of bad middot.

That’s not my opinion.

The Sages teach:

When one gets angry, all sorts of demons control him, and even the Shechina (the holy Divine Presence) doesn’t stand by his side.

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HERE‘s a direct quote from the Gemara in Masekhet Shabbat 105b:

המקרע בגדיו בחמתו והמשבר כליו בחמתו והמפזר מעותיו בחמתו יהא בעיניך כעובד ע”ז שכך אומנתו של יצה”ר היום אומר לו עשה כך ולמחר אומר לו עשה כך

“If one tears his garment in his anger, breaks his utensils in his anger or scatters his money in his anger, he should be in your eyes as one who is performing idolatry. For thus is the craft of the evil inclination: today it tells him “do this”, and the next day it tells him “do this” until it tells him “perform idolatry” and he goes and performs it”.

If you want to hang out with people like that, if you want to take ‘advice’ from people like that, if you want to follow an ‘angry’ rabbi, or an ‘angry’ lifecoach guru – whatever – feel free.

But just be aware that for as long as a person is justifying anger, their own and other people’s, then:

All sorts of demons control him.

And that’s not a recipe for a happy, successful life.

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2. Status

One thing you quickly learn about Breslov, and especially about Rav Berland’s branch of ‘Breslov’, is that you can forget about getting any honor, status or respect from other people, if you’re sincerely following that path.

What, you’re that brainwashed cretin that can’t really see what’s going on with Rav Berland?! Who didn’t believe all the Channel 13 exposes about him?! Who’s just a brainwashed cult-member with no mind of their own and no independent discernment?!

Hahaha.

For as long as a person would like others to respect them for their ‘religious sincerity’, for the path they’ve chosen, or to impress others with just how holy, inspirational, ‘righteous’, and ‘right about everything’ they truly are, they will be drawn to leaders, to organisations, where they can leverage some of that ‘respect’ out of other people.

Ooooo, your rabbi got invited to the White House?!

Your organisation has connections all over the world and is the ‘Chief Rabbi’ of pretty much any country you care to mention?

Your people get massive government grants and kudos; they have a lot of ‘political muscle’ to save their adherents from yucky court cases; they can connect you, business-wise, all over the place….?

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If that sounds appealing to you, then true Breslov – Rav Berland’s Breslov – is not your path.

True Breslovers have been dissed and derided from the day Rebbe Nachman got back from Eretz Yisrael, and told his followers that he’d bought them a gift from the Holy Land:

Machloket.

That people were going to be criticising, mocking them and persecuting them all day long.

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Now, we can ask: What sort of present is that, Rabbenu??

All these other guys are hanging out with Putin, and getting invited to the White House, and people write long screeds about how amazing and wonderful and great they are, and they fancy shuls all over the place, and summer camps for the kids and all the politicians just totally love them to death!

And what does real Breslov have to offer?

Nothing like that.

A lot of poverty. A lot of arguments with your family members and friends, who think you joined a cult. A lot of dissing from people on Facebook, who assume you must be a retarded moron for not believing Channel 13 like all the really enlightened people do.

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But what ELSE does real Breslov have to offer?

Humility. A real connection to God. The inner peace that comes from really connecting to your soul, and trying to do the work God sent you down here to do. A connection to the True Tzaddik.

The sort of advice that really can solve even the most difficult problems, and get your soul out of the world of lies and into the world of truth.

But…. if you prefer ‘status’ and nice kiddushes and fancy shuls and political clout, then ‘real Breslov’ is going to sound about as attractive as a bucket of cold sick.

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I could go on and on, but what’s the point here?

The point is, that for as long as a person is not doing regular hitbodedut, is not accepting that they are full of bad middot and flaws, is not doing the painful, difficult job of clarifying their own internal world of lies….

They are going to find this process of ‘birur’ increasingly hard and confusing, going forward.

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Sometimes, I get emails from xtians (thankfully not so many these days….) who like to tell me how Yoshki helped them ‘out of the darkness’ and ‘into the light’.

They like to tell me how much more patient, and enlightened, and happy, and ‘spiritual’ they are, now that they’ve found ‘the lord’.

What am I meant to tell them?

Am I meant to say, yeah, carry on believing in that guy, because it’s at least better than worshipping the devil….?

Really?

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Birur is a process.

It’s like scaling a mountain.

The higher you go, the more difficult the journey becomes, and the thinner the atmosphere gets.

But when you finally get to the top, the view is awesome.

That’s when you can look around, and just see how everything really looks without all the skyscrapers and lamp-posts in the way.

You can see how beautiful the world really is.

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Let’s just have a quick reality-check moment, that I am no-where near the top of the mountain.

I am a small person, in so many ways, with a lot of bad middot that I know are bad, wrong and destructive.

I have to do hitbodedut for an hour every single day, to try to ‘catch’ those bad middot in action, before they drag me under or destroy the world too much.

It’s a constant process of noticing what I’m breaking, and then trying to fix it.

But one thing I do know:

The path that Rebbe Nachman laid out for his followers does eventually lead right to the top of that mountain.

And if I keep going, even if I get discouraged and overwhelmed some times, and have to take a break – eventually, with God’s help, I will get there.

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So, believe in whoever you want to.

Follow whoever you want to.

Defend whoever you want to.

Promote whoever you want to.

But know, that until and unless you clarify your own ‘world of lies’, you will have an innate bias that will consistently lead you away from what is really true.

That doesn’t mean that you won’t climb the birur mountain in some way, at least partially, but there is only one path to the very top of it, and you find that path by doing regular hitbodedut every single day, and working on rectifying your bad middot.

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May Hashem give us all the merit to find that path.

And may He give us the strength to continue moving forward, when all we really want to do is give up and go to sleep.

And may He move all the obstacles, and distractions and confusions out of the way, so we can finally see where we are really headed, and what we really need to do to get there.

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Even though the world is half ‘back to normal’, at least for now, it’s still not an easy place to be.

You can see it in large and small ways, like, for example, the way people are driving on the streets. Israel has never been a ‘polite’ society of drivers, to put it mildly, but things have gotten even worse here, the last few months, as a direct result of all the ‘torture’ we’ve been through the last couple of years.

And that comes out on the roads, where more and more drivers refuse to give way; more and more drivers aggressively try to push in; people speed like crazies; they weave between lines, totally spaced-out; they drive super-slowly, because they are really scared to be driving at all.

The driving shows that a lot of people are in a really bad space, mentally, at the moment.

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But who said that the run-up to Moshiach and geula was meant to be ‘easy’?

Who said, that the world, and us within it, was just meant to carry on its merry way, until one day Moshiach showed up and TA-DA!!! Just like that, we’re into geula and the world of truth?

That there was nothing left to do except polish some buttons?

That’s a Disney-fication of geula; a fiction, a child’s bedtime story.

And once we understand that, then we start to also understand why life is challenging each and every one of us, in some very difficult ways.

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A few days ago, I had some long email exchanges with someone who has been through a very difficult patch for the last few years, in just about every way.

Financial issues, health issues, relationship issues, social issues. And throughout it all, the test was to stay close to Hashem, to stay close to His Torah, and to not give up and ‘frei out’.

This is some of what they wrote to me, about what they have been learning from that whole process of real, painful, soul-wrenching teshuva. The kind of teshuva that really gets a person into the world of truth, and out of the world of Disney-fied lies.

With their permission, I’m sharing it below.

(English is not their first language, so this may be a little clunky in parts.)

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It is easier to blame others than to work on oneself.

It is not easy to take time to pray or read Tehillim etc, instead of spending the day watching movies or sports or whatever they like.

It is not easy to accept your own guilt, it is easier to blame others for what they are doing to me.

It is not easy to remain silent.

It is not easy to forget offenses and grudges.

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It is not easy to work on your middot.

I have had a slow and painful process, but we have fought every day to eradicate bad behaviors.

We fail, we get angry, we fall, we get up, we continue, we suffer and we try again.

And in the middle of all that there is so much pain, wounded pride, ego on the ground.

It is easier to turn around, turn your face and blame someone else, like your parents, partner, children, boss, even Hashem.

Being a victim will always be easier.

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Me and my husband went through what I’ll euphemistically call a ‘bad patch’ for around 12 years, shortly after we made aliyah.

We had severe financial issues, lost our home twice, health issues, miscarriages, ‘social outcast’ issues for being English-speaking Breslovers (back before that was acceptable…), more ‘social outcast’ issues for discovering Rav Berland, family problems – you name it.

Hashem threw everything at us, except the kitchen sink.

And the first few years, I just kept whining about why is God doing this to me?? Why is He punishing me so much?!

Then one day, after years and years of doing hitbodedut for an hour every single day, I finally realised something that changed the whole picture:

I totally deserve everything that is happening to me, and probably, I deserve even more.

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We all have bad middot, we all have work to do, to fix our souls.

That’s why we are down here, walking around.

There is a job to be done here, and it’s a messy, painful and often exhausting process.

God, in His great kindness, tries the gentle approach first, to get us to change and shift, and to recognise that WE have the problem, not everyone else around us.

But if we refuse to accept that WE are the ones that need to change, that WE aren’t perfect, that WE have a lot of flaws and ego and bad middot that are often hidden, but nearly always justified or whitewashed even when they do come out from under the parapet – then that’s when life often has to get really difficult.

And this is not a ‘punishment’, difficult as it is to through all that horrible stuff.

It’s the process that most of us have to go through, to stop blaming other people for our problems and to actually get to work on fixing our bad middot – the whole point of being alive.

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I look back at those 12 years of torture now, and I can see how much I benefited from them, in so many different ways.

The financial difficulties finally got me out of ‘house buying OCD’, where all you do is obsess over how much your house has increased in value, and how much better or worse your neighbor’s house is.

The miscarriages taught me how very precious my children really are, and how much they deserved to have a parent who would do their best to really listen to them, and really try to put what was good for them ahead of what was easier and more comfortable for me.

The health issues taught me about my limitations, as a human being, and how good health is the single biggest present God can give a person. Something I was totally taking for granted, before I was ill.

And being a social outcast for a few years also taught me so much, not least, that you have to be nice to people, if you want to have friends.

And also, that while it’s nice to be ‘socially accepted’, there are some things – maybe, a lot of things – that are still worth losing your friends and social status over.

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Point is, all the difficulties, all the suffering, they rubbed off a lot of the ‘hard edges’ of my yetzer hara.

And at this stage, while I pray I’ll never have to go through all that again, I am still experiencing enormous benefits of going through that very painful process.

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Being a ‘victim’ will always be easier, in some short-sighted, temporary ways.

Blaming other people for our own issues and flaws means we can continue to duck the real work to be done, and continue walking on our self-righteous way, as the ‘Ms or Mr Perfect’ in the picture, where everyone else has got a hell of a lot of work to do to get to geula, while we just carry on polishing some buttons.

But that’s not the Breslov path.

It’s not the path of Rebbe Nachman, it’s not the path of real emuna.

And it doesn’t lead a person to the ultimate goal, tachlis, of fixing their souls, and actually doing the job we were all sent down here to do.

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One last thing:

It’s only when I finally got to Rav Berland, that the enormous suffering we had been enduring for years finally started to let up, and to get ‘sweetened’.

The more of his teachings I started to learn, the more of his prayers I started to say, the more charity and pidyonot  I started sending in his direction, the sweeter my life got.

To give one concrete example, reading Rav Berland’s small compendium of prayers to get rid of anger (which you can find HERE) literally defused my anger in half an hour.

I’m half-Moroccan, and in the past, the anger came very fast – and did a lot of damage, especially to the people around me like my husband and kids.

I’ve been working on, praying about, my anger for years and years, in hitbodedut.

But reading that little booklet of Rav Berland’s prayers is like a short-cut, for when I’ve had some strong (justified….) feelings of anger that even the hitbodedut couldn’t really get rid of.

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We are here to work very hard on acknowledging and uprooting our bad middot, not to just ‘polish buttons’.

And there is a ton of that hard work to do, before we can really step out of the world of lies, and into the world of truth.

So, take heart, dear reader.

This process is difficult, painful, and sometimes so hard to endure.

But it’s also totally deserved, and leading us to where we need to be, to really be part of geula and that world of truth.

But only if we stop blaming everyone else, come out of denial about our own bad middot, and knuckle down to the real work of actually trying to fix them.

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I’ve had a kind of ‘low grade’ feeling of anxiety going on for the last few weeks, now.

Externally, life is Baruch Hashem, pretty good. But my soul is really not so happy at the moment.

It feels like there is so much about to burst out into the open, any minute now, and even though I’m basically ignoring most of the news these days, and have been for a couple of months, my inbox is filling up with stuff that is probably contributing to that underlying anxiety.

Let’s get a few of those things out of the way first, because then I want to talk about CERN, and how it’s connected to a whole bunch of the weird things going on in our world right now.

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First, let’s get back to those ‘safe and effective’ Covid nanotech shots.

Studies are starting to come out that they have had a huge impact on fertility, but especially, male fertility.

I got sent this yesterday:

Declining birth rates post-Covid vaccines – is it time to panic?

Not yet, but real concern is warranted

You can read the whole thing HERE, but it’s based on THIS detailed post analysing the data coming out of Sweden, that didn’t really have a lockdown, so the drop in birth rates is way more obviously correlated to people taking those ‘safe and effective’ Covid shots.

Screenshot:

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In turn, this discussion was prompted by an Israeli research paper that showed that ‘motility of sperm’ and ‘semen concentration’ in men that took the Pfizer shots was drastically impaired:

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You can see a full copy of that paper HERE.

And while the researchers claim this male infertility is ‘temporary’, the truth is that by the time this five month study had ended, the sperm motility and concentration showed no signs of returning back to ‘normal’ any time soon.

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My daughter is seeing a very nice guy with very good middot – who had three shots of Pfizer’s Cominarty.

I’ve got my eyes open to the side-effects of these graphene oxide nanotech shots, and these research papers do worry me.

At the same time, I’m reminding myself: Ein Od Milvado! God is really running the world, and if God decides a soul is going to come down to the world, then immobile sperm or no, that’s going to happen. Bezrat Hashem.

I guess, with a whole bunch of heart-felt prayers and teshuva and pidyonot….which is probably the point anyway.

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In the meantime, on July 2, 2022, the Justice Department of the Uruguayan government announced they were giving Pfizer 48 hours to submit information on whether the Covid shots do contain nanotechnology (and questioning them on a whole bunch of other stuff, too).

Screenshot from HERE (google translated from Spanish):

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This is coming in response to a legal claim launched against Pfizer’s attempts to force children to be mandated to have the Covid shots.

Which shows us that small people like you and me CAN get things done, with God’s help, when we start to push-back legally.

We know most of our judges (and politicians…) are corrupt and have large amounts of ‘donations’ sitting offshore in anonymous bank accounts.

But it only takes one honest judge, and a handful of people who refuse to give up or ‘leave the fight to other people’ to start the push-back. (With God’s help….)

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Meanwhile, Yaakov from JerusalemCats sent me this today:

Breaking: The Israeli MOH is hiding a study it conducted, showing a 2-4 times higher rate of adverse events reports following Pfizer COVID vaccine in kids aged 5-11 vs ages 12-17

Here’s a relevant screenshot:

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Again, Ein Od Milvado.

When we remember that God controls the world, every aspect of it, that enables us to digest this information without falling into total yeoush.

Heart-felt prayer and sincere teshuva and pidyonot paid to a real tzaddik can and will turn everything around.

That’s probably at least part of why all this is happening right now, to wean us off the Esavian, totally corrupted ‘Western Medicine’, and to remind us all that we are SOULS in a physical body, not just a hunk of meat that can be ‘cured’ by pills and surgery.

Which brings me onto the next part of this post, about CERN.

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Last week, I had a phone conversation with a very educated reader, who has been watching CERN’s impact on the world, and particularly the impact of it’s ‘Large Hadron Collider’ experiment for well over a decade.

They told me a few things I didn’t know about CERN, including:

  1. If you search for any info on CERN in English, what comes back is a bunch of stuff about ritual murders at their HQ in front of their big statue of ‘Shiva’; opening portals into the sky to let evil spirits flood into the world; or alternatively, opening portals to hell, to let evil spirits flood into the world.

THIS article does a very good job of summing up the CERN ‘high strangeness’, with a bunch of links you can explore yourself, if you are so minded.

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We saw how ‘Nibiru’ was leveraged to make people like me believe that chemtrails was a delusional figment of all those ‘crazy conspiracy theorists’ imagination.

Because I was so sceptical about the claims being made for ‘Nibiru’, for years, I didn’t dig further behind the ridiculous explanations being given that the chemtrails were being sprayed ‘to block Nibiru from view’.

Really?

The chemtrails were being sprayed to saturate us all with graphene oxide and other aerolised nanotech, as part of our governments’ attacks against us, its own citizens.

But it took a long while to figure that out, and to take the whole ‘real chemtrails’ discussion seriously, because of all the interference being run by these ‘Nibiru’ theories.

And something similar appears to be going on with CERN, and all this ‘high strangeness’.

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The second thing I learnt is that no-one can ever sue CERN for any of its ‘experiments gone wrong’, because – surprise surprise! – all our corrupt governments gave them a ‘get out of jail free’ card.

My contact knew someone first-hand who took CERN to court in Germany and won her case…. in theory. In practise, the judges told her that CERN cannot be sued by any country in the world, ever, for any of the ‘side-effects’ of their experiments.

And we see the same thing in other countries, too, screenshot from HERE:

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So, back to that ‘Large Hadron Collider’ (LHC) experiment.

My contact has been watching the CERN online dashboard for the LHC experiment for years. And the experiments they are doing at CERN are massively affecting both the earth’s magnetosphere – and also the sun.

CO-IN-CID-ENTALLY, they took the CERN LHC experiment offline the last 2-3 years – dovetailing with the Covid 19 plandemic – to beef it up.

And now, as of yesterday, July 5, 2022, the LHC is officially starting up again.

Screenshot from HERE:

Note the built-in propaganda mocking anyone who voices concerns about CERN’s experiments as ‘doomsday conspiracies’.

They are washing our brains for us 24/7.

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According to my contact, CERN started some initial testing with it again as a ‘soft launch’ beginning January of this year, on and off, and then really ramping it up around Pesach time.

All that coincided with the period of time before Pesach when I started to feel really weak and unwell – for no obvious reason – that has been continuing for weeks and weeks, until I finally paid a pidyon to the Rav and started taking some Miracle Mineral Solution every day.

And now, as of yesterday, these LHC experiments are about to start up again, in a much bigger way.

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People are electric beings.

Our whole body operates at very low frequencies, that influences our cells to manufacture the stuff required for the body to work properly.

I’ve written a lot about these subjects before, in connection with the possible health impacts of 5….G, and the directed energy tech that so many people still refuse to believe really exists. I’ll stick some links below this article.

But the point is this:

CERN is abnormally and radically affecting the frequency in our world, in some enormous ways.

And their experiments are FOR SURE also affecting our health – both mental and physical.

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So now, let me walk you through the ‘guide to the CERN dashboard’ I was given yesterday, so you can start to make some of these connections between CERN’s experiments, and your own strange health symptoms, yourself.

  1. The CERN Dashboard

HERE is the link for that, and this is a screenshot of what you’ll see, when you click on it:

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The first green arrow is pointing up to the ‘drop down menu’, where you can access the other screens we’ll be talking about in a mo.

The second green arrow is showing you the activity of the two beams that CERN keeps trying to perfectly align, so they can smash together, to collide protons.

The red line shows one beam, the black line shows another.

This information is inaccessible after it ‘passes from live view’, so if you see anything interesting, get into the habit of taking a screenshot.

As we can see, they were pumping their beams up to maximum strength yesterday, up to the 7000 mark, on the right hand axis.

This main screen is called: LHC Operation.

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2. LHC Luminosity

I was told that higher luminosity = more energy =  more affects in the physical world.

This screen shows the ‘energy / luminosity’ after effects CERN achieves from each run at colliding those particles.

Here’s a screenshot from today, that shows they’ve been pretty busy since opening back up, yesterday:

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3. LHC DASHBOARD, and other interesting screens to visit

You can get to all of these from the drop-down menu on the top left hand side of the CERN site, HERE.

Here’s some others you may want to take a look at:

LHC Beam Dump

LHC BSRT – shows the two beams going in clock and anti-clockwise direction, and pinpoints the stream of protons. This shows you if the beams are currently running.

The CERN dashboard runs on Swiss time (1 hour behind Israel).

So, if you are feeling strange, or noticing something strange, you can take a look to see if ‘something’ was going on, over at CERN, that corresponds with your unusual experience.

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4. NASA’s SPACE WEATHER PREDICTION CENTER

OK, so this is another website that you need to pay attention to, to correlate ‘spikes’ in CERN’s LHC experiments with weird sun and solar weather phenomena.

This is the site: https://www.swpc.noaa.gov/

It operates on ‘international time’, which is 3 hours behind Israel.

My correspondent pointed out a few of the links here, to keep a close eye on. Let’s run through them, with screenshots.

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5. ‘GOES X-RAY FLUX’

This shows the radiation reaching the earth. 

She told me that whenever CERN is running the LHC experiments, the readings here go haywire around the same time, or just afterwards.

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6. PROTON FLUX

This shows the X-rays, protons, electrons etc coming into the earth’s atmosphere, especially as a result of solar storms (left hand side):

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7. ESTIMATED PLANETARY K-INDEX

(Right hand of the screen shot)

The K-index reflects the average of all the indices all together, to show the activity of solar storms.

  • Red is meant to show ‘solar flares’;
  • Yellow shows it’s gearing up for something;
  • Green shows low levels of activity.

We are currently in the middle of a ‘solar minimum’, so solar storms are meant to be very rare.

And yet…. whaddya know?

There appears to be some sort of ‘solar flare-like’ activity happening, just when CERN was ramping up its beams yesterday.

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I am by no means an expert in all this stuff, at all.

Really, I’m just passing on information here, to begin this conversation about what CERN’s experiments are actually doing to our world – and to us – in real time.

What my correspondent told me from her lengthy observations is that she is seeing CERN do things that ‘make things go crazy, and then the sun responds to what CERN is doing with a solar flare.’

This sounds fantastic, that these people have some how figured how how to control the sun’s activity, at least partially, with their experiments deep underground.

Yet the more I begin to explore this topic, the more I’m starting to think she has a point.

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One more thing, then we’ll stop here for today.

Yesterday in the middle of the night, I started feeling some very strong ‘sick fear’ that I haven’t felt for well over a decade.

I came down, read 3 tikkun haklalis, paid a pidyon, started to feel better, and finally I could go to sleep. All that was happening between 12am – 2am Israeli time.

When I was putting this post together, I took another look at the LHC Operation screen from yesterday night (screenshotted above), which remember is one hour behind Israel.

Here’s the relevant section, blown up:

Look at the time.

My very strange, intense bout of ‘sick fear’ coincided exactly with when CERN was ramping their Large Hadron Collider to the max yesterday night.

It began at 11pm Swiss time (12 am Israeli) and then continued for the next three hours.

Baruch Hashem, the tikkun haklalis and the pidyon seems to have mitigated the effects of the last hour of operation, at least for me.

But it’s certainly an interesting CO-INC-IDE-NCE, and something I will definitely be keeping a closer eye on, going forward.

 

 

 

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We can’t beat Esav at his own game.

Prayer, teshuva and pidyonot are the only way we can get to this to break.

And when enough of us figure that out, that’s when this evil will finally start to crumble, once and for all.

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PS: I just remembered something Rav Berland said, four years ago now, snippet from HERE:

Don’t believe the false prophets!

The Gemara in Sanhedrin says: Even if [false prophets] make the sun and moon stand still in the firmament [don’t believe them]. Such great powers were given to the sitra achra that the could make the sun stand still, like Moshe Rabbenu, like Yehoshua Bin Nun.

What’s going to be, if you come across some sorcerer and he says: “You want to see that I’m telling you the truth? See, now the sun is standing still [in the sky]! Look at the clock, see, it’s not moving. It hasn’t moved for an hour!”

Are you going to start believing in him?

But we have the Torah! After Moshe Rabbenu brought the Torah down, we could also stop the sun, and halt the moon. We have the words of our Tzaddikim. Nothing in the world could take us away from the words of the Tzaddikim… He made the sun and moon stand still? We’re really not even interested.

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The forces of idolatry have so much power

The Gemara tells us: [The Tanna] Rabbi Yossi HaGalili said: The Torah reaches to the end of the daat (spiritual knowledge) of the star worshipers, and so the Torah was given to rule over them, so that even if they make the sun stand still…” etc.

THE FORCES OF IDOL WORSHIP, THE MAGICIANS AND THE SORCERERS, THEY HAVE SO MUCH POWER!

They can even get the sun to stand still in the middle of the sky. “Even if he halts the sun in the middle of the firmament, don’t listen to him.”

Even if some non-Jew comes and makes the sun stand still in the heavens for an hour, know, this means nothing. 

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Wow.

TBC

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Links to other articles about electric health on the blog:

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A couple of days ago, I had an interesting conversation.

Someone called me who has been researching frequency, and serious, government-induced ‘health issues’ for a few decades.

They told me a lot of stuff that I already knew about, but also added in more details that I wasn’t aware of – and which honestly left me feeling more than a little overwhelmed, by the ‘bigness’ of the evil we are currently facing.

This COVID plandemic, this 5…G radiation, this total destruction of our spiritual, mental and physical health – it’s part of a plan, a process, that was put together at least 40 years ago, and probably more.

Part of that ‘plan’ is depopulation.

And another part of that ‘plan’ is to get enough graphene oxide nanotech into everyone’s bodies so it’s easy-peasy to connect us all up to the ‘Internet of Things’ and remote control anyone who’s left.

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At the heart of the spiders’ web there sits CERN, in Switzerland.

Apparently, no-one can ever sue CERN for anything they do, or any of the negative impacts of their ‘secret’ and not-so-secret experiments, because all of our governments gave them a ‘get out of  jail free’ pass many years ago.

We will come back to CERN in future, but for now, I’m just setting out my thoughts in this post.

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What I realised, again, is that all this talk of ‘politics’ and ‘governments’ and ‘democracy’ is a total illusion.

Whoever you vote for at the ballot box, you are going to get the same fundamental plans and policies implemented, just they will be dressed up differently, to keep the illusion going that we live in a ‘democracy’ and our politicians care about what we really think.

The real power is at the UN, the World Economic Forum, the World Health Organisation – where our governments effectively ceded all political control to these unelected, faceless bureaucrats who are working, mamash, for the dark side.

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I know this already.

But when you get more and more details that fill out the picture, it’s pretty heavy.

Let’s have a day off, let’s go find a nice cafe to sit in somewhere pretty, I told my husband.

So that’s what we did, pure escapism, so nice.

The radio in that nice cafe is playing music in the background, when suddenly the adverts come in, including one which was basically blaring out:

Masecha, be’vekasha!

(Masks, please.)

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What?!

I thought I was hearing a recording from last year, but no, at the end of the stupid advert, they talk about how ‘corona is coming back, and we need to take precautions again and start wearing masks in personal spaces.’

My heart sank.

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The last few weeks, they have been doing their darndest to get another ‘wave of Covid’ going in Israel.

For the uninitiated, that basically means bombarding us with more frequencies and microwaves to make us all feel really ill, so we’ll run off to ‘test for Covid’, which will magically come back positive again, because the whole thing is rigged.

Because they tried the ‘monkey pox’ pandemic, and no-one was really buying it.

So, they decided to go back to ‘Covid’ for the next wave of forced vaccinations, as so many people have self-induced ‘covid phobia’ now, all you have to do is say the words ‘covid’ and they will plaster on 5 masks and obediently roll up their sleeves….

At least, that’s what I was scared of, when I heard that ad, and saw a few more people walking around in masks again.

But then, I changed my mind.

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I went and sat at the Rav for an hour, on Ido HaNavi Street, and I joined in with the clapping and the jumping and the prayers.

And as nearly always happens, I came out feeling much, much happier, and determined to not give up, no matter how ‘big’ that boulder grows, and no matter how long it is going to take to finally roll it up and over the hill.

We can’t fight what’s going on with the ‘tools of Esav’ – with all the PR, the ‘action’, the bullying, the guns, the political and military and financial power.

We are totally out-maneuvred on all fronts.

But we can fight what’s going on with the ‘voice of Yaakov’.

With our prayers, our hitbodedut, our Tikkun HaKlalis, our efforts and yearning to be better people in a better world.

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In that chat I had a few days’ ago, the person I was talking to brought my attention to the last chapter of the Prophet Malachi.

It’s a short book, just three chapters, and the first 2 1/2 is really just a long list of what is going wrong, and how ‘bad’ everything and everyone is.

But then, something awesome happens, when there are just a few paragraphs left to go. Here’s what happens.

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First, there’s the tail-end of what’s going so wrong in the world:

Your words have become harsh against Me, says Hashem, but you say, ‘How have we spoken against You?’ You have said, ‘It is useless to serve God! What gain is there for us, that we have kept His watch, and that we walk submissively before Hashem, Master of Legions?’

‘So, now we praise the wicked. Evildoers are built up; they have even tested God and escaped.’

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This is where we’re currently holding.

But just look what happens next:

Then those who fear Hashem spoke to one another, and Hashem listened and heard.

And a book of remembrance was written before Him, for those who fear Hashem, and those who give thought to His name.

‘They will be a precious treasure for Me’, says Hashem, Master of Legions, on the day which I bring about; and I will have mercy on them, as a man has mercy on his son who serves him.

Then, you will return and see the difference between the righteous and the wicked, between one who serves God, and one who does not serve Him.

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That is happening right now.

Right now, all over the world, people who really fear Hashem, who really believe in Hashem, who are really yearning so much for the ‘good’ to start blossoming openly in the world are starting to talk to each other about what is really going on.

I see that on my blog, where the people calling me a ‘conspiracy theorist’ continue to dwindle by the day, as more and more people wake up to the truth of what is really going on in the world, and the tremendous evil that is hiding behind all the lies we’ve been told.

My brother is also seeing it in the UK, where people are ‘pushing back’ against the Covid plandemic narrative more and more, including in the comments sections on the ‘brainwashing propaganda’ designed to scare us all into getting more nanotech shots nobody needs.

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He told me that even a few months ago, for every 1 dissenting voice, you’d get 9 piling in on them telling them they were talking rubbish.

And now, that equation has totally flipped on its head. 95% of the comments – on mainstream pieces – are arguing against the narrative, and speaking up about all the lies being told about ‘plandemics’, and killer shots, and WEF-induced ‘climate change  panic’.

People are speaking to each other, and more and more people are waking up.

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Which brings us to the next verse in Malachi:

For behold, the day is coming, burning like an oven, when all the wicked people and all the evildoers will be like straw; and that coming day will burn them up….

But a sun of righteousness will shine for you who fear My name, with healing in its rays, and you will go out and flourish….

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We are very close to this.

Very close.

But before we get there, we need to take the cue from Malachi:

Then those who fear Hashem spoke to one another, and Hashem listened and heard.

Don’t be scared to stand up for Hashem, and to stand up for what’s right and true.

Don’t be scared to push back on all the Reform-funded ‘LGBT+++ missionaries’ out there, trying to poison our children’s souls with their anti-Torah, anti-God (and also anti-real science!) beliefs about fungible biology.

Don’t be scared to stand up and insist that bullies and abusers should be brought to account, and victims encouraged to speak out.

Don’t be scared to keep telling people that God is real, and is running the world, and that nothing can happen without God’s say-s0, however it looks right now.

Don’t be scared to tell the truth, even when it’s not fashionable or popular.

Don’t be scared!

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Some of the mocking detractors I get on this site like to say that small blogs like this are making no difference in the world.

But I know that’s totally wrong.

It doesn’t matter how many people read this, it doesn’t matter how many people share it. Once the truth is identified, it will ‘come down’ into the consciousness of so many other people, regardless of who is actually reading these specific words.

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Rav Natan of Breslov explains that one time, he was struggling very hard to answer a difficult kooshia in his Torah learning.

He spent literally a couple of years working it through, praying on it, asking God to enlighten his eyes.

One day, eureka!!!

He finally got the answer. That same day, he went to pray in his local shul, and he heard two simple Jews discussing the exact same kooshia he’d been working on for two years. He couldn’t believe his ears, when one of them resolved it, so easily, with the answer Rav Natan had just discovered after two years of struggle and prayer.

He was totally broken, and went to talk to Rebbe Nachman about what had happened. The Rebbe explained something awesome to him:

It was so hard for you, because you were toiling to bring that information down from shemayim. It’s like when you have something that is set on a very high shelf, where no-one can get to it. Once that object has been taken off the shelf and put on the table, it’s easily accessible to everyone else….

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This story gives me a lot of chizzuk.

Sometimes, I break my head for literally months, literally years, trying to figure things out here, on the blog.

I have no idea who is reading this, because I disconnected all the site counters last year.

It could be two people, it could be 20,000. I don’t know.

But what I do know is that all the information that flows through this blog, it’s getting ‘out there’ into the world anyway.

And what I do know, is that more and more people are starting to wake up, and are staring to talk to each other about what is really going on in myriad different ways.

And it’s this process itself, that actually leads to teshuva, and then geula – at least, for those people who genuinely fear God, and really believe in Him.

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In the meantime…. the boulder is getting heavier and heavier.

And the mountain’s summit keeps receding into the distance.

But as more people join their hands, their voices, their prayers into the effort of pushing that boulder up the hill, I know that it will get there.

And then:

[A] sun of righteousness will shine for you who fear My name, with healing in its rays, and you will go out and flourish….

May that time come soon.

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PS: Here’s some interesting links I got sent recently:

From DDT to Asbestos to COVID Injections: Commercials

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And the reality of ‘safe and effective’ Covid shots:

And this:

https://www.smh.com.au/politics/federal/more-than-10-000-australians-have-filed-coronavirus-vaccine-injury-claims-20211115-p598yy.html

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UPDATE:

Another reader sent me this, too:

https://habayitah.blogspot.com/2022/06/that-is-absolute-lie.html

Snippet:

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I was sitting at the Rav’s prayers last week, when a girl came up and handed me something.

It’s a prayer to get off the internet.

Something that I’ve been increasingly thinking about, as the 5….G is turned up, and my health has been taking the hit.

(Thank God, I’m doing much better since I began the experiment with the Mineral Miracle Solution, and paid a pidyon to the Rav. More on that another time.)

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I was discussing with a friend yesterday, how ‘different’ life would look like, if the internet would disappear.

And while there is also some fear there – because I write this blog, for example, and I’d probably have to return to a typewriter – there is also a lot of yearning for that.

Even without all the ‘tech’ health issues – which lets be honest, are huge all by themselves – no internet would also mean way fewer opportunities to space out, run away and ‘escape’ from real life.

So then, we’d have to find other things to do like sew, garden, read, learn Torah, do hitbodedut, walk around, actually speak to people again, including our spouses and children, find different hobbies to fill the time.

Again, lots of fear around these thoughts, because we’ve all got so used to zoning out ‘online’, but also lots of hope, for how good life will actually be, once we are through this stage of very tough birur.

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So in the meantime, here is that prayer, with my translation underneath.

Enjoy!

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ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

Ribono shel olam, Who can do anything.

Please strengthen us with deep joy, and that we should no longer look at the internet ever again.

And we should always pray every single word and letter with kavana.

And each and every second, we should just be bound to You, with all 248 of our limbs and 365 of our sinews, with all our nefesh, ruach, neshama, chaya and yehida.

And we should merit to see Eliyahu (52) HaNavi (68), may his memory (233) be for a blessing (47) = 400, face to face, whose eyes (220) were pure (180) = 400.

Please answer, Hashem!

“Remember, Hashem, [to repay] the offspring of Edom, the day of Jerusalem; [to repay] those who say Destroy! Destroy! To it’s very foundation! (Psalms 137)

Please answer, Hashem!

Let us merit to have the intellect of our Holy (415) and Awesome (268) Rabbenu (268) Nachman (148) ben (52) Simcha (353) ben (52) Feigue (94), and to see Eliyahu (52) HaNavi (68), may his memory (233) be for a blessing (47) = 2598, face to face.

And by way of this, we should merit to the verse:

“And to all (86) the tremendous (98) awe (252) and to all (86) the strong (125) hand (19) that (501) Moshe (345) did (375) before the eyes (170) of all (50) of Israel (541) = 2598.

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UPDATE: Thanks to the readers who helped me tidy this prayer up, and also add in gematriot.

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This time last week, I was stuck at the bottom of a huge, ridiculously steep dust mountain, with no way of getting my car up it.

(I wrote about that HERE.)

The message I kept getting from that day ‘off-roading’ in the desert is DON’T GIVE UP.

Don’t give up.

Don’t stop half way, just because you are feeling overwhelmed, scared and exhausted.

Don’t give up!

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On Shabbat, I was doing some hitbodedut in my room, when my eye fell on my 30+ scrolls of Sabbatean-Frankist family trees, shoved in the spare room a few weeks ago.

Why?

Because I gave up. It was too hard, to keep breaking my head over those genealogies again and again and again.

On Shabbat, my soul started whispering at me:

You gave up half way….

Like duh!!! Of course I did.

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My soul didn’t take the hint.

Continue…. there is truth that needs to be brought out for the Jewish community. Don’t stop half way.

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I thought of that humongous, un-passable mountain in the desert.

I thought of how if we’d given up then, even though it seemed totally impossible we could get our car up it, at best we’d probably have had to ditch the car and pay thousands for someone to ‘tow it’.

Like you can get ‘tow trucks’ in the middle of the mountainous desert….

But anyway.

Point is, there was everything to lose from not continuing to try, and to pray, to get the car up the unpassable mountain, and everything to gain from continuing on.

But it was for sure scary and overwhelming.

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Long story short:

I am back buried in my scrolls of family trees.

All this ‘genealogy’ is directly connected to all the ‘bad’ that’s going on in our Jewish community today that needs uprooting, especially in terms of protecting our children from predators, both of the body and of the soul.

So, posting may be a bit slower here again, until I get to some sort of ‘conclusion’, at least for this next stage of the process.

But in the meantime, strange as it is right now, worrying that it could be right now, that they appear to be ‘trying again’ with their masks and plandemics shtick – don’t give up.

Miracles do happen.

And unpassable mountains can be conquered on the way to freedom, peace and a good cup of tea.

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To celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary, me and the bloke headed off to Mitzpe Ramon.

We were there 25 years ago, just after the ‘Ramon Inn’ first opened, and we thought it would be nice to go back and bring things full circle. One of the things we did all those years ago was take a jeep tour through the Ramon crater, or makhtesh, so we thought to ourselves: lets do that too!

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Our first jeep tour through the crater was with a tour guide I will call ‘Ron’.

He picked us up from the hotel, and first drove us through a couple of the streets of Mitzpe Ramon itself. (Honestly, it really only has a couple of streets…)

There was no planning, in this town, there is no connection between the communities here, he told us, as he drove down one particular street.

Here you have a yeshiva; across the road you have a bunch of Russians, most of whom are xtians. Then, you have a community of Black Hebrews. Then the Chabad house, and across from them, a community of lesbians. We are having a pride parade here on July 1.

How can you have a pride parade in a community as small as Mitzpe Ramon, with its 5,000 residents?

Ron told us: Last year 700 people showed up for it.

We were stunned.

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I learnt some interesting things from Ron.

The interesting things I learnt about the Ramon Crater is that it contained every element required to literally build the State of Israel – which was useful, because Israel was under international sanctions for years and years, and so couldn’t import the stuff required to make basic concrete.

But everything was there, in the Ramon Crater, and up until 2006 when production finally closed down, they’d shovelled out 1 1/2 billion tons of things like gypsum.

Ron also told us that they will never open the Degania dam, no matter how high the Kinneret rises, because if they do that, they will stuff up the potash works operating around the shores of the Dead Sea, which are apparently owned by the Ofer family, and the Chinese.

We’ll probably come back to the Ofers some time soon, they are a big part of the story of who really owns the State of Israel.

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The more interesting stuff that we learnt from Ron is that people like him – staunch secular ‘zionists’, in their 60s and 70s – are totally despairing of what is happening in this country.

Ron told us that he has an only son, and he forbid him from going into a combat unit in the army, after what happened to Elor Azaria.

The only safe way to serve in the army today is behind a desk, he told us. The politicians are corrupt and the judges have ruined everything. I’m sure they are getting bought secret apartments in Miami, or something. If it was up to me, I’d have Smotrich as PM, and Ben Gvir as his deputy. And there are a lot of people like me. I really fear for what is going to be here, in another 10 years. I don’t know what sort of country we will be passing down to our children.

Ron doesn’t like religious people very much, although he likes to quote a lot of Tanach.

And so, he is caught in a very despairing paradigm, where ‘religious people’ are the enemy… but ‘secular people’ are even more the enemy. And the biggest enemy of all, according to Ron, are the Muslims, who he feels are going to take over the whole country, one day, and nothing and no-one can stop them.

I really got the impression that Ron was kind of waiting to die, as his own personal ‘answer’ to what is going on today in Israel…But I digress.

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The following morning, we decided to retrace the route through the crater we’d taken with Ron, in our own little jeep.

We bought it second hand after the first lockdown, as a way to get away into untamed nature, a little, when all the masks and Covid restrictions and horrible police were suffocating me to death.

We’ve been driving it for around two years, and we’ve ‘off roaded’ quite a bit in that time, on less and more challenging routes.

So, I got a detailed map of the crater from the nice lady at the reception desk, that clearly showed all the trails marked, and their degree of difficulty, and we headed off.

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What can I tell you?

Either the map was totally and utterly wrong. And / or the markings showing you where to go where either totally missing, or totally wrong, too.

I’m pretty good at following maps – we don’t have Waze or a satnav, because I have a map book in our car, and a really good sense of direction. But somehow or other, we got totally lost yesterday morning, in the Ramon Crater.

The path we were following, that was meant to be suitable for 4×4 driving, suddenly brought us to a really steep incline, full of dust and boulders. It looked do-able, just about – and I mean, it’s not like they would mark a trail as suitable for 4×4 if it was totally UNSUITABLE for any vehicles except dirt bikes, right?

Not right.

Long story short, half way down, my husband couldn’t get the brakes to ‘catch’ on the dust, and we found ourselves gliding into a boulder. Before we got there, though, Hashem decided we should instead get caught on a big bush, which stopped the car in its tracks, as we kind of dangled sideways.

I was yelling at him to hit the brakes… and when he told me he was hitting the brakes, I knew we had a problem.

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I started clapping my hands furiously, to ‘sweeten the judgements’, as Rabbenu teaches.

I didn’t stop clapping for the next two hours.

Miraculously, my husband managed to restart the car, back it up a little, and to guide it down the rest of that steep dirt pile.

Phewee… now hopefully the trail would even out, some, and go back to being drivable again.

Some hope.

Next we know, we are going up and down some MASSIVE HILLS, all dirt and dust tracks, and each one loomed massive ahead of us, like a mini-Mt Everest.

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After ten minutes of that (I’m still clapping furiously…) , we get to a sign post in the middle of the desert, at the intersection of 4 paths.

And that’s when I realised that the map I had was totally wrong, and that I had no idea where we actually were.

Because while the signposts were saying that the trail we’d just come down was 4×4 suitable, we already knew from experience that was a lie. And I couldn’t even find one of the other locations being signposted on that whole, big map we had of the crater by Mitzpe Ramon.

When you are stuck in the middle of a desert terrain, with massive, huge cliffs everywhere, you can’t just drive around and hope to find your way. It’s dangerous.

At this point, we both started to feel notably anxious.

I redoubled the clapping, and then we decided to ‘go right’, because the Gemara teaches that whenever you don’t know the way, you should ‘go to the right’.

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We drove on really slowly, and then 10 minutes later – a miracle.

Three angels were in a landcruiser just ahead of us, taking measurements for some new electricity pipe thing, in the middle of the desert.

Hey, do you have any idea how we can get back to Route 40 from here? My husband asked them.

Meanwhile, I gave him the map to show them, so at least I could try to get our bearings and figure it out myself, if they couldn’t help us.

One guy looked at the map with a perplexed expression on his face.

Where you are right now isn’t on the map, he told us.

Well, that kind of explained the problem we were having.

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Long story short, they said we should follow them out of the wilderness.

There’s one big incline on the way, but yiyeh beseder, they reassured us.

I told my husband I was just going to keep clapping, until we were finally back on some tarmac. He told me to go right ahead.

At least we probably won’t die in the desert now, I told him. Worst comes to worst, they’ll give us a lift out and we’ll just end up losing the car to the bedouins…

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Twenty minutes later, the ‘big incline’ suddenly loomed into view, and that feeling of anxiety intensified.

It was like a 60-70% incline, up a mountain of dirt.

Totally impossible for us, in our small jeep without a 2.0 engine and totally exaggerated tyres.

Lucky, there was a ‘snake path’ by the side, which meandered from side to side around a bunch of boulders, that lead off down ravines on both sides. That was the ‘easier’ option.

Long story short… our car got stuck half way up, because we didn’t have the revving power of the landcruiser we were following. Yet again, we found ourselves tilted close to a bunch of rocks, seemingly unable to move forward or backwards.

(I’m still clapping furiously….)

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The angels ahead of us stop, and one of them walks back down the hill.

Can I try and drive it up? He asked my husband.

We were only too pleased for him to try, because at that point, we were basically cacking ourselves.

It just doesn’t have the koach to continue up the path, my husband told the guy.

Join the club, I thought.

Somehow, tho, that guy revved the engine through the roof, managed to get it past the small rock that had been holding the car back, and swung it around so that he didn’t go over the side of the ravine, and continued straight up the path.

An open miracle!

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(I’m still clapping….)

We walk up, get back in, and they reassure us that the worst is over.

I’ll believe that when I’m back on Route 40, I whispered to my husband. Let’s never do this again.

Half an hour later, the same thing happens again.

Another very steep incline – but not as drawn out – and again, our small-engined jeep is struggling to find the koach to continue.

Again, the angels ahead stop, again the guy walks back to us, again, he revvs the car through the roof, and somehow manages to get it up the hill.

(I’m still clapping….)

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They turn right on a path clearly marked with a big skull and crossroads, because it goes straight through an army firing zone.

I really hope these guys checked beforehand, that this is an ‘off’ day for the army….

I’m still clapping.

Then we go past a Bedouin encampment, and the road finally starts to resemble more of what we’d got used to, as a regular 4×4 track in Israel.

Route 40 – tarmac!!! – suddenly looms into site, and the angels stop again, to tell us which direction to take, to get back to Jerusalem.

We were miles and miles away from Mitzpe Ramon.

I still can’t understand how we managed to get so totally lost.

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Nothing happens for nothing, and I learnt a lot of important things from this whole episode.

The first thing I learnt is that the deep South of Israel is still very undeveloped, and that ‘off-roading’ there is way more dangerous, partially because of the terrain, but mostly because the paths and tracks just aren’t properly marked, so it’s very easy to take the wrong turns without realising it.

But the main lessons I learnt yesterday, were 100% spiritual, and here’s a rough outline of what I got.

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  1. If you don’t have an accurate description of the terrain, then even if you are ‘following your roadmap’ to a tee, it can still lead you off the edge of a cliff.

The only accurate ‘road map’ is the Torah, which is God’s ‘user manual’ for how to find our way through this labyrinth called ‘life’ in one piece, and to actually get to where we’re headed.

Connected to this, is the idea that you also need ‘guides’ you can really trust, and who are willing to put themselves out for you, in order to help you reach your destination in one piece.

That is the TRUE tzaddikim.

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2. Even when you think you know things, and you’re ‘prepared’ and experienced, God can and will throw you curve-balls where you’ll end up feeling totally lost.

When that happens, don’t start blaming yourself, or your spouse, or your kid, or your friend. No-one makes ‘bad decisions’ on purpose, not even retards. It’s just sometimes, Hashem blinds us to certain things, or kind of ‘fools us’ in to thinking that certain stupid ideas are good and useful.

Hashem is orchestrating everything that happens to us, to a) pay down old spiritual debts (aka ‘tikkun’) and b) get us to develop our emuna, and to pray, and to work on our negative character traits.

And that’s why we sometimes make really bad decisions, or take wrong turns in life.

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3. Clapping away the judgements REALLY, THE HECK WORKS.

We met the three angels 10 minutes after I started clapping, and we met no-one else – at all, the whole time – until we were by the Bedouin village.

Without those three angels, we would probably still be driving around the crater… or worse.

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4. Don’t give up half way.

That was really the main message that came through again, and again and again, yesterday.

It’s true, I really wanted to give up about 3,000 times yesterday.

Hanging off cliffs in the middle of no-where is not really fun. And we were feeling pretty paralysed and ‘stuck’ and scared at various points in our drive.

But if we hadn’t continued inching forward, cautiously, we really would have been in trouble.

So, don’t give up ESPECIALLY when you hit the tough spot. That’s when the prayers and the clapping need to go up, massively – but don’t give up.

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5. We can’t do this by ourselves.

So many people say to me they don’t need a rabbi, they don’t need a spiritual guide.

They have the right roadmap – the Torah.

They have the right ‘vehicle’ – a good brain, good middot, a good spiritual grasp of life.

But the truth is, in our lowly generation – we still can’t do this by ourselves.

The vehicle is good, but it’s simply lacking the strength to drive up some of the mountains we now have before us.

Sometimes, we have to get out of the driving seat – aka ‘throw our brains aside’ – and just let Rabbenu, Rebbe Nachman get that jeep up the hill, or tell us to turn ‘right’ into an army firing zone….

Otherwise, we end up stuck, despairing – or worse.

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6. Appreciate everything.

The last thing I learnt, is how I should mamash appreciate every small, little thing, that God is doing for me.

For example, I spent two hours yesterday really appreciating tarmac.

Now when I drive up hills on the motorway, I’m seeing that whole experience through totally different eyes.

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Am Yisrael is currently still on the ride of our life.

We are still driving through the desert, and up and down cliffs, on our way to geula and moshiach.

There are so many dangers, on all sides.

And there is no ‘safe, easy’ way out of the predicament we are already in.

The parallel is obvious.

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I came back to a couple of messages from my contacts by Rav Berland.

  1. Is that the situation is seriously hotting up again (even though it looks to us like everything is ‘calming down’ at the moment, because it’s the olam hafuch.)

2. Is that the Rav is trying to sweeten things by taking on more bizayon – hello, Channel 13 expose number 258!

3. The Rav is asking people to start saying 7 Tikkun Haklalis a day, until Tu B’Av.

Personally, I don’t know if I can manage 7 a day, but I can certainly manage 3, so that is what I’m aiming for now, BH.

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I know, this has been a long, arduous and exhausting few years.

And it’s not over yet!

So take a breather if you need, but don’t give up in the middle.

The end is looming into sight.

And there’s just a few more Everests to climb until we get there.

Only with God’s help, and by following the advice of the true tzaddikim.

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